goodbye

i'm done waiting, my wait is over and i duwanna wait no more.

anyways, that aside...mom and dad just left home to airport..i'm not gonna miss them [ahakz]..i already do.oh well..it's just for a week, so i don't think ima miz em..

anyways i'm only given $50 allowance for the week *grin* how am i gonna get the hell out?! sunday to sunday...$50 includes groceries liao leh! i asked dad for $20 extra for my week's stockka chocolates but mom told me to return it cuz they didn't withdraw $$$ for their cab so they gonna use that..gawshh..how vadd..mom's vad..hummph! i shouldn't have told her that dad gamme the monney..[BIG MOUTH]..she said that if she gave me more, she knows i'll just finish it within a day or two..sooooo $50...*sigh*, looks like i'ma go beg begging people to treat me..*lmfaol* sooo people! prepare ur pockets..fill em with monneyy..beggar's cuminna beg..

achy feet

went shopping with momsy at Tangs..mom's bag and clothes, and presents for evibody. Oh..and luggage at Lucky Plaza...i didn't take my breakfast and lunch as usual so i gt irritated easily..cuz mom's always being in two minds about choosing things..can never make up her mind..ask me for opinion but then duwann..after 10mins, she'd agree with me..haizzz...and and and..i got very dizzy pulling the stupid luggage everywhere she went..

but...nevertheless i love hangin out with her...so cute..so chubby..walk like penguin...and then always make the funny face cuz i looked so gloomy oready waiting for her to make up her mind. owhelzz..mommies...

you're leavin tamorrow night, tita katrina will be here by then and i have yet to clear up my messy room..been 2 weeks..and i just don't feel good havin someone to look after me..i can't do things i wanna do freely. today will be the last day of my freedom cuz after you guys come back next week, cuzin rizzie will be here and i gotta share the room with her otherwise, she'll stay at kuya's room..then if she gets a job..i'll be staying with her here forever and ever...amen...then no more freeeeeedooom freeeedoom...haizzzzzzz.....ahakz...am i selfish or what...and then i gotta behave..cuz i whine alot..and daddy babies me alot..i wonder if that will change..lol..ok la...complain complain....

gaaaawd...my achy feeeet!!!!

hate not

I hate mysiielf!!!! You know huwaaay?![expression eyebrow raised] I told myself that I won’t be late yesterday..and I made sure I won’t be late..but sadly *sobsob* I was…for an hour..do you know?![expression eyebrow raised] I woke up at 740hours to have my bath and I finished only at 1200hours getting ready?! *shakes head in disappointment* [tsktsktsk]. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore!

After I reached home, I so “excited” I took out the envelope the ITE gave us..and I read every single page and words; then I saw the [specifically] third sheet, number 2 of the ITE College West Rules & Regulations for Students,
“Attendance and Punctuality” - Students are to attend lessons punctually and regularly
- Latecomers for lessons will be REQUIRED to do “CAMPUS SERVICES” on the SAME day.
- The Student Identity Card, which is the ez-link card, will be temporary RETAINED by the staff and returned upon COMPLETION of “CAMPUS SERVICES” on the SAME day.
- [this one not important]

Very scary leh! High school only got detention! Here CAMPUS SERVICES sia..I NO like *shakes head non stop* I just hope that I’ll change lahh… you know!?[expression eyebrow raised] ..when it was 1045h [the time I was supposed to leave my home] and I smsed shorty-style to tell her postpone the timing to 1145..I already was disappointed.. And I felt like I deserved a good bashing up from all the people I have always kept waiting..yes..to YOU people..but you guys were kind enough not to scold me/gimme the bloody-angry-not-happy-wanna-kill-you-uh-Joanne!!!! look or LECTURE me from my late coming..[cuz u know I won’t listen also…keke] I just wanna take this opportunity to say a very small THANK YOU to you people who’ve always been that patient and always tahaning my stewpig late coming behavior and whatsoever attitude/behavior you don’t like about moi..I’m so very SORRY[not] for keeping you waiting..and I hope I’ll change already because I scared laaaa wanto kena buat ape campus-crap-services tu..tak suke tau…

So if there’s anything you dislike about me..[as in seriously] just tell me okaye?! No guarantees that I’ll change la but I’ll think about it..[lol] cheer-eeeeee-yoes people..I just LOVE you.

oh my fish! experience

i went to help mom buy onion leaves and fish; it took me an hour to buy these two cuz i had trouble lookin for onion leaves cuz im not familiar with how it looks like, as for the fish i had to ask the lady help me choose the freshest fish cuz i really dunno how to..and she opened this part of the fish to check..[a big ewww]. k, then mom told me to wash the fish and cut the fins..i had to wash the part the lady opened [yuck]..i couldnt bare that long cuz i was afraid the fish will bite me...[eyeroll]..i noe..it's lame but i'm just not used to it..my very first time holding and washing a fish...just hate touching or looking at raw foods like fishes..oh but i LOVE eating them...i only know how to eat...ahakz..but it's been a good experience...lol...[shallow shallow]...

