'teber

the smell is a torture to my nose!
ugh!!!
they're all burning incense paper at the same time. so, like totally surrounded by the smoke lar. it already got through here but dad still didn't close the door and windows...tsk.
and i'm gonna get flu soon. ugh!
we're supposed to go to RSAF Open House. but something came up. tsk. i wanna fly, you know.
the weather is so sad lar.
so sian.
let's all go cycle after exams can? ecp?


gusto ko ng pisbols at kwek-kwek at taho!
sana magdala si mommy pagbalik dito.


i sooooooooo wanna go shopping.


i've just downloaded IE8 beta2


i miss ate ghen and my kel and elbert and elroy.

pink shades

muddafocken' project is a total torment!
just like the last project i did, only two people workin' [out of four], gahh!!!
to make things worse, i nono much about how the project will be done, although i know what is to be done; in other words, i don't know the coding shit! i only know and've done our storyboard. suckeyyyy.
sigh. i'm sooooo "lovin" me life right now...liiiike =_="

i'm crying out loud...
to anyone out there with a sympathetic heart...
kindly send me the coding for SPORTSMAN SYSTEM [asp.net, database]
as if anyone will lah...*rolls eyes*

anyway, i accompanied kiki to claim his prize at sentosa...i couldn't say no since i haven't been out with him for so long, and besides, i needed to free my mind from the recent crapshitae stressful weeks! weather was gloomy, so...i hated it...but at least we still enjoyed the sunset...although...freakin' ship covered our view of the last few moments of the sun setting! ewww? so we just turned our attention to the clouds [formin' shapes, duh]. lol. after his prize-claiming, we roamed around sentosa as much as we could; even gatecrashing rasa sentosa resort...and arghhh, beaches were tempting me to strip, tahha.
ouh well, who wouldn't be.

well then i guess it's back to the normal dull-project/tests/exams-mugging life again.


thank you for today, kiki. ily.



emmm, thiru, glenn, lee, el, leilei, emman, soon...i hope, really.



PS. ouh, and HI to someone who viewed me from Chile [Universidad De Chile]...hmm, who shia??? ouh well, Hi anyway

rapid therapy

thank you guys so the very the much for the concern, really.
i'm back to being normal abnormal; friends trying to avoid me 'coz i've receded to insanity...ishishish......

my day started out well. i don't know. i guess know, He took my anxiety away. plus mommy woke me up. and the gals made me laugh. and from there, it just got better all the way. i just missed everybody; like i haven't seen them in years, lol. i felt like hugging them. but some are inappropriate to hug, lah. you know, i know. you know? or maybe they might not wanna be hugged by me. weehhhhh. whatever. thanks a lot, lah. as in a lot, a lot. lol.
so fast hor? but ouh well, prayers are really strong.
and i'm really better now, but i hope no relapse lar, lol. but as of now i've relapsed to folly.
people would think i'm really crazy 'coz i was like as if nothing happened, sigh.
even mr gremar was surprised...geeez.
ouh well, time flies fast, so yeah, i'm better?

just hope i can still pull this off. and i reeeeaaally apologize for shutting you guys out, y'know me, stubborn as can be.



