time heals all wounds

Rosssyyyy! I hope u enjoyed. Though many wasn’t there. Sad case. I’m sorry. But super thank you to those who made the effort to come. It means so much to me. And Ros of course.

Sorry for the long black face. Not because of THAT. Many factors! One is the people who didn’t turn up. Another’s THAT. Third’s the fucking work I’m supposed to do but can’t, cuz of my little cousins. Waaaaaaaddddaaaa?!!! And to think I’ve MME Phase Test on Tue already! I’m not familiar with Photoshop yet. Even if my dad’s a PRO. Sigh. I haven’t done CMO’s Module 7. Haven’t read the notes. Practically I haven’t done anything I’m supposed to have done a looong time ago.

All because I got caught up with things I shouldn’t have been so caught up with at all! So anyway, I’ve told everybody about it. Well, not everybody. Just those who know. Lol. I just don’t wanna look dumb and make them think I’m fine when I’m not. KUYA knows about it. Brendz too. And of course, friends. Lol. Somehow I miss my old self. I should have been the OLD Joanne. I’m just so wrong. Oh well, gotta learn from mistakes. “THAT’S LIFE”

Soooo anyways, Gid and I were supposed to go for eyebrow threading. But there were many people and Gid was pretty scared about it cuz she said it’s pain. Lol. Paaaiiin…paaaiiin…Heck uh! Bleed bleed uh! Nice whaaat! So yeah, we looked for a salon that does eyebrow trimming. Lol.

Didn’t talk much to Thiru during the celebration. But when we went off, he shouted that he misses me. I’m pretty happy hearing it yet NOT. I just miss you, Thiru. But you’re just busy now. And you’re just not Thiru anymore. I really miss you dude.

Before, everything was so so fine until things started falling. DOMINO EFFECT. Deeeewwwwwddah. I think right now I can’t chill. I’m piled up with shits to do. All because of YOU lah…nahbehh…lol. I think I can only chill when term break comes. I hafta unwind. Imma do that. I will. Uhhuh. So I’ll see ya? Okaye! Set! And I won’t let anyone ruin it. This time, I’ll make sure you’ll get a taste of delicious me. I’ll let you have a piece of me. I will. Just push your luck okaye? You only have seen me, just not the me-me. Getz? Lol. I’m crazy yawwww…Waddidewww….

COLD snow

Snow City. Fine. I got totally chilled. Though I wasn’t chilling. Cuz my mind just wasn’t in there. But anyways, I still enjoyed it cuz kuya was there. I’m happy that way. And he gave me a kiss, after how long! Geez.. Yes, I’m happy cuz I really missed him.

Anyway, I just proved myself right after all. “PANAKIT BUTAS” is the word. It’s really dumb. Haha. Cuz you had to DRAG me into ur life. But I’m glad na hinde ako TANGA enough to bigay my feelings sayo. I did. Pero HINDE lahat. Which is good. At least hinde pa naman ako ganon Katanga. Lol. And that week really made you made up your mind. Ang katangahan ko lang is…pina kilala kita sa mga kaibigan ko. Lol. I guess tanga pa rin ako. :P Whatever. So yeap. Since alam ko na, at bukas Imma celeb my friend’s Bday I decided na you should't be there. So if you’re gonna be there to sira ung mood ko, dew, just stay away muna. Cuz dew, it’s a CELEBRATION…so scram… :)

the Betch's back

Vesak Day. Went to sentosa with cousins and unc and aunt. ‘Twas fine. A lil boring? Or should I say I didn’t really enjoy it? Lol. I guess because I’ve been there few times and going to the same place just bore me out. Nah, it was fine. I enjoyed the time with the kids. Seeing their faces light up makes me happy. It’s really fun to take tourists out. Their faces, lol. Like to us it’s nothing but to them it’s like “whoa” lol. Whatever. I went back to the Phil and I was like “whoa” [with that action] too. There are so many cool places. Okaye, whateverrrr….

I’m just trying to get myself out of that situation I’m in. Kinda like avoiding..chhhyyeeaaahhh. I still think about it…but…y’know! It’s pretty dumb if you’re gonna always think about it right?! I’ll look crap if I do that. Besides, I’m known as the fuckin “feelingLESS creature” so I should really stand by that slogan! I shouldn’t let myself look like shit cuz of one small thang! Get up BETCH! What it dew? Aye. I’m back yooo. Imma be the girl I always was. Fuck! I’m back, and I’m lovin it. Chhhyyyeaaahh…. And

I’m gonna get back attcha… WORD!

replaced

I’m happier tadday. The past few days, the people close to me are just so so busy that I feel I’m not important anymore. I was just so lonely that I don’t know what the hell’s up with everybody. Where’ve they gone to? I just needed to talk to someone badly y'know.

Well, last night, a HI on msn made me feel I’m remembered [at least! phew!]. A friend I learned to understand and like since the "last-minute ‘O‘ Math coaching" started :). He noticed I’m not my usual crazy-self for the past few days - through msn, lol. Anywaysss, we initially planned to just snack at McD but I guess we haven’t seen each other for so long now, so he treated me to the Pirates movie :) [arrrrrrr]. After which, we borrowed the book I’ve been looking for.

Hey, you made me feel cared for. Not much words were said. Though I didn’t open up what has been bothering me, the presence and company was well enough to make me feel better. I just wanted someone to make me happy again. Real thanks Glenndzzy. You made me smile again :). Thank You.

Where are you when I need you?
Only one made an effort to make me smile.
A simple "Hi, how are you? [Are you dead yet?!]" would have been enough.

burned out

As of this second, and for the past few days, all I’ve been feeling were anger, irritation, annoyance and the fire building up inside. I don’t like it - yet there’s nothing I can do, but to keep it inside. The only way I can release my anger is through listening to my music. Not literally MY music. But yes, my music. Okaye…Whutteverrr!

It’s the only the only friend I’ve got when I can’t tell the problem to anyone else.

I wanna thank RV for helping me forget it at least for awhile. At least it was off my mind even with that little time we had. You made me reminisce about the recent past. How I really wish you will come back here and hang out. And you always pray for me! How thoughtful! I miss you kuya. At least I’m always remembered by you and you make an effort to say that you’re always by my side.

Effort - is what we all need to gain something in life. It’s what I haven’t experienced for the past few days. Well, I have, with a few people. But the effort that I’m expecting from someone is the one that really pisses me. I’m sad that it’s gotta be tha way but I guess it’s life. “loooiiiifffeeee…” Ugh..

The stupid Safety Project that I’m supposed to hand in tomorrow.. *sigh* I’ve no inspiration, no motivation to do at all. Plus so many fuckin distractions! Mom callin, aunt callin, small cousins callin, elder cousin callin…all for help! If not one after another, all at the same time! *sigh* I’ve got submission tomorrow, Cisco Test tomorrow, Phase TestS next week and I haven’t done any revision, haven’t read any notes that was given from the very beginning. I have to “tour” my relatives who just arrived yesterday, Monday. I’ve lack of sleep. My eyes are darker than ever. Again.

It’s always like this. One problem comes, and it gets more. It’s like, everything’s just not going well. And I need someone. But there’s no one I can run to. I’m all left behind. But it’s okaye I guess. It’ll all be over soon. I’m really just burned out.

paranoia

I’m weary. But if there’s a prize in the end, then I’ll be ecstatic. If not, then I guess it’s life.

I don’t wanna make things worst now, all I want is for me to be living the usual life I’ve been living a month ago. Back when it was just Me. I really never wanted to get involved in this.

I’m thinking too much. I’m getting paranoid. BLLLLEEEAAAHHH!

Thurr

happiness that may not stay that long

I was quiet the whole day. Since yesterday. Yesterday’s sadness is different from today’s though.

We had a motivational talk this afternoon. I liked the “singin-lecturer” who sang this ITE song with this famous tune. Fuck it’s dank! And the last talker too. He’s funny. Jjjyyeaaahhh! Oh yeah, met Winson [Indian] who came for the talk too. I thought of going home straight after the talk but Sabby pulled me to have lunch at the café. Yaddayadda. Then met the other Winson [Chinese] in the bus. And tadddaaa…

I’m just really in no mood to go further even if quite many things happened. Cuz all I’m thinking of is ikaw, it’s pretty crazy. But yes, that’s how I feel.