Happy Birthday

happy birthday to my late uncle and godpa, Emmanuel. Rest well tito manny!

bloody...

BIG SIGH!!!...i juz cleared the bloody mess in my bloody room just last bloody week and it's bloody back again..*sigh*..i'm currently preoccupied with my self-project, called Project JRM..i've got only a few bloody weeks to school and i've to complete Project JRM by then. [i'll reveal the project only when i have completed it!] and i hope i will..knowing myself being the bloody "lazy-" and "procrastinator"-chick. okok! u gotta give me some encouragement! i duwanna let mom and dad and myself down..i wanna let us up! duwan down!duwan! DUWaan! DUWAAAAN!!!! *being hysterical* i just love you...Joanne! 8-

4months ago

an island of clouds image by joanne

it's been exactly 4 months since i took this picture 25/11/06. and i arrived at this time too, 1230h. i captured many images of the clouds while i was up there and when i reviewed them, i noticed how happy they all are,

floating in the sky
all day and night;
for seconds and minutes,
and hours and days,
for weeks and months,
and years and decades,
for centuries and...
forever...

well, im not talkin about that same particular cloud..but..

the clouds that
towers the land and the sea,
the clouds that
overcloud the sky,
the sun
and the mountains.

oh, what a nice feeling they should all be getting..and they never get dark being exposed to the sun all the time, even when they shower upon us like blessings, they're still white..lol...hmm, and think about it, they get to travel around the world too. what a nice feeling. i remembered how i've always wanted to be like the angels floating and playing on the clouds, lying on the clouds, eating the clouds [cotton candy/candy floss] oh what a FEAST! i'd wanna be one of them too...

dream dream dream

aight, i had fun last night..but i had trouble waking up..stupid fun!



had a weird-nice dream though. the setting was at lamot II, calauan, laguna. [gramm's place]. the house was funny..t'was mixed with gramms hauz, cdss school and house...

there's a part of the weird house with gramm's part of her house, and there, was gramms, gramps[who's long way dead already] and tita beth. they were treating gramps cuz he was sick, he was acting like a kid and i was helping them treat him by scraping a paper?! to remove like the whatever thingy that's keeping gramps sick.. geee..


then i went out and it was at gramms frontyard which was supposedly to be the backyard. and there, our 5/1 guys came out and were playing soccer or basketball..the nice part was they were all muscular..though i only recognised neo wei and shahir..lol..i played with them for awhile..


then i ran into the back and i entered Big Brother's house..and there i saw the PBB season1 housemates but i only recognised cassandra and franzen..geee..then i forgot the rest liao! spoiler..kla, bubye!

brit's havin a breakdown!

Britney's Having A Breakdown! Episode 1



britney..my idol when she first came out. she threw away her beautiful image..i still love her though! wakaka..

syafie

syafie

i miss this guy. i miss the stupidity he did. i miss his innocence in some things. i remembered him using fork and knife to eat the cake, i remembered him asked what BJ meant [baby J la!]. i remembered him asking for advices about a girl.

you deserve whereever you may be right now. you deserve success in life because you have a great determination. you may be hating some of us, or me. you may have forgotten us, or me. but i still respect you as a person. i miss you..my friend...and i sincerely hope you've moved on.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my late grappa, Benito. i love you lolo. march 21st [i'm actually smelling cigarette smell in my room and mom's not smellin anything, no smell in the corridor either...Hi lolo! ur in my room! ur visitin me..i'm not scared..i love u!]

i'm getting a lil nervously-excited about some things i don't even know exactly what and why. maybe it's my new school, maybe it's my new cousin-housemate, maybe the new things to learn, maybe my saying goodbye to my everyday life of entertainment, maybe saying goodbye to my slacking attitude?! lol..im still slacking so minus that out..

im always havin a hard time sleeping every night. even when im so effin sleepy already i still can't sleep. i'm always thinkin of things even if i duwanna..haiz..im insomniac alredi..gaahhh...

anyway, i miss everyone that's been parta my life. [one of the things i think about that's why i can't sleep! stuupid distractors!] ahakz..

i just miss you people. here i am putting on weight everyday, hoping to be as fat as siti fairuz..or even fatter[whoops]..love it..

bye kuya!

Yesterday was tiring, another dinner party..like evri two weeks..dad got a lil tipsy

Anyway, bye bye! kuya's left for taiwan already for training for a month..yey! confirm he wun bring me back with a thing! eu stewpig mustard! but i know he will...he better! U better!

