dun fren you!

Today, I accompanied Momsy to do some groceries and somehow, the things that I’ve been seeing for the past few days have made me reminisce about my childhood - the good ol' days. Although it was cut short when we had to come here in Singapore. [7years in the Phils]

In Manila
I remember running around the backyard [with my big, brown teddy bear,] with my big brother and his

toy gun-with-belt wrapped around his waist.
Playing badminton, Chinese garter, and blading in the front yard with

brother, cousins and neighbors.
I even made friends with the squatters who [lived somewhere and] liked to hang around our place just to watch us play with our toys. Toys that they could never have =[
I remember teaching myself to blade cuz Arch was engrossed with his other toys[; forgetting about his own blades]. I was what? 4-5 years old then…
I remember how I nursed cousin JC [who kept falling off his bicycle] with just cotton and water and how he’d say “Hey, I’m okaye already! No more pain!” then go back to his cycling and other rough games and comes back for more treatment.

I remember how pain in the arse Arch was with our maids;

throwing his sleepers at them when he climbed those sharp gates to escape just to play basketball in front of our house. [Trivia: 16 maids in 2years]
I remember how he got our family into trouble [;with our second last maid before we left for Singapore]. That fucking one-eyed-maid who got fired, came back and pretended to be

our aunt [and Arch actually bought it!!!] and he naively let them in to our house only to find out that they were thieves. By then our TV, VHS and many other stuffs were gone. *sigh*

They got caught in the end I think…Wakakaka…

I remember how Arch and I were favored [among all our cousins] by Aunt Teresa and her

then-boyfriend-now-hubby Unc Arthur; bringing us along on their dates and and treating us to movies and ice-skating and doing groceries and blah-blah-blah as if we was their kids.

And we were also favored by gramms Alice! Bringin’ us to the grocery and and buying us

whatever-the-hell we wanted! *lalala*

In Laguna [province]
I remember how we relished the old house of my maternal Gramms Jovita, ‘chwas made of wood.
How we’d enjoy sleepin’ on the second floor cuz the flooring was made of bamboo stick.
It was the only house in their neighborhood that was made of wood, the others was concrete.

But but!!! It was also the only house that never gave in to

the many many typhoons that passed by every year.
Mom told me how their neighbors mocked the house and got karma-ed when - with the every typhoon, their rooftops got flown off!!! Tahahaha! Fockersss…
Sadly, that wooden house had to go cuz cuz of the eeeky-weeeky termites and and with the foundation gett’n weaker. Lalala.
I remember how we made and sold “ice candies” with cousins [in 3 flavors; coconut? Orange and chocolate]. Lollerz.

THEN! We had to come here!

My childhood here…hmm, ‘twas fun for awhile. Then it got boring. First few years were dope,

we were very active; having parties after parties every weekend, hitting the water [beaches/pool],

outings anywhere; BBQs/ice skating/pot luck. Then all sorts of FUN got cut off. Many friends of Dad’s migrated to other countries and that was when we lay low, staying home most of the time,

only occasionally attending parties. *sigh*

‘Til now, our family life’s been like this. Very reserved. Tralala…
The only fun I resorted to from then on was those parties and and fun fair and and toys and and those thingies [vending machines?] you put 20cent and $1 coins then the toy, kept in a round thingy comes out...and also those small rides in the malls, where you put 20cent coin and you go round that that thing, kinda like ferris-wheel-one-seat-version?! Lol..

The thing is, the kids I saw just now made me remember how fun it is to be a sprog; never having any problems that we youths face now. The only problem we all had as tykes were about toys that our friends had that we didn’t…and when we ask our folks to get us that toy we so badly want yet we can’t, we’d be crying our asses out and it’d be the Biggest problem evvah. I dunno if you guys did anything like that but I did. I’d whine and whine til I get it. And I got it! Well, sometimes I don’t lah. But but ain’t it fun being sprogs just running around, pointing to things we want, getting many gifts during occasions. Now, we’re all young adults, facing [and creating our own] problems.

How time flies. I wish I can relive those days again. That’s gonna be my very wish for now!

Well, That’s all folks! My novel-post! Not long enough! Hahaha! I can go on but I got zippo childhood memory already. There may be a Part II for this. Teehee! Wajout!

Not like any of you care anyway! Tralala…G’nyt! *kisses*

blues

Monday blues… lol.
Was very the freaking drowsy when I woke up. Must’ve been the lack of sleep I‘ve been havin.
Forced myself up and took a cold bath. Helped a lot; felt more awake…

In the bus, grogginess came back so I fell asleep =.="
In the class too. Esther noticed so she taught us some exercise…lalala…

After class, went for this “Smoking” talk.

Initial plan was to ditch but some dickless people [Lei-lei] couldn’t walk off when we could’ve!

So we went… Weeeyll, it wasn’t bad after all. T’was pretty dope actually. So yeah.

