Relinquish.

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”

hmmm...i guess i loved him too much that i had to let him go...
i dare not force myself into someone who chooses to walk away and doesn't want me anymore...
but my friends, especially those who know me longer, know well enough that what i had with him was real.
they saw the big change, the different and better me when i was with him...
they knew i gave my all. something i'd never do to any other.
the one i had with my first love...was nowhere close to what i had with him...
because my last wish and prayer from God...i requested for a last love that will last til my last breath...and when i get it...i will tReasuRe it and would give eveRything.

yes, i'm still a human being. i make mistakes.
i am guilty. but it's just not enough to bRing eveRything back. it's alRight. it's a lesson leaRned.



i've stopped hoping...but my fRiends aRe continuing the desire of us getting back one day.
"just let time heal" they said.

but it's too early to tell...for many words & promises were broken...
"foreder" for one...is really "whateder"-ish...
"i'm not gonna leave you"...
"no matteR what"...

i was just as huRt as he was/is?...