And tew bad, ima be left here with a babysitter..teenysitter..oh well, wuteverr..and after mom and dad comes back from the Holy Week trip, ima be buzy yow! i'll be working as a tour guide prolly FOC...cousin Ritchell, Meg, Fons, aunt Teresa and unc Art..phew...

PS: sorry Gid i cant go, cuz mah momma asked me to go immigration with her. turned out im an illegal alien and i'll be deported back to Jupiter! ok..ur lame..no.not me,..YOU! yeah you..as for wed, i MIGHT go

welcome home baby TAZ

image by joanne '

[a new housemate/playmate/family [many went missing, so they aren't in the picture]

I’d like to welcome my BABY TAZ! He has finally come home..after I’ve no idea when.
I got him only today, but he was officially "born" on 18 Jan 2007 at between 1300-1330h.
what a big baby for a 2month old Baby Taz.

He is a gift from my dear friend, Thiruchelvam s/o "something" [sorry i forgot]. Actually, being me, I FORCED my friends to buy this for me. So far Thiru was the one who did; supposedly on the Prom night but nevermoind. I'm still getting one from my someone. haha..i'm such a greedy bitch..oh well, I guess i'm too pampered by my family and friends. my gawsh.

poly

Okaye! So yesterday accompanied mom to see a doc after receiving her test results. Didn’t have much time to get ready cuz she was fast.. [Ewww I felt like I wasn’t clean!] Well of course I took a bath but after that I didn’t have time to do my rituals! [No! not pass motion..but rituals as in dressing up! My gawsh..]

We reached the polyclinic and was gonna take a number when the receptionist told us that they’ve temporarily closed the thingy cuz of the overwhelming patients who was seeing a doc. [Too many sick people la!] She told us to come back at 1315h but mom thought it would be long if we did so went to KFC to take our breakfast. She said she duwanna eat fattening foods but she ordered a burger meal [like hello?! Mom?] and I was craving for plain fries so I ordered that. [well I wanted salad as well but mom said duwan!] but when we started eating, she asked me to buy the salad [maaaawwwm!] I told her that she should be eating salads instead of burger but she said it wasn’t enuff for her.[eye roll] She was on the phone with her nurse friend, Christine and told mom to go back see a doc cuz her results were bad. [Of course I gave the face la! Must go back..wahlau..]

Ok so we were back, took a number, sat and waited. After an hour she got called. [I was patient to wait..infairness..knowing that I‘m an impatient bitch] Then another number to wait for. [I thought it’d be better than last time..like half an hour at least.] Then an hour passed..[and I was like, ok never mind we‘ll be called soon]. Then 10 mins passed I was already impatient. Half an hour later, verry impatient. I was lookin around for the others who were waiting, and everytime a number was called, the patients going in were shaking their heads while others frowned [I was onna them]. Chicken..2hours ready still dun have sia. The others were already knockin the door, going in and askin’ the docs when they’d be called then they’d go back to their seat. 2h30fuckingminutes later, mom’s name was called to let er know that she’d be seeing another doc [stuuupid]! okaye then she was called [finally!] doc tol’ er..ahh never mind! Five mins later, we were waiting for mom’s medcines and we were off for groceries.

Gawsshhh! Waited 3h30mins just to see a doc for 5 mins! wadafuck! K then while mom was at the NTUC, I was buying shushis and fishballs for me! [It’s a treat I deserve!] t’was raining so took a cab home. Mom was worried cuz the fishes haven’t eaten. After that I washed the stuuupit dishes I left last night..[yess, last night! Tired like what siaaa…] I then took the clothes I shopped for last week, 2weeks ago and 3weeks ago to wash..it’s been stashed under my bed for weeks. [*shakes head* some things just dun change..procrastinator]..oh and my luggage..still have things there..still on the floor waiting for me to clear them..my table too..messy as ever..clothes everywhere in my room..

I just love being messy..but I’m a CLEAN person nevertheless…just a MESSY person that’s all..big diff okaye!

anniv

happy 23rd anniversary!

you duwanna show me ur date pics..nahh..i show this!

why aren't you smilin Dadoodz?!

one of the "father-daughter bonding day".. ouh dad..ur so fat! u see..mom followed ur footsteps! and now it's my turn! gosh!

dance!

i feel happy! so i dance to this number!
"sige, i-kembot..."

ite

Hi people! I got my first choice; Information Technology at ITE Dover. Congrats to me! Thank you…
Ouh and Sab, see you in school/class…haha..haiyer! U aGaiiin! Well, at least I’ll have a companion…

You know uh! Actually uh..I haven’t received the stupit email leh! Sab smsed me then I ganchiong [correct anot uh?] go online then check my email…dunnav siaaaa…And then hor..I go check under JAE site to check results..waaaahh…have leehhhh..budden hor..how come email no have yet? Haiyuh..so lousy…

Okaye…wutevuurr… Anyways, congrats to the people who’ve received their results and got their first choice. And TOOOOOO bad for the rest who got dumped at courses they don’t really like..haha..Take it as a challenge guys! Show ‘em that even if you didn’t go where you wanted to, you’ll succeed in the future. But it all depends on how you handle your attitude towards your goal. All of us have goals but even if we go to the longer path unlike the others, in the end what matters is you will do all you can to make it to the end. You all don’t play play anymore uh! Don’t sleep in class uh! Don’t become minah/mat/ahbeng/ahlian… what’s gangster in tamil uh?!