Reached home feeling jaded. Luckily, Akid ajak-ed to treat…Went to BPP KFC with the guys, Akid, Ayid, Fizzy and Mus… Don’t know whatever-the-hell happened to the gals.
Lalala… got caught in the rain *sigh* Just hope I won’t fall sick lah huh…
It’d be a total disaster if that ever happened!
Many people will be sad, oh-so sad.



Oh! I got to hug Sabby! Fina-freaking-lly!
Kid, thank you for the treat ehk!

“Who wants to kiss an ashtray…” [lalalaaaa…]

to my marshMELLERZ

Not a very good way to start the day.

I was awoken by an alarming message

yet I’d like to thank that friend

for remembering me and confiding.

It saddened me to hear her break the news.
I could only listen to her speak.
Pretty speechless actually; startled…
I couldn’t believe hearing those words come out of her mouth.
I remember listening to both sides before.

How much they admired/admire each other.
How they treasure each other.
How much they fought for their love despite

the difficulty of their situation.
How much we all admired their relationship.
How that - in a way inspired some of us.

The last happy moment with them I can recall is

my connivance with her for his birthday.

The love that took them so much to build has ended eventually.

I learned that, it’s a real drag when someone suddenly gives up in the relationship that took them so much to build.

It’s so easy for the other party to just say the words

just because they don’t feel anything anymore

while the other grieve with the death of their relationship.

I know not what better to say but all I can say is you will get better each day that passes. It’s gonna hurt for a long while but it’s the days you’re gonna get up and walk that is important.



Please, as soon as you get back here, we’re gonna talk.

It’s okaye you weren’t there but I’m gonna make sure I’ll be here.

I’m honored. I’ll see you real soon.

fighting!

(:

lalala

Lalala…I’m gonna try to blog while I still can. I’m FAGGED doode! I had to wait up for Arch cuz he had no keys! It’s 2am now. He just came… finally! My eyelids are drooping though…but I’m gonna do this…lol!

Anyway, nothing much today. Supposed to go baby’s place at 7 but but I slept at 2+ the night before so couldn’t wake up early. He called at 8 so I woke up and yadda-yadda-yadda. Nothing uh, hehe…we just lazed at his place, helped him tie books cuz they’re gonna shift house to W’lands =[ sad la! So farrrrr!!! *sigh* Like that uh, I go his place he cannot send me home already. *sniff*sniff* Lalala…whateverrrrr *rolls eyes non-stop*

Finally, washing machine’s fixed!
Emm…my room’s in a mess again.
Emm… I’m using my Taz blanky.
Emm…I haven’t done the cisco shit…
Emm…I’m fucking famished…
Emm…I’m bored…
Eeeemmm…I’m cute?!
Hahahhaa, what a joker, I know! You like right?! Elelelelelelele…hehe

Aight dawg! I’m really fagged…I’m gonna hit the sacks nah…g’nyt, I love you people =p but you should love me more

im at ease na...

Ola…
½h late for JTS, nevertheless I learned so much even with that ½h lesson left.

I really must come early next week... or at least on time!

I hate coming late for my favourite class! Dimwit!

Anyway, PE afterwards, didn’t join in cuz cuz got period! [sway sia!]

Plus plus it poured! *Gee-whiz*

So I got drenched again!
Anyway, baby Jules brought me lunch; spag, chicken, cassava and salad

cuz I didn't turn up for his bbq.
Watched Troy.
Headed to his place then went to Cine to pick up his baby ipod.
Met mom at Yew Tee.
Surprisingly saw Tasha… -.-''
Off to Tito Gines’ place to deliver the thingy.
Dinner at McD, Lot1


PS.
Thank you Akid and Kris for your time last night
Jules, thank you for the clarity in everything and more to come. hehe..

fushit!

mood:
rage!
state of confusion
hysteria

ok this is killing me!
i feel unwanted all of a sudden
correct me if i'm wrong
but if i am,
i feel i'm not fully wanted
why is that so?
i'm sick! i know..
insecurity
uncertainty
diffidence

i need people's
assurance
company
friendship
affection

where is it?
i need it
it's the only remedy
please give me someone i can share this feeling with
i want a friend with the same condition as me

take back

Afterwards, I felt I shouldn’t have. Thursday was fine. Got to chill with 1A boys during break,
Why do I still feel second or maybe not even second at all? Akid, Ayid, Fizzy, Erwin Irwin ~.-"

Can you reassure me? and Luqman. Sabbz and the girls were at the other side of the canteen
There’s still something so I didn’t bother to approach em [keke]. They came afterwards, chat a lil

Something I need to see then left for class so I went back with the Chi gang and they started
To see that you’re with ME teasin me again. "Seducer, seducing the boys" *sheesh*

Just chillin my arse down herre.

25/07/07 1947h

Wednesday.
MME day.
Late again. *sheeeesh* [like I‘m so flabbergasted?!]
We were given an assignment;
10 clips to make 2 vids in 4 hours.

