grad!

*ENROLLED*
I’ve gotten my schedule! It's messy so I had to do my own! Heehee!
Imma be schoolin’ at Canossa College, takin’ up Computer Science.
JUNE 8!

Hello guys.
How’re things goin’?
Here I am…driven to pen down my thoughts…[well, not literally pen down] at this time while everyone’s asleep. [they sleep early here by the way]

Anyway…I just read Sabby’s blog…along with ‘Breakeven’ song…[the rhythm’s somewhat inspiring]
And I came across the phrase ‘Graduation ceremony’ and….
WOW
Really. It just brought me back to the good ol’ days.

Well, just years ago, we were caught up thinkin’ about what to wear for our Secondary School’s Grad Night around this month or earlier? that we even lost focus for our Mid Year Exam and Prelims and even O’s…
Secondary School days really are just too memorable for me to forget…those were just the happiest, wackiest, craziest, most emotional days I had…I just miss every single person I knew [even those I wasn’t close at all with or hated to the max]…
Juniors, wannabes, geeks, fights, every corner of the school, strolling out of school to the bus stop under the hot bloody sun along the church and private houses.
Our table at the canteen…and around the school where we hang…
Lovely days.
We’ve grown so much…

And two years later, we’re done again from ITE…
Today’s the ITE Graduation that I unfortunately cannot be present for.
I will miss the little reunion with my classmates and schoolmates…
But I’m very happy we’ve all graduated…
Now we’re all busy with our own stuffs again. We will forever be busy. =.=
I still wonder how is everybody doin’…
Shoutout to all of yall. I miss you guys…terribly.

I miss the simple hangouts we had…I miss every hangouts we had.
I miss Esplanade, Vivo City, Long John Silver’s, TCC, the bus, everything uh…walao...even the Garbage truck to be honest…OMG. Yes. Even the Garbage truck…*shrugs* ouh well.

Anyway...yeah…we are all growing up more maturedly, laying out all of our goals and dreams and thoughts in life etc…
I wouldn’t be surprise what kinda topics we’d be havin’ for our 2016 Reunion…

We’re just so grown that sometimes it saddens me more than it pleases me.
You know the thought of working hard for your folks and make ‘em proud and at the same time fulfill your dreams of havin’ your own things…?
But pensively, as we reach for our goals and dreams, the pain that my parents’ feel physically brings me down. I just cannot bear the sight of my parents growing old and moving defenselessly…
Sigh.

Back to the Graduation Ceremony topic…
I’m happy for us all.
Guys!!! Share PHOTOS okaye?! I want PHOTOS of you guys!!!
:D

Why to My decision.

Yeah. Many people had been askin’ about…why PHILIPPINES?
- Want to study overseas can uh…but why PHILS…?
- The opportunity at SG is better than in the Phils…why go back?
- Of all countries, why Phils?

And somehow it pissed me off…it can be insulting, y’know.
But if you were in my situation…you’d have no other choices either.

Plan A: Poly
Plan B: Private Diploma
Plan C: Phils
Plan Z: Overseas

First of all, with my parents uber so strict, could you ever imagine them allowing us to study some place else without a relative to look after us?
So Plan Z is definitely out. =_=”
Secondly, my decision to go back; whether or not I progress to Poly, was already certain because completing my studies in SG [Diploma AND THEN Degree =,=] is just too long for me personally… and yes I admit, it’s my fault I’ve wasted too much of my precious time back in Sec school…so Plan A’s gone.
Plan B’s also unacceptable because the chances of getting a job with a Private Dip is low…and since my bro’s gone through it [taken Private Dip but didn’t finish], what makes you think my folks would let me take Private Dip?
So I’m left with Plan C.

But if I were to choose for myself; without my folks’ impediment…my plan would be to study somewhere else alone - without any relative watching over me…kinda like sovereignty…but that would be a cul-de-sac situation…perhaps only for now. And I think as a parent, I wouldn’t really allow my child to study somewhere without the supervision of someone I know or is close to the family…with freedom encompassing my child, I doubt he’ll finish his education…but I know that when I’ve graduated and have my own Degree, my folks would let me off…like y’know, work or study somewhere.

I have somewhat understood their plan for us. They won’t let us off until we’ve finish our education…like with at least a Degree-kinda-education.

Y’know I had to consider so many things while planning and making a decision…and besides family…in comes BF, friends and things and places you love that you’ll havta leave temporarily
But since this is for my future and my family, I had to strike the rest out…family always comes in 2nd to God…and so I had to consider…that if I wanna finish this sheyt fast, I gotta go to a place my parents wouldn’t say no to; the Phils.
But frankly, even they, were against my suggestion of finishing my studies here in the Phils initially. but after a deep reflection of all the ‘foolishness’ we had done there [time wastage]…Dad had to finally coincide.

Yea, I know…everybody else even my relatives here were stupefied when silence were broken unto them. But hey…like I said, I’ve taken things into an uber deep consideration and the only possible thing that can happen is be here.

Regret? I wouldn’t really say that. More of despondency because I have to sacrifice so many people, so many things; basically my life in SG just to pick my ass up and go to the right direction without anymore distractions.

Honestly, I still don’t know how everything will be like cuz school hasn’t started. But the month-plus that I’ve been here has served and still is serving as the icebreaker to me of people’s lifestyle here. I don’t know what lies ahead [school-wise]…will I have friends? Will they help me? Will I do well this time? Will I go crazy with the kinda study here…yea. Those kinda things.
Hmmm…gimmick-wise, shouldn’t be a problem because:
1] I only want to have a home-school-home life here during school periods and only go out with relatives when there’s no school.
2] I’m planning to save my allowance for my parents’ gift next year! Meaning: instead of eating out during breaks, I’ll have food from home ‘da bao?’
3] This is a province, so I don’t really have any places to go and commuting here freaks me out.
4] I’m thrifty! I’d always think twice about spending even a cent on something; especially now that I’m saving up for my folks’ gift.


Lastly, “why didn’t tell me earlier?”
I only made the decision 3weeks before I left…why didn’t I say it earlier? Cuz I wanted to have a meet-up not for my sake of me leaving but for the sake of everyone missing one another. We have been planning for ouh-so-long about a gathering…everyone would agree at first and then kept saying ‘NO TIME’ in the end…
I remember a friend told me off...cuz I was known for being a ditch-queen and saying ‘no time’ all the time…to ‘MAKE TIME’…that really woke me up and since then I have been making time for people who wants to meet me because I didn’t wanna have regrets of losing them without giving them the time they asked for.
And I grew tired of ‘planning’ for gatherings that people would confirm and eventually only ditch that I decided…I’ll just invite everyone…and whoever can or wants to come come…if not, I don’t give no sheyt. ;-)



Ergo…tadda! I’ve straightened things out…I’ve laid everything out…
I’ve made mistakes and learned so many lessons I don’t wanna repeat…reason for my self-decree…





And with another long post…it’s time for my COFFEE ;-)
Cya!!! And HI TO SINGAPORE. I miss you and everyone I know in you. Teehee.