unplanned school-break

i survived another influenza...[last time i had this was my flight back to SG!] now left with cough, my cough's like asthma...can't quite breath well, like im gasping for air kinda thing. geez. Thank you Sheshe for bringin me food and buying me medz again today[cough syrup this time]. ;) i love my soul siztah ;)

so anyway, typhoon Pedring left and another typhoon, Quiel is on its way. another sucky weekend. tahha, ouhwell. out with the bad news, in with the good.
i had a pretty unexpected holiday this week:

last sat - no school, Eulo Day
sun - no school, DUH =.=
mon - school for awhile, tahha ;)
tue - no school, Sotero Day
wed - prof absent, sayang fare ko, bah yan =.="
thur - sick, absent
fri - STILL sick, absent
sat [tomorrow] - no prof ;) BUT group project @ Wendell's...

ain't it fun?! no school for a week, just one day. wahahah. well, im sure i can catch up with the lessons i missed. ;)

because of climate change, more people are getting sick. last weekend, Ty Pedring came.. well this weekend, tomorrow perhaps, brace yourselves for Ty Quiel. well, it's already here, it just hasn't hit my area...ouhwell, gotta stock up again. glad Waltermart's open already. it's just opposite our school. haha. at least i dunav to travel to SM =.=" i just hope they have BDO atm in walter! we should call it Waltermart Lyceum ;p tahahaha.

ouhwell. we have so many FINAL projects, 5 subjects for me...and we have TWO weeks left. i so wanna scream my arse out because i dunoe whether im eggjamzited for sem-break or the fact that we haven't started on anything...okaye i'm panicking. OUH MY CURRY GRAVY! bbbzzzzshhh! i just hope my cough will scram already so i have more energy to pour on my school stuff and i can work out again! zzzzz =.="

&lastly, i dunoe why i keep getting excited with the thought and imagination of me being back at home...is that like a sign that i'll be going back there unplannedly? hahaha, that's just so far from happening and it's definitely chafing me cuz it's just making me expect and eventually just disappointing me. so i hope those sudden pop ups will halt already! unless of course, there is confirmation! hehe! ;)

Get well to me! ;p thank YOU for the concern ;) GOD BLESS.

during our early stage, it was the season of Secondhand Serenade... <3

soul siztah love.

i would like to take this opportunity to thank my bestfriend, Sheshe for takin' time off from school, and the effort to come down to bring me food and medicine. truly, a God's gift...i've been wishing for an elder sister, and i got it. well, she may be younger than me, but she sure takes care of me like an elder sis does. that's why i call her my soul sister. ssup soul sistah!?

i hope i will get better already. i hate this feeling. i miss how mummy takes care of me when i lay sick in bed...and the fact that my bestfriend lives so far away from me and is unable to be by my side to spoonfeed me everything when i'm sick, is already a HUGE thing for me, just to watch her do things for me since day 1 of our friendship.

i'm so sure the guy who'll fall for her will be the luckiest...amazing. ouhwell ;) she always tells me, "that's what bestfriends are for" ;)

also thank you to my classmates for the concern...i'm just thankful that i've met many good people since secondary school, who really show concern and are good at putting it through actions...thank you all.

i am blessed ;) nuff said.

;'(

three years ago at this hour, we were prolly still up, planning for our EC adventure...i hope today will be extra special even if...
*dumbfounded*

"3rd"

fear

school. today school was the usual.. ;) it's stressful but at the same time, destress-ful...one more paper to go, and Semis are over...projects for Finals are piling up, subject by subject... =.=" i don't know which and where to start & we are left with only 4 weeks. *sigh*

unexpected errand. after school, went to SM with Tosh...initially just to withdraw & canvas speakers [for me], only to end up buying chicken-to-cook [cuz i craved on the way], shawarma for her, Zagu b.k.a BubbleTea for me, and of course, the  Creative speakers i got for just 1300 Pesos = $39.40 [compared to the already-sale in SG of $45 ;p] i got it tested, sounded fine. i'll be coming back for it on Saturday cuz i couldn't carry anymore [tell you why later] ;p

it was jading...cuz y'know, whenever you're with me, you'll walk to and fro, til you've rounded the mall so many times =.=" well i got myself fagged as well.. ;p imagine bein up since 0430am for 0730am - 6pm class? wouldn't all you'll be lookin' forward to is go home and respite your arse? instead, running some more errands after school...just a total bummer...but it's still fun, i'm afterall with bestfriend to accompany me. i always feel sorry i have to drag ella and tire her out but i am always glad i don't feel like a tourist when i'm with her ;) she brings comfort in me. tahha. emo.

bestfriend. i really am thankful that i made a bestfriend here, Sheshe takes good care of me better than i do of her [my being older than her]...i still feel noob-ish most of the time [just don't show it 'course]. it's just so funny that at such a short period of time, she understands what i'm saying with how i talk.. unlike the others...She always winds up being my translator...always. wahahah. ouhwell. that's what amazes me, i guess it's God's given gift ;) i love you ToSh-eshE-lla! <3

fulminant fright. on the way home, i was strugglin' with my things; my full-of-gold bag [or should i say my-whole-apartment bag], lappy & HEAVY groceries in PAPER BAG! & NO, i do not own a car.

