hellerrrr!!!
i haven't blog-ged for long-ged...lol-led...
okaye, lame =_+"
so how's errbody been? good? fine? not?
huwell...emmm, things have been different for me this year, i should say.
i know it's gonna seem/look cliche on this blog...
but really! i just didn't think i really COULD do what i'm doin' right now - although i have PICTURED how things WOULD be...
but now that it's actual, i should say i'm pretty much pleased with myself. heehee. i mean...not to be braggy and all, but i just feel i have attained something i didn't think i could, y'know? [it may seem shallow to you, but because we lead different lives...my level of achievement isn't as high as yours]
i mean, workin' my ass like this? wooootz. tiring...but the sense of accomplishment is there, so yeah.
just last saturday, my so-called 'last day' at tcc [before attachment started], we had a slam and i got kinda...y'know - from the captain, so that was a really not up to scratch for me and i was glad it was gonna be my last day for now then. but because of my monday and tuesday's blues about the things happenin', i decided to not give a fuck and just freakin' work.
and so, when i gave a thumbs-up on wednesday to work today, they put me at CQ...and upon reading the message, my eyes grew wider, my heart beat faster and my mind was like so messed up i couldn't think properly and i was just freakin' out!
i was really down til this mornin' that i didn't know what to do and how to back out...when i woke up this mornin' i actually was so worked up about how things were gonna be for me later on, that i chickened out and called up my manager and came up with something just so i wouldn't work there [today, or ever]...but in the end i had to...so yeah, i did. and on the way, kelo was feelin' tensed for me too that i felt bad...
and after all the jitters and the heebie-jeebies...everything went smoothly :)
and and and!!! shah granted me the 2month break! :P
and not to be bias...but the people at CQ are better than the ones at CAS; there's more interaction and people teaching.
anyway, after work, went to CAS, took my pay and like i said, it's really little...so i apologize to friends i really wanna treat. i'm disappointed myself...
i gave all my pay to my parents, without being prompted by mom coz i really wanna help anyway, and besides, it's for my future too. i felt sad that what i worked for will just go for my freakin' school fees but when i saw their faces, it just jazzed me up coz i know besides it being of a big help, i felt their being proud of me; of what i did. and i think it's all worth it. i mean it's not like it's gonna be like this forever, right? sheesh. heehee
~~~
i miss you guys so much. i haven't met any of y'all for so long.
i know...we're all waiting for that one day...
ouh well, one day...
i haven't blog-ged for long-ged...lol-led...
okaye, lame =_+"
so how's errbody been? good? fine? not?
huwell...emmm, things have been different for me this year, i should say.
i know it's gonna seem/look cliche on this blog...
but really! i just didn't think i really COULD do what i'm doin' right now - although i have PICTURED how things WOULD be...
but now that it's actual, i should say i'm pretty much pleased with myself. heehee. i mean...not to be braggy and all, but i just feel i have attained something i didn't think i could, y'know? [it may seem shallow to you, but because we lead different lives...my level of achievement isn't as high as yours]
i mean, workin' my ass like this? wooootz. tiring...but the sense of accomplishment is there, so yeah.
just last saturday, my so-called 'last day' at tcc [before attachment started], we had a slam and i got kinda...y'know - from the captain, so that was a really not up to scratch for me and i was glad it was gonna be my last day for now then. but because of my monday and tuesday's blues about the things happenin', i decided to not give a fuck and just freakin' work.
and so, when i gave a thumbs-up on wednesday to work today, they put me at CQ...and upon reading the message, my eyes grew wider, my heart beat faster and my mind was like so messed up i couldn't think properly and i was just freakin' out!
i was really down til this mornin' that i didn't know what to do and how to back out...when i woke up this mornin' i actually was so worked up about how things were gonna be for me later on, that i chickened out and called up my manager and came up with something just so i wouldn't work there [today, or ever]...but in the end i had to...so yeah, i did. and on the way, kelo was feelin' tensed for me too that i felt bad...
and after all the jitters and the heebie-jeebies...everything went smoothly :)
and and and!!! shah granted me the 2month break! :P
and not to be bias...but the people at CQ are better than the ones at CAS; there's more interaction and people teaching.
anyway, after work, went to CAS, took my pay and like i said, it's really little...so i apologize to friends i really wanna treat. i'm disappointed myself...
i gave all my pay to my parents, without being prompted by mom coz i really wanna help anyway, and besides, it's for my future too. i felt sad that what i worked for will just go for my freakin' school fees but when i saw their faces, it just jazzed me up coz i know besides it being of a big help, i felt their being proud of me; of what i did. and i think it's all worth it. i mean it's not like it's gonna be like this forever, right? sheesh. heehee
~~~
i miss you guys so much. i haven't met any of y'all for so long.
i know...we're all waiting for that one day...
ouh well, one day...
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