~yeyness, i met ate Ghen~


awww, i feel so loved. thank you. thank you. thank you.
i love you guys.

~~~~~
awww, kiki, you almost made me cry [<-click] ...again!

self aversion

a hopeless, useless, spoiled, dumb person...
always depending on people...
and they're probably fed up with her. [tell me about it; she's fed up with herself too]
her parents baby her so much, they think she's been obedient all along.
she's been givin' them the thumbs-up when asked about her studies, they don't know how bad she's already doin' at school.
she has become a responsibility to her friends; havin' to get up early just to give her a wake-up call, and then sleeping back or sometimes they don't already.
what a burden to them, huh.
people think she takes things lightly all the freakin' time, with that smile,
with her actions; the "why so serious?"/"i don't care"-facade.
and with that stupid face she portrays, the teachers probably think she doesn't care, and deserves to be punished for her actions...
but at the end of the happy day she had with people, she'd hate herself because she knows she needs help somehow...she just don't know - of what kind.

can she ever prove to people she can be independent and have self-discipline?
she's been trying...
still is...

~
i was supressing my tears on the way to school. i restrained it for as long as i could but for the fifth time it just had to fall - in the bus. it may seem to be a small problem to other people, another pettiness...but it isn't - for me.

i got up this mornin' at eight; the time my class starts...looked at my phone and saw the missed-call and message javier sent me - just minutes before i got up. and for the umpteenth time, i got mad...not at javier but at myself. and the question just kept bombarding my mind: if people hadn't called me at all, will i wake up? just because he called at this time, will i then only get up?

it's my fault for not goin' to school everyday, for delaying my assignments, and for getting unwanted results in the end...and then i grumble, and as if it's other people's fault, they take pity on me and help me out. sigh.
i sincerely apologize if i had vented my anger on any of you [i hope i did not].
but if not replying to any of your messages or not attending to your calls, i just need to be alone. and i guess i'm embarrassed for all the concern you guys have for me too.

seeing my parents notice my sudden change of mood, i just felt like breaking down and tell them i haven't been a good daughter and student...and i don't know if i can fulfil their hopes of goin' to poly...'cos they think i can...but when i look at myself right now...i don't know.
they come home from work everyday and they have to do the housework while i sit my ass down here doin' unnecessary things...
when i have sudden craves, they would go down and get what i want...[i don't have to go on; you probably already know how lovely parents they are to me]...and i really don't know what i'd do without them.

i just wanna let you know i'm weak. it hurts a lot...like it's gonna explode...but whatever...i'm doin the best i can to strengthen myself and fight whatever it is i'm feeling. i don't know what this is, and i probably don't want to. as you already know the kind of person i am, yeah, i'll just take things as they come - naturally.


i haven't shown my gratitude to anybody. i'm sorry - i'm not expressive. but just know that i am sorry and thankful...i really am.

as of now, i'd like to thank the people that has sacrificed/has been sacrificing their time in the morning for me: elroy, syahid, nurdin, javier, izzdin, kiki, thiru, honglei.
and for the rest of the people that has helped me in so many things: pearlyn, tufha, elroy, javier, kiki, izzdin, honglei, nurdin, thiru, shahir, hairee, previous and current classmates and friends.

i just wanna let you know i'm thankful for every thing, even to the smallest bit of what you've done for me. i know you probably don't feel as special as the people i've mentioned, but just know that i appreciate you. your concern, friendship, love, every thing.

i just hate myself. but because you guys aren't givin' up on me, although i can sense you're tired and on the verge of givin' up on me...i'm just holding on...

light me up colorfully.

TGIF, me got my longer shleep!
*wooootz!*
tahha.

fireworks...mmm, a so-so. our view sucks. shtoopid.
i loved the 'heart' one.
i felt lonely watchin' it even if friends were there.
eeeeesssshhhhh.
i suddenly feel like goin' back fo' Xmas and newyear. geez.
can they hold the next pyrolympics here instead of home all the time!
i'll go down once more if i don't get lazy. tahha.
tomorrow's the korean team. today was the french's.


wonder how it all looks like from a flying plane. the sky was kinda clear. teeeeheeee.
someone tell a dumb girl...quick. i'd prefer an answer from someone who's experienced it rather than a logical answer! i can never get satisfaction without experiences. [emmm, not referring to dirty stuff uh!]
if only superman was real! i'd've asked him!

mmm, i don't know...but why do i feel tension among us? is it just me or...what is up? *weirdness* we're always on silent mode, taahhhhaaaaa. but still...kinda creeps me out. talk leiiiiii. lol. lolli lolli lolli lolli let me see you pop that body...
okaye, shooooosh.

~
i miss thiru.

uber savageness part II

here i am.
you already know what for.
*whatever*

MORE work. =_="

SEVEN THREE long-overdue assignments; 5 1 from ESJ, 2 from WAD [by next week]
TWO projects; JCS [by 25/08] and WAD [by 03/09]
ONE FOUR tests; WAD [21/08] ESJ [26/08], 3 on SAD[26/08, 28/08 and 02/09]
TWO exams; SAD [09/09] and WAD [11/09]

sigh.