the night here really FREAKS ME OUT. as the jeep moved, i observed too many things i should've already found normal [considering the duration of my stay here]...but the more i looked out, the more i got frightened...i feel like every after sun sets, all the wild stuffs happen =/ road illumination here relies heavily on the vehicles themselves, so if you're walkin alone, you can feel the creepiness..[anyone/ANYTHING can just grab you out of nowhere and you'll vanish without witnesses =/] the noise was a torment to my ears with all the honkings, and people yacking...but at the same time, i preferred that to total silence which would be more unpleasant - like being with zombies...DAYUUUM! seriously. I DO NOT WANT TO GO HOME PAST 7 ALREADY.

;'( y'know being alone just ain't so much of a pleasure, it tests your endurance on handling situations...well, basically, managing your LIFE. you can really go haywire if you mull over it. i break down veritably...so it does take its toll on you...enormously.

it really is baffling, having so much to do in school, plus being homesick; missing your family, your life before, your love life...

as much as i want things to be back to normal, i have to respect my heart and let it mend..this time, it's my turn. It is not easy, to be said of things you never could imagine the person who loves you and whom you loved so, with such, then leaves you...BUT then comes back feeling remorseful...

as much as you love the person, it isn't easy to just go back like you were not hurt - all for the sake of your sorrow to bog off. i just wanna make sure the next time i am asked the question again, i hope by that time, you're already determined with your decision, you be keeping your words as a man, hold on tighter til the end of my life..no more "be open to possibilities", you'll make me fall for you again and "bring the FIRE back" that will last til my last breath. i believe we still can show effort even without communication..i know so.

yes, you see me laugh, but i also cry...i'm human after all. and there are things i can't let out just like that. i still have my privacy like any other. don't tell me you don't keep things from me...

*sigh* truly rugged ;'( give me more strength to keep going. i just need more motivation and inspiration to run on. in whichever way i can receive 'em...surprise sms, surprise phone call, surprise email...whatever. i just NEED it. PLEASE? they will be blessings for me.

back to work-out...Day 1. i woke up to watch the videos i loaded last night. several vids were of Ciara's. the culprit that triggered me to have an adrenaline rush. i hope i get this every morning ;p i do miss havin' the slim tum.

lunch with the cheebei galz. i was so lookin forward to eat lotssa fried vege lumpya only to find out the cheebei galz have gobbled em all up! BBOOOOOOO! i really don't feel comftable eatin' foods at other karenduryas when it's not 3Ks[loyal siaaa]. *sigh* never fails to give me the feeling of the meat being of other animals' & also the puking sensation i get all the time..zzzz =.="
PLUS seeing my bestfriend unwell just gives me the sucky feeling of not being able to do anything when i so wanna. ouhwell. i just hope she takes care of herself more by ABIDING the rules of her DIETARY and not eat foods she knows she's not supposed to eat... ;'( i hate seeing u like that. stop being a bitch to your body.

reminiscence. the weather caught my attention at Stats class today...
being located at 4th floor, students get to enjoy the heavenly scenery that outlooks Batangas...and i for one, have always loved skygazing; particularly when it's SUNNY; forming shapes of clouds whenever i was at the Esplanade rooftop or the VivoCity Sky Park...

though, the only reminiscence i had earlier that kept replaying in my mind, was walkin' hand-in-hand from the bus stop towards
BLK 202 and vice versa...why that setting? *shrugs* i don't know...i don't have power over my mind...do you?
at that moment i so had the itch to teleport back home just to inhale the atmosphere and relive the moments even just for a little while before i get snapped back to reality.

i suddenly had the strong desire of goin' back either this sem-break [but Mom's comin' to visit] or Christmas [i so sure-guarantee-confirm-chop cannot...ticket prices are just skyhigh]. i wanted to scream my lungs out and cry even though i was happy. you know the moment you get when you're interacting with your classmates and unanticipatedly get that disruption? it really brought my mood down for a few minutes...but all thanks to Ms Tin's lesson, helped get me back on track ;) i never fail to enjoy her classes ;D



awww, i missed this. i hope this will be consistent again. i don't know. i guess i finally got my keen back to write ;p yeyyyy! this is pretty good ;) keep up the good work, me. ;p

19/09/2008

the day i confessed and expressed the affection i felt
in the trite 3 words.

"just hoping for u to let me love you..

I will make sure youre happy with me.

I will never hurt you.."

"remember..."im yours" majo.
naks..  
i will still be waiting for you to be mine and accept me... :D"

One should know what they really need and want in life. 

Determine only after excogitation, 

not the spur of the provocation, precipitance and fervour.

When one has acquired their desire, take them not for granted.

Take no advantage of 'em.

Being successful in life in the form of ego & all kinds of materialism, 

will not make one, whole.

One may have all the wealth he's been striving for all his life

yet has no one to share it with, 

then he isn't triumphant - still. 

"Never give up, no matter how bleak the situation: You just never know..." just travail.