just today

0502h: "if you would just coome back to meee, i would be so glaaad..."
[phone rings]

*shockked*
*clears throat*

"heller..."
"ah hello, wake up 'ready uh..."
"orh...wake up 'ready....imma go bath now, thank you."
"oh ok..go bath now"
"mmm, bye"
"ok bye"

*ends call*
*ZZZZZZzzzzzzz......*

*knocking and voice heard*
*looks at time*
*shockkked* [0545]
*hit the shower!*

~,-" [geeee]

Peter! so so thank you for the morning call yeah...so so sorry for dozing off again but but i'm still thankful you gamme that morning call...would've woken up later...

was late for 10/15minutes, school was boring, excited to go home, no reason, earphones went dead on me, bonkers-kazongkers, fucked up, finally reached home, house in a mess, not giving a fuck, onned TV, onned lappy, got in my birthday suit, had sting ray with sambal for lunch, multi tasked, offed TV, hoping they'd be home LATE! , wishin i can be alone, wanna be alone, missing my life before april 9, hiphopping, let's get to bed naw...betch! [word! heh got from u]

bye suckkaz

ps. pardon my news headlines. i noe it's so totally lame. i fired all the editors and journalists.
Kambing, thank YOU for makin my night, and midnight!

NTGIF

NTGIF!!!

my plans that i've planned a week ago today were ruined. [geee!-whiz!] i was pretty miffed about a message Glenny sent Thiru that made me lost my cravings and appetite for Billy Bombers. i won the bet but in the end i guess i just can't bear seeing him pay for that much,… but then again, a bet's a bet! and dear Glenny, u will fulfill it somehow!, somewhen! u must u must! for you are a guy with balls and is not afraid of losing bets!

i'm so very the sorry to Feeda and Hafiz and the rest for not going. yeahyeah stupid excuses and I DO regret…really I do [and you're probably rolling your eyes right at this moment just as you‘re reading this]. And yeah, Aada really was fucked up with me and Dee until she sent me that kinda message…[wadaaa…] believe me, you’re just not in my position that’s why you can say that. Ouh wells, but I do hope Apiz’s celebration will still go well. I miss you guys and I hope that we’ll still hang! We will we will!

Went back to CDSS to take our ‘O’ Cert. Had a pee [that I‘ve been enduring since…bah! never mind!], picture taking and oh oh oh! Look what I found in the foyer!

[Geeez…] I guess he’s not a frog prince… he’s fake! That’s why he became like that… I think he was hopping towards the other end but he only managed to hop 1/6 of the foyer ~.-’ oh well that’s what happens to pirated things! [LMFFBBASO]

Wanted to meet Apiz at lot1 to pass him his gift and at the same time, chill with Diyanot, Glenny, Amin, Shyukur but it got cancelled [like it always does! Ahakz…] Those fuckers weren’t really in the mood of hangin out so I decided to just go home! Went to the grocery store to buy cucumber, cheese and cocktail picks; took me 10minutes to choose which cucumber to get and even called kuzzie to ask how to choose the right one [yeah yeah, im a dummy! I loooiiikkee!]

Reached home and talked to her like nothing happened and the funny thing she said was “eh?! Did I say we’re ‘bate’ already? Kase ur speaking to me na” [waadaaaa?!]. He came out to watch “Maging Sino Ka Man” and he sat on the long couch I was lying down in and I laid my head on his lap and he was tickling my ears and she said “u see…those two…” [ahakz…] she’s no idea how much I get jealous whenever she…never mind. The important thing’s we’re okaye! I love you!

Sooo, really! That stupid Glenn still can say “thank God it’s Friday!” …like…. To hell with you…and all your friends[singing] cuz of u la! My TGIF became NO thank God it’s Friday…once again, I’m blaming YOU! your fault! always is... :P

Oh I’ve got some HEADLINE NEWS for you guys!

“THE BUZZ!”
1st headliner- “THIRU, an ANOREXIC?!” [he’s grown too slim!]
2nd headliner- “GLENN, the total ASS?!” [yupyup!]
3rd headliner- “DIYANA, the Big Momma/MPS/DINOSAUR…now a NURSE student?! And she’s handling Thiru and Shyukur with her ever seductive LIPS! “kiss me till your lips bleed” [ooohhh…she hott! jowk…I luv u gerl]
4th headliner- “AMIN, the beast! We finally know ur weakness!!! [ur just the BEAST NO MORE! We know how to shut u up!]
5th headliner- “SHYUKUR, the quiet, timid guy…now a REBEL!?” [okaye that’s just totally lame]

It’s 4 now…cya!

dear me,

after school, i hit the gym with mervin for like an hour. ouh and and it's actually 7pm now and i still havent hit the shower and my body's all sticky and stinky! i loooiiikkeee!