how will a procrastinator do her assignments and meet up for projects and revise for tests and exams when the dates are all so close to each other?

~
yesterday, i wrote i got debarred. thought 'twas for two modules only. now three. nahbei.
was outside the class chattin' awhile with el when nicholas called me in to ask to fill up the appeal form last-minute-ly...i was like, "wattahell...esther didn't read out my name yesterday...then now..."
then he asked me to fill up, i took the form, he answered a call then said wait [photocopy], came back, didn't give...
urr...no appeal form...how? *rolls eyes* dumbass.

then soong... need not say lah... i doubt he even looked through the leave-forms and MCs before declaring. always wanna get the job done fast. =_="

then project ar...soong uh?...haiyuh...*shakes head*...tsktsktsk...
at first he told me about the project, then he said to choose a group to join, then later...said my groupmates' names.
"i thought you asked me to choose which group..."
so he said okaye, choose...again, i've chosen... then,

takteng: "oh..ahh..neh mind ahh, maximum four ony, de res all full 'edy..."
me: "but Tufha's group has only 3!"
takteng: "oh..ahh..*clickclick*[mouse] den never mai uh, work widis group lahh hor. *clickclick* i wan you to lead...*clickclick*typetype*..."
me: "i don't even know what to do, the other two rarely go to school than me...and YaoKan; so hard to communicate with! how to do pojek lidat..."
takteng: "*clickclick* oh..ahh..it's okay lah...you kor dem, tell dem come schoorl. *clickclick*typetype* ahh-ahhh, i wan you lead la ahh...'cos [blahblahblah] "
me: "you ask me choose join which group! then i wan go dat group, now you force me join this group...walenn...later i fail..."
takteng: "ah-ahh, neh-mind la ahh... [excuses/stupid reasons]... "
me: "ahhhh. ahhhh... *nods* ok-ok [not listening already]...yaya okaye-okaye..."
~

in the end, i just looked on the positivity and took it as a challenge.
tufha and pearlyn wanted me in their group; vice versa. thank you mebitches. thanks mummy pearlyn for wanting to talk to takteng about it. but i've accepted already.
i mean, i'm not a good student to begin with, i, myself ditch school...so like, it's really a fine challenge.
sisi and dada rarely show up; i know the reasons. and we 3 like to disturb yaokan and his "human vs. human" talk and his twitchings; as if he's really an alien; adjusting or just being uncomfortable in that body. O.O"
soooo, can i just conclude that it's God's will for us all to be workin' together? tahhhaaaa. awww, i'm so dank.

well, i'm gonna do my best...
and for ya'll...hope not too many questions on what i'm doin, where am i, wanna meet or not, why not online, blahblahblah...
i'm gonna kick your arses! lol. i'm kiddin.

uber savageness

got too enthralled with other activities; which i'm glad is finally OVER,
been too busy ditching school; gettin' me tush up...that i've missed out on too many stuffs in class.
and now...
i'm piled up with a whole stack of work!!!

SEVEN long-overdue assignments; 5 from ESJ, 2 from WAD [by this or next week?]
TWO projects; JCS [by 25/08] and WAD [by 03/09]
ONE test; WAD [21/08]
TWO exams; SAD [09/09] and WAD [11/09]

all to be done within these three weeks. =_="
i don't even know how and where to start.

ouh BUMMER!!!!

and to worsen things, as usual, i'm in the DEBARment list.
ugh. nothin' new, really.
i've got more rants. but lemme lighten my workload first, eh?
yes, more rants comin' up these consecutive days.
will that help you save time from comin' here, eager to know what i'm gonna blog 'bout?
ouh well, i'm just gonna put it in a more detailed version; if you really wanna know.
otherwise, *whatever*

nyahahahahaha.
okaye. shutz!

i won't be that...

sigh. i dont know what to say.
good. not good.
not bad. bad.
't sucks, really.
the feeling.
's like...
toooooooooooooooooooooooooot.

ouh wells.
i don't know why i'm taking this chance even when i'm not ready.
i don't know what i'm feeling but i'm still graspin' it.
i'm doin my best.
i'm not bein' selfish.
i'm struggling.

guys...tsktsktsk.

so much for a democratic society.

hmmm. i've been keeping mum about this for YEARS but its time...i have to rant...

i HATE discrimination. i'm sure we ALL do.

i've stayed here almost my whole life; i grew up here for thirteen years and counting; more than in my own country of just seven. and to think, yes, there are people who treat us like any other locals despite our nationality YET there are still who don't. and yes, i get it, filos are MOSTLY "known" for working as domestic helpers and that the first thing that comes up to people's mind is that you're from a poor country...or "maid" when they hear you're a female filo. gosh. how SHALLOW. coming from a country that should have a sense of decency. okaye, its not about it being true, its about it being offensive. it just makes people look poorer themselves when they discriminate, really.

"criticism is the cheapeast form of boasting."

my family isn't indigent. we aren't loaded either. but ouh well, what difference does it make, right? people will still stand by what they triflingly know, you're from a poor country and that's that. but like i said, how one-dimensional people can get.

okaye, so, i mean, fine, my dad chose to stay here not because of MONEY. but because of our safety; [the milieu this place has] and of course our family; [to avoid getting involved in family feuds]. and we are so EVER thankful this is the place. and yes, singapore has offered us a somewhat better life than what we could have gotten back home but honestly, my parents have done and contributed so much more than what our family they have gotten in return. and one thing, they have NEVER complained to their employers; the shits they fucking get at work, they just accept it all and strengthen themselves even more; just for their kids'[our] sake. talk about being fussy.

