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Thursday, 12 June 2008
Friday, 16 November 2007
beside you
its tough to lose someone who took care of you, saw you grow up and loved you so much. i do not like going through that; cuz it makes you weakens and it sometimes makes you sink. OUR STRENGTH IS OUR WEAKNESS AND OUR WEAKNESS IS OUR STRENGTH. theyre where you obtain your strength from when youre at your weak point but its also where your weakness comes from. i very much envy you people; for your relatives are just here with yall. when someone passes on, you can be with them til their very end. while i, through their hard times til their very last breath til theyre buried, the urge and desire that i have, to be with them, i cannot get. just because we are apart. but its also why i can let go easily; the distance and time for us both wasnt there. i do not like seeing people take their loved ones for granted because if only i could steal away their opportunity to be with their loved ones, i would. although, me moving on easily makes me feel guilty; just because i wasnt with them, while i talk to the people who were with them still grieving. from the time i came here til now, ive lost 5 immediate family members and none of which, gave me the chance to see them off, which made me move on easily, which i think, made my cousins think i wasnt taking it seriously, which made me have guilty conscience.
ouh well, nuff of the loquaciousness.
i can see you try to smile, suppressing the tears. and im happy you can do that. you being a guy, i was heartened when you said its extremely hard to accept that shes gone. i may not say much and the silence really makes me feel the sadness youre going through. like yijuan said, we are here for you.
ouh well, nuff of the loquaciousness.
i can see you try to smile, suppressing the tears. and im happy you can do that. you being a guy, i was heartened when you said its extremely hard to accept that shes gone. i may not say much and the silence really makes me feel the sadness youre going through. like yijuan said, we are here for you.
Sunday, 11 November 2007
i feel your tight embrace in the cold night, saying everything is alright
within half an hour of my last post, i "friended" back with MOM and DAD. but i still am NOT gonna clean up their mess. hmph! i refuse to. because it took me almost 3days to get it all done. and they just "abolished" it. awww-mah-gaaah!!!
anyway.
jurong east.
that place is pretty stamped-in-my-memory. so many things happened in that place. with a few people. its just funny how weird it feels to go to a place you had memories in and you start reminiscing [when youre at that place at that time]. especially when you seldom go to that place or youve only been there for a couple of times, the recollection is pretty much more clearer or you can even remember, if not all, almost everything that happened in that place. lol. i wasnt actually reminiscing. not even for the past few days. it just came to my mind like that then *poof*, gone. but a month ago, yeah. and i miss the people ive hung out with there.
on a lighter note, Philippine National Basketball team vs Singapore's score: 90—42 today. weeeee. ouh well, filos are good in basketball. like singapore is in soccer. so just imagine SG vs Phil in soccer, haha. the scores gonna be the other way round. ouh well, good game, kababayans.
thank you mom for fixin my fav bag. no thank you [mom n dad] for messin up me boudoir! and i hate kuya for not helping with the house chores, just because hes still in NS; he washes his own clothes all by himself there and hes so tired when he comes home and he just "misses" our helping him and yaddayaddayadda, ergo, we have to do it for him... -_- stupidest excuse that makes you go ~_o when you hear it. o-m-g! yea, true you rarely come home, yet all you do is dirty and mess the place we all friggin clean everyday! when youre supposed to be home, you go out, leave a huge mess and only come home when were all asleep and when we wake up, youre gone again. like wtf. if my NS friends can still help around the house, i dont see why you cant; you lazy, self-centered, squanderer, son of our mom! U-G-H! and all we ask for is cooperation, and my everlasting gifts! yea! i deserve gifts for doing your chores man! you fucking suck, brother! urgh!
