Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my late grappa, Benito. i love you lolo. march 21st [i'm actually smelling cigarette smell in my room and mom's not smellin anything, no smell in the corridor either...Hi lolo! ur in my room! ur visitin me..i'm not scared..i love u!]

i'm getting a lil nervously-excited about some things i don't even know exactly what and why. maybe it's my new school, maybe it's my new cousin-housemate, maybe the new things to learn, maybe my saying goodbye to my everyday life of entertainment, maybe saying goodbye to my slacking attitude?! lol..im still slacking so minus that out..

im always havin a hard time sleeping every night. even when im so effin sleepy already i still can't sleep. i'm always thinkin of things even if i duwanna..haiz..im insomniac alredi..gaahhh...

anyway, i miss everyone that's been parta my life. [one of the things i think about that's why i can't sleep! stuupid distractors!] ahakz..

i just miss you people. here i am putting on weight everyday, hoping to be as fat as siti fairuz..or even fatter[whoops]..love it..

bye kuya!

Yesterday was tiring, another dinner party..like evri two weeks..dad got a lil tipsy

Anyway, bye bye! kuya's left for taiwan already for training for a month..yey! confirm he wun bring me back with a thing! eu stewpig mustard! but i know he will...he better! U better!

And tew bad, ima be left here with a babysitter..teenysitter..oh well, wuteverr..and after mom and dad comes back from the Holy Week trip, ima be buzy yow! i'll be working as a tour guide prolly FOC...cousin Ritchell, Meg, Fons, aunt Teresa and unc Art..phew...

PS: sorry Gid i cant go, cuz mah momma asked me to go immigration with her. turned out im an illegal alien and i'll be deported back to Jupiter! ok..ur lame..no.not me,..YOU! yeah you..as for wed, i MIGHT go

welcome home baby TAZ

image by joanne '

[a new housemate/playmate/family [many went missing, so they aren't in the picture]

I’d like to welcome my BABY TAZ! He has finally come home..after I’ve no idea when.
I got him only today, but he was officially "born" on 18 Jan 2007 at between 1300-1330h.
what a big baby for a 2month old Baby Taz.

He is a gift from my dear friend, Thiruchelvam s/o "something" [sorry i forgot]. Actually, being me, I FORCED my friends to buy this for me. So far Thiru was the one who did; supposedly on the Prom night but nevermoind. I'm still getting one from my someone. haha..i'm such a greedy bitch..oh well, I guess i'm too pampered by my family and friends. my gawsh.

poly

Okaye! So yesterday accompanied mom to see a doc after receiving her test results. Didn’t have much time to get ready cuz she was fast.. [Ewww I felt like I wasn’t clean!] Well of course I took a bath but after that I didn’t have time to do my rituals! [No! not pass motion..but rituals as in dressing up! My gawsh..]

We reached the polyclinic and was gonna take a number when the receptionist told us that they’ve temporarily closed the thingy cuz of the overwhelming patients who was seeing a doc. [Too many sick people la!] She told us to come back at 1315h but mom thought it would be long if we did so went to KFC to take our breakfast. She said she duwanna eat fattening foods but she ordered a burger meal [like hello?! Mom?] and I was craving for plain fries so I ordered that. [well I wanted salad as well but mom said duwan!] but when we started eating, she asked me to buy the salad [maaaawwwm!] I told her that she should be eating salads instead of burger but she said it wasn’t enuff for her.[eye roll] She was on the phone with her nurse friend, Christine and told mom to go back see a doc cuz her results were bad. [Of course I gave the face la! Must go back..wahlau..]

Ok so we were back, took a number, sat and waited. After an hour she got called. [I was patient to wait..infairness..knowing that I‘m an impatient bitch] Then another number to wait for. [I thought it’d be better than last time..like half an hour at least.] Then an hour passed..[and I was like, ok never mind we‘ll be called soon]. Then 10 mins passed I was already impatient. Half an hour later, verry impatient. I was lookin around for the others who were waiting, and everytime a number was called, the patients going in were shaking their heads while others frowned [I was onna them]. Chicken..2hours ready still dun have sia. The others were already knockin the door, going in and askin’ the docs when they’d be called then they’d go back to their seat. 2h30fuckingminutes later, mom’s name was called to let er know that she’d be seeing another doc [stuuupid]! okaye then she was called [finally!] doc tol’ er..ahh never mind! Five mins later, we were waiting for mom’s medcines and we were off for groceries.