Nami-miss kita from the moment naghiwalay tayo kagabe. It’s suchha strong feeling. I don’t know why iba ang dating mo para sakin. Pero anyways, hinde ako pwede mag feel this way because you’re there right now. At baka may mangyari na hinde ko gustong mangyari. Yes, natatakot ako, dahil iba na ang feelings ko para sayo. And I’m just playing safe para hinde ako masaktan. You may think that I shouldn’t be feeling this way pero I can’t help it. It’s pretty scary. Pero gusto kitang i-trust. So fer now, cguro I’ll do my best not to let it overcome me. I’ll let you be and I’ll try not to palagi isip ikaw cuz I’ll just go crazy. Lol.

Well, at least I’ve let it out. Lol. Fuck I'm brainsick already.

bowl billy flight

POSTED TIME: 0040am

Olaaa! I was 45 mins late for class, along with yijuan. *sigh*… and I thought I’d change. Yaddayadda..class the same, sit down and chill. At least fer me. While the rest are busy doin their Safety at Work Proj. *sigh* I haven’t started on mine - at all. And to think that we’re gonna have Phase Test on 5th June! Like Duuuueee! C’mon man, Kenya gimme more time? Lol. I’m really slackin my ass here. Just imagine if I’d gone to Poly - would’ve been worse ey? But yeah, Imma buck up! Pull my socks as high as I possibly can, since Jules aint gonn be here for a week. I can concentrate on my this sheiit!

So yeah, anyways, after school went to BPP to change. I guess I got too excited that my fuck phone dropped in the toilet bowl! Like waddafuck! I fuckin quiggly dipped my hands to take it! EEEEwwwwww! But but but! Good thing was that the bowl was flushed clean. But but but!!!! G-R-O-S-S!!!! still! Right?! Right?! Right?! I knoooow….*sigh*

So I got changed. My shirt was too small that it made my pants looked too low. Dang! I thought of goin back to change, so I decided to call Jules through the payphone *weirdness* [haven’t touched one til now] I dropped the coin but it kept comin out, then I dropped again and dialled, got through but I couldn’t hear a word he said! Wadda?! So I was like “hello?! Helluuuu?! Fuck! I can’t hear anything”. Then I hung up and just decided to go back home to change. Was walkin at the Interchange when I saw him…wearing a jacket! [ur my hero due!] So I took his jacket and wore it [I’m learnin to love his jacket though it’s a lil big fer me]. Didn’t bother about the people who was gonna look at mey and think that I’m not a good dresser or whattever! I duno, when I’m with Jules, I don’t mind lookin stupid. [lol]. So yeah, he took my bag [though it was pink] then yeah…headed to Heeren.

Went to have lunch at Billy Bombers. There weren’t any bloody customers but us! Geee. Fuck boring! [can't my day get any worse than this?!] Haha. But yeah, at least we had the place to ourselves. It’s as if he closed the Resto for other customers just for the bothha us. [awwww] But like the crew had no one to look at so they were, from time to time, lookin at us. [JEALOUS ryt!!!] Yaddayadda. Walked til FarEast then got bored and tired so went to his place to chill. T’was hard cuz people kept comin in and out of their room and we were in the Living Room. [lol, CHEEKEY!]
After that, sent me home and at least we had some fine time with each other in the...emm, yeah! So yeah! Hahaha.

Aanywaaaays, have a safe flight and go do yer thang aight!? Take care, and yes, miss you. Now G’night Everyone who‘s gonna sleep or are asleep!

and it has to come up now....

Here I am, feeling bothered about something I never thought I should be bothered about anymore. Most of the time, it comes up, and we joke about it. But sometimes, it gets a lil too much, and I'll feel ill at ease.

It was never my intention to do those in the first place but somehow I guesss I felt too comfy. I thought I would be understood that I’ll never go beyond those. We know that I’m just not that. I’ve yet to clear it up again. And if it can’t be accepted the way it is, then all I can say is:

Thank You, don’t waste my time. Ouh, and I’m sorry too. Now you can go.

monday no-blues

Esther was on MC tadayye so class was released at 11 instead of 1. Yep! All we did was do the previous classworks we haven’t done. I think mine was the worst cuz cuz ALL the work I’ve done is like TOILET PAPER! Like DEW! It’s that bad. Lol. Not so lah. Ye know? Like Sec sch dayyes. Crumpled and torn. Gee! And I’ve to rewrite em all. NOPE I wasn’t asked to - I just wanted to doet! I know, I’m still that messy girl I was and still is. But YES, at least I clear up my things and put em neatly again! Just like my work! See! I ain't that bad afterall!

I’ve noticed that most of my posts have Ju’s name. lol! It’s gotta change! It’s as if my world revolves around him only! What sia! Distraction siaa! I dun like siaaa! Walleeeeooo! And to think that we’re just hangin out! Haha…yea, I call it that! :)

Gee, what a lazy afternooooon fer me! Here I am, eating the food infronna me [for 2hours already] And I’ve yet to do the work I have! *sigh* I just want everyday to be a holiday…at least fer mey. Kennit?? Kennit??? SLUGGARD Joanne. Aye, Imma go finish this chicken adobo and I’ll nap! Or Sleep shall I say! Toodles!

falawer

he plucked it from the Church and gave it to meh! silly Ju!

SUNDAY! Went to Bugish to accompany kuzzie for an interview. While she was there, Mr Julian and I went to find the skurrt that I tripped yesterday when Ros and I were there. We searched HIGH and LOW for that skurrt! And we found it at last! Alllllriiiiighhhttah! Though! The price was 9 bucks more than the one Ros and I found! It was only 10 and this was 19! Like waddda?! But diff shop uh! Glad Jules was there, so he paid fer it ferst. Lol. And he even wanted me to choose more. And I wes like, “no thanks.” All because he was paying fer it! *sigh* if only I had money! Siala! PeniSless sia me! Haha! Penniless I mean! I’m that POOR guys! I’m always depending on people. I’m bayyed! I know. But y’all still love me cuz I’m DANK like that!

After that, we went to Novena Church. And Jules wasn’t lookin in front! Instead he was looken at me. *sigh* it’s hard to attend mass withim! Like you can’t concentrate cuz he’s starin atcha! That silly boi! He said he feels restless at church. Ouh! And I donated the last 2bucks I had with me. Am I GENEROUS or what! AAAnyways, we headed home after mass cuz Jules had to be in camp early.

We were makin fun of the people we saw. Especially the Filas [Filipinas] in the train. Cuz when we stopped at Orchard Stn and the Filas came in, like whoa! The noise! Like dayyym! And I was like “shhh!”, “eh! Noisy leh!” LOUDLY hahaha. And Julez was just laffin; shakin his head on me! And I was being pretty bitchy when people looked at me. I was like “Yes?! Wajja lookin at!” and they’d just look away. And there was this 14y/o boy who kinda pushed me and I said, "Bitch!" and he looked and responded with that scared face. Lol. And and, Julez would act gayish with all the Bangla and Indian guys we saw. Lol. Teehee! I’m always that Hyphy when we’re tagetha! WEEEEE….

Tekka Muthu's Curry

Tadddaaaa! I was fagged out last night cuz I’ve been having lackka sleep since school started and I’ve been going out a lot more this month. *sigh* [buuuuut, I looooiiikkkee]. I guess I’m just still not disciplined enough on sleeping early. Siaaala! I’m really a night person. Soooo not a morning person that’s why even if I sleep early, and for 8hours, I still get sleepy in the morning. Gee…

Went out with Ros [first time in a few months! Lol]. Yes yes, I was late [rolls eyes]. I guess I dun ever have to repeat that stupid phrase. Went to accompany her to Sim Lim to buy her mp4. Then walked around Bugis St awhile before deciding to have lunch. We were already seated at Food Junction when we both decided to have lunch with Thiru on his break. So we went to Little India to meet up with Thiru! Funny thing was, while waiting fer him, every Indian guy we see comin out from the escalator, we were like “there Thiru, there Thiru!” lol. Til we see the face! We’re mean! Thiru finally came and we went fer our LuNner! [5+ pm]. Thiru already took his effing lunch laaaa! So Ros and I just had ours! Geez! All the waiting for nothing! Nahbeh! Aaanyway, we ate at the coffee shop at the Tekka Market?! My first time in that place and my first time in soo many years eating in a coffee shop. Kewl experience! Haha. I had nasi goring that was like a FULL plate! And I unbelievably finished it! DAYYYEEEMM! Am I gooder what! Yep! Then accompanied Thiru back to his werkin place. Dayym the place was pretty! I luvveett! Ros and I loved it! Thiru told us to order at least a drink. And so we did! One glass of Lime Juice. His colleagues wondered why just a glass of LJ. DuuuDE! We were like so fuggin full I couldn’t even drink any more. Bloated siaaaa. But I forced lor! For Thiru’s sake!

