pass it to me.

things were still pretty fine.
until about two days ago...
i guess i could still handle it if the problem involves just...ME alone.
but involving my LOVED ones?
that's way too much.

i know everyone goes from head-to-toe weak when affected by loved ones.
and we all try to hide whatever we're feeling inside.

i would always ask Him to pass it to me rather than give it to them.
He knows that.
and i pray He listens.
i know He does.

my bro wrote a touching note...and no doubt, i teared.
and now...as i type this...
i'm shedding tears.

i'm sure the last thing she wants from me is failure.
that would just worsen everything that's happenin' now.
i just wanna pick myself up again.
this is not how i foresaw things to be a decade ago.