so much for a democratic society.

hmmm. i've been keeping mum about this for YEARS but its time...i have to rant...

i HATE discrimination. i'm sure we ALL do.

i've stayed here almost my whole life; i grew up here for thirteen years and counting; more than in my own country of just seven. and to think, yes, there are people who treat us like any other locals despite our nationality YET there are still who don't. and yes, i get it, filos are MOSTLY "known" for working as domestic helpers and that the first thing that comes up to people's mind is that you're from a poor country...or "maid" when they hear you're a female filo. gosh. how SHALLOW. coming from a country that should have a sense of decency. okaye, its not about it being true, its about it being offensive. it just makes people look poorer themselves when they discriminate, really.

"criticism is the cheapeast form of boasting."

my family isn't indigent. we aren't loaded either. but ouh well, what difference does it make, right? people will still stand by what they triflingly know, you're from a poor country and that's that. but like i said, how one-dimensional people can get.

okaye, so, i mean, fine, my dad chose to stay here not because of MONEY. but because of our safety; [the milieu this place has] and of course our family; [to avoid getting involved in family feuds]. and we are so EVER thankful this is the place. and yes, singapore has offered us a somewhat better life than what we could have gotten back home but honestly, my parents have done and contributed so much more than what our family they have gotten in return. and one thing, they have NEVER complained to their employers; the shits they fucking get at work, they just accept it all and strengthen themselves even more; just for their kids'[our] sake. talk about being fussy.

they fell sick too many times to the point that they have to be sent to the hospital not just once; but them being too humble, give in to other people's favors instead of family. sigh.

~ mom hasn't had any REAL BREAK from work and the three of us know that she is IN NEED of one and that all she wants is to see Gramms. so she wanted to surprise Gramms; [whom she haven't seen for so long] for her birthday this year. so my brother and i surprised mom and booked her a ticket for a 9-day trip back home. we told mom to arrange her leave of absence and mind you, its more than 2months advance; october 24 and she already told them about it on early august because we know they don't like last-minute stuff. they gave a THUMBS UP. and then....
...guess what. this freakin auntie, a malaysian-indian, complained that my mom reserved those dates when it was for her[deepavali]. the guy[assistant manager] who gave the approval HIMSELF to mom, berated mom after this auntie protested...what the fuck. what a suck up la. ~

they grumble when my mom takes leave for Christmas, New Year and Good Friday...
when my mom nicely reasoned out that she never touches Chinese New Year, Hari Raya, Deepavali and other important public holidays meant for locals [because she knows and respects them; especially their religion and culture], she expected thought she'd get the same treatment.but hell no. when it's mom's turn to say that these days are really important for our religion and culture, they trash all that and argue that shes not a local. what the fuck. what happened to democracy? and "regardless of race, language or religion?" im sure its not just for singaporeans... cos even the manager told her that there is democracy and advized her to talk to the AM. so you see, i don't get why some are labeling her as "not a local" when many [if not all] people know that this "democracy" applies to every one. =_="

don't get me wrong, im NOT sayin about all her colleagues; just a few, because my mom have friends in there. in fact, it surprises me that all her friends there are the young ones; meaning those aunties are the only ones objecting. my mom has SACRIFICED a lot of her time for other people's favors. she retracts her off-days and furloughs when some last-minute shits crop up leaving us three fucked up. she always does that. we dont already attend masses together as a family because she has to work on sunday. and when she takes an off-day on sunday, again they carp. we already accepted that, fine. she lets this auntie take the nice, best shift because she reasoned she lives in JB; so to travel for her back and forth on different shifts, is uncomfortable, fine.

but now you're being too much to force her to shift her fucking booking to another fucking date! now i don't fucking know WHY you're doing this...or are you just a plainly selfish bitch, always sucking up to people just so you can get it done your way. i don't know how you do it and i don't care. my mom has spare more-than-enough thoughts for your safety and comfort giving in to your favors. and this is what you repay her? ouh well, at least my mom's friends are defending her against that bitch because they know what's happening. and despite all the past stuff she said about mom, mom doesn't even hold any grudges against her at all yet she does this.

preposterous inconsiderate prick.

is it just because shes a filo? easy to bully? sigh. people. what if theres an emergency? will that bitch or anybody still gripe? sometimes i just get angry with my parents for being too nice to people. and here's something, we do know and are aware of some filos being finicky; but i can sincerely say my parents AREN'T. hell no. its not about the race, its about your own personality. i can seriously say, me and my brother are freaking far different from our parents in some ways.

i cant believe in this modern world, people are still conservative about where you come from. i don't know about you, but racism is something of the past. i guess these people just aren't exposed enough to different races in spite of this place being known for a racial harmony country...

i'm blogging this for many reasons. not just because of what's happening at mom's workplace. if you find this offensive, then read again. don't get me wrong, i love singapore, i have lived here almost my whole life, i have participated in many things too. and i treat this home. its just that some people are really big fucks. and one more recent thing, on wednesday, when i was rehearsing for next day's school national day event, mrs tong saw me and...

tong: another dance?
me: yeah, for national day
tong: ouh, is it your national day? are you sure its your national day too?[or something like that]
me: *raised eyebrow* yeah!

see what i mean? tsktsktsk. utter disappointment to the country i love to have such people. but ouh well. :) these are the kinda people we have to put up with everyday. and these are one of the kinda things that i draw strength from.