Seeing Thiru work, just really makes me think how much we all have grown. I still can’t believe it somehow. We’ve all grown so much! Like just yesterday we were running around makin a fool outta ourselves and now we’re here, sittin down, talkin, workin. GEE. I’m really proud of you dew! I am so. Ouh ouh!!! And that ASTHA girl is pretty. You should really getta know ‘er! Dew! I’d really like to see you with her one day mannn! Haha. I’m not matchmakin. I just think that you guys look cute! Heh! Maybe she’ll think that you’re that “tall, dark and handsome”! Go give it a try! Haha. Okaye, now I’m matchmakin! Hahaha. I’d really wanna be her friend. And she’s a Nepalese! Like Dew! I wanna have a Nepalese friend! Heh!

So yeah! After that went to Far East, walked [boring place, really] then headed home. I’m fagged. I really had great time with you two! Though twas lil time, seeing your faces just made my day today! So yep! I Love you.

Was 1/2h late for class. Jo was patient when Yi Juan and I came in.
Jo [me]: Goodmornin Jo!
Jo [her]: Good morning! Okaye, let’s just give our friends here some time to do this. *smiling*
[she‘s real cool]. She then gave us this card-size paper which has a word on it and we were supposed to draw out our expression of the word. Mine said “PATIENCE” [lol]. I already thought of something but I thought it should be something diff than that so it took me time to think how I should express it and I couldn’t think of any so I just went ahead with my first thought. So I drew. Then she showed it to the class and said that it was cute of me to do that *NOTE* [she said cute] [lol] I guess that’s the only first thing that’ll come into my mind whenever I see the word patience.

PE! I was thinken whether or not to play. But when I got there, I just got all hyphy and did the hyphy movement even if I wasn’t feeling well…ooooh ahh loooveeet! Played badminton with Idah, Merv, Ting Long? and Hong Lei. Twas cool. Was gonna go home when sab called out me name so I looked, then went to the loo [lol], came out, still all sweaty, came to sab’s table awhile, a lil “I miss u, I miss u too”s then Merv came down, I bought Green Tea packet drink and headed home together with Hong Lei.

HOME: was resting and planning what I was gonna do til I decided to chill with Julie…lol..JULIAN dear. Was late. As usual. Gee. But all’s well. Enjoyed. Had dinner at KFC cuz he was cravin for that new thingy on the block while I was cravin for that crispy chicken [only KFC]. Then went to buy 3roses for his momma [which I was suppose to give last week but didn’t] then went to his place chill awhile then he brought me home. He was pretty sad about what I said but dew! It’ll only be for a day! Just a day! We can doet! After that, if all’s well, then we shall resume. Otaye?! I know it’s hard fer me too, saying all those stuff but it’s both fer our own gewd! And you knowet! I miss u.

reunion kiss

Yay! I didn’t attend class today! I was sick. Slept til 12pm and I woke up still feeling giddy…but I forced myself to get up. Took mah brunch and chilled here at home til around 5 then I took a bath and chao-ed to Lot1 to meet FEEDA, DEEYANA and AYEESHA! Eh, how come their name got the “EE” in the middle of their name?! I no-have! Never mind, mine’ll be JOANNEE or JOWEEYN [hey that’s cute!] yey! I just created a new nickie fer mie! Now u can call Wee, ahakz! A lil weird, but I loooiiikke!

Aaanyways, I think I was the first one to arrive? Or was it mummy? She was sitting down at the that side…then she saw me [she didn’t recog me at first but I guez it was how I stood or the shoes I wore or whatever] then she came in fronna me and I was like “eh why got ger stand in front of me wan?!” then I looked at the face and I was like “mummmy!!!” or did I say “aiiishahh!!!” okaye, whichever! Then she gave me the kinda-left-over Kinder Bueno choc cuz she said I was always late and since I was surprisingly early, she thought I deserved it! Nola, it wasn’t left-over, she saved the other half. Kaye, then I saw Aada and Dino then when they approached “ahhhhh!!”…yeah, we were kinda screaming like gay gals. Lol! Went to McD at first then they said they wanted KFC, so we went, but full house, wanted to go back McD but Ice said that it may be full already so we went to LJS; full house but we waited anyway. Kaye then they ordered first, and sodidai when Julez came. Yaddayadda…then we chilled outside..., they all fuckin s***ed! And I was there, bein a good gal, sniffin all that they released from their asses and their asses. Those asses! Lol. Am I GOOD or wat?! After that went to take NEOPRINT! Hahaha. It’s been ages!

Anyways, ‘twas a kewl reunion! I just missed y'all.

Kiss with a virus! Lol..and he didn’t mind! He’s suchhen ass…I loooiiikkee. Maybe cuz I'm DANK like that!

ditch bitch

Didn’t do much today, just did a brief write-up on the Safety-at-Work Project then ditched school. I was feeling unwell and still am. Caught sore-throat yesterday after eating chewing gum, I dunno what’s the connection but jesh…I caught it anyway and now I’m havin runny nose. Wadddda! I kinda like-don’t like it? Like it’s nice to be a lil sick ‘cuz then I don’t have to attend class and not nice cuz I duwanna feel like this! I hate the feeling! Plus I can’t cuddle cuddle cuz I duwanna pass my virus [awwww] I know, I’m sweet like that.

But anyways, I wish that they’ll give me already. I’m so so big now. *I’m a big big girl in a big big world, it’s not a big big thing if y’all GIVE me. But I do do feel that I do do will make you proud, maaaaake you prouuuud.* I mean I’d feel way better bein open right? Sighhhh…

Anyways, cuzzin’s goin back on Thursday already. I hope He’ll have better plans fer her. I haven’t been a good cuzzin, pretty bitchy [lol] but ye know. I’m DANK like that. Ahakz!

and Julez likes it!

HAPPY 51st BIRTHDAY MOMMY

SONday

My Sunday started out kinda hyphy til I was asked to help out with the house chores; which I of course resisted and in which of course, I got scolded for [jeeperz]…buuuut! Of course! My hyphy sidda me made everything well again! And yeaaaap!

Well okaye, so here goes. The night before: dad IM-ed me from their bedroom, askin whether he can give his gift to her already. And I was like “noooo, not yeeet! Why can’t wait for tomorrow til kuya comes then we give’er one bye one….” and then he agreed. Sunday morning: I was bombarded with my mom’s wake-up call, [she sounded happy!!!] she kept wakin me up! I was really damn exhausted from the day before. *grin* I woke up, went to their room and saw UZAP! No wonder she was all stoked..dad already gave her the gift! [spoiler siaaaa] Anyway, that was when the *hyphy movement* came then got scolded for not helping out then I did the *hyphy movement* again til I took a bath and got ready for church. Kuya and Brendz came, pizza came too and none of the couple touched the food cuz dada, momma, ate and I weren’t there with them [lol, how thoughtful] So then 3 of em joined and finally started. I didn’t join cuz I was busy groomin, lol. Ate and I went to church, leaving the 4 of em behind. I met Julian at church and after the mass, saw Philip too. Was supposedly to go to Julian’s bbq just to greet his momma but I cancelled last minute cuz I didn’t wanna let ate feel OP. ouh wellllz *sigh*. [see I’m also thoughtful!]

Monday! The usual, classes. Then went to ECP to accompany ate for a job interview [so far, zilch]. Julian tried to get outta the camp but couldn’t; I guess it’s cuz he was so drunk last night that they allowed him to book-in this morning only and him tryinna get out again just ain’t fair anymore. ‘tsokaye!