they fell sick too many times to the point that they have to be sent to the hospital not just once; but them being too humble, give in to other people's favors instead of family. sigh.

~ mom hasn't had any REAL BREAK from work and the three of us know that she is IN NEED of one and that all she wants is to see Gramms. so she wanted to surprise Gramms; [whom she haven't seen for so long] for her birthday this year. so my brother and i surprised mom and booked her a ticket for a 9-day trip back home. we told mom to arrange her leave of absence and mind you, its more than 2months advance; october 24 and she already told them about it on early august because we know they don't like last-minute stuff. they gave a THUMBS UP. and then....
...guess what. this freakin auntie, a malaysian-indian, complained that my mom reserved those dates when it was for her[deepavali]. the guy[assistant manager] who gave the approval HIMSELF to mom, berated mom after this auntie protested...what the fuck. what a suck up la. ~

they grumble when my mom takes leave for Christmas, New Year and Good Friday...
when my mom nicely reasoned out that she never touches Chinese New Year, Hari Raya, Deepavali and other important public holidays meant for locals [because she knows and respects them; especially their religion and culture], she expected thought she'd get the same treatment.but hell no. when it's mom's turn to say that these days are really important for our religion and culture, they trash all that and argue that shes not a local. what the fuck. what happened to democracy? and "regardless of race, language or religion?" im sure its not just for singaporeans... cos even the manager told her that there is democracy and advized her to talk to the AM. so you see, i don't get why some are labeling her as "not a local" when many [if not all] people know that this "democracy" applies to every one. =_="

don't get me wrong, im NOT sayin about all her colleagues; just a few, because my mom have friends in there. in fact, it surprises me that all her friends there are the young ones; meaning those aunties are the only ones objecting. my mom has SACRIFICED a lot of her time for other people's favors. she retracts her off-days and furloughs when some last-minute shits crop up leaving us three fucked up. she always does that. we dont already attend masses together as a family because she has to work on sunday. and when she takes an off-day on sunday, again they carp. we already accepted that, fine. she lets this auntie take the nice, best shift because she reasoned she lives in JB; so to travel for her back and forth on different shifts, is uncomfortable, fine.

but now you're being too much to force her to shift her fucking booking to another fucking date! now i don't fucking know WHY you're doing this...or are you just a plainly selfish bitch, always sucking up to people just so you can get it done your way. i don't know how you do it and i don't care. my mom has spare more-than-enough thoughts for your safety and comfort giving in to your favors. and this is what you repay her? ouh well, at least my mom's friends are defending her against that bitch because they know what's happening. and despite all the past stuff she said about mom, mom doesn't even hold any grudges against her at all yet she does this.

preposterous inconsiderate prick.

is it just because shes a filo? easy to bully? sigh. people. what if theres an emergency? will that bitch or anybody still gripe? sometimes i just get angry with my parents for being too nice to people. and here's something, we do know and are aware of some filos being finicky; but i can sincerely say my parents AREN'T. hell no. its not about the race, its about your own personality. i can seriously say, me and my brother are freaking far different from our parents in some ways.

i cant believe in this modern world, people are still conservative about where you come from. i don't know about you, but racism is something of the past. i guess these people just aren't exposed enough to different races in spite of this place being known for a racial harmony country...

i'm blogging this for many reasons. not just because of what's happening at mom's workplace. if you find this offensive, then read again. don't get me wrong, i love singapore, i have lived here almost my whole life, i have participated in many things too. and i treat this home. its just that some people are really big fucks. and one more recent thing, on wednesday, when i was rehearsing for next day's school national day event, mrs tong saw me and...

tong: another dance?
me: yeah, for national day
tong: ouh, is it your national day? are you sure its your national day too?[or something like that]
me: *raised eyebrow* yeah!

see what i mean? tsktsktsk. utter disappointment to the country i love to have such people. but ouh well. :) these are the kinda people we have to put up with everyday. and these are one of the kinda things that i draw strength from.

yp

yayay!!! last day of dance...awww, im prolly gonna miss balestier people.
aaaanyway, im supposed to be in the practice now. shitz! starts at 10. ugh.
hmmm, those who wanna watch...heres the details

Where: Youth Park
When: Tuesday, 17/06/08, 5pm

independence day

Happy 109th Independence Day

grabeh

ugh!
missed school again =_="
been lazy attendin school lately. wtf.
nahhhbeeii, holiday mood edi uh! since 2weeks ago. wth...
just went fo dance junnow.

