Did my malay 0’s on mon,290506..
How did I fair? Oh gosh! Dun ask!
I let cikgu down..I SUCK!!!
I know why..I didn’t take her advices..go in..go out..
I have this tense feeling when I see cikgu Roz..I’d keep quiet n all..
Cuz she’s really someone I admire..she’s good..she’s cool..
But I didn’t show her how big of a fan I was of her..
I cried..yes I did..cuz I was stupid..I let her down..
She’s too dedicated in her students..not really work..
I saw that..cuz she’d NEVER absent herself from school for no reason..even if she’s sick..like now!!!
I saw her passion in sharing her knowledge with us..
How I wish I can turn back the friggin time and redo my mistakes..right from primary school..yep! primary school..where I began to keep falling…
It’s really hard..and damn pain..I can’t redo what’s done..all I can do is improve on it..but the problem is I dunno how to get it back..
Yes..yes..step by step..slowly..i know!
But still can’t..
Then u’ll probably say..”patience…”
Patience! When is it gonna come back to me? how long will I have to be friggin patient? When my results are out? “failed” oh me gaaawsh…
Cannot la! wahlau!
Every night since sec 3..my bedtime prayer..I’d always remind Him to give me confidence..determination..strength..
I did get it..but only for awhile..
I know what He gives me is only the starter..then I gotta run it myself..but, oh well...
I guez..if we really want our determination back..even if we’re wounded by the hook of the fishin rod..we gotta let ourselves out and heal ourselves and voila! Ur alive again...movin on..
Hmm..I say so much..but if I could only apply it to myself..geee...
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