Me got sore throat larr dey! I think it was all the blowjobs! Hahaha..okaye that was gross. I can never imagine myself doin that. C-H-E-A-P… AAAAnywayssss…I just wanna get well soon! It’s 1920 and I wanna rest but ate’s invaded my bed! *Gaaaash!*

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

there

My day was normal, fun - was supposed to meet Julian at 11 to chill at his place but i only took a bath at that time. Hah! Just went to Harbour Front, was supposed to watch moveey but the timing's pretty late so we just had lunch at Secret Recipe, walked around, chilled at one place, did a lil shopping with him - for him, then headed back to CCK for me to attend a Bday parttey. Didn't stay long. Met up with Julez, brought me home, chilled awhile before i went home-home. Pretty lazy to really elabo on things - just so the damn eggjossted.

i'm happy with you

just like you are with me! [lol]

happy ass-ache

Wellow! Friday! Was excited to go school cuz of Josephine’s class. Woke up and was about to grab my stuff for shower when I heard noises - of many many, pretty heavy, kinda maybe drops of rain. [lol] Opened my window and tadddaaaa! trees were swayin as the winds blew, makin…Bah! So yeap! It rained! Aiyyyeeeerr then must bring umbrella, jacket, bag…but didn’t laa, of course! The rain got scared of me so when I came outta the haoussa, no more rain! *cheeeeywaaa, hallermak!* Was caught in a traffic jam! Dayyym! Then at Clementi area, the bus driver lowered the AC temp! wtf sia! cold sia! I was wearing shorts and PE shirt lei! I reached around 845. Anyway! Josephine was “caught in the traffic” so lesson was cancelled [rigggghhht! She probably just attended to her business life! She’s a business woman u see…2 jobs and she likes it. *sigh* just don’t jeopardise our lesson la! Must learn tau! Bloody hell. Ouh but she‘s a cool person, really]

Chuchuever that. Just chilled in the canteeyn til 930, getting to know the others that I’ve not known that well yet [lol]. Only Dave la…our monitor [he’s an airforce guy I think?!] so yep! Then PE! I didn’t wanna work out or play but but I played badminton anyway. With SiSi, Merv and dunno who. Twas fun. I was DANK! haha. Shu’up for the rest of u who are saying “yaaaa righhhht”. You are all just jealous and I really played well! : P went home!

Home: took 3 hours to get ready! Haha! Met Julez at 6+ went to BK Cineleisure and waited for ages for the others! Nurul and Sab were the only ones there plus Julez and I. Yee Lyn, TJR and Amin were late. Shahir and Mel then came. Yadda yadda yadda then headed home. Then the rest of the time was with Julez. I was really tired like that. With my heels [gotta look tall..wuehhe..] and my assache! Haha. I’m funny! Okaye whatever…

Happy 18th bugger

lol! watever....*chaka*

Olaaa! Ahakz! *corny* : P…Aaaanywayyyys, just gonna update on my past few days of absent-blogging [whatever u call tha].

Wed
Didn’t go school cuz was so the damn eggzosted the night before; stressing over the stupid assignment given to us. So yes, I ditched school and woke up at around 10? to continue the assignment [actually told mom my class starts at 2 when I had class 8-1. Then told her that it got cancelled and that I’m meeting up my 2 classmies to do the assignment] lol..I know…D.U.M.B! but whatever! I went to Julez’s house to chill and at the very same time finish the assignment [yes! I did bring the assignment there] then went home around 830 then yadder yadder yadder.

Thur
Ouh! For the very the first the time! 3 groups of my class ate to-the-gether at the café. Wait, lemme just name em [A: yi juan, hong lei, xin long, mervin, ying hui, me, B: zaki, sham, firdaus, reuben, C: atiqah and iza] daym! Im gooooood! Well, 3 people were MIA : B: ziki, zai and C: thufa. Ahakz! I’m so proud of myself! Considering my having a memory gap : P Anyways, I hope we can all eat to-the-gether more often! Ouh and I’m also happy to say I pulled em! Weeeeeee… whatever! *chaka*

Went home then out again to meet Julian [was late for an hour, as usual…*chaka*]. Had lunch at Cavana, Causeway Point, met 2 OJT filas there. Whatever… Then headed to Taka to meet kuya Arch and Brendz to buy gift for momzie [Motha’s Day & Bday; 15th] They already bought ‘er a BLAZER and a TOP. So we had dinner at Pepper Lunch first then looked for my gift fer her. Took me a long time to find the right one. Got pissed off and we ended up buying her a black bag, [hahaha! I dunno what signature siaaa!] not the color I was lookin for but whatever. Right after we stepped out, Metro Paragon pulled their [wajja call that? Shutters uh?] down. Ahhh, then headed to CCK, pick kuya’s bag at Brendz’ place then took a cab, dropped Ju then home!

Theeeen, tadaaaaa….. Whatta pretty long-short day. But I was stoked about it and I’m still really stoked. The day was wonderful yet the time’s jez never enough! Waddda!!!! Well, tomorrow’s another day fer me! School then I dunno then tadaaaa! Sigh. I’m tired! Bummed out! Gonna hit the sacks! So yeah! Just a shout-out: I miss you people out there! Whomever you may be! I miss you. Hahaha. G’nyt suckerrr-fuckerrs. [sorry about that, teehee]

what a bugger

Stressing over a small assignment that was given to us to do for a week. Probably because I’m still the same procrastinator that I was back in Sec Sch. But anyways, I’m doing my best. Ouh! And and! I was not late this morning! *sigh* it’s a big thing fer me!

I’m glad my bugger called me [931pm]. Thanks fer greeting my momma, and ur welcome for me greeting yours too. And sorry I didn’t say much. Lol. But yea, twas nice talkin to you againners. Emmm, I feel old! Gone our separate ways and all..though I know it’s all so so normal. But yeah, I guess sometimes I just seek the behaviour, childishness, times I had in Sec Sch with lazy asses! *bummer*

Anyways! Sorry to some, for I’ve’nt attended to your messages and chuchuevers. I’m just rushing. Lol. I’m making it sound like I’m totally busy sia! I am! Cuz I could’ve done this during the weekend but I had events I had to attend to. This week especially! So to the freaken’ busy with neverending plans. I noticed every year, during this time march onwards, so many invitations. Lol. Chuchuever! I gotta get back to my assignment! Cya!

Sleep tight! And juz let ‘em bite.

emmmm...

Emmm, I’d really like to thank Thiru about the Friday thingaay. I say you’ve done it well and look! We’re still the same! I may not have been that vocal or showy about how I felt but deep inside I’m happy because you’ve let it out so you don’t have to act all weird anymore and I’m still gonna be that feelingless creature I’ve always been. Throughout the years I still can’t believe that the person I hated soooo much became my guy closest friend. [I don’t use “best” for some reason]. I’m happy to have really found a friend in you.

For the past month, I’ve been havin good companies with a few Johns. *cheekaaaye* and I’m not sayin that I’m proud of it buuut, I loiiiiiike! *muehekz*

For the past week - I’ve updated! Hahaha. Mutual Admiration, Mutual Interest, Mutual Friend. Whatever you call it. It can get radical but to others it may sound or look bad. Emm, I’ve noticed things in me that can either be a good thing for my party and the other parties or bad for me and my party. Bucchanoe what?! I’m just going widda flow! I’m not being pushy, I’m not controlling, I'm not waiting, I'm not hoping. I’m just chilling! *shivers* At least, now I’m just hangin out with someone I feel light and comfy with. Nothing goin on at all so no jealousness involve please!

C’mon! let’s hang out okaye?!

ichikura

Emmm, was late for an hour for the group work with Yi Juan and Firdaus yesterday. I felt like they’re mad or something cuz when I onned my lappy and was waitin for them to give me the thing to type, they were just there busy doing the thing like I wasn‘t in their group. Lol. Whatever.