~~~
fuck daaaaamn!
found out somethin today lar! like, wth!
i dont know how true it is uh, but wth...
lol. okaye, waeverrrr. *rolls eyes*

~~~
ugh. im taking up waaaay too much time on dance, im backin outta the IRIR competition.
craaaazy uh deh!
hectic days. but enjoying somehow. wakakaka. fun. but its ending soon :( [awww]
after 17th, no more dance fo me...lol. alarrrrr. sian.
lol. yaya. i suck at dance, i know. lol. lalala.

err, ya. idk-what title

PPPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSTTT!!!
hell yea!
my class tests are done and over with! thank you very muach!
weeee!
i soooooo love me!
and and and i didnt study!
ive been playing online games since thursay i think! wakakakaka
and and and, i only learned how to play poker on saturday. and i was already winnin winnin winnin over the pros.

lalala.
im gonna miss the school atmosphere again.
yknow, lookin out fo boys and [preferably] guys. wakakakaka. and the freakin food. and the toilet-times [lol] and the lift. and the...
:X schools hols only starts on friday and im already yappin. wakakaka.
but you see, i never miss the lessons! although i miss the class [how teachers and students are in class, tahha.
especially YAOKANS talking! hahaha. errbodys got his talking-way virus:
"humans versus humaaaans"
"whaT"
"ouh, forgeT abouT iT"] lol. farrni lar.


