sigh...

as of this very moment, and the many other exact moments, im feeling...
limboic...
state of oblivion...

i think...i just dont like what im doin in my life...
i feel like im fawning on everybody
i feel like im too obtrusive

i just dont like where im at...at least for seven years now, i never did...
for no reason...?

perhaps... i really just dont like what im doin in my life...
perhaps... i just really dont like where im at...
perhaps... its the animosity...?
perhaps... im just feeling and thinkin too afar. paranoia?
perhaps... my being a pessimist was/is just kickin in...
perhaps... im...just bored? [worst whatever ever...]

a big sigh again...perhaps?

urrrrghhhhh...

i really need to get away...times just not allowing...
okaye...perhaps i need a big sigh...
but its as if itll better everything im feeling... :(
geez...
sigh again!

urghhhh!!!!

great...
my desire to sleep has "vanished"...
SIGH...