Gawsshhh! Waited 3h30mins just to see a doc for 5 mins! wadafuck! K then while mom was at the NTUC, I was buying shushis and fishballs for me! [It’s a treat I deserve!] t’was raining so took a cab home. Mom was worried cuz the fishes haven’t eaten. After that I washed the stuuupit dishes I left last night..[yess, last night! Tired like what siaaa…] I then took the clothes I shopped for last week, 2weeks ago and 3weeks ago to wash..it’s been stashed under my bed for weeks. [*shakes head* some things just dun change..procrastinator]..oh and my luggage..still have things there..still on the floor waiting for me to clear them..my table too..messy as ever..clothes everywhere in my room..

I just love being messy..but I’m a CLEAN person nevertheless…just a MESSY person that’s all..big diff okaye!

anniv

happy 23rd anniversary!

you duwanna show me ur date pics..nahh..i show this!

why aren't you smilin Dadoodz?!

one of the "father-daughter bonding day".. ouh dad..ur so fat! u see..mom followed ur footsteps! and now it's my turn! gosh!

dance!

i feel happy! so i dance to this number!
"sige, i-kembot..."

ite

Hi people! I got my first choice; Information Technology at ITE Dover. Congrats to me! Thank you…
Ouh and Sab, see you in school/class…haha..haiyer! U aGaiiin! Well, at least I’ll have a companion…

You know uh! Actually uh..I haven’t received the stupit email leh! Sab smsed me then I ganchiong [correct anot uh?] go online then check my email…dunnav siaaaa…And then hor..I go check under JAE site to check results..waaaahh…have leehhhh..budden hor..how come email no have yet? Haiyuh..so lousy…

Okaye…wutevuurr… Anyways, congrats to the people who’ve received their results and got their first choice. And TOOOOOO bad for the rest who got dumped at courses they don’t really like..haha..Take it as a challenge guys! Show ‘em that even if you didn’t go where you wanted to, you’ll succeed in the future. But it all depends on how you handle your attitude towards your goal. All of us have goals but even if we go to the longer path unlike the others, in the end what matters is you will do all you can to make it to the end. You all don’t play play anymore uh! Don’t sleep in class uh! Don’t become minah/mat/ahbeng/ahlian… what’s gangster in tamil uh?!

5/1, I hope we are still a family no matter where we go. I know for now we all love 5/1 but in the future you’ll have more families just don’t forget 5/1 ok? Don’t be snobbish uh!

Kk…godai….

vored!

Borinnng! My day was so the effing dull I was just waiting for it to end! Bren came and watched a Leo’s movie. Didn’t watched it with them cuz I was really just not in the mood. I’m so evil already I haven’t been attending mass again for two/three consecutive weeks..and it’s Lenten season. Haiyuh! Why am I like this uh! That’s what holidays do to you! But if I wasn’t here I would be always out partying! It’s just sooo boring here..Gosh..take me home mann…everybody’s so busy and I’ve really got nothing much to do unlike when I just came back. Now everything’s just sooo..I don’t know! I just hate the feeling

tour me

I was late yesterday..as usual..initially planned to meet my tour guides at 1130 at jurong east interchange[wee I rid the LRT and MRT!], budden the tourist[me] asked for 1300. And then extended to 1330 budden I think I came at around 1430. Gosh..this kind of person how to go out with uh! But luckily they were patient enough to know me…stuuupit! On the way, my tour guides still hadn’t decided on where to take me until she said vivocity. Then I was like, “ok”… cuz I really dunno the place..[riiight]

[before]
The night before, I told myself, no…I won’t be late! So I alarmed my phone to 7am. Woke up, did the things I had to do..I JUUUUUST dunno why I still came late! Tsk..I’m really doing my best to be punctual but it just doesn’t cooperate with my whatever…

Anyways..okaye..long story short, I had fun with you guys. Only thing was thiru’s sis was such a spoiler…lol…and yeah..ros and I stood at the CCK station for 1+hour just to chat. We were at the same spot. Faziana went to eat at lot1 and when she was going home, she found us still at the same spot…okaye whatever!

Mmm…today, I’m officially a month old in Singapore. I hired another tour guide, dadoodz. He brought me to this place called downtown east for chalet but I didn’t stay with them cuz they were guys…drink2...den.. eeeewwww I just don’t like dadoodz when he’s drunk…I was in the room while they were preparing the BBQ..[ouh, and we came late as usual]. I played xbox while eating. Then dad called me to join them. I was engrossed with the game and he kept callin so I got irritated and got out until only after I’ve shut the door did I remember to take the stuuupit card! I went down and told em.. Mah fun sia me… make people do work! They went to call the staff to open the door. [this is what happens when ur really forgetful] but I didn’t care la. Once people do something about your problem you tend to not care anymore cuz it’s being solved for you..haha..nooo actually it’s just my attitude of being a “heck-care” person. Then kuya and bren came then blahblahblah…..

I’m too lazy to tell my day…but whatever..

getting to knoooow euuuu

I’m going out to unwind after being stuck at home for days thinking about so many random things. Like sex, sex and..sex. Ouh it was great..

