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i really am just holding on. But i don't know whom i can hold on to. People say "don't worry, i'm here for you." but often they're not. They say you're their friend, best friend, girlfriend when you're not. They just tell you that to make you feel better. Sometimes i don't even know why i'm giving in. Y'know, like when they ask you for a favour, you do it. But when YOU ask for a small favour, to them it's as if you're taking away their whole world, with that stupid reaction. Give and Take. But it's always just Take and Take. We're all surrounded by selfish people around us. But we're kind enough to give in. Well, we are selfish too anyway.

That's probably why i never trust anyone so much. Because i know they're not worthy of my whole trust. Yea, i may tell you i trust you, i do, but i don't trust you as much as you want me to because you're like that too.

Don't use me. i'm not a proxy. i know i always am being used as one. Y'know, like when there's no one else to go to or be with, "who u gonna call?!", Joanne. That's my role. Like when you've gotten what you want, i get forgotten, put aside. Yeah-yeah...Well too bad i ain't cruel enough to actually do that to you because i wasn't brought up like that. Geez... But that don't mean you can take advantage of me. Cuz i get tired too and patience has its limits. Don't be plastik, fake, two-faced son-of-a-bitch or bitch. Tell it straight to my face. It'd really be better.