gone

SIGH.
knowhutt...
i hate liars. i hate traitors.

after her confrontation this morning about something,
it just hit me for the second fucking time...
to never fucking TRUST any-fucking-body AGAIN.
even if it's your relatives or cousins.

it took me years to let people in again...to confide in someone again...
then comes this...
it so totally made me be-in-a-huff this morning when i was about to leave for work; i didn't feel like working...
but y'know, i thought again, and i think it'd be better if i worked, rather than rotting at home, hearing stuffs i shouldn't be hearing.

c'mon...
they promised to not tell her...and i fucking believed.
and suddenly they keep tellin' her that "she doesn't know anythin' about me"
like.
sheesh.
damn.
fuck.
ugh!!!

you know that such a thing is a fucking big deal to her and ya'll told her like it's just something she can take. she's not gonna trust me anymore if she really finds out.

sigh. i hate ya'll. wtf.
if i can't trust my own cousins with secrets, what more with other people?!
right?
iunno who to trust anymore.

again.

i've lost my trust in people again.
i'm so sorry...
and no, i'm not gonna tell anyone about anything anymore.
it hurts, guys.
it hurts.


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well, thank you kiki, again.
and fyi, i'm working in tcc central. either clarke quay or central. okaye...