Okaye that was eeewy..STOPPIT Joanne! I’m gonna go get to know sunny-cloudy island Singapore! I’ve been here for almost a month now. Exactly a month tomorrow! It’s nice, it’s fulla buildings, it’s clean, it’s no more green, it’s boring! You see the same old things wherever you go! Hahaha..no, I love Singapore. I grew up here more than in the phils. I remember telling a friend that I was going back home and she said “what home? This is your home”. it’s funny how people are different. There are racists who’ll make fun of your country while there are people who love you wherever you come from. It’s just really nice to have friends treat you like a local though they know you aren’t. thank you friend.. U suck la.. I love you.

Okaye, the sun’s out! Finally that stoopit cloud’s gotten outta the sun’s way! I’mma go tour sunny sunny island Singapore!

But I still sleepy lah! Okaye okaye I don’t wanna be late anymore..haiz..but I think I’ll be..just like glenn glenn said “some things just don’t change”…Shutttup glenn!

Bye fockers!

mommy

I love you MOMMY!!!

To the peepz joining me and Brigid..we can't change the date..[well,for me can la]..but Gid can't cuz she's only free on weekends. So we thought of meeting up. Since we didn't make it on Tues, I thought why not meet u guys on this day, Sat'day. I'm having BBQ chalet and I gotta meet Dad at 3pm..I dunno if I can extend the time though. So I thought of havin lunch with Gid but I dunno what time to meet up cuz I got limited time..so decide the time okaye then let me know...

stultified

Y'know..staying home is sooo my thing!!! haha..i NEVER get bored! So you can lock me up at home for all I care! Cuz I can tahan! So long as I've got my basic needs of entertainment...

I still go out la...I've been pretty busy with things..eversince I got back, I'd always have the "urge"to go out..but I slowed myself down cuz it'd mean spending..I can't just lay out $$ on things cuz I dun werk...so I decided to stay put at home..

Staying home can get quite boring sometimes..and when you've got nothing else to do..like say you're bored with TV or PC or whatever..it can get so stultifying! GASHHHH....and that's what I've been feeling lately..stultified! Then you'll feel kumfumbled...

And I thought of finding a job..but I don't think it's the right time..so here I am slacking me arse off, waiting for money to rain down on me..lol..so I can at least do something..I'm getting fatter..my thighs bigger..my face,cuter..I mean..having chubby cheeks...tummy bloated[lol..exagg]!..oh well..

Then came my long awaited prayer..

will tell you nextym..i'ma go knock off...

bye suckers...

my first home

I was very home-sick last week and started missing everyone back ‘ome and my 5/1 family as well. I went back home[phil] thinking..I’m matured enough for my age..but my cuzins told me that I was like a kid..my godpa told his wife jokingly “how old's Joanne already but she acts like Nika” [their daughter,who‘s only 10]…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…

See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.

Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!

But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!

Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…

Hello People, Hello World!

Hello guys..I made another public blog. Not because I’m turning my back on the events that happened in my life in the previous blog. But because I think it’s a new year, same life, but I feel I’ve grown more as a person. [yeye not as matured as we all think we all are; but matured enough for me in this stage of my life..nope..not my age..but the stage in my life..]


I actually have two blogs, public and private. After I stopped posting on my previous public blog, I actually kept posting at my private blog. Private cuz it’s more of a diary and there are things I just can’t show to my friends. But oh well, I’m BACK!

exempted

Sometimes you just have to put an end on things you think you can't handle anymore..
You have to take small steps to do it..
You get irritated...mad...but at the end of the day, what have you gained?

Some people choose to smile and laugh on things rather than cry
Because they believe that crying won't solve the problem...and you gain nothing
Yes..smiling and laughing wont solve your problem too
But at least...you'll look beautiful...because you look at things beautifully when you do that...
Though not necessarily...but hey...you'll look younger! and you don't think about your problem that much anymore!!!

It's nice to be just at peace with everybody! and everything!
Right now I feel happy because I'm looking at things in a neutral way...I feel so peaceful...
The problems 've encountered...I take 'em all as experiences! and lessons...
So the next time I encounter another similar problem, I'd know what to do and will do my best not to repeat the mistakes I've made before...

come and smell the beauty of the world..what it has given you

like what a friend once told me...

"If you’re feeling down..remember the moments that took your breath away!

you gotta stop and smell the flowers

Choose to rmbr the happy ones.."

070706

no cam for today...juz used my hp..so here..e rest is video...

juz read sab's post...for what happened today...

BETTER..

MAINTAINING..

and will MAINTAIN...

Really too tired gettin involved...
Should really just shut the fuck up...
Some people just HAVE to misinterpret the things u say...
Too tired of giving in to people...

continuous..