5 clips each vid.
Didn’t get to start with the second. *geez*.
Nelson said to continue next week.
Had group project at the Cafeteria.
Bought e-pass for Mervvie-Merv.
Then went to J’s place for lunch and to chill.
Right.

I’m bushed.

hole in the heart

My Monday was constant. Same ol’ shet. The class decided to watch Vacancy today [Tue]. I said yes and even planned to sandwich Hong Lei [flirter] with Yi Juan. And bully him! *sigh* I couldn’t go cuz I wanted to go for the Art Workshop. Well, that feeling was yesterday.

Today! I got all lazy and lethargic so I didn’t go. I was late for an hour for class. Yet gladly, there was no lesson. Cuz cuz there was this “something Educational something?!” Bahh, I forgot the name. *gee-whiz* The first few items were uber-corny til this local-known Racial dance group or something came and performed. At least it woke us up, especially the Bhangra dance. Wanted to groove to it but but I can only do it with Nurul and Sabby!!! These two are the only ones I can crazy-dance with anytime, anywhere. *sigh* I miss ‘em already. So yeah, after they performed, it was back to the corny items. *sigh* I so wanted to walk out! But but I was hoping there’d be other fun items that followed. But zilch. ITE Dover “Stomp” performed. Haha! Dooode, it was nothing compared to CDSS STOMP. At least they’re better! You should’ve come down to IMM Sat. Lol. Ok, ‘nuff mocking. Then the last piece was a song “I Believe I Can Fly”, had technical problems, the students were too fucked up to even care to stay so they walked off. Poor them, no more audience. Mervin and I followed then the rest too.

Had lunch with Merv as the rest were heading off to Vivo. Sweet Merv [my lesbian partner] told me his story. Sad case! Now I feel you dude. I do hope you get well and still succeed in life.

That’s about it I guess. I don’t know what else to type but I feel like typing! *haiyuh* Ok lah! I feel like ditching school tomorrow but I know I can’t afford to miss lesson. I’m the goodest girl anyone has ever met in their entire lives. Uhhh, rrright... I need a good cuddle! And only one person can do that! Yess!!! You know yourself. So shut up! Hah. Kidd’n. Love yousss peoplesss.

what is this?! huh?!

It wasn’t much of the closeness that I thought of when I shared something with a friend. I guess it just came out. I hesitated, but in the end, I thought that maybe its worth sharing since she spilled something heavy too. I don’t know if trust was involved, because ultimately, we both told each other never to tell.

Trust has always been that big of a deal to me. Ever since I learned my lesson; wailed, cried and howled like a wounded animal; well, not to the extreme though. I guess you can kinda say that I am now gradually gaining my trust on the people surrounding me. It took me years, and yes, there is still a barrier, and will probably always be but at least it wasn’t as bad as it was before; when I shut myself off from the world, never saying anything to anyone about my life. It made me become anti-social. And they’d probably never understand why and would just give an insensible judgment of me being lame and corny as an anti-social whatsoever. And those are the gregarious people who never spare thoughts for people who are unlike them. Well yeah. Reserved people are more sensitive because they don’t easily trust people and they know who is real and who is the hypocrite. I’m not referring to anyone in particular though.

But anyways, I sincerely hope that no one will tattle the things I trust them never to spill. It’s hard enough gaining my trust in you let alone tell you. But I did. So the least you can do is keep it, bury it.

This not only refers to one person but to the people I’ve told on. Because YOU have my word when I promised. I just wonder how long you can keep it but I sincerely hope you’ll bring it to your grave. Teehee.

On a lighter note, I miss you people. I miss the yesterdays. Every single day that passes, in fact every single second that passes, is a moment to be treasured. For these are the things that will help us through in life. Be it good or bad. We may get hurt but it actually strengthens us. I may complain and whine and grumble and carp in my posts but hey, it’s just my way of letting it out! At least I do get better afterwards.

Ouh…and yeah, doode! Stop treating me like that, I'm not yours. Quit it already.
And you. Doode, don't waste your time, you won't get anything from me. Aren't you tired?!
And you! Doode, don't be over-sensitive. Geez!
And you. Doode! Stop already if you think you can't give me your time. Because you only appear once in a blue moon then disappear again! Like whatthefuck?!

saturday

Sa’erdayyy

Arlooo, I had difficulty wakin up cuz my body was in pain. Pulled myself up, took a bath and left! Lee smsed me about the CDSS Stomp thingy. So went to IMM to meet Feedah and Aree Then watched the SYF Kaleidoskope or something. CDSS STOMP performed. Kuya Jay liked it! Of coz uh! Then then dunno where else to go so we walked to Jurong Entertainment to chill at the Ice Skating place there. They went to buy Bubble Tea and waffle while we bought cigarette. Chilled awhile at the there. Then went to Lot1 and met his best friend’s aunts, after which we all had dinner at kuya Jay's place. Feeda smsed again; she and her the BF missed us and said we were fun to be with! So we chilled at the pool side. Then went home uh. Thought I could still bond with Dad, but he sleeping uh! I say hi, then he replied me with a fart! *Waddda!!*

Okay uh, that’s all. I tired redi. K uh, bye!

