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Showing posts with label philippines. Show all posts
Showing posts with label philippines. Show all posts
Thursday, 12 June 2008
Sunday, 25 November 2007
happy slip
a coupla days ago, jig showed me a video that made me crack up and became an addict of. happyslip aka christine is the girl behind all these vidz and no, she doesnt have any production team; she is a one-woman production team; she does the make-up, lightings, scripting, directing, acting, and editing. she portrays up to almost 10 different characters. a lil intro about her, she was born in virginia and is currently living in new york, shes already 31? [and i thought shes only like 23?]. and emmm, why am i sharing this? is she worth watching? well, shes hilarious, shes the "fifth most subscribed" on youtube, has almost 91 000 subscribers, and won second Best Comedy at the 2006 YouTube video awards to smosh. so yeah. she has looks too.
emmm, some of you may be a lil ignorant as to why she does this. first of all, shes not the only one who does these kinda things; theres smosh, nalts, kevjumba, etc [if you guys are really youtubers]. emm, she, just like other comedians, does these to put a smile on our faces, especially to those who are strained from work or life? "laughter's the best medicine". so yeah. its really worth watching. thank you. and... happy slippin!
emmm, some of you may be a lil ignorant as to why she does this. first of all, shes not the only one who does these kinda things; theres smosh, nalts, kevjumba, etc [if you guys are really youtubers]. emm, she, just like other comedians, does these to put a smile on our faces, especially to those who are strained from work or life? "laughter's the best medicine". so yeah. its really worth watching. thank you. and... happy slippin!
Sunday, 11 November 2007
i feel your tight embrace in the cold night, saying everything is alright
within half an hour of my last post, i "friended" back with MOM and DAD. but i still am NOT gonna clean up their mess. hmph! i refuse to. because it took me almost 3days to get it all done. and they just "abolished" it. awww-mah-gaaah!!!
anyway.
jurong east.
that place is pretty stamped-in-my-memory. so many things happened in that place. with a few people. its just funny how weird it feels to go to a place you had memories in and you start reminiscing [when youre at that place at that time]. especially when you seldom go to that place or youve only been there for a couple of times, the recollection is pretty much more clearer or you can even remember, if not all, almost everything that happened in that place. lol. i wasnt actually reminiscing. not even for the past few days. it just came to my mind like that then *poof*, gone. but a month ago, yeah. and i miss the people ive hung out with there.
on a lighter note, Philippine National Basketball team vs Singapore's score: 90—42 today. weeeee. ouh well, filos are good in basketball. like singapore is in soccer. so just imagine SG vs Phil in soccer, haha. the scores gonna be the other way round. ouh well, good game, kababayans.
thank you mom for fixin my fav bag. no thank you [mom n dad] for messin up me boudoir! and i hate kuya for not helping with the house chores, just because hes still in NS; he washes his own clothes all by himself there and hes so tired when he comes home and he just "misses" our helping him and yaddayaddayadda, ergo, we have to do it for him... -_- stupidest excuse that makes you go ~_o when you hear it. o-m-g! yea, true you rarely come home, yet all you do is dirty and mess the place we all friggin clean everyday! when youre supposed to be home, you go out, leave a huge mess and only come home when were all asleep and when we wake up, youre gone again. like wtf. if my NS friends can still help around the house, i dont see why you cant; you lazy, self-centered, squanderer, son of our mom! U-G-H! and all we ask for is cooperation, and my everlasting gifts! yea! i deserve gifts for doing your chores man! you fucking suck, brother! urgh!
