grades

FUCK...
my fucking gpa fucking dropped!!!
from the digit of 3+- to 2++
gahhh!!!
what the fishuck!
and the culprit?
SOONG!
like O to the M G!
that guy's got some kind of a total depression...that he just HAS to pull us all down!
and his karma? baldness? tahhahahahahaa. okaye, shu'up! :X

y'know, he's really a nice guy infront of you...but a real fucking asshole. like what the fucking hell? you may see him take things lightly; smiling at your jokes or whatever-sheyt but when comes to academic...he JUST have to pull us down. so that's how he takes retribution against us eh?

well...you guys may say that i can't TOTALLY blame the guy because I'M at fault...
but knowwutt???
remember the FINAL-YEAR-PROJECT that i took as a motherfucking challenge to be with a group i didn't think i can produce something that we're supposed to produce...
yeah...
THAT!
FUCKING HELL, son-of-his-mother! eeeeeeeeeeeeeesh!!! i just feel like PULLING the remaining strands...or bunch of hair he has on his head!
and take note, i said PULL!!! NOT shave. and pull HARD!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeesh!!!
you fucking forced me in a group i didn't wanna be in and taddaaaa..."ouh, thank you for my grades"
UGH!!! that's what fucking pulled me down...hmmm, then just imagine if i did worse for my assignments and tests...geez!

he better not be our Liaison-Officer for our attachment! he's sure just gonna fucking give us a fucking c-r-a-p!!! and i mean junk-crap...like something we worked fuckin' hard for and we just get paid 2cents...gahh!!!


*woooooooozzzzaahhhhhhh*woooooooozzzzaahhhhhhh*woooooooozzzzaahhhhhhh* [calming down...]
well, okaye, on a side note...
for those who're damn curious...and i don't care if you not either...*rolls eyes*
i got in! - the CREATIVE company fo' my attachment...foof!
fyi, i'm not a fan of their products anyway...hahahaha...unless you gimme a free product that will really wow me and make me take back my words...wehhh.
well, be prepared and expect the unexepected...wooootz!
the bitchiness, the politics, the cruelty, the abusiveness of some people who are actually fated to go to hell [wooopz?] :X hahahaha
well, okaye, i don't want to go to hell...but i don't wanna be a hypocrite coz i MAY just make the same mistakes...sooo count me in...NOT! bluekkk!!!
okaye. there! bye!

the irony

awww, i cannot believe i'm here...
i'm so amazed by how i got here.
i'm in love with a guy i never liked...
nor was i even attracted to in the first place.

well, we dated, we hung out...
and to be freakin' honest,
throughout that period...
i never once had feelings for him.
although i DID see the potential...

hmmm, we USUALLY go through the phase of liking someone...or falling-in-LIKE BEFORE fallin-in-love right? right? right?
well, not for this one...
i struggled...i hung on...i gave it a shot...
i didn't wanna be the quitter that i am; that shuts people out when i see there ain't hope for us both to be together. "sorry, i really don't think there's EVER gonna be an 'us' "...
well, frankly, this is what i've always thought AND felt with this guy.
YES...really, really.

but freakin' hey!!!
it paid off...i gave him the chance to like [or love] me...
and look!
cupid's arrow hit me so fuckin' hard that i'm head over heels in-love with him.
awww.
i ponder about this every night...
and i remember what i went through.
and i thank God...
yeah, yeah...ya'll'll be thinkin that maybe it's too early to say these kinda things...
but y'know, sometimes you just have to put faith and trust in something...
well, i'm not saying "in ANYthing"...but in SOMEthing you think will be worth putting those...

the first few days that i got to know him...i already knew he's a very good guy...but i just didn't feel anything for him...nothing...
but i'm like so freakin' thankful, grateful, glad, appreciative and...whatever more words you can describe fo that feeling for emmm...givin' me that faith to have faith in someone.

i mean...i think it's an improvement alright...
unlike before when you just have flings...
and besides those flings you still flirt with others...[flings and flirting are different].
sheesh. ouh wellz. whatever that.


hmmm, but on a LIGHTER note...just like any other guys, he can be an asshole y'know...hahaha. sheeesh....*rolls eyes*...guys...

jang!