20/07/2007

Puuurrfect date!
Right? Right?!

I was late for school. Didn’t get to attend my favorite class, JTS! Went for PE instead. After teacher marked our attendance, I went off. Went home with Atiqah. Got to know her bettur. [lol]

Went to Kuya Jay’s place to have lunch then headed to Far East to meet Sabby!!! And Lindz! Then then, went to look for the shoes that I was lookin for. Then then went to look for the top Sabbz was lookin for. Then then sent Lindz to the bustop cuz she had to go home. Then then went back to Far East cuz the little girl wanto buy Bubble Tea. Then then I bought them “Fried Mars Bar”. Then then they eat eat. Theeeen, we headed to Yew Tee for eyebrow threading while Sabbz went home. NICE SIA…

Then then went back his place to sleep. Tired sia! Then then I went home. Then that’s when I started to shivvvvvveeerrr. Fell sick sia! Then MUMMY hugged me! *Awww* I miss’er!

lucky it couldn't go in

was running late for school

got a call

had breakfast

rained

chilled there

supposed to go school during break

heavy rain

go there sleep

got a message from Akid

went lot1

met new friends, Julia and Rashidah...

went McD

i bought Sab ice cream

they went off

Ayid came

eat eat

went back there to sleep

then go home

boring siaaaa! ahakz, sorry for ditching school. tc people.

im actually laughing at you

Arlloooo!!!!!!!!! [lol] Yesterday was Tuesday. Emm, nothing much happened. Went to school. An hour late. On[-ned] computer. Windows cannot load. Shifted to another. Not working. Shifted to the next. "Restrict by Bro Act". Shifted to the

another-next! And *phew* finally! [I used Izza's]. Izza and Atiqah came. They had no computer to use. Izza say neh-myn. She and Atiqah sat at the useless-computers place. Sleep! [lol] It's what they always do. Very cute of them. [lollerz]

Anyhow, I got to know Thufa better. It's good. Lesson, lesson. After lesson, then...then...go home la! Nobody asked me out yesterday. [lol]

TODAY is Wednesday!!! [lol]

Early for school. Sat down. Did the same thing as yester-the-day. A lil pissed off. Told Nelson about it. He fixed them. Then I shifted. Lesson, lesson. Thought of going home after lesson. 'Cuz nobody asked me out! [lol]

UNTIL *tennenn-tennenn* [message tone] Kuya Jay asked me to chilli-chilli... Lesson ended. Bumped into SABBYINA at the lift the there. Then chat-chat, sat down, then chat-chat some more...til her the bloody SC-whoever came then she went off. Sad sad so I went off...then bumped into Akid and Ayied! Yeah yeah!!!Chilli-chilli-ed with them at the Cafe. Akiddo treated me to a Green Tea drink. Then I had to leave. They accompanied me to the bus stop. Waited til my bus came. Sweet larr Sabby nye kawans. [lol]

Reached Marina Sq. Met Kuya Jay and his friend, Erwin!? whom I mistaken to be a Chinese; he's an orang Melayu. Chillied at Star-the-bucks til he felt hungry. Ate at Food Court. I had Korean. They had local. [lollerz] After that they went back to camp. So I went home lorr...

Am I so detailed or what! Bored la I! And besides, I have a bad memory, so it's better I type like this. [buehek]...

nothin shapes your life more than the decision you choose to make..

they can develop you or destroy you. but either way, they will define you

revenge!

Finally, phase test... done! over! finish! dahbes! tapos na! meiyo liao! [lol] *phew* i think i didn't do well, but yeah. whatever... me no care. [rrrriiggghhhttt]

So anyways, on the way home, this malay guy [i think] who had many piercings boarded at clementi area and sat[-ted] right at the backka the bus, just behind me. he alighted at bukit batok and kept turnin to see if our eyes would meet [which didn't of course, he's FUGLY]. finally when he was outta the bus and walked towards my direction, he looked at me and caught me lookin back at him and y'know what!!! he actually STICK[-ed] :P out his tongue! Now i don't know if he was showin off his fuckin pierced tongue or was he just really pissin me off! anyway, i middle-finger-ed him! *hmph* TAKE THAT! you sucka-fu chicken-head!!!! *ugh*

Yeah, [hehe] fun! anyways, met up with my long lost friend! [lol] Thiru! yesyes. the friend i've ditched like a million-gazillion times already. [hehe] nola. twice oni! watched Transformers again for the sake of him. i know. i'm the friendliest of the friendliest friend a friend anyone can get. so do TREASURE me before you regret! kaye, yah then went to the lib to borrow me some books. [YES! i'm actually reading books] then headed to lot1 for fries.