*phew*. there. just needed to vent my rage for my animosity in my supposedly-yet-oppositely big brother whom i should say his world revolves around NS, girlfriend and self-luxurious life. i strongly feel he hasnt been a big brother and a son for years, yet mom and dad cant bear to punish him or leave him be; at least financially, even if he takes advantage of it.
gee, i sound so cruel. but its just how i feel. i just feel like putting him in a squatter area in the phils so he can learn how to make use of his time and money worthwhile.
o-m-g. i think i sound so the jiejie/kakak/ate there! ahee! right? right? right? :)
anyway.
jurong east.
that place is pretty stamped-in-my-memory. so many things happened in that place. with a few people. its just funny how weird it feels to go to a place you had memories in and you start reminiscing [when youre at that place at that time]. especially when you seldom go to that place or youve only been there for a couple of times, the recollection is pretty much more clearer or you can even remember, if not all, almost everything that happened in that place. lol. i wasnt actually reminiscing. not even for the past few days. it just came to my mind like that then *poof*, gone. but a month ago, yeah. and i miss the people ive hung out with there.
on a lighter note, Philippine National Basketball team vs Singapore's score: 90—42 today. weeeee. ouh well, filos are good in basketball. like singapore is in soccer. so just imagine SG vs Phil in soccer, haha. the scores gonna be the other way round. ouh well, good game, kababayans.
thank you mom for fixin my fav bag. no thank you [mom n dad] for messin up me boudoir! and i hate kuya for not helping with the house chores, just because hes still in NS; he washes his own clothes all by himself there and hes so tired when he comes home and he just "misses" our helping him and yaddayaddayadda, ergo, we have to do it for him... -_- stupidest excuse that makes you go ~_o when you hear it. o-m-g! yea, true you rarely come home, yet all you do is dirty and mess the place we all friggin clean everyday! when youre supposed to be home, you go out, leave a huge mess and only come home when were all asleep and when we wake up, youre gone again. like wtf. if my NS friends can still help around the house, i dont see why you cant; you lazy, self-centered, squanderer, son of our mom! U-G-H! and all we ask for is cooperation, and my everlasting gifts! yea! i deserve gifts for doing your chores man! you fucking suck, brother! urgh!
*phew*. there. just needed to vent my rage for my animosity in my supposedly-yet-oppositely big brother whom i should say his world revolves around NS, girlfriend and self-luxurious life. i strongly feel he hasnt been a big brother and a son for years, yet mom and dad cant bear to punish him or leave him be; at least financially, even if he takes advantage of it.
gee, i sound so cruel. but its just how i feel. i just feel like putting him in a squatter area in the phils so he can learn how to make use of his time and money worthwhile.
o-m-g. i think i sound so the jiejie/kakak/ate there! ahee! right? right? right? :)
Monday, 22 October 2007
surprises
BOOYAH!!!!
first of all, id like to thank abang fir for last mondays raya-cookies and fridays treat too! and tufha for the cookies too! wee!!! alright. and my neighbor for the cookies too and im still waiting for another - for the cookies too! haha! cmon bebeh! give em to meh! ahakz! kiddin. i love treats! theyre so fun! like fun-fun!
first week of second sem, fun! like fun-fun! lol. whatevah!
ya know, i was pretty ecstatic on friday that when i got home to nap, i didnt know that at that moment when i was feeling ouh-so-fine, people were screeching and squealing, running for their lives; glorietta2 had an explosion. it was a heart-wrenching moment the moment i received a message from dadda. i suddenly remembered aunt tere and her boutique. and then i got relieved when i remembered that she was located at glorietta4. but, sigh! its still pretty astonishingly unbelievable to really hear of such. like, i could still recall how i would always take a stroll in that beautiful mall. and suddenly, *poof* a part of it, ka-boomed! like dayyyym! i spent like a month in that mall everyday, cuz i was always with aunt, tending her shop, but mostly walkin around, gettn to know the damn bloody big mall. sigh. and just two days after the explosion, sunday, a fire broke out in a resto at glorietta4! aww-mahh-gahh! luckily it was at second floor. hmmm, why glorietta mall? geez. that wasnt the first time. years ago there was an explosion there too. sheesh. what is wrong with you people? really bored eh? nothing to do? wanna rebel? haiz. if you wanna rebel, please dont involve the innocents mann! like really, thats just lame! lol.