5/1, I hope we are still a family no matter where we go. I know for now we all love 5/1 but in the future you’ll have more families just don’t forget 5/1 ok? Don’t be snobbish uh!

Kk…godai….

vored!

Borinnng! My day was so the effing dull I was just waiting for it to end! Bren came and watched a Leo’s movie. Didn’t watched it with them cuz I was really just not in the mood. I’m so evil already I haven’t been attending mass again for two/three consecutive weeks..and it’s Lenten season. Haiyuh! Why am I like this uh! That’s what holidays do to you! But if I wasn’t here I would be always out partying! It’s just sooo boring here..Gosh..take me home mann…everybody’s so busy and I’ve really got nothing much to do unlike when I just came back. Now everything’s just sooo..I don’t know! I just hate the feeling

tour me

I was late yesterday..as usual..initially planned to meet my tour guides at 1130 at jurong east interchange[wee I rid the LRT and MRT!], budden the tourist[me] asked for 1300. And then extended to 1330 budden I think I came at around 1430. Gosh..this kind of person how to go out with uh! But luckily they were patient enough to know me…stuuupit! On the way, my tour guides still hadn’t decided on where to take me until she said vivocity. Then I was like, “ok”… cuz I really dunno the place..[riiight]

[before]
The night before, I told myself, no…I won’t be late! So I alarmed my phone to 7am. Woke up, did the things I had to do..I JUUUUUST dunno why I still came late! Tsk..I’m really doing my best to be punctual but it just doesn’t cooperate with my whatever…

Anyways..okaye..long story short, I had fun with you guys. Only thing was thiru’s sis was such a spoiler…lol…and yeah..ros and I stood at the CCK station for 1+hour just to chat. We were at the same spot. Faziana went to eat at lot1 and when she was going home, she found us still at the same spot…okaye whatever!

Mmm…today, I’m officially a month old in Singapore. I hired another tour guide, dadoodz. He brought me to this place called downtown east for chalet but I didn’t stay with them cuz they were guys…drink2...den.. eeeewwww I just don’t like dadoodz when he’s drunk…I was in the room while they were preparing the BBQ..[ouh, and we came late as usual]. I played xbox while eating. Then dad called me to join them. I was engrossed with the game and he kept callin so I got irritated and got out until only after I’ve shut the door did I remember to take the stuuupit card! I went down and told em.. Mah fun sia me… make people do work! They went to call the staff to open the door. [this is what happens when ur really forgetful] but I didn’t care la. Once people do something about your problem you tend to not care anymore cuz it’s being solved for you..haha..nooo actually it’s just my attitude of being a “heck-care” person. Then kuya and bren came then blahblahblah…..

I’m too lazy to tell my day…but whatever..

getting to knoooow euuuu

I’m going out to unwind after being stuck at home for days thinking about so many random things. Like sex, sex and..sex. Ouh it was great..

Okaye that was eeewy..STOPPIT Joanne! I’m gonna go get to know sunny-cloudy island Singapore! I’ve been here for almost a month now. Exactly a month tomorrow! It’s nice, it’s fulla buildings, it’s clean, it’s no more green, it’s boring! You see the same old things wherever you go! Hahaha..no, I love Singapore. I grew up here more than in the phils. I remember telling a friend that I was going back home and she said “what home? This is your home”. it’s funny how people are different. There are racists who’ll make fun of your country while there are people who love you wherever you come from. It’s just really nice to have friends treat you like a local though they know you aren’t. thank you friend.. U suck la.. I love you.

Okaye, the sun’s out! Finally that stoopit cloud’s gotten outta the sun’s way! I’mma go tour sunny sunny island Singapore!

But I still sleepy lah! Okaye okaye I don’t wanna be late anymore..haiz..but I think I’ll be..just like glenn glenn said “some things just don’t change”…Shutttup glenn!

Bye fockers!

mommy

I love you MOMMY!!!

To the peepz joining me and Brigid..we can't change the date..[well,for me can la]..but Gid can't cuz she's only free on weekends. So we thought of meeting up. Since we didn't make it on Tues, I thought why not meet u guys on this day, Sat'day. I'm having BBQ chalet and I gotta meet Dad at 3pm..I dunno if I can extend the time though. So I thought of havin lunch with Gid but I dunno what time to meet up cuz I got limited time..so decide the time okaye then let me know...