Well, that's pretty much about it. but i did enjoy the time with my friend, although not much to talk about la. not like last time. [hehe] ur gett'n boring dooode! kidd'n. kla, bye suckazz

user

i really am just holding on. But i don't know whom i can hold on to. People say "don't worry, i'm here for you." but often they're not. They say you're their friend, best friend, girlfriend when you're not. They just tell you that to make you feel better. Sometimes i don't even know why i'm giving in. Y'know, like when they ask you for a favour, you do it. But when YOU ask for a small favour, to them it's as if you're taking away their whole world, with that stupid reaction. Give and Take. But it's always just Take and Take. We're all surrounded by selfish people around us. But we're kind enough to give in. Well, we are selfish too anyway.

That's probably why i never trust anyone so much. Because i know they're not worthy of my whole trust. Yea, i may tell you i trust you, i do, but i don't trust you as much as you want me to because you're like that too.

Don't use me. i'm not a proxy. i know i always am being used as one. Y'know, like when there's no one else to go to or be with, "who u gonna call?!", Joanne. That's my role. Like when you've gotten what you want, i get forgotten, put aside. Yeah-yeah...Well too bad i ain't cruel enough to actually do that to you because i wasn't brought up like that. Geez... But that don't mean you can take advantage of me. Cuz i get tired too and patience has its limits. Don't be plastik, fake, two-faced son-of-a-bitch or bitch. Tell it straight to my face. It'd really be better.

ur unforgettable

Speechless...or typeless? i don't know if this is right but i just need to.

Dad's eldest sis passed away yesterday, Fri the 13th. Coincidentally, at the airport this morning, the check-in row for Dad was also 13. *sigh*

Doctora Carmen. My bro's Godma. A Dentist. The eldest but only 48. Got two kids, JC 19 and Xtian 15. She had a stroke but that didn't let her down. She continued her profession and was still able to drive despite her tilted head. A strong woman. So strong, even i had an unforgettable experience with her during my home-trip. And now, it's very shocking to know that she's gone.

Just nine months ago, it was Ninong Emmanuel, a year younger than Dad, also a Dentist and my Godpa. Got 3 kids, Kath 22, Ian 19 and Charlene15. Charlene was a daddy's girl. So close to her Dad that she was probably the only one who took the longest time to move on. During my trip, i noticed that whenever they talked about Unc Manny, she'd try to avoid, keep quiet or walk away, trying to hold back her tears.

The feeling of losing someone is so much worse than just the thought of it. It hurts so much you wouldn't know how you're gonna pick yourself up again. You probably won't feel the pain as much as the person does because you aren't there. But when you've experienced it yourself, which you wish you wouldn't, only then will you know how much pain they have to go through. It's kinda what i'm feeling now.

No more Dentists in Dad's side. Kuya and I have lost a godparent each. Their spouses no more. and worst of all, their kids lost a parent. I am fucking scared because I have a long way to go and I don't wanna experience this. I don't even wanna think about it. But can't help it right? Often, i wonder how my cousins can handle this, i mean when i was there, they're like big kids already. Matured and all. If that was me, i'd probably be wasting my life away. i'm weak. But to think of it, it's just a thought. A thought of me being a weakling can be wrong. Just stay strong.

right Thurr

Thur

Class was “fun”! I did practically nothing. I was very quiet. Lei-lei didn’t come that’s why. I was beggin for the class to end already. It was that bad.

Went home to shower. Surprisingly, in 1 ½ hours time, I was already out. [Lol. I hope it’d be like that all the time!] Met Kuya Jay at Lot1 then waited for Fiz the “Flaming-Nyet” [flamingo+monyet] to collect his overdue gift from Diyana the “Dinosaur-us” [lol]. Went down to collect my specs then headed to Cine to send Kuya Jay’s baby, ipod for service. Ouh! Ouh! We had BK first. Cuz cuz I was famished! And and I was hankering for the Turkey Bacon Burger already.

Walked to Wheelock to attempt for a free drink. Tahha. Unsuccessful sia! Cuz I shy! Haha. Went to Far East to buy the that thing [the lace] and then emm, bought him the “fried mars bar” to taste. He loved it! He was enjoying 'em like one little boy liddat. [ahh-ngkaooooo] Then then, went back to Lot1 to chill. Called Feeda. While waiting for mummy Ais, Kuya Jay and I went to buy Jazz’s alcohol flask. So yeap. Just chilled awhile then liddat uh! Tha was it. YYYup…

kapp-pu-chin-no

*Get ready for… Cappuccino!…Hey yo! Capuccinno! Gimme sugga, sugga, sugga baaambeeenoo… Hey yo! Capuccinno! Mammu here, mammu there, oh yeaahh!!!!*

LOL!!! I know! Hahaha! Me too… =>

Y’know what! Nothing… hehehe…

I’m so wired!!!! Yup! I’m in my hyper mode again. Emm, no reason.

