i do not know if this will be the worst feeling i can feel with my bestfriend...
but currently, this is the first time i've experienced the most excruciating feeling of being ignored and brushed aside by my bestfriend.
i did not have the intention of spending my day like this.
had i known i will be treated like this, i would not have waited just to WASTE my time being snubbed.
when i found out you guys were going to SM, i got hyped..for i knew i would get to spend some quality time with my bestfriend again.
when i saw you with rochelle, i locked my eyes on you, waiting fo you to notice me and when you finally saw me, i smiled with excitement...but...
you gave me that snotty look; raised an eyebrow and continued walking on with rochelle...
okaye, i get it. you did not like what you saw but i did not let that get into me so i waited for you to come back from the washroom..and when you did, i even gave you a kiss and said 'i miss you'..and i did that because that's what i felt..i didn't do that just to make you feel better..and i don't know what you felt but again, you snubbed me and walked into the arcade with rochelle, leaving me behind. MJ felt so bad that he told me to walk ahead and walk beside you, but the look that you had, walking with rochelle, talkin' bout things made me step back cuz i didn't wanna be an extra shit, tailing you around, knowing i wasn't part of your convo. that, i respected.
i sat beside you, and tried to talk to you, to make sure that i have my attention on you but you just rattled on with roch about things i don't think i know. i couldn't quite hear you guys but i think you guys were chatting about boys...cuz the tone that you had, sounded so cheeky...
and i thought to myself, how come i feel like i don't know about this, i didn't hear you talk to me about this. then it reminded me about seeing you chatting with tyrone on sunday...and i thought i was a bestfriend enough to be told about these things? how come rochelle had to be the first to know? how nice.
it didn't fuck me up. it hurt me. i was right beside you! on your left..but you chose to speak with the other person next to you, on your right! i was there, i did my part and made sure you still had and always will have my attention but i was ignored. you had so much things to talk about with roch and when it came to me, utter silence. i wanted to leave from the start...when you and roch went yacking and me being ignored because i was getting teary. but i told myself that that'd be an immature thing to do. so i waited, yet nothing happened.
i c-l-e-a-r-l-y wasted my time. i wanted to cry cuz it hurt so much. i tell you everything that's happening in my life but you don't. and i respect your belief that some things are just not meant to be shared. what i can't accept is the fact that things you share to other people, you don't share to me.
then i guess i know where i really stand in your life.
but currently, this is the first time i've experienced the most excruciating feeling of being ignored and brushed aside by my bestfriend.
i did not have the intention of spending my day like this.
had i known i will be treated like this, i would not have waited just to WASTE my time being snubbed.
when i found out you guys were going to SM, i got hyped..for i knew i would get to spend some quality time with my bestfriend again.
when i saw you with rochelle, i locked my eyes on you, waiting fo you to notice me and when you finally saw me, i smiled with excitement...but...
you gave me that snotty look; raised an eyebrow and continued walking on with rochelle...
okaye, i get it. you did not like what you saw but i did not let that get into me so i waited for you to come back from the washroom..and when you did, i even gave you a kiss and said 'i miss you'..and i did that because that's what i felt..i didn't do that just to make you feel better..and i don't know what you felt but again, you snubbed me and walked into the arcade with rochelle, leaving me behind. MJ felt so bad that he told me to walk ahead and walk beside you, but the look that you had, walking with rochelle, talkin' bout things made me step back cuz i didn't wanna be an extra shit, tailing you around, knowing i wasn't part of your convo. that, i respected.
i sat beside you, and tried to talk to you, to make sure that i have my attention on you but you just rattled on with roch about things i don't think i know. i couldn't quite hear you guys but i think you guys were chatting about boys...cuz the tone that you had, sounded so cheeky...
and i thought to myself, how come i feel like i don't know about this, i didn't hear you talk to me about this. then it reminded me about seeing you chatting with tyrone on sunday...and i thought i was a bestfriend enough to be told about these things? how come rochelle had to be the first to know? how nice.
it didn't fuck me up. it hurt me. i was right beside you! on your left..but you chose to speak with the other person next to you, on your right! i was there, i did my part and made sure you still had and always will have my attention but i was ignored. you had so much things to talk about with roch and when it came to me, utter silence. i wanted to leave from the start...when you and roch went yacking and me being ignored because i was getting teary. but i told myself that that'd be an immature thing to do. so i waited, yet nothing happened.
i c-l-e-a-r-l-y wasted my time. i wanted to cry cuz it hurt so much. i tell you everything that's happening in my life but you don't. and i respect your belief that some things are just not meant to be shared. what i can't accept is the fact that things you share to other people, you don't share to me.
then i guess i know where i really stand in your life.
