bestfriella

nice!

so i actually found the itch to write. ;)

i haven't actually found anything fascinating to write about since i got into this new chapter of my life.

the transition into this new chapter all began when i ran out of patience with my Canossian BSCSII classmates who has been demotivating me since first year, first sem. [wait, before i go on, NO, i'm not traducing my fellow Canossians. i'm just layin' out the feelings, thoughts and experiences i had during my stay there]
they've been dependent on others so much so that they refuse to do their responsibilities. they left everything to me: leadership, responsibility as [supposedly] officerS [not just the president], and even the responsibility as a student. they basically just go to school whenever they feel like goin'. i really wouldn't mind if our class was a big one...but imagine from 10 to 11 to 8 to just 6 students? and out of the 6 students last sem, 4 were idle, 1 was like a flickering light, flashing intermittently and there was i, left with all the tasks of a leader, a student, a friend who dragged herself to school despite the demotivation she's been dealing with with the whole school's set-up. 


time came i got too sick of the situation and decided to leave. but before i left for a better environment that would suit me, i did all my homeworks and researches for the new chapter of my journey. so right after finals, i started settling everything independently. there were delays that stretched til the last minute of the school's resumption but in the end, i got in ;) .

hah.and throughout the whole transition, all attention was focused on me!
funny how people would start blabbing stupid, bullcrap statements of pleasing you not to leave, saying it'll be a waste and that i will be missed and all the crap when they didn't really give a damn in the mother effin' first place?! tsss. =,=

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so new chapter started. moved in to my temporary place while waiting for my permanent one. school was enjoyable. i was warmly welcomed at once though i was still pretty lonely at times. but overall, i was basking mannn! tahha. lovvett.


here comes the great part.
it felt like primary school days where you met new wonderful friends who immediately accepted your attitude and behaviour and be so close to each/one another. so to speak, she's someone close to heart from my past life ;) sweet eyy?


remember when i mentioned i lost that trust i used to freely give to people/new friends because of the afflictive experience i went through? and 2 years later i found gaining trust in guys better than gals? so i got another best friend, this time, a male but lost the 'best' in him after he entered National Service. YET found another best male friend later on who is, til now, still being his best for our friendship. neat.


okaye but this is the current highlight of not only the new chapter of my journey...but my journey as a whole in the phils. ~~

1st meeting
i met her when i was on a solo break at the caf. she was with my first year classmates and her other classmates. they saw me eatin' alone and called out my name...i looked, smiled, waved...then went back to my food. seconds later when i was about to have my first spoon, i heard em shouting my name repeatedly...calling me over to join 'em. t'was pretty unforgettable. they made me laugh so much. putting me in the hot seat, shooting all the questions like machine gun! and all i could do was laugh to myself while munching with difficulty! i was gonna choke for trying to speed up the chewing [something i never liked doing =.="] there wasn't much connection with her yet then though.

2nd meeting
was the day i got my school ID and i bumped into her and the others outside the Guidance Office and afterwards accompanied me to eat [for i hadn't taken anything the whole fucking day. =,=] she was the first one to say hi. it was also the same day an event in school happened where we had to be pretty much 'locked up' for the mass before we could go off at 530. i didn't get to join em for the mass and the party though...i hid at the caf along with her other friends who were also pretty funny. heh.


3rd meeting
was probably the day at the caf again where i was with Melane and she and her friends were sitting at the corner of the canteen near the waffle stall. and suddenly i was 'rained' with [her and co's] smses, buggin me and whatnot. lol. i lost so much load =.=" ;p


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i don't know what happened at the fourth time and so on...but i do remember the smses i got...the adding at facebook and some chats we had which wasn't as 'cosy' as it got later on BUT i already had that 'comfortable' feeling of calling her 'babe' [like i do with my close galfriends] when she added me at facebook so i already had that comfort even before we got really close. rad!


first chill out
14 dec 2010. met her at amiel's place. was with her throughout the night. ouh and was she hospitable or what?! she 'endured' the whole night being my buddy ;) that's where it all really started. the 'what a night' night drew us nearer...[ehhssia, sound so gay siak...]


- the next day onwards, long chats occured and it went on...it was just so bad yet so good because we couldn't focus much on our school stuff at home cuz we just had to go on and on about whatever sheyyyt we had in mind...i already mentioned to her before how i thought i found a best friend in her but i think today was the day it only got to sink in to her? ahhaah. slow *itch. =.=" and tonight was the first misunderstanding we had. lol. 


come to think of it...everything happened so fast. and like i told her...if only we weren't straight...people would think we are lesbo lovers...tahahaha! okaye G-R-O-S-S damn. tsss! 
iunno about her but like i feel so engrossed schmoozing with her? like a drug she's too addictive? she's just got this sweet, receptive, genial personality in her...i looooike! she's emmm, so lam-bing? yeah. wicked. 
but like everybody else who comes and goes...how long will she be that level of a friend who will stay and have your back? i already reassured her i treasure friends and i will do what it takes to be that friend even when time comes we go our separate paths...

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so that pretty much ends my post for now. it's gotten pretty long again...i just really missed writing ;( haven't had this urge to stop whatever i'm doin' to just sit down, shut people out for awhile and write. ouhwell. i just did tahha ;) 

be an inspiration, not a 
massive destructive-distraction-addiction, ella. ~_=" 
;p