*phew*. there. just needed to vent my rage for my animosity in my supposedly-yet-oppositely big brother whom i should say his world revolves around NS, girlfriend and self-luxurious life. i strongly feel he hasnt been a big brother and a son for years, yet mom and dad cant bear to punish him or leave him be; at least financially, even if he takes advantage of it.
gee, i sound so cruel. but its just how i feel. i just feel like putting him in a squatter area in the phils so he can learn how to make use of his time and money worthwhile.
o-m-g. i think i sound so the jiejie/kakak/ate there! ahee! right? right? right? :)
anyway.
jurong east.
that place is pretty stamped-in-my-memory. so many things happened in that place. with a few people. its just funny how weird it feels to go to a place you had memories in and you start reminiscing [when youre at that place at that time]. especially when you seldom go to that place or youve only been there for a couple of times, the recollection is pretty much more clearer or you can even remember, if not all, almost everything that happened in that place. lol. i wasnt actually reminiscing. not even for the past few days. it just came to my mind like that then *poof*, gone. but a month ago, yeah. and i miss the people ive hung out with there.
on a lighter note, Philippine National Basketball team vs Singapore's score: 90—42 today. weeeee. ouh well, filos are good in basketball. like singapore is in soccer. so just imagine SG vs Phil in soccer, haha. the scores gonna be the other way round. ouh well, good game, kababayans.
thank you mom for fixin my fav bag. no thank you [mom n dad] for messin up me boudoir! and i hate kuya for not helping with the house chores, just because hes still in NS; he washes his own clothes all by himself there and hes so tired when he comes home and he just "misses" our helping him and yaddayaddayadda, ergo, we have to do it for him... -_- stupidest excuse that makes you go ~_o when you hear it. o-m-g! yea, true you rarely come home, yet all you do is dirty and mess the place we all friggin clean everyday! when youre supposed to be home, you go out, leave a huge mess and only come home when were all asleep and when we wake up, youre gone again. like wtf. if my NS friends can still help around the house, i dont see why you cant; you lazy, self-centered, squanderer, son of our mom! U-G-H! and all we ask for is cooperation, and my everlasting gifts! yea! i deserve gifts for doing your chores man! you fucking suck, brother! urgh!
*phew*. there. just needed to vent my rage for my animosity in my supposedly-yet-oppositely big brother whom i should say his world revolves around NS, girlfriend and self-luxurious life. i strongly feel he hasnt been a big brother and a son for years, yet mom and dad cant bear to punish him or leave him be; at least financially, even if he takes advantage of it.
gee, i sound so cruel. but its just how i feel. i just feel like putting him in a squatter area in the phils so he can learn how to make use of his time and money worthwhile.
o-m-g. i think i sound so the jiejie/kakak/ate there! ahee! right? right? right? :)
the small, little things
should i be pissed?
i should be!
the hard work and sweat i put in to clean my fucking room last week - all gone.
messed up again.
by whom?!
MOM and DAD!
unbelievable. believe it.
UGH!!!!! they took the fucking cabinet i used to put my fucking school stuffs and the what-have-yous and they just...! o-m-g! can i crush them?! i know how mom hates the things she tidied up gets messed up. and now they did this to me. and dad just came in and shook his head and said "put this back there also lazy" i kena sia. LIKE FUCK. you messed up my room you clean la! wahleo. cannot stand sia. now all the junks and the small things just lying on the floor again. waiting to be kept. and nuh-uh i am sooo not gonna clear them away. they took the cabi away so where do they expect me to keep the stupid things!? ergh! fuck it. i hate you today!
i should be!
the hard work and sweat i put in to clean my fucking room last week - all gone.
messed up again.
by whom?!
MOM and DAD!
unbelievable. believe it.
UGH!!!!! they took the fucking cabinet i used to put my fucking school stuffs and the what-have-yous and they just...! o-m-g! can i crush them?! i know how mom hates the things she tidied up gets messed up. and now they did this to me. and dad just came in and shook his head and said "put this back there also lazy" i kena sia. LIKE FUCK. you messed up my room you clean la! wahleo. cannot stand sia. now all the junks and the small things just lying on the floor again. waiting to be kept. and nuh-uh i am sooo not gonna clear them away. they took the cabi away so where do they expect me to keep the stupid things!? ergh! fuck it. i hate you today!
Sunday, 28 October 2007
ouh yeah. i forgot to tell yous, on thursday, when i came late to school, i was somewhat proud to be one of the many to watch the airbus fly fly to sydney - on tvmobile, ahee. i was plannin to ditch school on that day to go to the airport but didnt bother to coz i already skipped school on wednesday, so what the hell, my plans always get screwed. ahaha. i remember watchin the makin of the A380 months ago. a really strenuous, gruesome work that finally paid off, *phew*. those ganchiong ones who cancelled orders, too bad. haha. no patience right! nehneh-nee-poopoo! bluueeeeeekkkk! ahakz.
