a question i asked myself few days ago...
"are you happy?"
"emmm, i'm contented..."
great :) being satisfied i guess, is enough to make God and the people around me feel that they are important to me. yes yes...well, at least i'm not a hypocrite anymore; to say things that aren't meant and supposed to be said. i do mean what i say now; not that i didn't back then but i haven't been really real for four months. i won't say shit just to make people smile and make 'em feel at ease...ain't that bettur? i won't be such a nice gurl who says nice things just cuz she's afraid of hurt'n people's feelings anymore.
"are you happy?"
"emmm, i'm contented..."
great :) being satisfied i guess, is enough to make God and the people around me feel that they are important to me. yes yes...well, at least i'm not a hypocrite anymore; to say things that aren't meant and supposed to be said. i do mean what i say now; not that i didn't back then but i haven't been really real for four months. i won't say shit just to make people smile and make 'em feel at ease...ain't that bettur? i won't be such a nice gurl who says nice things just cuz she's afraid of hurt'n people's feelings anymore.
eg1 "do you think i'm fat/cute/handsome/pretty?"
me: [sarcastically]"don't you have eyes to see for yourself?!" or [seriously] if i think you really are then i'd say yes, if not then i'll say no.
but well, i'm sure it heavily depends on the situation, don't you think?!
eg2. "do you like/love me?"
me: [depends on the percentage]
but if you're talking to someone who's about to die, emm, you either let em die knowin the truth [that can hurt and eventually kill em...] or be all nice with em...
so yeap. just one of the few things i've learned; being really true and straight-out honest, but still being sensible! ;)
i did some back-read'n and my very first post in THIS blog,
"...I feel I’ve grown more as a person. [yeye not as matured as we all think we all are; but matured enough for me in this stage of my life..nope..not my age..but the stage in my life..]"
hmmm, then i guess i've matured at least a weebit! in this stage! my 19th year in this world, started out okay-ey, but exactly a month later, screwed things up, but learned from it, got up, aaaaand living again! great ;) it's sooo...okaye wait, i'm fagged, lemme get some rest yah?! i'll continue...
i did some back-read'n and my very first post in THIS blog,
"...I feel I’ve grown more as a person. [yeye not as matured as we all think we all are; but matured enough for me in this stage of my life..nope..not my age..but the stage in my life..]"
hmmm, then i guess i've matured at least a weebit! in this stage! my 19th year in this world, started out okay-ey, but exactly a month later, screwed things up, but learned from it, got up, aaaaand living again! great ;) it's sooo...okaye wait, i'm fagged, lemme get some rest yah?! i'll continue...
**ouh and btw, 5/1 suck!!! none has sent any of the fffucking photos from bbq. sad...
surely, somma y'all will be going "eeeyerr, never get photo oni say suck oredi..."
and i'll just go "yeah yeah, whatevurr...[with an eye-roll]"
lol. just playin' around...ouh but then again, there is a LITTLE TRUTH behind every "JUZ KIDDIN"...so yeap! hehhe ;}
g'bye!
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