my first home

I was very home-sick last week and started missing everyone back ‘ome and my 5/1 family as well. I went back home[phil] thinking..I’m matured enough for my age..but my cuzins told me that I was like a kid..my godpa told his wife jokingly “how old's Joanne already but she acts like Nika” [their daughter,who‘s only 10]…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…

See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.

Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!

But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!

Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…