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a boring halloween for me. doughless to party! id never spend my savings nor ask my folks coz it was never my habit to just ask, for my own pleasure. yeahyeah, call me thrifty and all, im just being frugal. besides, it aint me own money, hardwork or sweat. ouh well. instead of partyin with the clubbers, i went to a kiddie party; a seven-year-old party! ahee. a humdrum though! i was like -_-"
but at least my primary school close mate, miao de spotted me, so it was fun catching up with him. lotssa youths raya-ing, sheesh. chilled with this boy in baju kurung then bumped into javz O_O at a bustop, then isham too in the lrt @_@! geez, didnt even bump into any gals i know, haha. well, thanks for the time, doode.
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hmm, its so nice to hear im being missed. yesyes, i miss you all too. i think thats whats good, yknow. like you, rarely seeing people, cuz then theyd miss you more than them always spending time with you, cuz itll just bore em? yah.
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and my dear friend, for a guy, youre so fragile. i guess that is why i never fell for you because youre worse than a girl, haha. nope, im not mocking you, i am just making you sturdier. but youre too pessimistic to even get the drift. you say youll change but i guess youll never and i cant do nothin bout that. i just wish you the best doode. but really, you cant dwell on things all the time; no wonder youre like that. and of course, like i said three years ago, i will be your friend. its what ive been doin ever since, but youre not helpin yourself. i gotta bear with your being a mangina over your ex-galfriend and i still am[tolerating], but my ears are really gettin retarded from all that same ol story of yours. but ouh well, nevertheless, im still here for you, i just hate the fact that you arent helping me help you help yourself! and youre always trying to expect. and...i can go on but hah! you already know what i mean. really, just get a grip.
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im thankful for the people who really love me bcoz im like fuckingly weird! haha! what the fuck. and yes i love you too. really i do. okaye! but dont take it the wrong way. i love you not only because you love me for me but i love you too because i love you. awww. aint that shuuuweeetzzz! ahakz. i know. and yes, imma wait for the freakin day we both can be totally free and you gonna take me for a drive round the island! i fuckin missed that like fuck! and aww, i miss "fuck"-ing too, haha! sheez. what? do i wanna chill with you? ouh, fo shizzle mah doozzle cuz i mizzle you like fuzzle! cmon! lets gezzle the fuzzle outta hezzle! aheeheehee!!!
~~
a boring halloween for me. doughless to party! id never spend my savings nor ask my folks coz it was never my habit to just ask, for my own pleasure. yeahyeah, call me thrifty and all, im just being frugal. besides, it aint me own money, hardwork or sweat. ouh well. instead of partyin with the clubbers, i went to a kiddie party; a seven-year-old party! ahee. a humdrum though! i was like -_-"
but at least my primary school close mate, miao de spotted me, so it was fun catching up with him. lotssa youths raya-ing, sheesh. chilled with this boy in baju kurung then bumped into javz O_O at a bustop, then isham too in the lrt @_@! geez, didnt even bump into any gals i know, haha. well, thanks for the time, doode.
~~
hmm, its so nice to hear im being missed. yesyes, i miss you all too. i think thats whats good, yknow. like you, rarely seeing people, cuz then theyd miss you more than them always spending time with you, cuz itll just bore em? yah.
~~
and my dear friend, for a guy, youre so fragile. i guess that is why i never fell for you because youre worse than a girl, haha. nope, im not mocking you, i am just making you sturdier. but youre too pessimistic to even get the drift. you say youll change but i guess youll never and i cant do nothin bout that. i just wish you the best doode. but really, you cant dwell on things all the time; no wonder youre like that. and of course, like i said three years ago, i will be your friend. its what ive been doin ever since, but youre not helpin yourself. i gotta bear with your being a mangina over your ex-galfriend and i still am[tolerating], but my ears are really gettin retarded from all that same ol story of yours. but ouh well, nevertheless, im still here for you, i just hate the fact that you arent helping me help you help yourself! and youre always trying to expect. and...i can go on but hah! you already know what i mean. really, just get a grip.