So yeah, emm, class. Did Adobe Premiere. Video editing thingy uh. Ok uh. Then kena disturb “seducer” again. Sigh. Do I really look like one? I feel like a hoe ‘ready. Fuck! Haha

After class, went to this “FUJITSU-tour”. Really didn’t wanna go. But but but kena force sia! Then go la! Fun siaaaa! Very de leh! Lol. Sit there, kena ask questions no one answered. The guy ask like 20qns or so, and only managed to answer, what, 7? Y’know, simple questions like “What’s IT?” and…I dunno ‘ready. I also dunno if Esther know the answer. Lol. I doubting larr…even if she teaching us. Lol. Bad right me… Lol. Questioning her knowledge and all. Ahakz, never mind la. Doubting is good! Lol. Whatever…

So yeah, actually I don’t know what else to say. I so wired I thought I had so much things to say but but in the end got nothing much to say! Alamaaaak! Now I feel lethargic 'ready. *sigh*

K la, I tell you things tomorrow uh! Ok? You enjoy the music first uh! Sound trippin’… song finish, listen again. I tell you, confirm u get your tush up and dance. Drink cappuccino also ok? OK! Set! Dah larrr, I penat ‘ready. What else you want la kambing. BYE la! Muah muah muah! Happy?

class! where ur soul at!

Hoiihoii!!!! I. Am. So. Damn. Happy. Class. Has resumed!!! Lol. Ok la actually. I started out fine…til I missed two moddda-fliggin buzzes! TWO! Ok? TWO! I woke up at FIVE am and got my tush ready for school.

On the way, I was like “Haiyerrr! Study again! Waleowee”. Budden I was also like “Never mind lah! At least I am starting it out well. I won’t be late! Yeyyyy”. Then the bus came, it seemed a lil crowded BUT still had MORE THAN ENOUGH space for a small gal like me! But the driver just signaled me with a flash of its headlights! Then I was like “Ouh, ’s’okaye, another bus is prolly behind this. It always does”. I waited til another bus came [15mins later] and I was like “Phew! Ok, Imma hop on this one! I know”. So I flagged, and guezz what?! It just! Drove! Past me! No signal no shit! And there was like so much space behind for TEN people or MORE! DAMN! I got so exasperated that I felt like screamin’ my head off in that bus stop! Ugh! I finally got on the 0744 bus! 30mins in the mother-fuggin’ bus stop. *UGH*

Anyway, I rushed to class, put my file down on my table and headed to the group work without even cooling down and just watched what they were doing. I was a lil puzzled but I caught up 10 minutes later and tadda! That made my morning! Plus plus, during that 10minutes of trying to figure out what the hell they were doing, Yi Juan and Hong Lei told me they got me something! I was stunned, then they took it out and gave me. And I was like oh-so touched, I felt like crying and I was gonna thank them and GOD and my family and…Ok, exagg! But really, I was and still am touched. Hong Lei, my flirter went to Shenzhen on the first week of school break and Yi Juan, my friend went to Thailand on the last week. And they were sweet enough to get me something! Awww, y’know I was never the gifting person and I never got Yi Juan something on her birthday; second day of school I think. But I sure will give her something cuz she took the effort to at least give me something. Well, of course I’m not gonna give ‘em something just ‘cuz they gave me something. Lol. But yes, I’ll get ‘em something. Go Joanne! Lol.

Anyways! Class was alright. I ACTUALLY managed to stay awake and listened throughout the lecture and and…Yes. I am happy. Weee! Happy, Shalala…it’s so nice to be happy…Shalala…everybody should be happy…Shalala…ok, I’m Katooshed!-tired 'redi. Byeee.


Ouh and and THANK YOU Yi Juan and Hong Lei for the gifts. Muah Muah

777

Live Earth Pledge.

I PLEDGE:
1. To demand that my country join an international treaty within the next 2 years that cuts global warming pollution by 90% in developed countries and by more than half worldwide in time for the next generation to inherit a healthy earth;
2. To take personal action to help solve the climate crisis by reducing my own CO2 pollution as much as I can and offsetting the rest to become “carbon neutral;”
3. To fight for a moratorium on the construction of any new generating facility that burns coal without the capacity to safely trap and store the CO2;
4. To work for a dramatic increase in the energy efficiency of my home, workplace, school, place of worship, and means of transportation;
5. To fight for laws and policies that expand the use of renewable energy sources and reduce dependence on oil and coal;
6. To plant new trees and to join with others in preserving and protecting forests; and,
7. To buy from businesses and support leaders who share my commitment to solving the climate crisis and building a sustainable, just, and prosperous world for the 21st century.

Did you people wear Green?! Didn't think so. Tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk. Saw alotta human creatures wearing the same, casual, everyday, like-nobody-cares-about-whatever-shit shirts. Only saw a few supporting the Live Earth thingy. I did too. Lol. *semangat* I know. But, what the hell. It's the least I can do right?!