what a waste because i think the phils is never gonna rise over poverty. because of corruption. because of greed. sad. there are millions and trillions of filos who have great dedications of rising up because there are truckloads that are talented and really hardworking but all these hopes of soaring are wrecked because of the greedy users. there are politics whereever you turn to. because of all these, people are forced to do stupid things they never wanted to do; crimes. sheesh. dont the govt ever wonder how imprudent they are? how selfish? avaricious? they always talk about how filos should get together and be ONE and all when they never really keep their promises in the first place, in the end, they only think about gettin rich themselves. sheesh! dont they pity those filas abroad working as dh? many filas turn to dh bacuz they have no choice but to leave home just to feed their fam. many do not know that these filas are almost done with college! if not for the lack of money to pay for their last few semesters, they wouldnt need to do such things. but bacuz of the need to survive, they suck up their pride and are forced to enter such jobs, which many people take advantage of; being mistreated. sad.
and gawsh, i actually couldnt believe when i got to know that glorias dads time of presidency, phils was actually doin well, like really well and was even known as "The Incorruptible". but geez, dunno what happened to the daughter. like awww. sad. itd be a miracle if one day there will be another incorruptible president.
ahh, well. im grateful im far away from the messy place though my love for my own people will still stay intact. and i do sympathize them for havin to live with bad people! sheesh! like! really! hahaha! from cookies to explosion to politics! ahihihihi. how randomly linked. teehee! ive always hated politicians. the bad ones!
first of all, id like to thank abang fir for last mondays raya-cookies and fridays treat too! and tufha for the cookies too! wee!!! alright. and my neighbor for the cookies too and im still waiting for another - for the cookies too! haha! cmon bebeh! give em to meh! ahakz! kiddin. i love treats! theyre so fun! like fun-fun!
first week of second sem, fun! like fun-fun! lol. whatevah!
ya know, i was pretty ecstatic on friday that when i got home to nap, i didnt know that at that moment when i was feeling ouh-so-fine, people were screeching and squealing, running for their lives; glorietta2 had an explosion. it was a heart-wrenching moment the moment i received a message from dadda. i suddenly remembered aunt tere and her boutique. and then i got relieved when i remembered that she was located at glorietta4. but, sigh! its still pretty astonishingly unbelievable to really hear of such. like, i could still recall how i would always take a stroll in that beautiful mall. and suddenly, *poof* a part of it, ka-boomed! like dayyyym! i spent like a month in that mall everyday, cuz i was always with aunt, tending her shop, but mostly walkin around, gettn to know the damn bloody big mall. sigh. and just two days after the explosion, sunday, a fire broke out in a resto at glorietta4! aww-mahh-gahh! luckily it was at second floor. hmmm, why glorietta mall? geez. that wasnt the first time. years ago there was an explosion there too. sheesh. what is wrong with you people? really bored eh? nothing to do? wanna rebel? haiz. if you wanna rebel, please dont involve the innocents mann! like really, thats just lame! lol.
what a waste because i think the phils is never gonna rise over poverty. because of corruption. because of greed. sad. there are millions and trillions of filos who have great dedications of rising up because there are truckloads that are talented and really hardworking but all these hopes of soaring are wrecked because of the greedy users. there are politics whereever you turn to. because of all these, people are forced to do stupid things they never wanted to do; crimes. sheesh. dont the govt ever wonder how imprudent they are? how selfish? avaricious? they always talk about how filos should get together and be ONE and all when they never really keep their promises in the first place, in the end, they only think about gettin rich themselves. sheesh! dont they pity those filas abroad working as dh? many filas turn to dh bacuz they have no choice but to leave home just to feed their fam. many do not know that these filas are almost done with college! if not for the lack of money to pay for their last few semesters, they wouldnt need to do such things. but bacuz of the need to survive, they suck up their pride and are forced to enter such jobs, which many people take advantage of; being mistreated. sad.
and gawsh, i actually couldnt believe when i got to know that glorias dads time of presidency, phils was actually doin well, like really well and was even known as "The Incorruptible". but geez, dunno what happened to the daughter. like awww. sad. itd be a miracle if one day there will be another incorruptible president.
ahh, well. im grateful im far away from the messy place though my love for my own people will still stay intact. and i do sympathize them for havin to live with bad people! sheesh! like! really! hahaha! from cookies to explosion to politics! ahihihihi. how randomly linked. teehee! ive always hated politicians. the bad ones!