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im thankful for the people who really love me bcoz im like fuckingly weird! haha! what the fuck. and yes i love you too. really i do. okaye! but dont take it the wrong way. i love you not only because you love me for me but i love you too because i love you. awww. aint that shuuuweeetzzz! ahakz. i know. and yes, imma wait for the freakin day we both can be totally free and you gonna take me for a drive round the island! i fuckin missed that like fuck! and aww, i miss "fuck"-ing too, haha! sheez. what? do i wanna chill with you? ouh, fo shizzle mah doozzle cuz i mizzle you like fuzzle! cmon! lets gezzle the fuzzle outta hezzle! aheeheehee!!!
Thursday, 25 October 2007
Sunday, 7 October 2007
stabilizer
kaye, fuckheaddds! u misssssed me and still are missin me. otayye! ive put[ted] back the flashbox liao lerr. haiz. troublesome! lazy put back yknow! but i forced myself! see, so hardworking like that!
im g-lad its over for my feren. go sammo! weeee! hahaha.
imma say byebye to lappy tomorrow i think. cuzcuzcuz imma send it to hospital. its injured both physically and internally. haiz. ergo, imma have to use dad's or kuya's comp. so sian lor. not mine then i feel weird. i know nuts about computers; cant fix mahself andandand to think im taking IT. haha! how dumb like that! but nah, im sending it for service cuz one of the keys is emm, sort of pecah cuz i was trying to pull out something that got stuck inside, thenthenthen my ever-careless-super-fucking hands and fingers o'mine just did their wonderful work of always-spoiling-things; like fuck like that! geeez! shteeeeeewped!
oh, bloody hell.
i miss arch! and mom and dad! teehee. my neverending misses. i miss arch! just miss pissin him off then bringing me gifts. haiz. oh bummah! SHAKA!
im g-lad its over for my feren. go sammo! weeee! hahaha.
imma say byebye to lappy tomorrow i think. cuzcuzcuz imma send it to hospital. its injured both physically and internally. haiz. ergo, imma have to use dad's or kuya's comp. so sian lor. not mine then i feel weird. i know nuts about computers; cant fix mahself andandand to think im taking IT. haha! how dumb like that! but nah, im sending it for service cuz one of the keys is emm, sort of pecah cuz i was trying to pull out something that got stuck inside, thenthenthen my ever-careless-super-fucking hands and fingers o'mine just did their wonderful work of always-spoiling-things; like fuck like that! geeez! shteeeeeewped!
oh, bloody hell.
i miss arch! and mom and dad! teehee. my neverending misses. i miss arch! just miss pissin him off then bringing me gifts. haiz. oh bummah! SHAKA!
*bom chicka wah wah*
Monday, 24 September 2007
i think im gettin okaye
ber ber ber ber...sepber ocber nober deber...
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
Friday, 21 September 2007
timeout, kitkat
okaye okaye, the album leaf plays real good music. and indie lovers will love it. in fact ive noticed from the past past years, other indie rockers and other musicians now have been mixing their music with electronica and experimental genres. if youre loving it then i think here at home youll find it in lush99.5
bar lovers and cafe lovers will dig me. blah blah sheyt. tristeza, the six parts seven, lanterna, eric wollo, jon jenkins are also effing good.
i miss you dad. dont work too hard. those fuckers are just fucking you. lol. i love you mom. dont worry too much. youll just get sicker when you worry more. bro youre enjoying too much you should come home and glue yourself here so you know, you fucking spendthrift and i hate you for that but i still love you. i just want us to have a break. to stop worrying about shits and just enjoy a day or two. sigh. its like shit growin up. everythings just sooo disconnected. i hate the works thats keeping yall occupied while i sit my tush here mostly at home without anyone to connect with. i miss the four of us. ughhh. why do we have to grow up! sigh. i miss home. miss you gramms! okaye, goonye...
bar lovers and cafe lovers will dig me. blah blah sheyt. tristeza, the six parts seven, lanterna, eric wollo, jon jenkins are also effing good.