what does this mean? the frequent ruminations that is not only visiting my mind when i daydream...but also in personal; on my way back home last night, right beside me! and just last night again, in my dream.
gahh. what is it with this person that is just so hard to let go of? i feel like a ghost roaming around this dimension; unable to move forward just because i have an unfinished business...
it's really annoying.
i mean, i even doubt we're both experiencing the same thing...it'd be nice if that happened though...but i think it's just me, only me. but how come it's happenin' more and more these days? shhhhux! is this a reminder of what's gonna happen with what i'm doin' now? or is something astonishing gonna happen soon?
well, if it's just gonna be another disappointment, then enough already.
i don't wanna go through another fuck sheyt.

i am dumb

if you're gonna read this, read EVERY WORD...and don't jump so you won't misinterpret.

i'm too fucked up to even keep this discreet. i know it's not a nice way to probably fix things with someone but this is the only fuckin' way i can let out my feelings and even convey my messages CLEARER because you can fucking read it over and over again and the words won't change like how you can when you say it.

i know.
i'm a bolshie person to love.
i already knew that.
i've been self-reflecting...learning about myself...for the past few years...
and i saw my weaknesses...
and my strengths...
my good points...
and the bad...
and i know i have more weaknesses and bad points than that of strengths and good points.

it's why i wasn't ready for another relationship.
it's why i pushed people away as early as i can; so as to not add to their burden.

but they just keep comin'...
and i'm grateful for that. i always am.
i'm grateful for the people who stood by...be it friends or guys.

but here i am again...
entered a yet another complication-in-life situation i'm still not ready for but decided to go for it any-fucking-way...
and tadda...
as expected...[but not this soon]...a squabble... miscommunication...

your HURTING assumptions about me...meant you DIDN'T trust me ENOUGH. or maybe you NEVER did...
your thoughts just made me look like a fucking HOE.
well, then if you THINK i'm one...WHY still go after me?
you already knew me way before we got together...you already know i have many guy friends...
then why still think i'm goin' out with RANDOM guys?
and if you THOUGHT i was still a flirt...do you think i'd be dumb enough to go out with someone infront of you?
sheeesh.
do fucking-hell remember...i have a DIGNITY


knowwhutt...dump me if you want...
cuz i don't really know what to say...
you JUST lost your trust on me.
i can't believe you did.
you LOST it when you thought of me that way and when you typed those "beautiful" words...

i know i'm a fucking stubborn person...
i'm a hard person to love...
i'm very petty...
so if you don't think you can take it...then just let go...

isn't it just a wrong time...
just remember, i'm not a hoe who gives in to anybody just like that.
gawsh.
i'm not a hoe at all.