~~~
im very much feelin stoked now.
ouh yea! i HAD TAKOYAKIIIIII! thanks ki. *bluek* leilei!
nowadays my cravings for tako's quite emm...demanding...
cheeze!
awww now i feel like havin cheese fries =_=" as in real cheese fries and not those KFC cheese friez
ugh!

yay!!! friday friday! im gonna burst their eardrums! wakakakaka and kiki will prolly regret getting me! hah! okaye :X

japanese crane

weee!
tue, wed, thur.

emmm, been comin late for school again; missing 1st lesson e-v-e-r-yday; since last week, ditching school for 2-3 days.
the weeks before aint that bad. so emmm, yea, missed out on alot.
hope "tak-teng"[fyi, lecturers name: soong; hes center-bald/boTAK TENGah] wont bar me from septembers final exam? whatever. ive just been very tired and feelin lazy.

emmm, after my last post, its just same ol thing, class, boys, dance and the cycle goes. lol.
ouh hell yea! Gremio's [fyi, *rolls eyes* lecturers name: GREMar sempIO; filo] test is done bebeh! well, its just practical assignment. BUT hell its that BIG for us la.
assignment only, we were already scratching our heads, opening our books, walking around and sharing answers with one another [we werent supposed to]; what more with phase test?
but yea. fun, thats called love!

okaye later on, dry run fo CDC event. gawsh. gotta see that tong again. dang, she better not say last-minute things again. fuck damn messy lady :X cockup shio. can just imagine how adults find it working her. haha. blahblahblah.

i had McD's happymeal today finally! hotcakes + PO MasterCrane!
go fizzy.
jamming next friday.
tashtash fuck love you.
damn. shtoopid me cant go clubbin again :(

baby

ugh!!!
blah blah blah...
kah kah kah...


hyeahyeahyea...
its those days again wherein i just have no mood to communicate with anybody but fam.
so pardon me if and when i didnt and dont reply any of yall.
im just enjoying my rest.
i have been out and goin home late everyday, losing interaction with mom and dad...
until i decided to give myself a timeout...
last wednesday, saturday, sunday and today...totally a breather for me. *phew*
im happy i got to sleep with mom and dad again! weeee!


darn. =_=" back to....again tomorrow *sigh*
cant wait for the three-week term break.
at least dont have to wake up sheyt early.
minus one commitment out of many...

so yeah.
blahblahblah
kah kah kah...
stfu.

the voice

gawsh!!!
my gruff voice! its back!!! by demand!
i lovvveeett!!!
talk to mee! talk to mee!!! limited edition!! while raspiness last!!!
hahaha! yay!!! i just love my gravelly voice!

they say: "its sexy!"
i say: "i know..."
they say: "you're hawtt"
i say: "i know!!!"


*winks*

~~~
its harmless to miss people...
dont be a wuss to know how they are doing...
well, hello friend, how are you doing? thanks for visiting...

"punk rock princess" ;)

spit it out!

~mon~
so yeah, ive apologized.
i definitely felt better after havin that tête-à-tête.
we both felt the whole thing was predictable because we somehow have read each others personality.
well, im glad.
to be actually given an accolade with a group of friends around, even knowing me for just a short period of time; a year to be a lil exact, is such a great honor. because it shows shes been very observant throughout. shes seen my naughtiness, cheekiness, laziness, probably almost all of me, shes even been disappointed in me, still, she still found me genial.
at least she knows now, i can be an arse but im still real; no veil.

one thing i know for sure, ive let myself down in joining that chinwag ive promised myself never to get involved in since i stepped into ITE.
but rest assured, this will never happen again.
thank you so much. ;)


~~~
thank you IC West fam for the greetings and concern.
sorry for not being able to make it today.

thank you kiki for comin yesterday.
sorry it was cancelled.

thanks ely, leilei and errbody else who really pampered me like a real baby even if i could still manage my condition; kept telling me what and what not to eat/drink, lol.
eh-eh, "manje baby" sangat. ;P i suddenly miss ECP-day!

gee, i love you guys. tahha.


~~~
ive been gobbing out phlegm for the past few days! mmm, yummy! haha
cattarrhy throat + rheumy nose! = yayyy!!! germs flying away...
=_o"

friend.

sigh.
i hate what happened...it was really de rigueur...
im not gonna repudiate i was a blunder too.
hell, i can be very frank but im not so catty to affront eventually.
coz id always think of myself being in their situation.

