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yayay!!! last day of dance...awww, im prolly gonna miss balestier people.
aaaanyway, im supposed to be in the practice now. shitz! starts at 10. ugh.
hmmm, those who wanna watch...heres the details

Where: Youth Park
When: Tuesday, 17/06/08, 5pm

i feel your tight embrace in the cold night, saying everything is alright

within half an hour of my last post, i "friended" back with MOM and DAD. but i still am NOT gonna clean up their mess. hmph! i refuse to. because it took me almost 3days to get it all done. and they just "abolished" it. awww-mah-gaaah!!!

anyway.
jurong east.
that place is pretty stamped-in-my-memory. so many things happened in that place. with a few people. its just funny how weird it feels to go to a place you had memories in and you start reminiscing [when youre at that place at that time]. especially when you seldom go to that place or youve only been there for a couple of times, the recollection is pretty much more clearer or you can even remember, if not all, almost everything that happened in that place. lol. i wasnt actually reminiscing. not even for the past few days. it just came to my mind like that then *poof*, gone. but a month ago, yeah. and i miss the people ive hung out with there.

on a lighter note, Philippine National Basketball team vs Singapore's score: 90—42 today. weeeee. ouh well, filos are good in basketball. like singapore is in soccer. so just imagine SG vs Phil in soccer, haha. the scores gonna be the other way round. ouh well, good game, kababayans.

thank you mom for fixin my fav bag. no thank you [mom n dad] for messin up me boudoir! and i hate kuya for not helping with the house chores, just because hes still in NS; he washes his own clothes all by himself there and hes so tired when he comes home and he just "misses" our helping him and yaddayaddayadda, ergo, we have to do it for him... -_- stupidest excuse that makes you go ~_o when you hear it. o-m-g! yea, true you rarely come home, yet all you do is dirty and mess the place we all friggin clean everyday! when youre supposed to be home, you go out, leave a huge mess and only come home when were all asleep and when we wake up, youre gone again. like wtf. if my NS friends can still help around the house, i dont see why you cant; you lazy, self-centered, squanderer, son of our mom! U-G-H! and all we ask for is cooperation, and my everlasting gifts! yea! i deserve gifts for doing your chores man! you fucking suck, brother! urgh!

*phew*. there. just needed to vent my rage for my animosity in my supposedly-yet-oppositely big brother whom i should say his world revolves around NS, girlfriend and self-luxurious life. i strongly feel he hasnt been a big brother and a son for years, yet mom and dad cant bear to punish him or leave him be; at least financially, even if he takes advantage of it.
gee, i sound so cruel. but its just how i feel. i just feel like putting him in a squatter area in the phils so he can learn how to make use of his time and money worthwhile.

o-m-g. i think i sound so the jiejie/kakak/ate there! ahee! right? right? right? :)

ouh yeah. i forgot to tell yous, on thursday, when i came late to school, i was somewhat proud to be one of the many to watch the airbus fly fly to sydney - on tvmobile, ahee. i was plannin to ditch school on that day to go to the airport but didnt bother to coz i already skipped school on wednesday, so what the hell, my plans always get screwed. ahaha. i remember watchin the makin of the A380 months ago. a really strenuous, gruesome work that finally paid off, *phew*. those ganchiong ones who cancelled orders, too bad. haha. no patience right! nehneh-nee-poopoo! bluueeeeeekkkk! ahakz.

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a boring halloween for me. doughless to party! id never spend my savings nor ask my folks coz it was never my habit to just ask, for my own pleasure. yeahyeah, call me thrifty and all, im just being frugal. besides, it aint me own money, hardwork or sweat. ouh well. instead of partyin with the clubbers, i went to a kiddie party; a seven-year-old party! ahee. a humdrum though! i was like -_-"
but at least my primary school close mate, miao de spotted me, so it was fun catching up with him. lotssa youths raya-ing, sheesh. chilled with this boy in baju kurung then bumped into javz O_O at a bustop, then isham too in the lrt @_@! geez, didnt even bump into any gals i know, haha. well, thanks for the time, doode.

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hmm, its so nice to hear im being missed. yesyes, i miss you all too. i think thats whats good, yknow. like you, rarely seeing people, cuz then theyd miss you more than them always spending time with you, cuz itll just bore em? yah.

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and my dear friend, for a guy, youre so fragile. i guess that is why i never fell for you because youre worse than a girl, haha. nope, im not mocking you, i am just making you sturdier. but youre too pessimistic to even get the drift. you say youll change but i guess youll never and i cant do nothin bout that. i just wish you the best doode. but really, you cant dwell on things all the time; no wonder youre like that. and of course, like i said three years ago, i will be your friend. its what ive been doin ever since, but youre not helpin yourself. i gotta bear with your being a mangina over your ex-galfriend and i still am[tolerating], but my ears are really gettin retarded from all that same ol story of yours. but ouh well, nevertheless, im still here for you, i just hate the fact that you arent helping me help you help yourself! and youre always trying to expect. and...i can go on but hah! you already know what i mean. really, just get a grip.

