47 days to christmas.
my wish for christmas is to relive my childhood.
running around with my fellow friends.
ice cream treats.
playgrounds.
presents.
parties.
toys.
everythings just so boring now. everybody doin their own stuff. gosh i hate growin up.
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im not stoked as i should be.
for one. the trip backs been cancelled.
two. which means im out being one of the abays/bridesmaids.
three. which means imma be replaced.
four. my much awaited of the year; celebrating christmas with my maternal clans ruined.
five. no cousin-ings.
six. no shopping/no huge rollercoaster rides/no fucking fun.
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shtewped sheyt!
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i have been feeling baffled lately. til now in fact. until i thought about it hard. and i came up with an assumption. that maybe i am falling-in-like. ouh myyyy. hahha. something i havent felt for a long time. but i already know its not gonna happen. nuh-uh. sigh. what a life. i just wanna be really taken care of. someone whos gonna make me laugh. someone whos gonna pamper me. that simple. and so far, i love gettin it from family and friends. not gonna ask for more. but of course if its gonna be given to me, then, COOOOL UUUUH. but of course i have limits. ill say no when i dont think its gonna turn out right. right? sigh. sucky life larr. i dont like feeling this way. eeeeeek. i dont wanna fall-in-like with anybody, you know! but somehow i cant control it. shtewpid sheyt!
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omg. thank you. because you said it. i know im sorry for many things too. i am so like fucking happy ive gotten over you a month ago. but im even happier ive gotten your apology. whoa. like koooool uuuuuh... sigh. what a life. but i think i still deserve explanations. but im not asking. at your own pace. just need closure.
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aaaaaaaaahhhh...imma go cracked! hellllp meee!
my wish for christmas is to relive my childhood.
running around with my fellow friends.
ice cream treats.
playgrounds.
presents.
parties.
toys.
everythings just so boring now. everybody doin their own stuff. gosh i hate growin up.
~~
im not stoked as i should be.
for one. the trip backs been cancelled.
two. which means im out being one of the abays/bridesmaids.
three. which means imma be replaced.
four. my much awaited of the year; celebrating christmas with my maternal clans ruined.
five. no cousin-ings.
six. no shopping/no huge rollercoaster rides/no fucking fun.
~~
shtewped sheyt!
~~
i have been feeling baffled lately. til now in fact. until i thought about it hard. and i came up with an assumption. that maybe i am falling-in-like. ouh myyyy. hahha. something i havent felt for a long time. but i already know its not gonna happen. nuh-uh. sigh. what a life. i just wanna be really taken care of. someone whos gonna make me laugh. someone whos gonna pamper me. that simple. and so far, i love gettin it from family and friends. not gonna ask for more. but of course if its gonna be given to me, then, COOOOL UUUUH. but of course i have limits. ill say no when i dont think its gonna turn out right. right? sigh. sucky life larr. i dont like feeling this way. eeeeeek. i dont wanna fall-in-like with anybody, you know! but somehow i cant control it. shtewpid sheyt!
~~
omg. thank you. because you said it. i know im sorry for many things too. i am so like fucking happy ive gotten over you a month ago. but im even happier ive gotten your apology. whoa. like koooool uuuuuh... sigh. what a life. but i think i still deserve explanations. but im not asking. at your own pace. just need closure.
~~
aaaaaaaaahhhh...imma go cracked! hellllp meee!
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