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i knew this would happen...way before she came i already predicted the changes. and what just happened just proved me right. i even told her about it but i guess it's nature. i never wanna do something to make her happy anymore. but that's just ridiculous because that's never gonna happen. i'm too weak to do that.

last night ate gen came online and greeted me with a "dood i miss you" while she was in school 1020h [texas]/2320h..she made my night after something happened to me.

i don't know if i'm just being over sensitive but i guess if you were in my place, you'd feel the same way.

i'm fubarred today..since morning! ...went to school with a primary/current schoolmate and he so so bore me to death! all the things that were coming out from his mouth were all baloneys! and bulls! and he's such an air-headed son of a fucktard! i guess he doesnt have a girlfriend...nobody would want him anyway.
he asked about my timetable and the time i'd finish school and each time i answer, he'll beat me to an earlier timing and and he commented on my shoes! like why i was still wearing school shoes..like heller! it's an off-white color and i love this shoes even if its in tatters i'd still friggin wear it!...gawshhh...i swear i could've slapped him already but i just didn't want to start my day off badly.

school was fine but i got raged again cuz some people kept me waiting and were giving me a hard time talking to them. not just one but 3...it's stupid! but yes..nevermind, i guess it'll be bettter tomorrow. it better be. and no i'm not gonna be dumb enough to entertain people anymore when it's so so not appreciated at all. and it's plainly ridiculous!

and goodbye!

french guy

fuck a duck! the aroma of french fries just gave me the craves...[oh duhhhleeen] crinkle or waffle cut [mmmm..yummy...] if i still have the craves tomorrow then i'll...oh fattt me! 'sokaye cuz i'm workin out again and i think i'm a lil motivated, hehh [nah, it's not the guys..well, i guess you can say that.. :P] i dunno wussap'nin to me...but i'm still loyal..hah!

i saw a guy in the bus this morn'n; he boarded the bus at YISS bustop and we caught us exchanged glimpses twice at each other! he looked chinese and i thought he's a JC guy and i was hoping he kinda wasn't! i wanted him to be in the same school as me. but as he neared [he was standing and i was seated just a seat before the door] i saw his uniform and he was from ite! so i thought, "aight, maybe he's from clementi but i was hoping he's from dover! hah! fugg]

forward>>
clementi bustop..he didn't go down..so i was relieved! [phew,hah like real] we went down at our bustop and i thought that that's the last time i'll see him..[ye noe..crushes..haha..fades away fast] i saw him in the canteen during our break and he was with malay guys so he's not chinese! [dang..i don't want malays anymore...i mean for a "someone"..i want a chinese or a filo or a eurasian..lol] ouh wells...

Gen

i've missed kuya arch since he left for taiwan for a month's training and all i wanted to do when he comes back is to kiss him! and i did that while he was sleeping after he just reached home from taiwan on tuesday morning before i left for school.

last night, we hung out in my room with the kids while the rest were watchin movie then we fell asleep on my single bed [we ain't that fat!]

on thursday, kuya's ex, geralyn, messaged me on my first friendster account; i was surprised cuz it's been ages and she still remembered me! i remembered her leavin for US and my bro was sad, they live in brownsville, texas. anyway, we contacted one another, together with kuya [lol] we all miss each other. and usually when it comes to my bro's gfs, i become very nosey and i know the gals he's been with and the stories behind em. muehekz..and i think so far i only love a few of them..ahakz..ate Gen said she missed me i miss her tooo..oh wells...i love u guys!

game over

Hmmmm….the game was supposed to start at 830 if I remembered correctly, but due to the rain, it got postponed…we were at the hall, waiting for the counselors to organise us..and it took them 2+hours to organise and start the motherfuckin game! [geeez] We won the 1st game..but the second game was a fucked up one; imagine us competing with guys whose size are as big as teachers plus there are also two bloody FAT guys lor! As in as fat as hakim siaaaa…then there were only 8 players in the opponent team while our team had 10, and the stupid counselors told us to either 1 of our players to go the other side or 2 playas go out of the team to be fair…like HELLO!!!! Isn’t havin mothafuckin BIG playas FAIR enough to compete with small playas with just one extra playa…was so effed up la, they’re so unreasonable, they don’t watch what they’re gonna say man..so dumb freaks…haha..ok..I feel like im so affected by everything liao lah..but its true anyway. It’s S-T-U-P-I-D stupid! And the players don’t have good sportsmanship; they look up to themselves too highly til can reach heaven lidat [whatever; rolls eyes 360degrees nonstop]

Anyway, I think I made TWO HIIIUUUGEEE mistakes just now. dumbass freak me...