~~~
just few days ago, i was kinda cornered by a friend, when i was just being realistic. and suddenly i was called a something. lol. i wonder if it was meant or it was just blurted out in an oblivious state? whatever it was, i was never really close with this one to begin with. someone who thinks they know you inside out but they dont? there would be friends who would be very nasty to you, yet would still somehow be friendly...i dont know. W.E.M

~~~
although i said some fuck sheyts, i still felt bitter inside. and yeah, i guess im a fucker.
friends make mistakes. and true friends will still be there when others have walked out. im not gonna be an ass and leave people hanging. im at fault fo havin said dumb stuffs, but im not gonna be a coward to just leave it at that. i guess thats what id call a real biatch. real bitches wouldnt be a coward to apologize either, right?


~~~
so yeah, lets get our facts right befo we start a fight.

grab it

this year, i thought id just be havin the usual slack year as a senior. but really,
second years a bitch. haha. in both a good and a bad way.

since the starting of my second year, april 14, its the day i took my favorite past time [TV] out of my life...[so called] coz i thought id be damn bloody busy with studies.
but hell, external projects just keep comin in. i stepped down from my post so as to have time to focus on studies.
since i wanna gain experience on things i havent touched on befo, i decided to accept the project. then came another, and another, and another. lol
its like, when i wanted it so much befo, it wasnt given to me, now that i dont really want it, they all come consecutively.
though at one side, its a kool experience, coz if you dont do it now, when will you ever?

"if you had one shot, or one opportunity/ To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment/ Would you capture it or just let it slip?/ ...This opportunity comes once in a lifetime"

aint it true? lifes like that. if you let it slip, thinkin "oh hey, its okaye, im sure itll come again. theres always a next time" then geez, wait til you start havin backaches then see if youre still wanna do it...

well, ever since second year started, i barely had time for family. and myself. lol. no time for other things. i dawdle. and yea, i need time management coz were all given 24hours blahblahblah.

no time to squeeze in the people who wanna get to know you. it sucks. because you wouldnt wanna give the wrong impression of yourself as the stuck-up biatch and all that jazz. i keep telling people i cannot reply because im either too busy, or too many people smsing that it kinda makes me sick to even entertain them. but of course, i do have the heart to not not entertain them, right? so what i do, i give my email address. but since ive been given another pile of sheyt, i think i may have to take my internet leisure out of my life too. for now i think. and really just concentrate on the things im supposed to do. that gonna be damn tough la. but yeah, imma do that. so like, my communication with yall will decrease to just in-the-flesh-communication, and a little on the line-communication.

and geez, if you wanna get to know me and get my number, get it yourself uh, dont shyshy ask friend to get for you uh. chicken... =_=" tsk...

bury me in a tub of ice...

*pfufff*
sorry i just parped...gross!
and all that...from drinkin green tea! wahahahaha!

befo i sat down and thought about bloggin, i was actually pissed with the weather thats been fweakin buggin everyone; hot damn, and blued with mom and dads bein sick...sigh. it affects me that much to see em all enervated and drained yet gettin up to cook fo us and doin the chores. shux! well, im glad theyve both taken leave today to see doccy and reeeaaally rest their asses! its why theyre my hero and heroine; sick also still got strength to do their daily doings. dang...id be whinin if i was in their place. lol

so yarrr,
got nothing to post...
basically just to whine about the weather...over and over again. geee.
evi mawnin, just after bath and yet to dry myself; already perspiring shiooo...lwth.
room 1405, sauna...imagine youre already sweltering your arses out in an open space; what more bein cooped up in that room with the air-con under maintenance or should i say not even under maintenance without fan for almost 3hours? wan die ar!? luckily they got us a coupla fans like after the break. hah. but after awhile, the fan was of no use to me, damn.

okaye, my fingers wanna stfu edi... :X