Hello guys…how’s everyone? Hehe… I hope you guys are okaye…
Well as I write this out from a piecca paper, I’m here alone in the kitchen since 7...it’s already 8 and everyone’s been in the livin’ room right after dinner watchin’ TV.
Hmmm, I don’t know how you’d feel...being in a place you thought you’d feel welcome…
I remember when I was still in SG…& every time mom would call here, my cousins here were always eager to talk to me & would always say,
“Hey, when are you comin’ back here?”
“Why don’t you just study here?”
“Come back here already! You study here and we’ll take care of you…”
& now that I’m here… I hear bangin’ of things, complaints of…
I guess me bein’ an…extra…burden?
& most of all, bein’ used as a comparison…®arding me as an “ibang tao” (OTHER people)…
Here’s one:
“Gramms, why is it that I’ve never heard you stop me from doin’ things or chores? I’ve been washing and doin’ chores the whole day & now I’m still washin’ the dishes…yet you don’t even stop me…,unlike OTHER people there, always so concerned with...always askin' me to help out whenever she does things.”
Cuz here’s the thing, whenever Gramms sees me, she’d always get concerned & would say,
“have you eaten? Go & eat...”
“rest your eyes”
“Hoi, help out here, Joanne’s alone washin’ the dishes…”
& she would always offer me food…if I say “I don’t want”, she’d still put the food beside me…
My cousins get jealous…I dig that…even my aunt...she regards me as “favourite grandchild from the favourite child (MOM)” (she's jealous with mom)
On the whole, we’re Gramms favourite…she adores my DAD, MOM, bro and I.
I feel flattered…but I guess in their freakin corrupted minds, it’s hard to accept & it hurts them cuz they’ve been livin’ with Gramms ever since…took care of her & stuff yet she favours us more…
& with that, I’m adjudged “OTHER people” by the cousin who was the one who kept wanting me to come back here…SIGH…
It’s no wonder why DAD decided to settle down somewhere FAR from family to avert disputes…
I had a recent (last thursday or friday) serious squabble with a cousin who once went to SG on 2007…I NEVER expected to ruin a relationship with anyone here…but ouh well…
I will never let my guard down & give in to anyone whom I think abuses their authority…this elder cousin thinks she’s older than me therefore I won’t fight back..but too bad…I’m not stupid to just keep quiet…I fought back for my rights.
My aunt, unc, cousins, Gramms witnessed the “RAP BATTLE” with the tone & rhythm gone?, even the elders couldn’t stop us…
& there...all-is-ruined…so yeah…
frankly, they already ruined my trust when they told my secrets to MOM when i went back here for vacation...i gave them a chance and treated them like nothin' happened until this...
Ergo, that’s my current life…
FUN ey???
I know my limits…I STILL respect…unlike such people who only depended on aunt & mom to finish education…yet developed such a fucking high-handed attitude, it’s really fucked up.
Well as I write this out from a piecca paper, I’m here alone in the kitchen since 7...it’s already 8 and everyone’s been in the livin’ room right after dinner watchin’ TV.
Hmmm, I don’t know how you’d feel...being in a place you thought you’d feel welcome…
I remember when I was still in SG…& every time mom would call here, my cousins here were always eager to talk to me & would always say,
“Hey, when are you comin’ back here?”
“Why don’t you just study here?”
“Come back here already! You study here and we’ll take care of you…”
& now that I’m here… I hear bangin’ of things, complaints of…
I guess me bein’ an…extra…burden?
& most of all, bein’ used as a comparison…®arding me as an “ibang tao” (OTHER people)…
Here’s one:
“Gramms, why is it that I’ve never heard you stop me from doin’ things or chores? I’ve been washing and doin’ chores the whole day & now I’m still washin’ the dishes…yet you don’t even stop me…,unlike OTHER people there, always so concerned with...always askin' me to help out whenever she does things.”
Cuz here’s the thing, whenever Gramms sees me, she’d always get concerned & would say,
“have you eaten? Go & eat...”
“rest your eyes”
“Hoi, help out here, Joanne’s alone washin’ the dishes…”
& she would always offer me food…if I say “I don’t want”, she’d still put the food beside me…
My cousins get jealous…I dig that…even my aunt...she regards me as “favourite grandchild from the favourite child (MOM)” (she's jealous with mom)
On the whole, we’re Gramms favourite…she adores my DAD, MOM, bro and I.
I feel flattered…but I guess in their freakin corrupted minds, it’s hard to accept & it hurts them cuz they’ve been livin’ with Gramms ever since…took care of her & stuff yet she favours us more…
& with that, I’m adjudged “OTHER people” by the cousin who was the one who kept wanting me to come back here…SIGH…
It’s no wonder why DAD decided to settle down somewhere FAR from family to avert disputes…
I had a recent (last thursday or friday) serious squabble with a cousin who once went to SG on 2007…I NEVER expected to ruin a relationship with anyone here…but ouh well…
I will never let my guard down & give in to anyone whom I think abuses their authority…this elder cousin thinks she’s older than me therefore I won’t fight back..but too bad…I’m not stupid to just keep quiet…I fought back for my rights.
My aunt, unc, cousins, Gramms witnessed the “RAP BATTLE” with the tone & rhythm gone?, even the elders couldn’t stop us…
& there...all-is-ruined…so yeah…
frankly, they already ruined my trust when they told my secrets to MOM when i went back here for vacation...i gave them a chance and treated them like nothin' happened until this...
Ergo, that’s my current life…
FUN ey???
I know my limits…I STILL respect…unlike such people who only depended on aunt & mom to finish education…yet developed such a fucking high-handed attitude, it’s really fucked up.