And I already have a solution about the feeling stuff in my previous post…

the feeling

Dear you,

Today was the official first day of our lesson…but tomorrow we’re having Games Day so no lesson! [Weeeeee…keke..] Nothing much happened, learned new things [duh]. During ou practical lesson, merv and yi juan were sitting together and there wasn’t a seat left for me cuz I just came back from the washroom so the teacher told me to go to the back, but merv was bein a gentleman so he decided to go to the back instead. So yijuan started teasing me with the isham guy [he’s really not that hansem nor cute its his hair and goatee that gives attraction]. I just took it lightly and I made friends with him and firdaus and atiqah. Trivia: isham lives at jelapang too…[rolls eyes]

Anyways, supposedly I was to go gymming with glenn-glenn but I “purposely” forgot to bring my stuff cuz I was quite in a hurry so YJ suggested to just eat at jurong so we did. Tho YJ had another beautiful day today [haha..from ydae leh! Skali tmr oso hav!]

I felt a funny feeling when I woke up just now and I’m not sure whether I’m supposed to be feeling that way. It’s flattering yet wrong..[sigh] I just don’t know what to do for now…

cca

oooh...second day was ok, met newer friends n class; sze min, farina, dave, pearlyn, idah, hong lei ISHAM!!! i was quite noisy oredi..since yesterday while the rest were like zombie lidat! haiyeerr boring uh...

anyway, my CCAs are INSPIRE CLUB [which consist of acting/dancing/singing/emceeing/rapping/etc] and and and! [tadaaaaaa...] FITNESS CLUB! yep! that's right..FITNESS CLUB! i saw my bro's friend/our neighbor [live at 13th floor of our block...he's cute but he's like an abang] then he encouraged me uh..ahakz..i'm gonna tone up my body, lose those flabs so later you people out there! godai uh! later see me oni "whoaaaa joannne, is that u!!! sexy siaaaa" hahaha...kla all dont comment uh! i noe u all say i confident la eksyen all...shudup uh!

then this yijuan uh..cheeky..teasing me with this cute guy i told her then when we left the class she went to ask for his number! but i didn't take cuz im a good gal uh..very LOYAL! remember that...i'm still attached but my crushes list increase uh..muahahaha..but i hope i wont get hitched with someone in school uh! i got reserve redi..haha jowk...kla..bye...miss u!

ouh and! i also made two new guy friends in class forgot the name and they joined inspire club also! hahaha..good uh?!

1st day

first day for the freshmen...ran late cuz of the bus la! 1st bus was full so the driver "shake head shake hand"..so my face change la! i thought first day can arrive early skali lidat..waaaahh..den second bus oso full but the driver asked us go in..so geewd..luvveeet

boring la..intro everything...but fun uh, got one cute guy in my clazz..there are more guys than gals in the school so can go fishing..ahakz! haiz..i good gal la, won't go fishing...ahakz..i faithful... ~.-'

i'm missing my crushes..hahaa..miss playing with them..cheyyy...play seh..play wat...play dat one uh!

i'm craving for kfc crispy chicken! good thing mom brought home but only one drumstick! nvm uh..can survive...kla..hope tomorrow will end early also lah..haixxx...

and den and den! got two filo lecturers, 1 female and 1 male..my kababayans..ahakz...

fri e 13th

drama! show was boring..[ahakz]

twas a veeery long day fer me...not so la..but if i were still in a very bad mood it'd be a loong day then.

it aaaaall started when i had to accompany cuz richelle to find werk ...[ive been accompanying her for the whole week].

well, initially, we were to go to city hall/raffles area before going to orchard budden! my dad called momma and told us to meet 'im at esplanade at 1pm sharp to help us find job...lol..so i rushed to bath and got ready but we only got outta the house at 1215 so mom was mad at me for being slow[as usual]..mom usually gives me the look and have this grouchy fierce face when she's mad; i can't even try to make 'er laff unlike my bro...so i was also fucked up about the fucking naggings and whinings i got! so from the lrt station til the bus til esplanade i was in a "don't-you-dare-fuckin-talk-to-me" state, so my cousin was just sitting quietly listening to her hp radio and i had to listen to the noise in the bus cuz they were such in a hurry that i left my ipod [listening to music would've helped me cool down]. i received this religious msg so i passed to mom and dad thinkin they should've already forgotten about it but dad replied in an angry manner so that made me even fuckin madder! and he said that if we were late then sorry..he met us anyway. we reached esplanade and met 'im at Ichiban Boshi then he saw my grouchy face and he was smiling..but i still showed the face til he asked me what i wanted to order then i smiled..ahakz..[food's my weaknesss :P]

after that lunch, i was moody again cuz i'm very tired already..ahakz...so from esplanade, took a cab to beach road for interview; wrong addy sia! suppose to go bugis junction...waleooo! so we walked through the hotels we passed by and applied uh..then walked to bugis haiz....vehhh sian...apply3...then just walked through the stupid shops uh then go budden i asked her apply last one at Breko that's why i was late...