Fast forward >> met Julian Karlo aka Julez aka Jay the Mr Slow! Had lunch at Ichiban Boshi, chilled then brought me home. After that, went to out for Gabe’s party. Twas okaye, Funny Baby was there, some kind of a clown but he wasn’t like the clowns we usually see; or at least he just had no make-up on, the hair and the red nose thingy . He seemed funny cuz the kids were enjoying though it was that lame. Lol! Went to Lot 1 to bring ate Richelle around then met Jay and he followed us. Lol. *What a plan!*. Ate said he’s a PLAYBOY! Haha, I kinda agreed but I still have yet to getta know ‘im better. Okaye okaye, then we just strolled around Lot 1 then he brought us home. Tito Alex and wifey was chillin here, tita Kat didn’t turn up. Lol! Then my night life! *kabeeeeeeyyynngg!*

Today!
Feast Day of St. Joseph’s Church. Met Julez/Jay and sis, Klaris. Mom just bought some from the Filo stall [she didn’t even buy any from others! Waleeeeooo] kayez, had lunch at Sakura. Then headed back home cuz momma’s gotta go to work so yep! I ironed her uniform then hung clothes [such a helpful kid]. Well, I couldn’t have done that without hiphop muxic! I was grooveeen to the musseec! And my moves were DANKinnn! Y’all haven’t seen mah moves yet! [ahakz] $100/show! Aight aight! So that’s about today, afternoon. Cuz I’m dayyynk lyk thayyt yoo!




I’m so happy I met my favourite friend on Friday! After I met Thiru and just before I met Julez. I so so love her! I love u!

I miss ate GER GER! Ahakz..she’s the betch! And I love her! Okaye lah. I love myself so much more than I love them. Lol! Bye suckkaz

spidey

Finally had our 1st lesson of Life Skills, Lecturer was great, Josephine; looks fun, she wants us to call her Jo [too], lol. Then had PE, yadayada...

After school, headed to Causeway Point to meet Thiru to pass him his report book. Fell asleep in the bus til the Interchange then a lady woke me up *embarrassed*. Whoa, who knows! I could’ve been sleepin with my mouth wide OPEN! “aaaah…” Lol, I’m not like that. I was actually half awake/half sleeping [what's the term for that agen?!] but I thought we were still far away, bloody hell!

Thiru and I chilled at McD’s while waiting for Winsy, Nureen and Siva. They were gonna catch Spidey. Then I went to Jurong East Entertainment to meet Jay, the Mr SLOW!! I decided we eat at McD’s cuz I was craving for THEIR fries [funny, not even LJS or KFC’s] but I was also craving for BK’s burger. We bought the tix to Spiderman [he watched it again for my sake, lol], then went to the Lib to chill a li’l while waiting for the moovey to start. T’was okaye, twas pretty dank like that. He then brought me home. And then and then….Godai uh! Imma go watch my teleseryes now! Bye!

bleh

everything just gotta suck! but owh wells...i'm soooosoooo sorry. ugh! me and my sorry ass. i just hope that next week will be okay. okaye, i duwanna say about tomorrow or else it'd just get screwed again. haha. i think whatever plans i write here that hasn't happened yet will eventually not happen. wadda?!

went back to CDSS, met mdm Fatimah, had a lil chat. then met papa RAJ! i'm happy to really see him. father figure. i remembered, before, when we had a lesson in the canteen and he asked why my nose was flat [lol], i told him that he's alot like my dad, and he was flattered. [awwww]. met papa HOE, didn't know where he put the report books, took some time to search for them. reunion! 2016! mark that off your calendar kayez?! ummm, just not sure which date though. WAIT! make it JUNE 19 2016. yeeeeaaa! i should tell him that! lol! mark that off your calendar peepole!

WHEN: JUNE 19 2016
WHERE: somewhere in EUROPE [yet to decide which country]
TIME: dinner time
DRESSING CODE: girls: preggy clothes
guys: whatever la...

kayez..i'll crash!

ho-hum ba-dum!

Ey Pete! Thanks for the wake up call again, haha, my new alarm clock! I was just a lil late for class then kena scolded by u, lecturer was late whaaat! Pete said he’ll wake-up call me cuz he loves hearin my sleepy voice [cute right?! Nono, sexy right??! Hahaha, jk!]

Class was okaye. I prefer MME to CMO. Got to know Jazzy’s bro, Jay [he’s so makulet!] and John from NUS [lol opposite my school] through MSN. After class, we went to Sim Lim, it was a ho-hum task; walked around, just takin brochures after brochures, didn’t even ask any of the…waja call those?! Well, yeah, those people. Then went to dad’s office, the new DPA office in Marina Square near the SuperBowl or something; took his Nets to buy epass for my ezlink. [Yupyup!] Met Jay at CCK awhile then head home! My headache’s a killer! I slept til 9.

I think I’ll cancel tomorrow. I’m sorry. I just don’t wanna go tomorrow. Imma go catch a movie. Sorry uh!

Kayez..gotta crash! Cya.

Belated Happy Labor Day

My plans today were screwed…AGAIN! - as always [rolls eyes non-stop!] People backin out, buih-ing, havin otha plans, ditching…wait, is this KARMA?! Now I’m the one always getting ditched…Anyways, I already cancelled the movie with Pete and too bad, my loss. Cuz I cancelled with the guys too… stupid you! Anyway, imma watch it with Kuya next week, with Brends probably.

On the contrary, I enjoyed every single moment I spent with Arch here at home. After his gym, he went home to wash all his shoes; well not all but yeaah. The sweetest thing was, he washed my shoes too and Dada’s. In all, he washed 6 of his, 2 of mine, onna dada’s and my bagg. You know that black bag I used in Sec Sch? Yeah, tha’ one. My fave la! The straps already comin out but I still like it like that! *Loooveeettt* cuz it’s soso rad…like ate GEN like that..hahaha [u loiiikee right!?]

Watched Superman, requested by cuzzie Rich, then she fell in love to death with Brandon. I’ll never get sickka watchin Superman over and over cuz of the person I’m watchin…he just melts my eyes. His face is like animated, he’s hott like that.

Ummmm…I wanted to practice my photoshop lesson but I just had no mooooood like like like I don’t know why. Why uh?! From last week sia. Nono, more like Sec Sch *sigh*. And I told myself I’ll not bring that kinda attitude into my new school and here I am, doin that same old thang. Awwww I miss 5/1 already. And my bugger, Shahir. My class ain’t that fun like 5/1. They’re kinda quiet, toned down and what-the-ever! I envy Sab’s class, but whatttever. I’ll just concentrate on my studies and be noisy like I am.

Anyways, after dinner, I hung my bag that kuya left in the toilet after washin. Then I saw his shoes, and mine. Then I looked at my shoes again; it’s still deerrrtyyy! Waaaadddda?! Like as if he just brushed it within a minute like that! [waleeeeoooo] and I wasted my saliva saying “thank you” to him! I coulda just swallowed that saliva! [wahakz!] I’ll just wash it again.

I got to chat with the mean slash gansta-wanksta slash crazy slash babysitter slash skimmer slash Tanner’s baby slash I-don’t-know-what Genn. Though I didn’t get to talk to the bitchy Gen tonight. hah! I luv her. Like a real sister like that.

And I’m not tired! Why?! I hate it…then I’ll have trouble wakin up tomorrow. I still have to go SIM LIM with YiJuan and Firdaus for our assignment. Waaaddda?! Can I not?! I’m like all lazy. I don’t even wanna go to school. Can I ditch school?! I just want my forever-vacation days! And I’ll just go to school whenever I feel like it and stay dumb! Haha. Bummer..

I’m gonna watch Sun Shine with Pete on Thursday but I don’t feel like stayin out til night la. I still got my show! If I cancel the report-book/O-cert-taking with Sab, Dee and Thiru, they’ll be like “eh! Walao” but confirm they’ll still go. Stupid morons. Then I’ll have to resched lah. *sigh* what a busy person. I’m sucha Dweeb. But I’m dank like that! Agree or agree!

Okay lah, Imma hit the sacks. I’m not tired but I’m just forcing myself. Ouhk! G’nyt friggs. I love you, you, you, aaaaand….ummm…you.

just today

0502h: "if you would just coome back to meee, i would be so glaaad..."
[phone rings]

*shockked*
*clears throat*

"heller..."
"ah hello, wake up 'ready uh..."
"orh...wake up 'ready....imma go bath now, thank you."
"oh ok..go bath now"
"mmm, bye"
"ok bye"

*ends call*
*ZZZZZZzzzzzzz......*

*knocking and voice heard*
*looks at time*
*shockkked* [0545]
*hit the shower!*

~,-" [geeee]

Peter! so so thank you for the morning call yeah...so so sorry for dozing off again but but i'm still thankful you gamme that morning call...would've woken up later...

was late for 10/15minutes, school was boring, excited to go home, no reason, earphones went dead on me, bonkers-kazongkers, fucked up, finally reached home, house in a mess, not giving a fuck, onned TV, onned lappy, got in my birthday suit, had sting ray with sambal for lunch, multi tasked, offed TV, hoping they'd be home LATE! , wishin i can be alone, wanna be alone, missing my life before april 9, hiphopping, let's get to bed naw...betch! [word! heh got from u]

bye suckkaz

ps. pardon my news headlines. i noe it's so totally lame. i fired all the editors and journalists.
Kambing, thank YOU for makin my night, and midnight!