don't you ever think...that this is a small thing i'm whining over and that can be forgiven and forgotten easily...you may always give in to my wishes and wants...but i'm not like you. like i said, if you're feeling the pressure, then let go.
and ouh, i'm NOT asking you to. i'm givin' you a CHOICE. i don't wanna add to your burden. because i know you're just gonna have a hard time with me.


~~~
if you only knew...how i wanted to surprise you.
how stoked i was to introduce you to my bestfriend.
how ecstatic i'd feel.

but ouh well...
bottomline: you LOST your trust on me; you don't trust me...and you INDIRECTLY regarded me as a hoe. sheeesh. your girlfriend is a hoe. morning with one guy sending her to work, evening with another sending her home...that's what hurt me.
y'know, gettin' jealous is one thing, but havin' thoughts of someone you "love" that way is another. way before we met, my friends have always been like this to me. and i fuckin' promised myself this is not gonna change when i have someone already.


well, get your facts right...don't jump to conclusions.
i'm NOT sorry that i have good friends like them.
i don't even know why i entered this...i told myself i will only say yes when you've accepted me for me. well, you obviously have not.

4th day

*SIGH*
fuck.

the SUDDEN changes.
very motherfucking unexpected.
don't know why.
ouh gosh.

ENLIGHTEN me!


i just hate this motherfucking feeling.

and to make things even worse, it just had to show me the rumination...right beside me.
like what-the-fucking-hell.
FUCK.


~
i feel unkempt.
i was pushed away three times in a single day by a single person.
what the fuck am i doing.


are we havin' some mutual feeling of...?
don't ever hesitate to tell.
today's just sooooo fucking different.
fuck, really.
so much for doin' my part...it all went down the drain.


i guessed you didn't hear clearly. i SAID at the counter when you asked me what i was doin' there; he's Thiru, my bestfriend. and i think your reaction was you understood because you nodded or at least some kind of reaction that you understood. unless you were too busy or something that you just gave me some kind of response to show me you got what i was trying to tell you.
anyway i wanted to introduce you guys to each other. but too bad...you didn't give me the chance.

hope

hmmm...
"cute marching songs"...
reminds me of his deep voice on the phone.
gahh. why did i have to read that!
it's all gone - really, but i don't get why it still lingers in my system.
i know i know...it's not a computer system where you can just delete it permanently...but still.
sigh.
i just freakin' hate the feelin' everytime it takes my mind back to those times. stupid, really.

~
12th was the night,
19th, the night i would've preferred to have said it personally; if you only knew.

finally? but maybe i just need another reassurance that may possibly be the answer and that could make me happier and that could take away the pain i still have left...was this how hurt i was? shux, really.


but hey. i guess it's all good - i HOPE it's all gonna be good.
you are gonna make sure it'll be good right? although i'd rather hear you'd "make sure it'll be the best"...
well, you will, won't you?



~~
you know, you really are a wonderful person and i am just uberly grateful to have met you. those chats we had and still have...i still keep in mind. when you told me you'd never want your future-wife to work, i knew the type of guy you already are. i'm still moved by the moment when you told me you felt your money and time was all worth it with me. and then, hearing you say you want that type of girl, i was really very ecstatic. i mean, what else can any girl or lady or woman ask for in a man who is almost so perfect for them? who wouldn't want someone like you; who's willing to take care of someone you love rather than you being the one taken care of? you have poured out your love and care to the people around you, i know. i may not have seen, but from your past grumbles about the friends you sincerely cared about, i know, really.
i may JUST be your friend. but i know, i'm very blessed to have a friend like you - yes, i mean really blessed. you already know i love you. and you're one of the best things in my life.
and i really hope, someone comes to take care of you like you take care of all of us; the people you've taken care of.
i know it's too early for that prayer, but hey, we don't need the right time hoping and wishing for something, right? heehee. i really mean it. :)

vertigo

i haven't been feelin' well for the past few weeks...well, years if i should really count...
the frequent headaches that feels like a time-ticking bomb, ready to explode any-freaking-time, just keeps comin' back. gahh.
i do not know what's wrong with me. and like i said befo, i probably duwanna.
but anyways, i didn't go to work today; the headache, the giddiness, that heavy feelin' just didn't allow me.
ouh gosh.
so i called in sick...and suddenly, corwin mentioned "MC"; which i so tota-freaking-lly forgot about! that i am working now!!! and MC is needed! sheeeesh. omg! it hit me again, i am gettin' older. hahahaha. i cannot believe i'm workin'! gahh. i just wanna stay home and stone all day long. sheeeeeesh!
okaye, i am reeeeeally very dizzy. and i haven't taken any medicine yet. ouh well, my end is nearing. wooooooootz! whatever...see ya'll at my wake, whenever.


by the way, thank you kelo baby, and berghen for yesterday. i love you guys. heehee.
and thank you for the concern today too; the "flowers" and the "leprechaun". thank you for everyday. :) thank you.

ti-u

happy birthday THIRU!!!

sadly, he's in Brunei...
ouh well, much love my tiu.

gone

SIGH.
knowhutt...
i hate liars. i hate traitors.

after her confrontation this morning about something,