Saturday, 6 October 2007
no sheyt
*bom chicka wah wah*fuck im like hyped today...wakakaka, *do the hyphy movement! go dumb dumb!* dont ask why cuz i dont know why. i also asked myself why. but but myself said i dont know so i will also tell you i dont know. ok, shut up!
heeee, mustve been the moments. awww. like how suweet! and kiut! and lovaly! geez, speaking of which, one day, id like to be in the lovapalooza
. like dayyym! ill b-ring mah girlf-riends to the phils and and and yah...im sure yall will enjoy the smoochy-woochy-gucci time! lol. but but but ill make sure im all self-reliant. yarrr. care to join me? okaye! lets go. teehee. im talkin c-rap. its just the effect of that thang. tahha. wanna t-ry? then come 'ere.
okaye lar. i was missin someones. but now its gone. so i dont care. haha. like whathefuck. i know. shut up okaye! haiz. i cant wait to see the look on my face when i see yous. ouh well, itll come. lol. im not an expressionist. my facell prolly still be dull like that -_-, like gee. and then youll be like ~_o? like sheesh.
okaye, have a safe f-light jiggoz! and to all my f-riends who have been real f-riends, thank you. and to those who have not been, fuck you. haha! im just kiddin yall. but there is a lil truth about that. wakakaka. bah! i will still miss your fucking asses, no matter good or bad, so no worries. i still love yall like i love me. keekeekee. hmm, im just happy... *shala-la, its so nice to be happy, shala-la, evrybody should be happy, shala-la* ugh! im havin a major breakdown here. *teet*teet*teet* *c-rash* *BOOOM*
dah lah, joweyn! harhar. its the joy of joys. is that correct?! gee. i wonder...whatll happen. i shant think so much now. i may just get all shabby. and you will just say im eeky. then id say fuck me. and youd come kill me. okaye, that was nice! SHAKA
heeee, mustve been the moments. awww. like how suweet! and kiut! and lovaly! geez, speaking of which, one day, id like to be in the lovapalooza
. like dayyym! ill b-ring mah girlf-riends to the phils and and and yah...im sure yall will enjoy the smoochy-woochy-gucci time! lol. but but but ill make sure im all self-reliant. yarrr. care to join me? okaye! lets go. teehee. im talkin c-rap. its just the effect of that thang. tahha. wanna t-ry? then come 'ere. okaye lar. i was missin someones. but now its gone. so i dont care. haha. like whathefuck. i know. shut up okaye! haiz. i cant wait to see the look on my face when i see yous. ouh well, itll come. lol. im not an expressionist. my facell prolly still be dull like that -_-, like gee. and then youll be like ~_o? like sheesh.
okaye, have a safe f-light jiggoz! and to all my f-riends who have been real f-riends, thank you. and to those who have not been, fuck you. haha! im just kiddin yall. but there is a lil truth about that. wakakaka. bah! i will still miss your fucking asses, no matter good or bad, so no worries. i still love yall like i love me. keekeekee. hmm, im just happy... *shala-la, its so nice to be happy, shala-la, evrybody should be happy, shala-la* ugh! im havin a major breakdown here. *teet*teet*teet* *c-rash* *BOOOM*
dah lah, joweyn! harhar. its the joy of joys. is that correct?! gee. i wonder...whatll happen. i shant think so much now. i may just get all shabby. and you will just say im eeky. then id say fuck me. and youd come kill me. okaye, that was nice! SHAKA
*bom chicka wah wah*
Wednesday, 26 September 2007
will get there
SHAKA! go sonya! good rippin! sonya balmores. a 2004 miss hawaii teen usa then a 2005 miss hawaii usa is an amerindianishpino american-indian irish filipino whos a hawaiian; a native of kauai and is currently on the show, beyond the break. teehee. shes a surfer. i remember my fave surfer back in sec2, holly beck; whos now a president of international womens surfing and is ranked no.9 in wqs. dank.
