irreparable!

i want my moddafockken' gentleman prince/knight/dream guy!

fuck. i already know who but is just highly impossible.

:(

because i thought i have one!

where are you?

sigh.

fuck.

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Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving!

Here we are again, at this time of the year. 28 more days to Christmas; the day we commemorate the birth of Jesus.
And though the real date’s indefinite, I guess we humans have this habit of picking a date to specifically observe the spiritual past. And I guess no one can ever find out when this and that happened like 2000++ years ago. Who knows, it may not really just be 2000 years ago… well I guess we’ll only know when this borrowed life expires.
Hmmm, how time flies huh? Time’s got its special wings that can fly fast inconspicuously… ouh well, Mother Nature’s work-life…
Well, here’s what I posted for.
It’s time!

I…
Would like to thank this year for being somewhat a good year; although towards the end, it got pretty quake-y.

the years of my life to be thankful for [more things to be thankful for but i'm mostly thankful for the recent happenings.]

thank you for the graces that you give every moment of our lives.

thank you for delivering me to this world.

thank you for giving me lovely parents.

thank you for giving me a loving brother.

thank you for the lessons i've learned...and will continuously learn

thank you for the people i meet.

thank you for the enemies that met me [if there are haters].

thank you for letting me get through asperity.

thank you for giving mom and dad the courage and strength to stay strong when Mom is still hangin' on at her workplace and when Dad decided to leave the very well-known company he worked for [just to stay out of the self-centered people who didn't care about health and just wanted the job done - even to the point of ruining people's reputation just for promotion =.=" ]

thank you for dad's their our everybody's faith in Dad's finding a new job.

thank you for Dad's new job.

thank you for Dad's continuous faith in finding another job when the company he got in had to release many people due to the bad economy.

thank you so much for the current job you gave Dad. ;)

thank you for Dad's constant uber sweetness to his queen, prince and princess; serving us the way he always has; cookin', house chores, and everything else despite being jobless. ;) He never once showed us his weakness and despondency.

thank you for my parents' misunderstanding and narrow-mindedness because in spite of the anger they have over our doings, they continue to give us the things we want and need and serve us - especially.

thank you for our good health.
thank you for the work you gave me to teach me to be more independent.
thank you for the stupidities i've done along with the lessons learned from them.
thank you for continuously being patient with us.
thank you for always being there for me, and for us all.

2nd...

happy second monthsary.

and yes, it is a happy one - literally! [gratifying day]
unlike the first. [you work, i rotted at home =.= just cuz it's on a sunday]
but yeah. HAPPY!!! yey!!! *jumps up, down, left, right [okaye, i doubt we can jump horizontally. tssssh...]*

today won't be possible if it hadn't been for BANANA!
thank you banana! teehee!

and thank you kelo for ditching school! [tahha. sounds wrong, but ouh well!]
i know the time is always never enough. but...i'm contented with the time given to us. ;]

the sudden solitude

I’m feeling lonely. d:-(
Kelo's occupied with his project.
Kiki’s probably at work.
Thiru’s in camp.
Lee’s in camp.
Ghen’s at work.
Elb’s studying for exam.
The rest, I don’t really know.

Freakin’ msn messenger would sign in, then hangs.
My notebook’s laggin’ - sucks.
I’m sleepy.
I don’t want to do project. But I’ve to come up with at least a ‘something’. – shtooped fwuck.
My tummy’s not getting any smaller.
I’m gettin’ fat.
My panda eyes aren’t gettin’ any lighter.
Freakin’ inflation! Mom said prices are really skyrocketing for a smaller piece of something than before. – absurd!
Saturday’s the only free day I got. – dammet!

I don’t know what’s gonna happen on the 26th; I really hope I’ll be positively surprised - amorously.

divergent conclusion

hmmm, here's a lil somethin' somethin' to lighten up our dark sulkiness. ;)
enjoy this guys.
i know many may be damn sick to death hearing this song...but no one can deny that it is a freakin' darn good buoyant song...
this particular cover is awesome and worth watching...THEN listening[without watchin' the vid] to.