my cousin didn't wanna go with me to school but dad called and told me to bring her along, then mom called same time as dad and asked us to take a fuckin cab cuz we late liao..ahakz...was gonna queue redi til cuzz said she's hungry so i not happy[veh bad] go McDo buy uh! then go out queue looong shiiiaaa...then glenn2 wait..hahaha good2..then at last we picked glenn up [waleo i blanja him sia! i neh blanja ppl wan lei!] then i reached school then i happy la...all my stupid fucked up day at least gone when i met the people i've beeen longing to seee...weeee...but didn't get to talk to the guys..SHAHIR was a bloody snob who just looked at nurul with his mouth open..oh well, snub! didn't get to join the rest for dinner cuz my cuzzin tired so go home looo...her face not happy sia cuz we walked til pending..she not used to walkin mah..we sumor everyday walk long2! ahakz..so her legs aching..

ps. i realised that friday e 13th's really bad luck! wahhh everyone around me got something happened shiaaaa...nahbeh..kekee..Thiru neh go, Diyana oso neh go..hahha..they met mah...secretly..lol..jowk!

eggzosted luv

i'm eggzosted from everything this week - it's killing me .and i've school on monday already...i thought i was strong enough to handle these things...ive to take care of sooo many things; my heart, my leg!, my cuzin, my school, my things, other things, and some other things. however, i can't seem to handle them all when i need to by this week because i'm busy with only one thing. i can't complain to my parents because i don't want them to think that i'm just being lazy....well, i did told em if i could not go out on sat and sun so i can prepare for my school but mom somehow didn't seem happy. the worst thing is, i feel that they feel that i'm just doing this because i'm being forced to, but it's only my facial expression... i was a lil disappointed because eversince i woke up this morning, all i did was to help and when i took a lil break and went back, the person i'm helping wasn't helping herself. lol...i guez i'm juz being paranoid. i gotta give it another shot.

but aside from all that..i'm in-like with someones...yes..someones..hahaha...what a sofa king bitchy slut joanne is...hello! liking someones is not bad! shut up people! kepos! andf you're wondering who they are...keep wondering...while for guys..if you're wondering whether you're the one..then my answer's just gonna be "yalayala...u la..". luvveeeet...

jannah

happy 19th birthday!

this gurl here..nono, lady i mean [ur old!..i will be too, soon]...cried when she saw gigid and i bringin the cake towards her [while Dee was lighting up the candles]..that emotion changed when she saw me handing her a "cute" candle...she was surprised just like everybody else were..ahakz..then they said "confirm horny redi" or something like that la..then i said i dun think you can use that so i handed her another gift..a massager..the massager is a two in one thingy..if you don't want a massage, you can play with it...muehkz...

anyway, we were at pizza hut at plaza sing. her "date" was amirul who was so quiet throughout the whole time we were there and only heard him laff and talk for like less than a minute in total..and i thought, maybe nurul was doin something under the table that's why..muahahhaa! ok..kidding! ok..there were 12 of us, 6boys 6gals [perfect pairing]: nunu/mirul, dee/shyukur, sab/amin, sheena/nsl, gid/glenn, me/nabil..haha, me/nabil not good la! cuz he got nisah! lol...i loner ah...our famous topic was teasing pairs that always led to sex...[rolls eyes] like that's something new....then i went home with my bodyguards: glenn n shyuk while the rest walked to marina..oh well, dee and gid's partner went with me la...too bad...[lol]..so that's about it...hope u had a great time jannah

lesson of love

i learned many good things o'er the lunch with tita Katrina and it taught me so much. it made me alot stronger; strengthen my faith.

i remember the things we did every Good Friday as a family. i'm very proud to say that i'm a family person and i really feel safe when they're around. i miss you kuya arch, i love you so much.

daym

take care up there, hope ur ankle's better.

i feel good after going to church again after a loong absence...luuuveeet...

milo-Dino! thx for the strap..loveettt

finally met "roaaaar"...ahakz...i miss her la...but now that ive seen her, i dun miss her redi..haha..jowk...

i miss the guys...no chance of ever meeting them la i think..evibodi sofa king busy...why siaaaaa...why lidaaat...u have to things slowwwww u knowwww!!! always in a rush! that's why easily fall sick then die fast..haiz...these people...ONE LIFE, LIVE IT. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

get well birthdays

don't waste anymore time, you can't limp around..go see a doc or something..i miss you two.

Belated Happy Birthday to John Paul and Giannina [march 30]




Happy 19th Adrianne today! and Advance Happy Birthday to Charlene

summer vacation started last week if i'm not wrong. you guys are probably always at the beach/pool enjoying. at least you guys have a long break..i'm starting my school 2weeks later. yeahh..my timing was wrong...