Why to My decision.

Yeah. Many people had been askin’ about…why PHILIPPINES?
- Want to study overseas can uh…but why PHILS…?
- The opportunity at SG is better than in the Phils…why go back?
- Of all countries, why Phils?

And somehow it pissed me off…it can be insulting, y’know.
But if you were in my situation…you’d have no other choices either.

Plan A: Poly
Plan B: Private Diploma
Plan C: Phils
Plan Z: Overseas

First of all, with my parents uber so strict, could you ever imagine them allowing us to study some place else without a relative to look after us?
So Plan Z is definitely out. =_=”
Secondly, my decision to go back; whether or not I progress to Poly, was already certain because completing my studies in SG [Diploma AND THEN Degree =,=] is just too long for me personally… and yes I admit, it’s my fault I’ve wasted too much of my precious time back in Sec school…so Plan A’s gone.
Plan B’s also unacceptable because the chances of getting a job with a Private Dip is low…and since my bro’s gone through it [taken Private Dip but didn’t finish], what makes you think my folks would let me take Private Dip?
So I’m left with Plan C.

But if I were to choose for myself; without my folks’ impediment…my plan would be to study somewhere else alone - without any relative watching over me…kinda like sovereignty…but that would be a cul-de-sac situation…perhaps only for now. And I think as a parent, I wouldn’t really allow my child to study somewhere without the supervision of someone I know or is close to the family…with freedom encompassing my child, I doubt he’ll finish his education…but I know that when I’ve graduated and have my own Degree, my folks would let me off…like y’know, work or study somewhere.

I have somewhat understood their plan for us. They won’t let us off until we’ve finish our education…like with at least a Degree-kinda-education.

Y’know I had to consider so many things while planning and making a decision…and besides family…in comes BF, friends and things and places you love that you’ll havta leave temporarily
But since this is for my future and my family, I had to strike the rest out…family always comes in 2nd to God…and so I had to consider…that if I wanna finish this sheyt fast, I gotta go to a place my parents wouldn’t say no to; the Phils.
But frankly, even they, were against my suggestion of finishing my studies here in the Phils initially. but after a deep reflection of all the ‘foolishness’ we had done there [time wastage]…Dad had to finally coincide.

Yea, I know…everybody else even my relatives here were stupefied when silence were broken unto them. But hey…like I said, I’ve taken things into an uber deep consideration and the only possible thing that can happen is be here.

Regret? I wouldn’t really say that. More of despondency because I have to sacrifice so many people, so many things; basically my life in SG just to pick my ass up and go to the right direction without anymore distractions.

Honestly, I still don’t know how everything will be like cuz school hasn’t started. But the month-plus that I’ve been here has served and still is serving as the icebreaker to me of people’s lifestyle here. I don’t know what lies ahead [school-wise]…will I have friends? Will they help me? Will I do well this time? Will I go crazy with the kinda study here…yea. Those kinda things.
Hmmm…gimmick-wise, shouldn’t be a problem because:
1] I only want to have a home-school-home life here during school periods and only go out with relatives when there’s no school.
2] I’m planning to save my allowance for my parents’ gift next year! Meaning: instead of eating out during breaks, I’ll have food from home ‘da bao?’
3] This is a province, so I don’t really have any places to go and commuting here freaks me out.
4] I’m thrifty! I’d always think twice about spending even a cent on something; especially now that I’m saving up for my folks’ gift.


Lastly, “why didn’t tell me earlier?”
I only made the decision 3weeks before I left…why didn’t I say it earlier? Cuz I wanted to have a meet-up not for my sake of me leaving but for the sake of everyone missing one another. We have been planning for ouh-so-long about a gathering…everyone would agree at first and then kept saying ‘NO TIME’ in the end…
I remember a friend told me off...cuz I was known for being a ditch-queen and saying ‘no time’ all the time…to ‘MAKE TIME’…that really woke me up and since then I have been making time for people who wants to meet me because I didn’t wanna have regrets of losing them without giving them the time they asked for.
And I grew tired of ‘planning’ for gatherings that people would confirm and eventually only ditch that I decided…I’ll just invite everyone…and whoever can or wants to come come…if not, I don’t give no sheyt. ;-)



Ergo…tadda! I’ve straightened things out…I’ve laid everything out…
I’ve made mistakes and learned so many lessons I don’t wanna repeat…reason for my self-decree…





And with another long post…it’s time for my COFFEE ;-)
Cya!!! And HI TO SINGAPORE. I miss you and everyone I know in you. Teehee.