i miss you dad. dont work too hard. those fuckers are just fucking you. lol. i love you mom. dont worry too much. youll just get sicker when you worry more. bro youre enjoying too much you should come home and glue yourself here so you know, you fucking spendthrift and i hate you for that but i still love you. i just want us to have a break. to stop worrying about shits and just enjoy a day or two. sigh. its like shit growin up. everythings just sooo disconnected. i hate the works thats keeping yall occupied while i sit my tush here mostly at home without anyone to connect with. i miss the four of us. ughhh. why do we have to grow up! sigh. i miss home. miss you gramms! okaye, goonye...
Sunday, 16 September 2007
fall on me
cleanin the house, *phew* arduous...
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
~~
everyone starting from mrs chui onwards til today [ate Vec] said i've thinned. *ugh*
and my eyes are darker. *panda eyes!* teehee. my only asset...haha. okaye more people to meet, more comments to hear! bring it on bebeh!
Friday, 14 September 2007
drinkin milk
hi.
after yesterday's kvetching, i'm not mad no more; 'cept for the greedy people's taking away of the only thing that a woman in that situation can hold on to. how sad.
aaanyways, i'm cheery today! mom's at home! weee! and she bought me my favvy! i love her to death! heee!
after yesterday's kvetching, i'm not mad no more; 'cept for the greedy people's taking away of the only thing that a woman in that situation can hold on to. how sad.
aaanyways, i'm cheery today! mom's at home! weee! and she bought me my favvy! i love her to death! heee!
i don't love mom and dad and kuya because i need them.
i need them cuz i love them!
oooookaye. aaaanyways...
i got to chat with a long time friend of mine and she told me she actually tracked me down to tell me she witnessed my dumping my
i got to chat with a long time friend of mine and she told me she actually tracked me down to tell me she witnessed my dumping my
then-boyfriend at Gombak station. gee. funny she actually
"tracked me down" just to tell me that. she was gonna approach me but i already walked off to meet sabz and nunu. the way she "narrated" it was hilarious. lol. and she said that after all these years, i was still that bad ass lass she knew.
but i opposed, "eh! to think of it uh, it wasn't that bad what; i have been carrying that thing the week before, hoping to finally dump it but didn't get the chance to and on that day i was finally releived i got to return it. heavy you know! carry that shit everywhere for very long. too heavy til i accidentally dropped it..."
tahha. okaye, whatever. well, i just never thought there would be familiar people at that time to see me do that. besides, it has been years since we last met, yet i was still recognised - amazingly. waaah. kaye lah. don't say liao. very the that one.
eh, SABotitotot, thanks for the bloody long ass overdued pics uh!
but i opposed, "eh! to think of it uh, it wasn't that bad what; i have been carrying that thing the week before, hoping to finally dump it but didn't get the chance to and on that day i was finally releived i got to return it. heavy you know! carry that shit everywhere for very long. too heavy til i accidentally dropped it..."
tahha. okaye, whatever. well, i just never thought there would be familiar people at that time to see me do that. besides, it has been years since we last met, yet i was still recognised - amazingly. waaah. kaye lah. don't say liao. very the that one.
eh, SABotitotot, thanks for the bloody long ass overdued pics uh!
Thursday, 13 September 2007
wicked people...
dear blog,
as of now, i don't know how to look at things anymore; whether to still look on the brighter side or just be on the adverse...
i am very anxious about what's gonna happen. i'm thinkin it's all just another trial. but to think again; when he broke the news to me about it, my heart just sank. tita's situation's already bad, and the last thing she needed was to get that. isn't what she's experiencing enough of the hardship she's goin through? still, 't all got worse. and one of her many bad situations is sadly what we're also goin through. gonna have to wait for that til then. but i think it's just depressingly hurting that out of the many fucked up
as of now, i don't know how to look at things anymore; whether to still look on the brighter side or just be on the adverse...