Anyhow, we caught the Transformers flick. And it was rockin. Real thankful Mom enjoyed the show. No, actually she said she liked the show and she “appreciate”-d it. Considering her being a not-so-much of a movie-goer. To be honest, it HAS been a very long time that we haven’t gone out as a family, being busy and all, especially the NS boy. Lol. Yeah, I enjoyed it. I did. I really did. I mean, I miss them sooooo much. Gaw, I really am a family-person huh. *sigh* I realized that, really, the older we get, the busier we get, the less time we have for family. ‘Cuz we’re just so caught up with our work and school and friends and girlfriends and boyfriends and own things that even if we are living under the same roof, we just don’t feel each others’ presence anymore.

Despite Dad’s project-rush, he took the time off for us. He was thinking of not going cuz really, truckloadssa work. And Mom wanted to iron the clothes [clean-freak] and Kuya was bored so, kept pestering them, so yeah. We went. After the show, went to the optician, Arch made a new pair of specs [TRIVIA: his specs gets lost or spoiled in just 2-6 months, it’s his 329857th specs and counting ] and I made mine tew. Then had dinner. Then that spoiler had to pick up GF from work so it was just us three again. *sigh* Took a cab home and yeah. I felt lonely again. *boohoohoo*

Emm, class resumes on Mon. Bye bye TV, bye bye Lappy for I will be busy, but please do miss me. *sigh* Seriously, I’m not ready larr. I just wanna chill my ass down here everyday, doing nothing at all. Lol. But I have a future of my own to mould so I guess I just have to force meself. And I won’t bag it! Cuz I’m no quitter! Alriiigggghhht! Okaye, see y’all people. Ouh and please, HELP MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE eh? Don’t add to the problem. Take the public transport for our own sake!

TGIF?

Hey fellas, waddderrrrp! Teehee! Otaye. I didn’t wanna blog cuz I’m feelin somnolent neeoowww. But my fingers seem sooo alive! *wadddaaaa!!!* As in, as in…I was doing this Friendster survey…and and…this question on relationship status…I was about to type “single”…but but…out of the blue…IT typed “singapore”…like whoa! Yuh-huh [nodding] I knooww…Ooookaye, whateverrr?

Rrright, so anywayys…I watched Die Hard 4.0 with Glenn and his gay potnah, Shyukur at Cozway Point. Well, was supposed to catch the 1330 slot but but ‘t got pushed to 1530. So yeah whatever…There was this so-called “lunatic” man hangin around the theatre. Emm, he was pretty distracting me! ‘Cuz he was like “drunk” and and kinda like ticking off the bad guys and and handing “punch” gestures. He was funny though. Saw him sitting down the area outside BK and was drinkin something. I dunno what it was. Could be liquor or beer. Tahha! Glenn said “thinner”. Oh well, I wouldn’t be surprised if that man was drinkin thinner anyways. But to think of it, he would’ve already been dead by then! SO! IT! CAN!NOT! BE! THINNER! Idiot! Lol.

Headed off to Lot1 to meet Kuya Jay. Went to the washroom awhile then on my way out of the “entrance”, got a call from Thiru. And I gladly answered,

Mua: hello? [or was it “Hi?”, or or... "Haaaarlooo?" Lol.]
Thiru: turn behind [or was it “around”? Whatever…]

Then I was SHOCKKKKEEDDD. Well, I already actually expected it when he called. Me being in Lot1 and him calling gave me the thought that maybe he was around somewhere in Lot1, prolly walked passed me, or some’in, so yeah, I just answered it. FOR THE RECORD, I haven’t contacted Thiru iiiiin, [hold on, counting…] 1 ½ week? Kewl ey? Lol, JK. Yeah, so there. So I could already picture his “lecture”; the actions and the speech…blahblahblah…lol.

Well, I’m sorry Thiru. Didn’t mean to. Just that I really had no mood to reply all your messages and calls. Lol. No offence. No idea with myself too. Well, my bad and I’m sorry. There. ‘Nuff said.

So yeah, saw Kuya Jay and and we just hung out. Walk walk, talk cock, sing song, play mahjong. [ehh, correct or not?] Then there. Done. My fingers are satisfied nah. Lol. Glad! 'Nyt.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SABBY

hey dad!

Architect. It’s what I wanted to be before [at least one of my many ambitions]. Like Dadda. Seeing him draw lines and stuff. It seemed easy. But every time he draws lines, it’d take him alotta minutes or maybe even hours to be done with it. And when the whole thing is done, he goes back to every single line again. Chhheeze. I remember I used to help him color; like legends y’know, to tell what that color stands for. Chhhyeeaah!

So anyways, he hasn’t been joining us for dinner for the past two weeks. All because of his project. He’s been going home at 11 every night. And dinner’s the only time I can be with Mom and Dad. *sigh* He’s doing the Integrated Resort on Sentosa. And it’s right after Vivo City. As in after his VC proj, now it‘s the IR. *sigh*. I miss Dad.