it just hit me for the second fucking time...
to never fucking TRUST any-fucking-body AGAIN.
even if it's your relatives or cousins.

it took me years to let people in again...to confide in someone again...
then comes this...
it so totally made me be-in-a-huff this morning when i was about to leave for work; i didn't feel like working...
but y'know, i thought again, and i think it'd be better if i worked, rather than rotting at home, hearing stuffs i shouldn't be hearing.

c'mon...
they promised to not tell her...and i fucking believed.
and suddenly they keep tellin' her that "she doesn't know anythin' about me"
like.
sheesh.
damn.
fuck.
ugh!!!

you know that such a thing is a fucking big deal to her and ya'll told her like it's just something she can take. she's not gonna trust me anymore if she really finds out.

sigh. i hate ya'll. wtf.
if i can't trust my own cousins with secrets, what more with other people?!
right?
iunno who to trust anymore.

again.

i've lost my trust in people again.
i'm so sorry...
and no, i'm not gonna tell anyone about anything anymore.
it hurts, guys.
it hurts.


~~
well, thank you kiki, again.
and fyi, i'm working in tcc central. either clarke quay or central. okaye...

tutu.

and ouh!
befo' me forgetto...
well, yeah, i did forget...that's why i'm posting again. lol.
ouhkaye, befo' i forget...again!
ahh, moch betta.

anyhoo...so yeah.
emmm, after whut happened; dad's shaking-with-fury-yellings on the phone...i thought he'd be still fumin' mad when he picked me up at the lrt station...you know...the continuation of naggin' and scoldin'...
but awww, he's sweet tone came back, teehee. but i know his trust has lessened...sigh. utter disappointment.
ouh okaye, you nono the story...

~
ouhkaye, so the story goes...
i didn't tell him about the drinkin' session you see.
so emmm, when i conked out, iunno who exactly, i think kelo, got my phone into PUK. tahha. so, my bro and dad kept callin' and callin' for like 8423876123105 times and even went out to look for me at around 2-3am. dosh. and bro thought i went clubbin. lol.
ouhkaye, so then i woke up and did my puk sheyt[ouhkaye,that sounds wrong], chatted awhile...and then when we left, he called and...tadda. scolding. wooooootz.
then yeah, when he picked me up from the lrt, it's as if nothin' happened. sweet daddy! but i know...he's really disappointed. for not lettin' him know, and my phone getting PUK-ed...damn effed up 'coz he couldn't contact me. :(
~

emmm, to the concerned people, YES, i HAVE told dad about the work. teehee. i just cannot lie to 'em anymore. luckily he didn't scold! wooootz! but he said to make sure i maintain my focus on my studies...ouhkaye, now that part is sooooo hard. ouh c'mon. and emmm, only mom dunno nothin' yet. wonder if dad'll tell. but i doubt it. i don't think he'd wanna stun her with this. *that's like throwing shit in your face right after you stepped out of the house wearin' your best suit* :S so like, mom havin' just returned from her vacation and suddenly finds out sheyt. like omg. plus, you know how tight my parents are when comes to stuff like these. lolly. the work thingy, i think she still can take it lar. well, thanks dad.


thank you nga pala kelo, you stayed with me. wooooooooootz! hahahahaha. alagang alaga daw ako. galeng mo tol, you the man! hahahaha. naging tol eh noh. tahha.


yey! i can freakin hug momma tomarrah!!! woooooootz! i miss herr so the damn the much lah! i hope she didn't get chubbier :x really shia, later like mrs. viswa [the penguin] awww, sho cute! wooooootz.

i'm in

eyawww!!!
knowhutt?!
i spewed!!!
cool eyy?
for the first time. heehee!
so fun!
hahahaha.
but i missed the fun! :(
okaye, so, not fun! :(
i didn't get to sing :(
i didn't get to camslut! :(
i didn't get to drink more :(
if only i wasn't tired the past weeks. my body wouldn't have given up :(
i wouldn't have troubled 'em :(
sigh.
ouh! and i wouldn't have been stripped :D
tahha.
idiot.
i can't believe i puked with just that small amount, really.
ouh wells, there's a first time for everything.
wooooootz!
it's kinda facetious yet excruciating. tahha.
like so o-m-g.
like to the max. like to the bones. like to the therre. and like to the herre.
wooooooooooooootz!
gahh.
but i think it's a good thing. i got to sleep for the first time in a few weeks.
sheesh!
and i wonder if i fell and bump me head 'coz me right eyebrow and head and forehead is hurtin!
damn.
ate ghen-love said i hit me bum...ouh lol me.

and and and
knowhutt??!! [part2]
i got the job baby!!!
woooooootz!
yey.
dough baby!!!
shopping!!!
work=dough=shopping=ecstatic!!!
yet
work=exhausting=scraggier=hideous!!!
woooooootz!
tahha!
and i love the place imma work at :) the ambiance...and coffee!!!
wooooooootz!

ouhkaye, thank you guys for attending to me and emmm, thank you rizzy and fam for the hospitality.teehee. love. thank you talaga. wooooooootz. gross but fun. hahahahaha. ouhkaye, gross :X

i'm finally havin' my period, thank God. :) sorry ate ghen, di kita ma meet. maseket eh.
ouhkaye, bye.

i want in, please.

ouhhhhhhkaye!
school's focken' out fo meyy!
woooootz!

and befo' gettin' hypa...
i'd like to say...
WAD paper sucked!!!
fo'shizzle, ya'll'll say "ditto".
sigh.

well, despite wakin' up at 5 on tuesday and 7 today, i still arrived late. lolz. k, wa-evvah that.
anyways, so when i opened the paper, and saw the first page questions, i thought imma enjoy doin' it...
so i was doin' doin'...
'til i reached question 11...and ouh-me-gaw. my eyes grew wider and my brows just raised higher and higher. *DISASTER*...
~so okaye...ya'll know whaddat means oweddey.~

so yea, blahblahblah. thank kiu. haha, "scared" to go out? more like "duwanna"...
but nah, i think it'll only jeopardize our bond if i do that.
yeap, great deal. nice negotiating with you. hahahaha!
and it's always been worth the time. :)