i am very anxious about what's gonna happen. i'm thinkin it's all just another trial. but to think again; when he broke the news to me about it, my heart just sank. tita's situation's already bad, and the last thing she needed was to get that. isn't what she's experiencing enough of the hardship she's goin through? still, 't all got worse. and one of her many bad situations is sadly what we're also goin through. gonna have to wait for that til then. but i think it's just depressingly hurting that out of the many fucked up
green-eyed evil people in there, they chose to eye on and target the good people to chuck out. worse still, is that those supposedly intelligent big shots, stupidly beleive on the things they never SEE. why don't you SEE for yourself first before you fucking act on it?! why'd you have to beleive those assholes so easily?! i thought y'all're supposed to be the
L-E-A-D-E-R-S? in the end, you're all just the bunchha brainless ones. i don't know what's gonna happen really. but i just hope that there'll be a BETTER offer for them that those fuckers will fuckingly fucking regret. *sigh* and what i just said,
"one sheyt after another"...
and all my brightside perso will say,
and all my brightside perso will say,
"things happen for a reason...", "...He's got better plans for us", "just beleive"
*sigh*
yours truly,
joanne
*sigh*
yours truly,
joanne
Wednesday, 12 September 2007
wake up!!! do ur thanggg...
*stoning*...
~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.
~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already.sorry but i hope the next time, i'll be able to make it. haha, only deedee met up with faie and mirul, attendance: 3/10. ouh well, still got next time :) hope it'll be 10/10!
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.
~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.
~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already.
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.
~{girlishness}~
aww, i'm pretty happy to hear the voice of the previous CDSS soccer team captain! and most especially, who once haddd something fo...uhh
N-NNE-NEVER MIND! i'm just too overwhelmed; got carried away, teehee.
~{back to normal}~
i feel like goin back to those days where you guys were still wearing "low-shorts", mirul burn'n his leg hair [busok giler siol!] and kelly's too [she got kinda mad] one time and hasbullah rebelling on the teachers; most especially mrs viswa [aka penguin] and and and making mr siow [aka einstein] cry after all the bullies and the throwing of papers at him and just giving him a hellavafuckinhardtime teaching! *pants*
~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.
~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)
fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.
~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*
~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.
plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!
~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.
~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)
fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.
~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*
~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.
plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!
*sheesh* this week's been a disaster already! well, maybe except for a few events. but really, the worst disaster i guess is famine [lol, what a bad word to use]. okaye! owwwtta herre.
Tuesday, 11 September 2007
knock on my door and say "hello" and we'll dance crazy
here here dawdling on the second day...but not til a slack-jaw fortunately, i'm not the worst y'know!
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ninang genie and i're plannin for kuzzie giannina's 18th birthday come next early april...kuzz jen wants to celebrate her Debut here. so i guess it's a project for joanne.
"ProJiDy" is what i should call it; as in ProjJD, just like the planner's a prodigy!
"ProJiDy" is what i should call it; as in ProjJD, just like the planner's a prodigy!
kool ey? [cuz i'm DANK like that!]
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ouh, i got 86 for MME test 2weeks ago. lol, im swanking...was too lazy to brag about it last week. lol. wf?!
but but i think for CMO's exam yesterday...is gonna be a fluff. :( hope not though. imagine, all my tests i did well, but this exam...*sigh* only because i procrastinated on my revision. ouh well, sheyt sheyt.
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but but i think for CMO's exam yesterday...is gonna be a fluff. :( hope not though. imagine, all my tests i did well, but this exam...*sigh* only because i procrastinated on my revision. ouh well, sheyt sheyt.
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chalet next week. stoked bout'it! but but i dunno howzit gonna turn out. hope it doesn't bore me. please don't? anyone can come meet me. gonna tell you the addy and you can come peep if you're too shy to meet me. just don't stalk me aight? not til i'm stark-naked in the bath...wakakaka! dancing my ass in'erre.
catcha later!
catcha later!
Saturday, 8 September 2007
no brat after all
dad hasn't been walkin that well; gout.
~and last night, 9plus, when mom came home, i told her i was craving for something. she nicely responded, "why didn't you call me?". [i didn't cuz i know she was tired]
dad then came home, 12, and i told him the same thing, and he said "why didn't you tell me earlier?" and of course i didn't cuzza his gout and it was already late he must be whacked. but what touched me was when he added, "do you wanna accompany me to buy it for you?"