NTGIF

NTGIF!!!

my plans that i've planned a week ago today were ruined. [geee!-whiz!] i was pretty miffed about a message Glenny sent Thiru that made me lost my cravings and appetite for Billy Bombers. i won the bet but in the end i guess i just can't bear seeing him pay for that much,… but then again, a bet's a bet! and dear Glenny, u will fulfill it somehow!, somewhen! u must u must! for you are a guy with balls and is not afraid of losing bets!

i'm so very the sorry to Feeda and Hafiz and the rest for not going. yeahyeah stupid excuses and I DO regret…really I do [and you're probably rolling your eyes right at this moment just as you‘re reading this]. And yeah, Aada really was fucked up with me and Dee until she sent me that kinda message…[wadaaa…] believe me, you’re just not in my position that’s why you can say that. Ouh wells, but I do hope Apiz’s celebration will still go well. I miss you guys and I hope that we’ll still hang! We will we will!

Went back to CDSS to take our ‘O’ Cert. Had a pee [that I‘ve been enduring since…bah! never mind!], picture taking and oh oh oh! Look what I found in the foyer!

[Geeez…] I guess he’s not a frog prince… he’s fake! That’s why he became like that… I think he was hopping towards the other end but he only managed to hop 1/6 of the foyer ~.-’ oh well that’s what happens to pirated things! [LMFFBBASO]

Wanted to meet Apiz at lot1 to pass him his gift and at the same time, chill with Diyanot, Glenny, Amin, Shyukur but it got cancelled [like it always does! Ahakz…] Those fuckers weren’t really in the mood of hangin out so I decided to just go home! Went to the grocery store to buy cucumber, cheese and cocktail picks; took me 10minutes to choose which cucumber to get and even called kuzzie to ask how to choose the right one [yeah yeah, im a dummy! I loooiiikkee!]

Reached home and talked to her like nothing happened and the funny thing she said was “eh?! Did I say we’re ‘bate’ already? Kase ur speaking to me na” [waadaaaa?!]. He came out to watch “Maging Sino Ka Man” and he sat on the long couch I was lying down in and I laid my head on his lap and he was tickling my ears and she said “u see…those two…” [ahakz…] she’s no idea how much I get jealous whenever she…never mind. The important thing’s we’re okaye! I love you!

Sooo, really! That stupid Glenn still can say “thank God it’s Friday!” …like…. To hell with you…and all your friends[singing] cuz of u la! My TGIF became NO thank God it’s Friday…once again, I’m blaming YOU! your fault! always is... :P

Oh I’ve got some HEADLINE NEWS for you guys!

“THE BUZZ!”
1st headliner- “THIRU, an ANOREXIC?!” [he’s grown too slim!]
2nd headliner- “GLENN, the total ASS?!” [yupyup!]
3rd headliner- “DIYANA, the Big Momma/MPS/DINOSAUR…now a NURSE student?! And she’s handling Thiru and Shyukur with her ever seductive LIPS! “kiss me till your lips bleed” [ooohhh…she hott! jowk…I luv u gerl]
4th headliner- “AMIN, the beast! We finally know ur weakness!!! [ur just the BEAST NO MORE! We know how to shut u up!]
5th headliner- “SHYUKUR, the quiet, timid guy…now a REBEL!?” [okaye that’s just totally lame]

It’s 4 now…cya!

dear me,

after school, i hit the gym with mervin for like an hour. ouh and and it's actually 7pm now and i still havent hit the shower and my body's all sticky and stinky! i loooiiikkeee!

____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

i knew this would happen...way before she came i already predicted the changes. and what just happened just proved me right. i even told her about it but i guess it's nature. i never wanna do something to make her happy anymore. but that's just ridiculous because that's never gonna happen. i'm too weak to do that.

last night ate gen came online and greeted me with a "dood i miss you" while she was in school 1020h [texas]/2320h..she made my night after something happened to me.

i don't know if i'm just being over sensitive but i guess if you were in my place, you'd feel the same way.

i'm fubarred today..since morning! ...went to school with a primary/current schoolmate and he so so bore me to death! all the things that were coming out from his mouth were all baloneys! and bulls! and he's such an air-headed son of a fucktard! i guess he doesnt have a girlfriend...nobody would want him anyway.
he asked about my timetable and the time i'd finish school and each time i answer, he'll beat me to an earlier timing and and he commented on my shoes! like why i was still wearing school shoes..like heller! it's an off-white color and i love this shoes even if its in tatters i'd still friggin wear it!...gawshhh...i swear i could've slapped him already but i just didn't want to start my day off badly.

school was fine but i got raged again cuz some people kept me waiting and were giving me a hard time talking to them. not just one but 3...it's stupid! but yes..nevermind, i guess it'll be bettter tomorrow. it better be. and no i'm not gonna be dumb enough to entertain people anymore when it's so so not appreciated at all. and it's plainly ridiculous!

and goodbye!

french guy

fuck a duck! the aroma of french fries just gave me the craves...[oh duhhhleeen] crinkle or waffle cut [mmmm..yummy...] if i still have the craves tomorrow then i'll...oh fattt me! 'sokaye cuz i'm workin out again and i think i'm a lil motivated, hehh [nah, it's not the guys..well, i guess you can say that.. :P] i dunno wussap'nin to me...but i'm still loyal..hah!

i saw a guy in the bus this morn'n; he boarded the bus at YISS bustop and we caught us exchanged glimpses twice at each other! he looked chinese and i thought he's a JC guy and i was hoping he kinda wasn't! i wanted him to be in the same school as me. but as he neared [he was standing and i was seated just a seat before the door] i saw his uniform and he was from ite! so i thought, "aight, maybe he's from clementi but i was hoping he's from dover! hah! fugg]

forward>>
clementi bustop..he didn't go down..so i was relieved! [phew,hah like real] we went down at our bustop and i thought that that's the last time i'll see him..[ye noe..crushes..haha..fades away fast] i saw him in the canteen during our break and he was with malay guys so he's not chinese! [dang..i don't want malays anymore...i mean for a "someone"..i want a chinese or a filo or a eurasian..lol] ouh wells...

Gen

i've missed kuya arch since he left for taiwan for a month's training and all i wanted to do when he comes back is to kiss him! and i did that while he was sleeping after he just reached home from taiwan on tuesday morning before i left for school.

last night, we hung out in my room with the kids while the rest were watchin movie then we fell asleep on my single bed [we ain't that fat!]

on thursday, kuya's ex, geralyn, messaged me on my first friendster account; i was surprised cuz it's been ages and she still remembered me! i remembered her leavin for US and my bro was sad, they live in brownsville, texas. anyway, we contacted one another, together with kuya [lol] we all miss each other. and usually when it comes to my bro's gfs, i become very nosey and i know the gals he's been with and the stories behind em. muehekz..and i think so far i only love a few of them..ahakz..ate Gen said she missed me i miss her tooo..oh wells...i love u guys!

game over

Hmmmm….the game was supposed to start at 830 if I remembered correctly, but due to the rain, it got postponed…we were at the hall, waiting for the counselors to organise us..and it took them 2+hours to organise and start the motherfuckin game! [geeez] We won the 1st game..but the second game was a fucked up one; imagine us competing with guys whose size are as big as teachers plus there are also two bloody FAT guys lor! As in as fat as hakim siaaaa…then there were only 8 players in the opponent team while our team had 10, and the stupid counselors told us to either 1 of our players to go the other side or 2 playas go out of the team to be fair…like HELLO!!!! Isn’t havin mothafuckin BIG playas FAIR enough to compete with small playas with just one extra playa…was so effed up la, they’re so unreasonable, they don’t watch what they’re gonna say man..so dumb freaks…haha..ok..I feel like im so affected by everything liao lah..but its true anyway. It’s S-T-U-P-I-D stupid! And the players don’t have good sportsmanship; they look up to themselves too highly til can reach heaven lidat [whatever; rolls eyes 360degrees nonstop]

Anyway, I think I made TWO HIIIUUUGEEE mistakes just now. dumbass freak me...