~~~
ouhkaye, time for some serious shout-outs...
i would like to apologize to you guys for not being there when you needed me; physically.
but now with exams over, i HOPE [well, no promises], i'd be able to meet up wii ya'll 'ready.

tasha love, sorry for missing your birthday [though you know i've always been]...and for not being able to meet up when you were at the bottom - again.

thiru, for being unable to meet up before you left for Brunei and to celebrate your birthday in advance; ouh well,
take good care, huh? when you get back...surely.

lee, i know...it's been a while.
glenny, you too, muay thai idiot... :P
emman, hahaha, next year lah you, lol.

emmm, and to anybody else who wants cares to meet me, lol.
cheers ya'll.

i want those pink shades :(

gahh.
knowhut!?
i am very...

sleepy!
but...

i cannot sleep!!
lerrrrrrr........
these past few days.
i turn in early at night; whenever i feel somnolent
but i JUST cannot sleep.
whadda!
and and and.
i already took a few shots of chivas just to help - make me feel groggy...
STILL cannot.
if only i can drink the whole thing and still wake up at 5am larrr...
ouh gawwww.
me hate me hate.

i just wanna REST my mind and wake up feelin' FRESH!!!
is that sooooo hard to doooo?!
i-d-i-o-t-a-h-h.

i cannot wait for friday's jamboree!!!
wooooooooooooootz!
okaye, more like shindig, actually.
booze baby!
i hope it'll be enough.

i cannot wait for 1230pm! later!!!
wooooooooooooootz!
tahha!
when 1230h strikes, school's out for me 'til DEC!!! or is it JAN?
muahahahahahaha.
luvettttt!!!
okaye. i'm still NOT sleepy.
i'll just bang me head on the wall. =_="

wheels

why do i feel loathed?
i guess, i deserve it.
i've been spiteful...

but...
i cannot contain what i'm feeling. it's just too temperamental.
gahh. it's like, one moment, i'm fond of something, the next, i have repugnance over it.



~i'm still hanging on~

befuddled

it's so hard - dealing with the inconsistency of this feeling.
at times, i just cannot bear the company - whilst at times i enjoy it
the sequential questions i get, is an uber annoyance that renders me to mull over whether or not
i should prolong the situation i'm in.
thee be, in all probability, beleaguered...
but know that - i myself is feeling worse as i am making a tremendous effort to like a being - that
never really grasp my interest at the outset.

i am not prepared...
and it sickens me more - for i am only compelling myself

the sudden-thoughts of the recent past still haunts me - and i resent it so much.
the nostalgia would make me beam - then, abruptly be in abhorrence.
i fathom it's just not justified...
but i know, it will befall at the righteous moment - which i am solely patiently anticipating for.

i am not akin to anybody else
ergo regard me contrarily


gahh, i hate this. i certainly do.

beautiful in my eyes

i just want mommy.
i need mommy.
and i just finished crying.

sthu

shut the fuck up!!!
i'm like being bugged all the time la.
i'm really fucked up now, with the consecutive buggings.

i'm sorry if i don't reply to any of your messages, guys.
and i will NOT reply or answer any calls/smses

i'm doin' my notes.
that's why i'm not freakin' online on ym and msn. *sheesh*
you know how easily distracted i am and hard to get my focus back right?
if you don't, NOW you do.

my phone's on silent mode, okaye?
i will not go out until i'm done with my stuff here.
if i cannot finish it, then i probably will just stay home, okaye?
and again, i won't reply to any messages/calls, UNLESS it's got to do with the exam.
okaye?!

