okaye, so maybe i sounded kinda tainted in my previous post. but errr, im prolly not gonna take it back; i still stand by my opinion on arroyo. and about trillanes, well, maybe he didnt plan his plan well so, too bad.
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so anyhooos. im kinda dismayed by a coupla peoples behaviour towards things i shouldnt have[but did anyway] shared some small things with; like how i could make their day a lil better than their all-that day. like how much i wanted to share my little cackle moments with them, hoping theyd somehow appreciate it. but emmm, the feedback felt like a slap in the face when they sort of criticized it. well, my initial reaction? "what the fuck did you just say?!". ergo, i attempted to explain, maybe theyd say something better, but sigh, they just continued to just scoff at it. the thing is, they were very offensively, uncouthly boorish! i dont know, maybe im just being a lil petty about things; but really. its soooo... it may be a small thing to you, for me to be acting frenetic, but errr, what im trying to point out here is the a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-i-o-n. and maybe im joking too much with you that it seems hard for you to sense when i am serious; even if im telling you i dont wanna talk to you or im angry with you or all that jazz. like seriously, fuck off. people have their own art, you love art dont you? you make music. you yourself act. yet you cannot see or even appreciate the artist's work. you quickly pass judgement. then again, ouh well, pigheaded people.
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last tuesday, on the way to school, in the mrt i boarded, there seated an odd lookin, thin chinese man in his 40s. he sported a shoulder-length uncombed hair, crumpled house clothes; sort-of like boxer shorts and white long sleeve shirt, had rough skin, and [i didnt really observe his footgear]. he was seated on the third seat from the left. thing is, the second and fourth wasnt occupied. because... he had long scars on his legs and arms. scars of stitches? his face, seemed a lil gloomy yet kinda scary, though hes not givin the scary looks, kinda like harmfully-harmless? errr...yah. so, he was seated with arms kinda like trying to hide behind him. the thing is, its a lil sad that just because he looked like that, people dont already wanna sit beside him. i was a lil distant from where he was, and i only noticed him when i was alredy seated so dont say "then why didnt you sit beside him?!"
so heres my speculations; maybe he used to be a gangster in the past? or maybe he was a victim? maybe he was a gambler? scarred by the loan sharks who attempted to kill him? he did kinda look scary but he had no weapons...goodness gravy. but then again, us people living in such places really arent used to seeing such people who has such kinda strange "tatoos" on their skin. but also, try to be more open-minded? that not all people here are as of our kind? some may look weird or scary and all yet are harmless? hmmm. isnt it that those civilized looking people are the ones who do more damage than those who !only! look like they can harm others? sigh. really cant blame some people for being narrow-minded and not everyone is as broad-minded as some people.
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dont blame me if i decide not to turn up because ive realised youve incesed me so many times this year alone. and you havent apologized for any single offense. and truly, i dont know what to say anymore.
*zips mouth* G_G
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so anyhooos. im kinda dismayed by a coupla peoples behaviour towards things i shouldnt have[but did anyway] shared some small things with; like how i could make their day a lil better than their all-that day. like how much i wanted to share my little cackle moments with them, hoping theyd somehow appreciate it. but emmm, the feedback felt like a slap in the face when they sort of criticized it. well, my initial reaction? "what the fuck did you just say?!". ergo, i attempted to explain, maybe theyd say something better, but sigh, they just continued to just scoff at it. the thing is, they were very offensively, uncouthly boorish! i dont know, maybe im just being a lil petty about things; but really. its soooo... it may be a small thing to you, for me to be acting frenetic, but errr, what im trying to point out here is the a-p-p-r-e-c-i-a-t-i-o-n. and maybe im joking too much with you that it seems hard for you to sense when i am serious; even if im telling you i dont wanna talk to you or im angry with you or all that jazz. like seriously, fuck off. people have their own art, you love art dont you? you make music. you yourself act. yet you cannot see or even appreciate the artist's work. you quickly pass judgement. then again, ouh well, pigheaded people.
~~
last tuesday, on the way to school, in the mrt i boarded, there seated an odd lookin, thin chinese man in his 40s. he sported a shoulder-length uncombed hair, crumpled house clothes; sort-of like boxer shorts and white long sleeve shirt, had rough skin, and [i didnt really observe his footgear]. he was seated on the third seat from the left. thing is, the second and fourth wasnt occupied. because... he had long scars on his legs and arms. scars of stitches? his face, seemed a lil gloomy yet kinda scary, though hes not givin the scary looks, kinda like harmfully-harmless? errr...yah. so, he was seated with arms kinda like trying to hide behind him. the thing is, its a lil sad that just because he looked like that, people dont already wanna sit beside him. i was a lil distant from where he was, and i only noticed him when i was alredy seated so dont say "then why didnt you sit beside him?!"
so heres my speculations; maybe he used to be a gangster in the past? or maybe he was a victim? maybe he was a gambler? scarred by the loan sharks who attempted to kill him? he did kinda look scary but he had no weapons...goodness gravy. but then again, us people living in such places really arent used to seeing such people who has such kinda strange "tatoos" on their skin. but also, try to be more open-minded? that not all people here are as of our kind? some may look weird or scary and all yet are harmless? hmmm. isnt it that those civilized looking people are the ones who do more damage than those who !only! look like they can harm others? sigh. really cant blame some people for being narrow-minded and not everyone is as broad-minded as some people.
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dont blame me if i decide not to turn up because ive realised youve incesed me so many times this year alone. and you havent apologized for any single offense. and truly, i dont know what to say anymore.
*zips mouth* G_G
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