i used to do sports alot; [*boasts* self-taught blading at 4, cycling, medalist in hurdles and running, badminton, once in a schools winning basketball team, and a wee bit of le parkour, etc. i was a tomboy! teehee. but ask me to do all that now, itd be hilarious.] i loved the water too and so swam alot when i was a kid; always on the beach every weekend til i enrolled myself in p2 that made me turn away from the likes of plunging into the water; i really nearly almost drowned when coach put me in the adult pool and i suddenly just couldnt pull myself up. i realized its that small curiosity of that puff that weakened my lungs and not be able to hold my breath for long - til now; even if its not in water, i suddenly just get jitters and would not be able to breathe. its kinda like a lost hope for me to do stuff i wanted to do; like water sports. ouh gee, and im old and here, sheesh. but i guess its never too late right? yeah. maybe when im all independent - and i mean all independent, then i can do my "to-do-list"; which involves many adventurous activities. for now, the people who are surrounding me knows i cant do sports as i used to - while those who knew me back then knew who i was. well, well just see how it goes when im older. teehee. and im not about to be dissuaded by anybody who thinks low of me. hehe. gotta keep the spirits up yknow! its one of the many things i planned to invest my everything on; not just money - but really e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. see ya citz! shaka!
i used to do sports alot; [*boasts* self-taught blading at 4, cycling, medalist in hurdles and running, badminton, once in a schools winning basketball team, and a wee bit of le parkour, etc. i was a tomboy! teehee. but ask me to do all that now, itd be hilarious.] i loved the water too and so swam alot when i was a kid; always on the beach every weekend til i enrolled myself in p2 that made me turn away from the likes of plunging into the water; i really nearly almost drowned when coach put me in the adult pool and i suddenly just couldnt pull myself up. i realized its that small curiosity of that puff that weakened my lungs and not be able to hold my breath for long - til now; even if its not in water, i suddenly just get jitters and would not be able to breathe. its kinda like a lost hope for me to do stuff i wanted to do; like water sports. ouh gee, and im old and here, sheesh. but i guess its never too late right? yeah. maybe when im all independent - and i mean all independent, then i can do my "to-do-list"; which involves many adventurous activities. for now, the people who are surrounding me knows i cant do sports as i used to - while those who knew me back then knew who i was. well, well just see how it goes when im older. teehee. and im not about to be dissuaded by anybody who thinks low of me. hehe. gotta keep the spirits up yknow! its one of the many things i planned to invest my everything on; not just money - but really e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. see ya citz! shaka!
Tuesday, 25 September 2007
korekorekoreko
cmooon, cmon, do the locomotion with meeee...
dunno how to do the locomotion? easy bebeh...hips in while hands out then hips out while hands in...then repeat...tahha...funny one...gee im in the 60s mood.
got one more!
Do Wah Diddy Diddy dum diddy doom! yeah! Ang TV days with my crush john prats. teehee! am in in tha mood or huwaat! these are the only songs pumping real loud on my speakers...hehhe!
dunno how to do the locomotion? easy bebeh...hips in while hands out then hips out while hands in...then repeat...tahha...funny one...gee im in the 60s mood.
got one more!
Do Wah Diddy Diddy dum diddy doom! yeah! Ang TV days with my crush john prats. teehee! am in in tha mood or huwaat! these are the only songs pumping real loud on my speakers...hehhe!
Monday, 24 September 2007
i think im gettin okaye
ber ber ber ber...sepber ocber nober deber...
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
Sunday, 16 September 2007
fall on me
cleanin the house, *phew* arduous...
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
~~
everyone starting from mrs chui onwards til today [ate Vec] said i've thinned. *ugh*
and my eyes are darker. *panda eyes!* teehee. my only asset...haha. okaye more people to meet, more comments to hear! bring it on bebeh!
Thursday, 13 September 2007
sighness
~~1922~~
okaye, i know i cuss all the time. not at all really nice for a female to be doin that. butbutbut, if for anything, i'd rather show my ugly-self than the beautiful[inner] side. why? cuz then you'd know who's tough enough to hold on to you rather than you showing your nice-self at first and then the ugly; finding out that they talk sheyt behind your back. truth be known, i'd prefer to be identified as the ugly one both in and out right in the first place than in the last; where people will start to fall out on you. bottomline, showin my true colors. lalala. okaye, that's all.