~this morning, dad asked if i could do te groceries cuz mom's at work, and he had to leave for work too, and all i could say was "ouh, but i'm havin exam on mon..." with that stupid face...then dad said "spoiled brat ka talaga noh..."
~now dad just called, and i requested for something again and he said okaye and even asked what else i wanted...
~and last night, 9plus, when mom came home, i told her i was craving for something. she nicely responded, "why didn't you call me?". [i didn't cuz i know she was tired]
dad then came home, 12, and i told him the same thing, and he said "why didn't you tell me earlier?" and of course i didn't cuzza his gout and it was already late he must be whacked. but what touched me was when he added, "do you wanna accompany me to buy it for you?"
~this morning, dad asked if i could do te groceries cuz mom's at work, and he had to leave for work too, and all i could say was "ouh, but i'm havin exam on mon..." with that stupid face...then dad said "spoiled brat ka talaga noh..."
~now dad just called, and i requested for something again and he said okaye and even asked what else i wanted...
*sigh* how blessed am i to have such parents! even if they're all fagged and havin pains around...plus plus they arrive in a bad environment [didn't clean] and there isn't any food for them to eat, they'd still do anything for you.
which made me think; am i a brat?! what makes up a brat?!
i'm indolent, i whine, i let them get me what i want, i can get away with things easily and they never mind, they do things i'm supposed to do and maybe much more. some friends think i am spoiled which seldom shows when i'm around 'em.
hmmm...but i guess one thing i'm never a brat with is when comes to money. i never got the habit of askin for cash just to splurge on useless things unlike kuya :) so can i say i'm not a brat after all?
i've been at home all by myself this week, again. folks often reach home between 9-12 and kuya in camp of course. *sigh* i hope tomorrow we'll be together. i miss them.
i've been at home all by myself this week, again. folks often reach home between 9-12 and kuya in camp of course. *sigh* i hope tomorrow we'll be together. i miss them.
Monday, 5 March 2007
vored!
Borinnng! My day was so the effing dull I was just waiting for it to end! Bren came and watched a Leo’s movie. Didn’t watched it with them cuz I was really just not in the mood. I’m so evil already I haven’t been attending mass again for two/three consecutive weeks..and it’s Lenten season. Haiyuh! Why am I like this uh! That’s what holidays do to you! But if I wasn’t here I would be always out partying! It’s just sooo boring here..Gosh..take me home mann…everybody’s so busy and I’ve really got nothing much to do unlike when I just came back. Now everything’s just sooo..I don’t know! I just hate the feeling
Sunday, 4 March 2007
tour me
I was late yesterday..as usual..initially planned to meet my tour guides at 1130 at jurong east interchange[wee I rid the LRT and MRT!], budden the tourist[me] asked for 1300. And then extended to 1330 budden I think I came at around 1430. Gosh..this kind of person how to go out with uh! But luckily they were patient enough to know me…stuuupit! On the way, my tour guides still hadn’t decided on where to take me until she said vivocity. Then I was like, “ok”… cuz I really dunno the place..[riiight]
[before]
The night before, I told myself, no…I won’t be late! So I alarmed my phone to 7am. Woke up, did the things I had to do..I JUUUUUST dunno why I still came late! Tsk..I’m really doing my best to be punctual but it just doesn’t cooperate with my whatever…
Anyways..okaye..long story short, I had fun with you guys. Only thing was thiru’s sis was such a spoiler…lol…and yeah..ros and I stood at the CCK station for 1+hour just to chat. We were at the same spot. Faziana went to eat at lot1 and when she was going home, she found us still at the same spot…okaye whatever!
Mmm…today, I’m officially a month old in Singapore. I hired another tour guide, dadoodz. He brought me to this place called downtown east for chalet but I didn’t stay with them cuz they were guys…drink2...den.. eeeewwww I just don’t like dadoodz when he’s drunk…I was in the room while they were preparing the BBQ..[ouh, and we came late as usual]. I played xbox while eating. Then dad called me to join them. I was engrossed with the game and he kept callin so I got irritated and got out until only after I’ve shut the door did I remember to take the stuuupit card! I went down and told em.. Mah fun sia me… make people do work! They went to call the staff to open the door. [this is what happens when ur really forgetful] but I didn’t care la. Once people do something about your problem you tend to not care anymore cuz it’s being solved for you..haha..nooo actually it’s just my attitude of being a “heck-care” person. Then kuya and bren came then blahblahblah…..
