hello again.
i'm in the blogging-mood tonight. heehee.
anyways, i just wanna thank ghen aka ate babe for saturday's celebration. i could've enjoyed it more if i wasn't sick and was able to drink and my folks not being so bigoted. i didn't even have the chance to spend at least a minute of our special day 'cuz i had to go home before 12, shux to that. ouh well, ouh well.
i haven't really been talkin' to them...unless spoken to. but yeah, of course, respect is still there, but my pride is also there - and theirs as well. since we all think we are right in our own way, then i guess we'll leave it at that. i think i'm old enough to know my rights and my freedom...and i guess it's something they will never accept. if at 23, my brother's still being constrained, what more when i reach the legal age? i understand their concern...i know it's about our safety they're worried about. but if they're forever gonna be like that, then they're treating us more like lil children than adults.
many say kids' attitude or behaviour's kinda genetic. i kinda doubt it. my brother and i, are adventurous and like to explore stuff. but we just never really got to, because of their fear of our well-being. well, at least my brother, being a guy, has done many things already. being the youngest and the only girl, the belt's tighter on me. that sucks! sexists! lol.
ouh there. mom just came into my room, lookin' suspicious and starts shootin' questions again. ever since dad saw me with kiki last week, they've been bombarding me with speculations! it's really gettin' on my fucking nerves. my life here at home haven't been smooth since secondary school. up and down. but it's this week that really triggered my wrath towards them. sigh. running away won't help if that's what you're thinkin. that's plain stupid. it's not as if it'll better things.
if i come clean, they'll force me stop and end things. so you see? what choice do i have but to remain silent, right? i'm seriously gettin' disgruntled with everything that ever since saturday night, i decided to not argue back and just remain silent all the way, letting them think that they're right. because seriously, no matter how open i try to be...they'll shut me out eventually.
the thing that ticks me off is when dad makes a joke about me having a boyfriend and stuff but when i try to open up, their mood changes. sheeesh! tell me about that. it's like you thought they'd open the 'freedom' door but as soon as you take a step closer [utter something], they shut the door. crazy.
and one last thing, i feel ouh-so-fucking-stupid right now, feelin' all-so-excited, waiting down here since i got home three hours ago and suddenly i JUST received a message that says goodnight...sheesh. i'm really fucked up again. i got shut out again!!! ugh!!! all the while i thought my phone's gone bonkers again! but geez! i so need that mathafuckin' anger-management! like seriously! i h-a-t-e everyone right now.
already so many things that i've been so excited about d-i-d-n't happen, and now it's even worse! FUCKING HELL. i feel i'm being taken for granted :(
i'm being pushed aside...i'm really hating you guys...
fine!
and again, my header and footer contradicts.
i'm in the blogging-mood tonight. heehee.
anyways, i just wanna thank ghen aka ate babe for saturday's celebration. i could've enjoyed it more if i wasn't sick and was able to drink and my folks not being so bigoted. i didn't even have the chance to spend at least a minute of our special day 'cuz i had to go home before 12, shux to that. ouh well, ouh well.
i haven't really been talkin' to them...unless spoken to. but yeah, of course, respect is still there, but my pride is also there - and theirs as well. since we all think we are right in our own way, then i guess we'll leave it at that. i think i'm old enough to know my rights and my freedom...and i guess it's something they will never accept. if at 23, my brother's still being constrained, what more when i reach the legal age? i understand their concern...i know it's about our safety they're worried about. but if they're forever gonna be like that, then they're treating us more like lil children than adults.
many say kids' attitude or behaviour's kinda genetic. i kinda doubt it. my brother and i, are adventurous and like to explore stuff. but we just never really got to, because of their fear of our well-being. well, at least my brother, being a guy, has done many things already. being the youngest and the only girl, the belt's tighter on me. that sucks! sexists! lol.
ouh there. mom just came into my room, lookin' suspicious and starts shootin' questions again. ever since dad saw me with kiki last week, they've been bombarding me with speculations! it's really gettin' on my fucking nerves. my life here at home haven't been smooth since secondary school. up and down. but it's this week that really triggered my wrath towards them. sigh. running away won't help if that's what you're thinkin. that's plain stupid. it's not as if it'll better things.
if i come clean, they'll force me stop and end things. so you see? what choice do i have but to remain silent, right? i'm seriously gettin' disgruntled with everything that ever since saturday night, i decided to not argue back and just remain silent all the way, letting them think that they're right. because seriously, no matter how open i try to be...they'll shut me out eventually.
the thing that ticks me off is when dad makes a joke about me having a boyfriend and stuff but when i try to open up, their mood changes. sheeesh! tell me about that. it's like you thought they'd open the 'freedom' door but as soon as you take a step closer [utter something], they shut the door. crazy.
and one last thing, i feel ouh-so-fucking-stupid right now, feelin' all-so-excited, waiting down here since i got home three hours ago and suddenly i JUST received a message that says goodnight...sheesh. i'm really fucked up again. i got shut out again!!! ugh!!! all the while i thought my phone's gone bonkers again! but geez! i so need that mathafuckin' anger-management! like seriously! i h-a-t-e everyone right now.
already so many things that i've been so excited about d-i-d-n't happen, and now it's even worse! FUCKING HELL. i feel i'm being taken for granted :(
i'm being pushed aside...i'm really hating you guys...
fine!
and again, my header and footer contradicts.
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