~~1845~~
okaye, a lil bett'r now. still swillin on coffee; it keeps me goin. well, i know i've mentioned before that i will never expect anymore. but isn't it hard to do what you tell yourself what to do than what you really feel? so then i say i won't expect anymore but the way i feel is that i have to...*sheesh* well, never mind. for now i feel better, i'm not so watered[sad] as i was just now. *grins*
~~1700~~
i am craving for spaghetti. but there's no spag sauce! how the fuck can i make it! *sheesh* i'm just feeding myself with chicken cocktail; it's the only food my tongue likes in the fridge -__-...i should live in a mall next time, therefore i need not go out. *sigh* i feel there are more sheyts to come. one bad sheyt after another; it just keeeeeps comin...
~~1400-1700~~
as of this time, i'm swillin on coffee.
feeling so f.b.t.d.
dunno why but i've been musing over sheyt.
sheyt like what things i'd be doin in these kind of times. i wouldn't be doin or feelin this sheyt if i hadn't chosen that. *shtewpedd*
yesyes, i am feeling down. i haven't been in a few weeks now, have i? i've been so busy being all cheerful, that i've overlooked on being all gloomy.
now don't go sayin sheyt, cuz i am - just a human being after all. i feel like i'm falling off again. FUCK!
and as of this time, words of encouragements d-o-n-'t w-o-r-k.
i just feel like eradicating you. yes, you. you two-faced, hypocritical, false, insincere, deceitful, double dealing, disingenuous, duplicitous, treacherous, you!
*sigh* i just needta release this; i can't suppress no more.
i deserve what i need because i got duped. when will i get it? i'm gett'n impatient already. whatthehell! but at the same time i know i have to wait. i can't impose on things just like that just to make me feel better, i know it has to be right, at the right time.
i'm sorry i just can't help it. the last thing i need is making the wrong turn - again. temptation strongly dominates me and sometimes i can't control it. butbutbut i have to be strong, that, i know.
if there's any place i can be right now, it'd be gramm's. i'd rather be in her arms; embracing me with her wrinkly soft arms. i just need her comfort. the comfort no fucking one can give me. *sigh*
and after all that outburst, my positivity tells me, "ouh well, it'll pass..."
feeling so f.b.t.d.
dunno why but i've been musing over sheyt.
sheyt like what things i'd be doin in these kind of times. i wouldn't be doin or feelin this sheyt if i hadn't chosen that. *shtewpedd*
yesyes, i am feeling down. i haven't been in a few weeks now, have i? i've been so busy being all cheerful, that i've overlooked on being all gloomy.
now don't go sayin sheyt, cuz i am - just a human being after all. i feel like i'm falling off again. FUCK!
and as of this time, words of encouragements d-o-n-'t w-o-r-k.
i just feel like eradicating you. yes, you. you two-faced, hypocritical, false, insincere, deceitful, double dealing, disingenuous, duplicitous, treacherous, you!
*sigh* i just needta release this; i can't suppress no more.
i deserve what i need because i got duped. when will i get it? i'm gett'n impatient already. whatthehell! but at the same time i know i have to wait. i can't impose on things just like that just to make me feel better, i know it has to be right, at the right time.
i'm sorry i just can't help it. the last thing i need is making the wrong turn - again. temptation strongly dominates me and sometimes i can't control it. butbutbut i have to be strong, that, i know.
if there's any place i can be right now, it'd be gramm's. i'd rather be in her arms; embracing me with her wrinkly soft arms. i just need her comfort. the comfort no fucking one can give me. *sigh*
and after all that outburst, my positivity tells me, "ouh well, it'll pass..."
-_~...
Tuesday, 6 March 2007
Wednesday, 28 February 2007
my first home
I was very home-sick last week and started missing everyone back ‘ome and my 5/1 family as well. I went back home[phil] thinking..I’m matured enough for my age..but my cuzins told me that I was like a kid..my godpa told his wife jokingly “how old's Joanne already but she acts like Nika” [their daughter,who‘s only 10]…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…
See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.
Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!
But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!
Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…
See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.
Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!
But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!
Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…
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