"mapride k nmn maxado"
- michael
13/11/08,20:58:10

you're being ripe

it's not his fault. that was a freakin' upright-unintentional blunder! stop being an ass and putting impute on him. geeez!!!

gurl, believe me, he doesn't lie. he's been nothing but a friend; don't just turn your back on him for something he did not mean to do. had he known, nothing terrible would've happened. sigh.

cogitation

[date of post ↑ just published late =x]


hmmm, here are the days of reflection again...

i just had a look back over the past months and years of memories through photos today...
and i realize that i've met a whole lot of people that just like the angsana seeds; they have gone with the wind...we all have walked in different paths.
and no matter how diminutive this place may be, i have never bumped into of any of them in years; especially the ones i used to be very close with.
well, i HAVE only caught sight of them - from afar; like pie, neo wei, ros, glenn, ping sian, vanan and yee won.
and i think it's rather disheartening that - to think, you used to be ouh-so-damn-freakin'-close and always thought that it was impossible for us to not meet for this long yet look at us all now...

i wonder how everyone is doing...

Lasallians...the art days, the basketball tournaments, the sports days i looked forward to, the devotions every friday, the special events, the goodies for children =]
YFC days...the fellowships and gatherings. =] (misses ate jovi and co.)

CDians...the swimmings, the boyfriends, the talent shows, the 'like, ohhh-my-gosh' and 'oer-moi-goddd' days with feeda and co. and the breakdancing days with Hazwan and co.
drama society...the workshops, the camps, the stage days, the props, the auditions, the scripts, the bloopers, the audience.
5/1 fam...the class pranks on our teachers[they love us]; locking the doors on them to stall the tests and sleeping, the passing of thumbdrives; the "jap, jap" communications, the sitting together on anything we do[even pee-ing together], the canteen table no one dared sit on, the annoying and making fun of our juniors after break, the getting caught for latecoming and untidy hair and tucked out uniform, the outings, the sports day 'class champion' cheers, their endurance of waiting for me at the bus stop and unintentionally dragging them into detention too =x [just to make sure i'm early/on time], the tiffs among cliques, the being driven around anywhere by lee to chill, and the buggings of my bugger; buying me burger and coffee every morning =]

ouh, and the everyday-ice-cream days, heehee

*i know i always reiterate my posts, but ain't that how our memory work? we ruminate fortuitously...so i'm just narrating my thoughts.
anyway, i bet my lovely 5/1 misses these and probably writes/have written the same things time and again.*

darn! good ol fun young days...

then comes the ITE life...the frenz and classmates and IC fam, the dance practices, the lounging at foyer; singing on top of our voices and watching schoolmates walk by and eyeing on hawtt lads[though there aren't many or any?!]...

wonderful memories...but almost all is gone and only the photos help reinstate the moments i had with them.
should i not be lazy, i will post some photos...

since after exams, i haven't chilled with any of them...
everytime i look at the photos, i remember i still had a rather fun life.
and now it's just work, home and toooot. {=,=]"
and i certainly have missed you guys so much i'm gettin' fucked up with my life again.
i really missed those days.

but i know that one day, when i look back, i will definitely miss this IAP at Creative.
and come to think of it, we people never take value of the present until we are at the future and reminiscing our past! hmph! yes, i am referring to myself too. =/

crap! i'm tagged...

tagged by: hairee

The rules and regulations:

1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog oftheir own 10 weird things/habits/little knownfacts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back !


1.I relate almost everything to sex. [hahahaha, that's what they say]
2.I am smart in some ways; just not academically ;p
3.I spend my money on FOOD most of the freakin' time...
4.I love DICKIES brand. [been waiting for years and it's finally come to singapore! although the stuff is all limited =.="]
5.I am a mix of: filipino, chinese, malay/indian, spanish blood.
6.I hate assholes! and bitches!
7.I am an ass and I do bitch myself.
8.I am darker than you think
9.I am also whiter than you think
10.I'm joanne.

ouhkaye! done! ;p

YOU have been tagged.
1.kiki
2.michael
3.tasha
4.emmanuel
5.sheema
6.fadilah
7.nodick
8.leilei
9.feeda
10.ros

squabs

happy 4th month of knowing you...
the special days that means alot, we never get to celebrate...
nor meet...
tsss...


hmm, disappointment. utter disappointment.
and the special days that means alot...we have to have a squabble.
always happens. how fun.

and ouh look, we're okaye again....
=.= real corny sometimes.