And I already have a solution about the feeling stuff in my previous post…

the feeling

Dear you,

Today was the official first day of our lesson…but tomorrow we’re having Games Day so no lesson! [Weeeeee…keke..] Nothing much happened, learned new things [duh]. During ou practical lesson, merv and yi juan were sitting together and there wasn’t a seat left for me cuz I just came back from the washroom so the teacher told me to go to the back, but merv was bein a gentleman so he decided to go to the back instead. So yijuan started teasing me with the isham guy [he’s really not that hansem nor cute its his hair and goatee that gives attraction]. I just took it lightly and I made friends with him and firdaus and atiqah. Trivia: isham lives at jelapang too…[rolls eyes]

Anyways, supposedly I was to go gymming with glenn-glenn but I “purposely” forgot to bring my stuff cuz I was quite in a hurry so YJ suggested to just eat at jurong so we did. Tho YJ had another beautiful day today [haha..from ydae leh! Skali tmr oso hav!]

I felt a funny feeling when I woke up just now and I’m not sure whether I’m supposed to be feeling that way. It’s flattering yet wrong..[sigh] I just don’t know what to do for now…

cca

oooh...second day was ok, met newer friends n class; sze min, farina, dave, pearlyn, idah, hong lei ISHAM!!! i was quite noisy oredi..since yesterday while the rest were like zombie lidat! haiyeerr boring uh...

anyway, my CCAs are INSPIRE CLUB [which consist of acting/dancing/singing/emceeing/rapping/etc] and and and! [tadaaaaaa...] FITNESS CLUB! yep! that's right..FITNESS CLUB! i saw my bro's friend/our neighbor [live at 13th floor of our block...he's cute but he's like an abang] then he encouraged me uh..ahakz..i'm gonna tone up my body, lose those flabs so later you people out there! godai uh! later see me oni "whoaaaa joannne, is that u!!! sexy siaaaa" hahaha...kla all dont comment uh! i noe u all say i confident la eksyen all...shudup uh!

then this yijuan uh..cheeky..teasing me with this cute guy i told her then when we left the class she went to ask for his number! but i didn't take cuz im a good gal uh..very LOYAL! remember that...i'm still attached but my crushes list increase uh..muahahaha..but i hope i wont get hitched with someone in school uh! i got reserve redi..haha jowk...kla..bye...miss u!

ouh and! i also made two new guy friends in class forgot the name and they joined inspire club also! hahaha..good uh?!

1st day

first day for the freshmen...ran late cuz of the bus la! 1st bus was full so the driver "shake head shake hand"..so my face change la! i thought first day can arrive early skali lidat..waaaahh..den second bus oso full but the driver asked us go in..so geewd..luvveeet

boring la..intro everything...but fun uh, got one cute guy in my clazz..there are more guys than gals in the school so can go fishing..ahakz! haiz..i good gal la, won't go fishing...ahakz..i faithful... ~.-'

i'm missing my crushes..hahaa..miss playing with them..cheyyy...play seh..play wat...play dat one uh!

i'm craving for kfc crispy chicken! good thing mom brought home but only one drumstick! nvm uh..can survive...kla..hope tomorrow will end early also lah..haixxx...

and den and den! got two filo lecturers, 1 female and 1 male..my kababayans..ahakz...

fri e 13th

drama! show was boring..[ahakz]

twas a veeery long day fer me...not so la..but if i were still in a very bad mood it'd be a loong day then.

it aaaaall started when i had to accompany cuz richelle to find werk ...[ive been accompanying her for the whole week].

well, initially, we were to go to city hall/raffles area before going to orchard budden! my dad called momma and told us to meet 'im at esplanade at 1pm sharp to help us find job...lol..so i rushed to bath and got ready but we only got outta the house at 1215 so mom was mad at me for being slow[as usual]..mom usually gives me the look and have this grouchy fierce face when she's mad; i can't even try to make 'er laff unlike my bro...so i was also fucked up about the fucking naggings and whinings i got! so from the lrt station til the bus til esplanade i was in a "don't-you-dare-fuckin-talk-to-me" state, so my cousin was just sitting quietly listening to her hp radio and i had to listen to the noise in the bus cuz they were such in a hurry that i left my ipod [listening to music would've helped me cool down]. i received this religious msg so i passed to mom and dad thinkin they should've already forgotten about it but dad replied in an angry manner so that made me even fuckin madder! and he said that if we were late then sorry..he met us anyway. we reached esplanade and met 'im at Ichiban Boshi then he saw my grouchy face and he was smiling..but i still showed the face til he asked me what i wanted to order then i smiled..ahakz..[food's my weaknesss :P]

after that lunch, i was moody again cuz i'm very tired already..ahakz...so from esplanade, took a cab to beach road for interview; wrong addy sia! suppose to go bugis junction...waleooo! so we walked through the hotels we passed by and applied uh..then walked to bugis haiz....vehhh sian...apply3...then just walked through the stupid shops uh then go budden i asked her apply last one at Breko that's why i was late...

my cousin didn't wanna go with me to school but dad called and told me to bring her along, then mom called same time as dad and asked us to take a fuckin cab cuz we late liao..ahakz...was gonna queue redi til cuzz said she's hungry so i not happy[veh bad] go McDo buy uh! then go out queue looong shiiiaaa...then glenn2 wait..hahaha good2..then at last we picked glenn up [waleo i blanja him sia! i neh blanja ppl wan lei!] then i reached school then i happy la...all my stupid fucked up day at least gone when i met the people i've beeen longing to seee...weeee...but didn't get to talk to the guys..SHAHIR was a bloody snob who just looked at nurul with his mouth open..oh well, snub! didn't get to join the rest for dinner cuz my cuzzin tired so go home looo...her face not happy sia cuz we walked til pending..she not used to walkin mah..we sumor everyday walk long2! ahakz..so her legs aching..

ps. i realised that friday e 13th's really bad luck! wahhh everyone around me got something happened shiaaaa...nahbeh..kekee..Thiru neh go, Diyana oso neh go..hahha..they met mah...secretly..lol..jowk!

eggzosted luv

i'm eggzosted from everything this week - it's killing me .and i've school on monday already...i thought i was strong enough to handle these things...ive to take care of sooo many things; my heart, my leg!, my cuzin, my school, my things, other things, and some other things. however, i can't seem to handle them all when i need to by this week because i'm busy with only one thing. i can't complain to my parents because i don't want them to think that i'm just being lazy....well, i did told em if i could not go out on sat and sun so i can prepare for my school but mom somehow didn't seem happy. the worst thing is, i feel that they feel that i'm just doing this because i'm being forced to, but it's only my facial expression... i was a lil disappointed because eversince i woke up this morning, all i did was to help and when i took a lil break and went back, the person i'm helping wasn't helping herself. lol...i guez i'm juz being paranoid. i gotta give it another shot.

but aside from all that..i'm in-like with someones...yes..someones..hahaha...what a sofa king bitchy slut joanne is...hello! liking someones is not bad! shut up people! kepos! andf you're wondering who they are...keep wondering...while for guys..if you're wondering whether you're the one..then my answer's just gonna be "yalayala...u la..". luvveeeet...

jannah

happy 19th birthday!

this gurl here..nono, lady i mean [ur old!..i will be too, soon]...cried when she saw gigid and i bringin the cake towards her [while Dee was lighting up the candles]..that emotion changed when she saw me handing her a "cute" candle...she was surprised just like everybody else were..ahakz..then they said "confirm horny redi" or something like that la..then i said i dun think you can use that so i handed her another gift..a massager..the massager is a two in one thingy..if you don't want a massage, you can play with it...muehkz...