i cannot even help around the house even if i want to and already people expect me to have time for them, please la.

i'm just doin' my fucking best not to get distracted...sigh.

halohalo

i just miss mommy.
i'm thankful she's home safely.
gramms ecstatic too, probably.
dad called them minutes before i reached home. :( didn't get to talk to her.

and sigh, i've planned to cuddle in with them during the weekend; but just got carried away with school stuffs.
anyway, i just wish she'd unwind and relish her stay there with loved ones.

dad and i were so delighted for her when it was time for her to board; she undoubtedly seemed so stoked that after she got her passport chopped and all, she just walked straight ahead without lookin' back and wave... lol. so dad and i raced to call her and and told her what she just did lar. she was surprised herself; she didn't realize at all. tahha. mom, oh mom.

anyways, thank you ate ghen for the hospitality despite the ambush visit, tahha. mina's lovely. you're really very ate-ish. awww. and and and i just remembered; no wonder i loved you that fast, it's 'coz you look like my cousin, tintin. hah. awww, i miss her.
thank you kel.
thank you el, kiki, fir, nodick for the frequent check up on me
i just realized redzal has the eyes of jericho rosales.
i saw ain [balestier]
thank you dad.
bert looked comical just now, bustling himself.
i saw rosfarina.


*and kiki, i so totally forgot about the fasting...i wanted to even call you for sushi snack. hahahahhaa! and sorry kiki. 3-DAY-old pinky shades...yang right eyeglass template pecah. like your recent thrashed shades. :'( sigh. careless me.

get through.

booo!!!
wehhhh.
swillin' coffee dad made. mmm, the aroma is just heavenly to my nose.
my flu by the way, is an on-and-off thing. lol. so i'm fine. unlike when i woke up yesterday, blocked by the dried...okaye never mind.

damn. mom washed all my Chuck Taylors yesterday :(
awww, i love it grubby, y'know!!!
ouh well, never mind again. i love mommy.

emmm, does anyone know how to eat a rambutan without havin' to eat the 'wood' thingy? it's why i NEVER liked eating rambutans. i can't even chew and just 'extract' the juice out 'coz the 'wood' thingy's so annoyingly getting in the way! ugh! call me a noob, but y'know, whatever. okaye, whatever.


i miss my kel, he's idiotingly sleeping. gagu. tahha. berghen's probably gonna tease me again when if they see this. =_=" wehhhh. shu'up okaye.

i'm havin' trouble seeing properly with my specs luh! the lenses have a lotta scratches. wakakakaka! so much for using specs. but if i don't use, i'll be squinting. ugh! okaye, i'll buy new one, wait two months uh.

i'm just excited to work. yayyyyyy. i've got my personal disbursement all lined up. weeeee. but i've to wait for a few months for larger splurges uh. lol. but still. YYYYYEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!!

what would you choose.

emmm, how true?

Situation:
You are in a deep deep forest... as you walk on you saw an old hut standing there...
(1) What is the status of the door? (Opened/closed)

(2) You enter the hut and see a table...
What is the shape of the table? (Round/Oval/Square/Rectangle/Triangle)

(3) On top of the table there is a vase... in the vase there is water.
How much water is it filled up with? (Full/Half/Empty)

(4) And what is the vase made of? (Glass/porcelain/clay/metal/plastic/wood)

(5) You walk out of the hut...as you carry on your walk in the forest...you see a waterfall from far...there is water running down...
What is the speed of the water? (Choose a number ranging from 0 to 10)

(6) Some time after the waterfall... you step on something hard on the ground... as you look down... you see glistening gold in colour. You bend down and pick it up... it is a keychain chained with keys...
How many key/keys you see hanging on the keychain? (Choose a number ranging from 1 to 10)

(7) You walk on and on... trying to find your way out...suddenly you see a castle.
What is the condition of the castle?!! (Old/new)

(8) You enter the castle and saw a pool of murky water with shining jewels floating on it...
Will you pick up the jewel?!! (YES/NO)

(9) Next to the murky pool... there's another pool...with clear water and money floating on it...
Will you pick the money?!! (YES/NO)

(10) Walking to the end of the castle there is an exit...you proceed to walk out of the castle. Outside the exit, there is big garden, you see a box on the ground.
What is the size of the box? (small/medium/big)

(11) What is the material of the box? (cardboard/paper/wooden/metal)