I’m too lazy to tell my day…but whatever..
[before]
The night before, I told myself, no…I won’t be late! So I alarmed my phone to 7am. Woke up, did the things I had to do..I JUUUUUST dunno why I still came late! Tsk..I’m really doing my best to be punctual but it just doesn’t cooperate with my whatever…
Anyways..okaye..long story short, I had fun with you guys. Only thing was thiru’s sis was such a spoiler…lol…and yeah..ros and I stood at the CCK station for 1+hour just to chat. We were at the same spot. Faziana went to eat at lot1 and when she was going home, she found us still at the same spot…okaye whatever!
Mmm…today, I’m officially a month old in Singapore. I hired another tour guide, dadoodz. He brought me to this place called downtown east for chalet but I didn’t stay with them cuz they were guys…drink2...den.. eeeewwww I just don’t like dadoodz when he’s drunk…I was in the room while they were preparing the BBQ..[ouh, and we came late as usual]. I played xbox while eating. Then dad called me to join them. I was engrossed with the game and he kept callin so I got irritated and got out until only after I’ve shut the door did I remember to take the stuuupit card! I went down and told em.. Mah fun sia me… make people do work! They went to call the staff to open the door. [this is what happens when ur really forgetful] but I didn’t care la. Once people do something about your problem you tend to not care anymore cuz it’s being solved for you..haha..nooo actually it’s just my attitude of being a “heck-care” person. Then kuya and bren came then blahblahblah…..
I’m too lazy to tell my day…but whatever..
Wednesday, 28 February 2007
my first home
I was very home-sick last week and started missing everyone back ‘ome and my 5/1 family as well. I went back home[phil] thinking..I’m matured enough for my age..but my cuzins told me that I was like a kid..my godpa told his wife jokingly “how old's Joanne already but she acts like Nika” [their daughter,who‘s only 10]…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…
See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.
Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!
But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!
Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…
And I thought about what they said..they were right..I was laughing at myself…but I guess I can’t help it…
See…Long, long time agooo, I grew up without cousins surrounding me when I came here..t’was just me and kuya[abang]. My childhood was..I guess..I can call it..a “boring” one. I grew up watching my local friends with their relatives; cousins, Grandparents…While me and kuya…t’was just us..how lonely can that be..though I did grow up with neighbors and my Filo friends…
So when I went home, I didn’t notice I was acting like a kid…probably because my childhood was sorta taken away from me..and so t’was given back to me to enjoy what was taken away…and I did…so very the friggin much…To the extent that I was in agony cuz I had to leave em…because coming back here would mean me getting home-sick and stressed up and lonely again.
Mom and dad’re going back for the “HOLY WEEK” trip. They’re gonna climb the Mt. Dolores and pray and pray and pray..lol..[so de religious]…well, it’s just a week trip. At first I thought I’d follow em back home but then I thought that if I come along, I won’t enjoy the trip cuz it’s just a short one and I’ll just start missing em again and of course I’ll only be seeking for a longer holiday and I’ll slack again. Don’t want that to happen..So I decided, I’ll stay here! All by myself. Kuya’ll be in Taiwan for training so it’s just gonna be me..FREEDOM babbeeehh!!! I can have a PARTY…then we’ll trash the fugging House..orite uh!
But I guez my folks won’t let me stay home alone. They’re gonna ask one o’ their friends to stay with me. [SPOILER uh!] Please don’t!!!! I won’t have freedom man! I won’t get to walk around the house half-naked! Or bare naked! [Geeeezzzz..] I can manage okaye!!! I’ll miss u guys but I don’t want any babI-sitters! Gawsh!
But oh well, if they let me stay home alone..I’ll have a party…Let’s’ve a Paaaarteeehh!
Otaye…whutevur…BYE suckers…
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