anyway, we were at pizza hut at plaza sing. her "date" was amirul who was so quiet throughout the whole time we were there and only heard him laff and talk for like less than a minute in total..and i thought, maybe nurul was doin something under the table that's why..muahahhaa! ok..kidding! ok..there were 12 of us, 6boys 6gals [perfect pairing]: nunu/mirul, dee/shyukur, sab/amin, sheena/nsl, gid/glenn, me/nabil..haha, me/nabil not good la! cuz he got nisah! lol...i loner ah...our famous topic was teasing pairs that always led to sex...[rolls eyes] like that's something new....then i went home with my bodyguards: glenn n shyuk while the rest walked to marina..oh well, dee and gid's partner went with me la...too bad...[lol]..so that's about it...hope u had a great time jannah

lesson of love

i learned many good things o'er the lunch with tita Katrina and it taught me so much. it made me alot stronger; strengthen my faith.

i remember the things we did every Good Friday as a family. i'm very proud to say that i'm a family person and i really feel safe when they're around. i miss you kuya arch, i love you so much.

daym

take care up there, hope ur ankle's better.

i feel good after going to church again after a loong absence...luuuveeet...

milo-Dino! thx for the strap..loveettt

finally met "roaaaar"...ahakz...i miss her la...but now that ive seen her, i dun miss her redi..haha..jowk...

i miss the guys...no chance of ever meeting them la i think..evibodi sofa king busy...why siaaaaa...why lidaaat...u have to things slowwwww u knowwww!!! always in a rush! that's why easily fall sick then die fast..haiz...these people...ONE LIFE, LIVE IT. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

get well birthdays

don't waste anymore time, you can't limp around..go see a doc or something..i miss you two.

Belated Happy Birthday to John Paul and Giannina [march 30]




Happy 19th Adrianne today! and Advance Happy Birthday to Charlene

summer vacation started last week if i'm not wrong. you guys are probably always at the beach/pool enjoying. at least you guys have a long break..i'm starting my school 2weeks later. yeahh..my timing was wrong...

goodbye

i'm done waiting, my wait is over and i duwanna wait no more.

anyways, that aside...mom and dad just left home to airport..i'm not gonna miss them [ahakz]..i already do.oh well..it's just for a week, so i don't think ima miz em..

anyways i'm only given $50 allowance for the week *grin* how am i gonna get the hell out?! sunday to sunday...$50 includes groceries liao leh! i asked dad for $20 extra for my week's stockka chocolates but mom told me to return it cuz they didn't withdraw $$$ for their cab so they gonna use that..gawshh..how vadd..mom's vad..hummph! i shouldn't have told her that dad gamme the monney..[BIG MOUTH]..she said that if she gave me more, she knows i'll just finish it within a day or two..sooooo $50...*sigh*, looks like i'ma go beg begging people to treat me..*lmfaol* sooo people! prepare ur pockets..fill em with monneyy..beggar's cuminna beg..

achy feet

went shopping with momsy at Tangs..mom's bag and clothes, and presents for evibody. Oh..and luggage at Lucky Plaza...i didn't take my breakfast and lunch as usual so i gt irritated easily..cuz mom's always being in two minds about choosing things..can never make up her mind..ask me for opinion but then duwann..after 10mins, she'd agree with me..haizzz...and and and..i got very dizzy pulling the stupid luggage everywhere she went..

but...nevertheless i love hangin out with her...so cute..so chubby..walk like penguin...and then always make the funny face cuz i looked so gloomy oready waiting for her to make up her mind. owhelzz..mommies...

you're leavin tamorrow night, tita katrina will be here by then and i have yet to clear up my messy room..been 2 weeks..and i just don't feel good havin someone to look after me..i can't do things i wanna do freely. today will be the last day of my freedom cuz after you guys come back next week, cuzin rizzie will be here and i gotta share the room with her otherwise, she'll stay at kuya's room..then if she gets a job..i'll be staying with her here forever and ever...amen...then no more freeeeeedooom freeeedoom...haizzzzzzz.....ahakz...am i selfish or what...and then i gotta behave..cuz i whine alot..and daddy babies me alot..i wonder if that will change..lol..ok la...complain complain....

gaaaawd...my achy feeeet!!!!

hate not

I hate mysiielf!!!! You know huwaaay?![expression eyebrow raised] I told myself that I won’t be late yesterday..and I made sure I won’t be late..but sadly *sobsob* I was…for an hour..do you know?![expression eyebrow raised] I woke up at 740hours to have my bath and I finished only at 1200hours getting ready?! *shakes head in disappointment* [tsktsktsk]. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore!

After I reached home, I so “excited” I took out the envelope the ITE gave us..and I read every single page and words; then I saw the [specifically] third sheet, number 2 of the ITE College West Rules & Regulations for Students,
“Attendance and Punctuality” - Students are to attend lessons punctually and regularly
- Latecomers for lessons will be REQUIRED to do “CAMPUS SERVICES” on the SAME day.
- The Student Identity Card, which is the ez-link card, will be temporary RETAINED by the staff and returned upon COMPLETION of “CAMPUS SERVICES” on the SAME day.
- [this one not important]

Very scary leh! High school only got detention! Here CAMPUS SERVICES sia..I NO like *shakes head non stop* I just hope that I’ll change lahh… you know!?[expression eyebrow raised] ..when it was 1045h [the time I was supposed to leave my home] and I smsed shorty-style to tell her postpone the timing to 1145..I already was disappointed.. And I felt like I deserved a good bashing up from all the people I have always kept waiting..yes..to YOU people..but you guys were kind enough not to scold me/gimme the bloody-angry-not-happy-wanna-kill-you-uh-Joanne!!!! look or LECTURE me from my late coming..[cuz u know I won’t listen also…keke] I just wanna take this opportunity to say a very small THANK YOU to you people who’ve always been that patient and always tahaning my stewpig late coming behavior and whatsoever attitude/behavior you don’t like about moi..I’m so very SORRY[not] for keeping you waiting..and I hope I’ll change already because I scared laaaa wanto kena buat ape campus-crap-services tu..tak suke tau…

So if there’s anything you dislike about me..[as in seriously] just tell me okaye?! No guarantees that I’ll change la but I’ll think about it..[lol] cheer-eeeeee-yoes people..I just LOVE you.

oh my fish! experience

i went to help mom buy onion leaves and fish; it took me an hour to buy these two cuz i had trouble lookin for onion leaves cuz im not familiar with how it looks like, as for the fish i had to ask the lady help me choose the freshest fish cuz i really dunno how to..and she opened this part of the fish to check..[a big ewww]. k, then mom told me to wash the fish and cut the fins..i had to wash the part the lady opened [yuck]..i couldnt bare that long cuz i was afraid the fish will bite me...[eyeroll]..i noe..it's lame but i'm just not used to it..my very first time holding and washing a fish...just hate touching or looking at raw foods like fishes..oh but i LOVE eating them...i only know how to eat...ahakz..but it's been a good experience...lol...[shallow shallow]...

Happy Birthday

happy birthday to my late uncle and godpa, Emmanuel. Rest well tito manny!

bloody...

BIG SIGH!!!...i juz cleared the bloody mess in my bloody room just last bloody week and it's bloody back again..*sigh*..i'm currently preoccupied with my self-project, called Project JRM..i've got only a few bloody weeks to school and i've to complete Project JRM by then. [i'll reveal the project only when i have completed it!] and i hope i will..knowing myself being the bloody "lazy-" and "procrastinator"-chick. okok! u gotta give me some encouragement! i duwanna let mom and dad and myself down..i wanna let us up! duwan down!duwan! DUWaan! DUWAAAAN!!!! *being hysterical* i just love you...Joanne! 8-

4months ago

an island of clouds image by joanne

it's been exactly 4 months since i took this picture 25/11/06. and i arrived at this time too, 1230h. i captured many images of the clouds while i was up there and when i reviewed them, i noticed how happy they all are,

floating in the sky
all day and night;
for seconds and minutes,
and hours and days,
for weeks and months,
and years and decades,
for centuries and...
forever...

well, im not talkin about that same particular cloud..but..

the clouds that
towers the land and the sea,
the clouds that
overcloud the sky,
the sun
and the mountains.

oh, what a nice feeling they should all be getting..and they never get dark being exposed to the sun all the time, even when they shower upon us like blessings, they're still white..lol...hmm, and think about it, they get to travel around the world too. what a nice feeling. i remembered how i've always wanted to be like the angels floating and playing on the clouds, lying on the clouds, eating the clouds [cotton candy/candy floss] oh what a FEAST! i'd wanna be one of them too...