(12) There is a bridge in the garden some distance away from the box,
What is the bridge made of? (metal/wooden/rattan)

(13) Across the bridge, there is a horse.
What is the colour of the horse? (white/grey/brown/black)

(14) What is the horse doing? (still and quiet/nibbling grass/running about)

(15) OH NO!!! There is a tornado coming... some distance from the horse.
You have 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?
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Here are the interpretations:

(1) The door:
opened door - you are a person who is willing to share [speaking freely, yes. food, no ;P]
closed door - you are a person who is keeping things to yourself

(2) The table:
Round/oval - any friends that come along, you will accept and trust them completely [accept, yes. trust, not really]
Square/rectangle - you are a bit more choosy on friends and only hang out with those whom you think are on the same frequency
Triangle - you are really very very picky about friends and there are not many friends in your life..

(3) Water in vase:
Empty - your life is not fulfilled
Half filled - what you want in your life is half fullfilled
Full - your life is completely fulfilled and good for you! :) [familywise, yes. individually, no]

(4) Material of vase:
glass/clay/porcelain - you are weak in your life and tends to be fragile [so true, so please handle me with care ;p]
metal/plastic/wood - you are strong in your life

(5) Flow of waterfall:
0 - no sex drive at all
1 to 4 - low sex drive
5 - average sex drive
6 to 9 - high sex drive [wooohoooo!!! hahahahaha. uhh, no comment]
10 - gone case!!! super high sex drive!!! Can't live without sex...

(6) Keys:
1 - you have one good friend in your life
2 to 5 - you have a few good friends in your life
6 to 10 - you have a lot good friends [i realized i do have a lotta good friends, but close friends, i'd say a few]

(7) Castle:
Old - shows that your last relationship is not a good one and is not memorable to you.
New - your last relationship is good and it's still fresh in your heart. [fresh, kinda. good, idk]

(8) The jewel from the murky pool water:
YES - when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
NO - when your partner is around, you will stick around with him/her most of the time. [hahaha, i so don't know, really. but maybe yeah]

(9) The money from the clear water pool:
YES - when your partner is not around you, you will still flirt around with others.
NO - even when your partner is not around, you will still think of him/her and will be loyal to him/her, not flirting around with others. [i'm loyal, but is chatting up chatting with other guys really considered flirting?]

(10) The size of the box:
small - low ego
medium - average ego [we all do, but at least i'm just not very]
big - high ego

(11) Material of the box (outlook of the box):
cardboard/paper/wooden(non-shining) - humble personality [ouh thank you]
metal - proud and stuck up personality

(12) The material of the bridge:
metal bridge - have very strong bond with your friends
wooden bridge - average bond with your friends [really? well, yeah, i guess. but close friends would have stronger bond]
rattan bridge - you are not in good terms with your friends

(13) Colour of the horse:
white - your partner is pure and good in your heart. [oohweeee, could this be you?]
grey/brown - your partner is only average in your heart.
black - your partner doesn¡¯t seem to be good in your heart and appears to be bad sign.

(14) Horse action:
still and quiet/nibbling grass - your partner is a very homely and humble person. [could this be you again? i loooooike]
running about - your partner is a wild type person.

(15) This the last but most important part of the test.
From how I ended the story... a tornado approaches...
What are you going do? There are only 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?

What will you choose?
Now, the above is signified by these things:
tornado - problems in your life
box - you
bridge - your friends
horse - your partner
(i) So if you choose the box, you keep your problems to yourself whenever you are met with problems.
(ii) or if you choose the bridge, you will go to your friends whenever you are met problems..
(iii) or lastly if you choose the horse, you seek your partner whenever you are met with problems. [hmmm, i think it's my blog(partner) you're talkin' bout? otherwise, i'd run to my close friends first]

So if you think this is worth to take some time to send it to your friends, then you are a friend indeed.Or you think it is kind of true, you can also send it to your friends cause you are true too.

hmmm. i think this's what you all call psychological stuff? i don't really believe in these kinda things, 'coz i'm more of a realistic person. well correct me if i'm wrong, okaye? i know zilch about these kinda topics.
but anyways, the thing is, people could've made alterations to these kinda things on email so accuracy may not be accurate anymore after all. otherwise, it just isn't accurate at all. my results [in red] as obvious as it is, are somewhat there. you judge, try it.