kiddie rollercoaster

i told you befo, how some things will remind you of someone...
well,
that scent was here again, after a year long.
the whiff that reminded me about the time my heart tingled with glee, broke down, healed, dealt with contentment and then happiness...to anger again.
it is something everyone would and wouldnt like to go through. but its definitely something i miss. not that i want to go through the same thing again though...

that scent i smelled when i woke up on monday just brought me back to where i was, how i was like a year ago. and how that scent gave me bloody mixed emotions i kinda hated yet liked...



i never forget, because i treasure...every thing, every one.
ive no more hatred, i just hurt still, when the memories [of it] visit my mind.
i dont hold grudges and i am even humble and wise enough to give in to people.
i wonder if any someone have this same thinking as i do.
i wonder if i am treasured by the ones who became part of my life...


ouh well, i do miss julian...
and it so happened that todays the date he entered my life...coincidence...
see, i never forget...because i treasure.
but dont fret, ive no plans/thoughts whatsoever for anything...