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im thankful for the people who really love me bcoz im like fuckingly weird! haha! what the fuck. and yes i love you too. really i do. okaye! but dont take it the wrong way. i love you not only because you love me for me but i love you too because i love you. awww. aint that shuuuweeetzzz! ahakz. i know. and yes, imma wait for the freakin day we both can be totally free and you gonna take me for a drive round the island! i fuckin missed that like fuck! and aww, i miss "fuck"-ing too, haha! sheez. what? do i wanna chill with you? ouh, fo shizzle mah doozzle cuz i mizzle you like fuzzle! cmon! lets gezzle the fuzzle outta hezzle! aheeheehee!!!

will get there

SHAKA! go sonya! good rippin! sonya balmores. a 2004 miss hawaii teen usa then a 2005 miss hawaii usa is an amerindianishpino american-indian irish filipino whos a hawaiian; a native of kauai and is currently on the show, beyond the break. teehee. shes a surfer. i remember my fave surfer back in sec2, holly beck; whos now a president of international womens surfing and is ranked no.9 in wqs. dank.

i used to do sports alot; [*boasts* self-taught blading at 4, cycling, medalist in hurdles and running, badminton, once in a schools winning basketball team, and a wee bit of le parkour, etc. i was a tomboy! teehee. but ask me to do all that now, itd be hilarious.] i loved the water too and so swam alot when i was a kid; always on the beach every weekend til i enrolled myself in p2 that made me turn away from the likes of plunging into the water; i really nearly almost drowned when coach put me in the adult pool and i suddenly just couldnt pull myself up. i realized its that small curiosity of that puff that weakened my lungs and not be able to hold my breath for long - til now; even if its not in water, i suddenly just get jitters and would not be able to breathe. its kinda like a lost hope for me to do stuff i wanted to do; like water sports. ouh gee, and im old and here, sheesh. but i guess its never too late right? yeah. maybe when im all independent - and i mean all independent, then i can do my "to-do-list"; which involves many adventurous activities. for now, the people who are surrounding me knows i cant do sports as i used to - while those who knew me back then knew who i was. well, well just see how it goes when im older. teehee. and im not about to be dissuaded by anybody who thinks low of me. hehe. gotta keep the spirits up yknow! its one of the many things i planned to invest my everything on; not just money - but really e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. see ya citz! shaka!

wicked people...

dear blog,

as of now, i don't know how to look at things anymore; whether to still look on the brighter side or just be on the adverse...
i am very anxious about what's gonna happen. i'm thinkin it's all just another trial. but to think again; when he broke the news to me about it, my heart just sank. tita's situation's already bad, and the last thing she needed was to get that. isn't what she's experiencing enough of the hardship she's goin through? still, 't all got worse. and one of her many bad situations is sadly what we're also goin through. gonna have to wait for that til then. but i think it's just depressingly hurting that out of the many fucked up

green-eyed evil people in there, they chose to eye on and target the good people to chuck out. worse still, is that those supposedly intelligent big shots, stupidly beleive on the things they never SEE. why don't you SEE for yourself first before you fucking act on it?! why'd you have to beleive those assholes so easily?! i thought y'all're supposed to be the

L-E-A-D-E-R-S? in the end, you're all just the bunchha brainless ones. i don't know what's gonna happen really. but i just hope that there'll be a BETTER offer for them that those fuckers will fuckingly fucking regret. *sigh* and what i just said,

"one sheyt after another"...

and all my brightside perso will say,

"things happen for a reason...", "...He's got better plans for us", "just beleive"

*sigh*



yours truly,
joanne

wake up!!! do ur thanggg...

*stoning*...

~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.

~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already. sorry but i hope the next time, i'll be able to make it. haha, only deedee met up with faie and mirul, attendance: 3/10. ouh well, still got next time :) hope it'll be 10/10!
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.

~{girlishness}~

aww, i'm pretty happy to hear the voice of the previous CDSS soccer team captain! and most especially, who once haddd something fo...uhh

N-NNE-NEVER MIND! i'm just too overwhelmed; got carried away, teehee.

~{back to normal}~

i feel like goin back to those days where you guys were still wearing "low-shorts", mirul burn'n his leg hair [busok giler siol!] and kelly's too [she got kinda mad] one time and hasbullah rebelling on the teachers; most especially mrs viswa [aka penguin] and and and making mr siow [aka einstein] cry after all the bullies and the throwing of papers at him and just giving him a hellavafuckinhardtime teaching! *pants*

~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.

~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)

fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.

~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*

~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.

plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!

*sheesh* this week's been a disaster already! well, maybe except for a few events. but really, the worst disaster i guess is famine [lol, what a bad word to use]. okaye! owwwtta herre.