I’ve been pretty much showing no concern even with the simplest things like offering him something to eat. I was like, “watching TV, he comes and he “bless”es me then goes back to watch.”
Geez! But last Thursday, I don’t know what came into me and I made him Spam Sandwich. He loved it! And the smile on his face really made me smile three. Though that didn’t happen again til last night. During the weekend, he went to work but decided to come back cuz he said he couldn’t bear to have his day pass without spending time with me! Lol. Awww, my daddy! My lovely daddy!

To be honest, I haven’t been really bonding with him that much. Haven’t gone out with him. And just be his little girl, holding my hand, protecting me from whatsoever. And though he made me feel that he’s been missing me, I haven’t been repaying that until last night when I really thought that all these is for us and he’s still doing his best to be with us. Although now, I don’t know why I feel awkward when he asks me how I am and all. Like I feel so far away from him. *sigh*

Class starts next Monday and I’ll be busy. All of us are gonna be busy. Them at work, him at camp, me at school. Like whoa. It’s real sick to be like this. I just hope that all this busyness will have something good in return. I’m sure it will. Not that I’m askin for rewards. But y’know, at least good health. That’s all I want. HEALTH IS WEALTH. That’s all I want.

Sorry, cuz mom’s got truckloadssa clothes to iron and I NEVER once touched the iron to help. Though I help around the house. She still does the ironing and the laundry and throwing of trash. *sigh* I’m such a useless daughter-of-a-not-bitch. Well, at least I’ve taken a step to become a better daughter. Teehee. Now I’ve to try to be a good student. I don’t want to let them down.

Though, next Saturday they’re gonna meet me adviser. I don’t know what they’re gonna say about me. I haven’t handed in the CMO file cuz it’s still with YJ and I don’t know if that’s gonna affect what the adviser has to say about me. I’m pretty worried. But all I can hope for is good results out of their mouths.

Now, that’s all. Thank you.

hail to our princess!

I missed out Princess Di in my greetings with my brother.

Happy 46th [would-have-been] Birthday Princess Di! [yesterday]

I hope you very much enjoyed the concert your divine sons organised. 'Cuz I did. A brilliant idea they came up with. I'm sure you're ecstatic that Prince William and Prince Harry have followed in your footsteps, supporting work with the young, underprivileged and vulnerable both in the UK and abroad and becoming Royal Patrons in their own right... They chose this path because they are proud to have you as their mom and be people's heroin. And of course, just as you're proud of them too.

63,000 fans at London's Wembley Stadium plus millions and trillions and gazillions more all over the world! I relished every single performance I saw, most especially your favorite, "Swan Lake". I was screamin' and dancin' and groovin' to every single act. And teared some with the messages; a poignant moment when P Diddy dedicated his track I'll Be Missing You to our Princess. They clapped, I clapped. They swayed, I swayed! And teared three. 'Twas really fun! Teehee! Take That was there. Sad, Robbie wasn't, I think it would've been a blast. Emm, Nelson Mandela's "energy, courage and selfless commitment" of Princess Di, Tony Blair's "I think that in William and Harry, the qualities that made Diana special live on," and Bill Clinton's video tributes really moved me [to the left to the left].

Once again, thank you for celebrating with the whole world. I LOVE YOU. And Happy Birthday!

'sall about archie

Hey! Hey! You! You!

Emm, pardon me for I’ve been a grumbler for the past week and temperamental three. Teehee. Y'know, just one [week] of those days. Again. Well, I was havin Pre-MS then Present-MS! PMS PMS. Gee. [Whoops! And I had to type that out! Teehee. Real sorry] =P

Anyways,
Happy Birthday
to
Archie.
Yep, you’re old dude.

Nevertheless the same 2 year old boy who dances and sings in the public; never caring about the people around. That same nursery boy who chats people up; preferably courting the ladies and the moms in the jeep then flirts with their little girls. That same comic boy who never fails to entertain his family and friends. That same little boy who cools your flamy head even when you’ve just scolded him or yelled at him. The same son who tries to change to a funnier topic when being disciplined. That same sweet boy who never fails to impress the girls with his romantic E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G ways. [that's the kind of boyfriend i want. as sweet as Archie.] That same sugary boy who only gives you posh gifts and will drain his monthly income in just 2days. [non-stop head-shake with the “tsk-tsk-tsk”-ing] That same little boy who never fails to put a smile on our faces. And of course, a frown too! And that same brother who influenced me to be what I am sort-of right now. Lol. I still have it in me and it’ll never go away even if I’m pretty much slackin a lil from it.

I can go on and on and on…but I’m gett’n sluggish!

Y’know, I LOVE YOU. You are one of the sources of my strength. You taught me how to defend myself from gett’n bullied. You taught me how to be even stronger now. You’re a brother that, I guess, everyone wants to have! You’re MY brother! Their son. Their nephew. Their cousin. Their grandchild. Their idol. Their Godfather. Their uncle. Their friend. Her boyfriend. Their colleague. Their student. Our soldier. And HIS son.

I LOVE YOU la! There! 'Nuff said. Muah! Muah! Muah!