lalala . . .
Sunday 30 September 2007
Thursday 27 September 2007
characters...
i like jeff's "pon and zi" art. very cute indeed. the only art i like from wajaholic is his prominent "i give you my heart". zindy, the first artist i liked. shaka.
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talk about pretenders. geez. lets face it. we all are. not only our surroundings. we may not be as big of a pretender like we all think or say they are but were still considered as one. we either pretend to not hurt people's feelings or we pretend to be good at first, then stab em in the back. but aint it all the same. lol. we fall for their act. we find out later. we get livid. we hate em. blahblahblah. and our choice? vengeance or to just-not-bother. ouh bloody hell. as much as id like vengeance, id rather put my mind somewhere else. think of it. weve wasted more-than-enough time falling for their trap, would we still wanna waste yet another more of our time for em? time is p-recious, my friend. but yes of course, if youve got a whole lodssa free time and you happen to be a mischievious one - and maybe some kind of evil too, then go ahead; do yer thang. revenge can be quite alleviating. but if youre more of a wise one, then i dont need to say it, you already know what to do.
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talk about pretenders. geez. lets face it. we all are. not only our surroundings. we may not be as big of a pretender like we all think or say they are but were still considered as one. we either pretend to not hurt people's feelings or we pretend to be good at first, then stab em in the back. but aint it all the same. lol. we fall for their act. we find out later. we get livid. we hate em. blahblahblah. and our choice? vengeance or to just-not-bother. ouh bloody hell. as much as id like vengeance, id rather put my mind somewhere else. think of it. weve wasted more-than-enough time falling for their trap, would we still wanna waste yet another more of our time for em? time is p-recious, my friend. but yes of course, if youve got a whole lodssa free time and you happen to be a mischievious one - and maybe some kind of evil too, then go ahead; do yer thang. revenge can be quite alleviating. but if youre more of a wise one, then i dont need to say it, you already know what to do.
Wednesday 26 September 2007
will get there
SHAKA! go sonya! good rippin! sonya balmores. a 2004 miss hawaii teen usa then a 2005 miss hawaii usa is an amerindianishpino american-indian irish filipino whos a hawaiian; a native of kauai and is currently on the show, beyond the break. teehee. shes a surfer. i remember my fave surfer back in sec2, holly beck; whos now a president of international womens surfing and is ranked no.9 in wqs. dank.
i used to do sports alot; [*boasts* self-taught blading at 4, cycling, medalist in hurdles and running, badminton, once in a schools winning basketball team, and a wee bit of le parkour, etc. i was a tomboy! teehee. but ask me to do all that now, itd be hilarious.] i loved the water too and so swam alot when i was a kid; always on the beach every weekend til i enrolled myself in p2 that made me turn away from the likes of plunging into the water; i really nearly almost drowned when coach put me in the adult pool and i suddenly just couldnt pull myself up. i realized its that small curiosity of that puff that weakened my lungs and not be able to hold my breath for long - til now; even if its not in water, i suddenly just get jitters and would not be able to breathe. its kinda like a lost hope for me to do stuff i wanted to do; like water sports. ouh gee, and im old and here, sheesh. but i guess its never too late right? yeah. maybe when im all independent - and i mean all independent, then i can do my "to-do-list"; which involves many adventurous activities. for now, the people who are surrounding me knows i cant do sports as i used to - while those who knew me back then knew who i was. well, well just see how it goes when im older. teehee. and im not about to be dissuaded by anybody who thinks low of me. hehe. gotta keep the spirits up yknow! its one of the many things i planned to invest my everything on; not just money - but really e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. see ya citz! shaka!
i used to do sports alot; [*boasts* self-taught blading at 4, cycling, medalist in hurdles and running, badminton, once in a schools winning basketball team, and a wee bit of le parkour, etc. i was a tomboy! teehee. but ask me to do all that now, itd be hilarious.] i loved the water too and so swam alot when i was a kid; always on the beach every weekend til i enrolled myself in p2 that made me turn away from the likes of plunging into the water; i really nearly almost drowned when coach put me in the adult pool and i suddenly just couldnt pull myself up. i realized its that small curiosity of that puff that weakened my lungs and not be able to hold my breath for long - til now; even if its not in water, i suddenly just get jitters and would not be able to breathe. its kinda like a lost hope for me to do stuff i wanted to do; like water sports. ouh gee, and im old and here, sheesh. but i guess its never too late right? yeah. maybe when im all independent - and i mean all independent, then i can do my "to-do-list"; which involves many adventurous activities. for now, the people who are surrounding me knows i cant do sports as i used to - while those who knew me back then knew who i was. well, well just see how it goes when im older. teehee. and im not about to be dissuaded by anybody who thinks low of me. hehe. gotta keep the spirits up yknow! its one of the many things i planned to invest my everything on; not just money - but really e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. see ya citz! shaka!
Tuesday 25 September 2007
korekorekoreko
cmooon, cmon, do the locomotion with meeee...
dunno how to do the locomotion? easy bebeh...hips in while hands out then hips out while hands in...then repeat...tahha...funny one...gee im in the 60s mood.
got one more!
Do Wah Diddy Diddy dum diddy doom! yeah! Ang TV days with my crush john prats. teehee! am in in tha mood or huwaat! these are the only songs pumping real loud on my speakers...hehhe!
dunno how to do the locomotion? easy bebeh...hips in while hands out then hips out while hands in...then repeat...tahha...funny one...gee im in the 60s mood.
got one more!
Do Wah Diddy Diddy dum diddy doom! yeah! Ang TV days with my crush john prats. teehee! am in in tha mood or huwaat! these are the only songs pumping real loud on my speakers...hehhe!
Monday 24 September 2007
i think im gettin okaye
ber ber ber ber...sepber ocber nober deber...
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
well, were 24days late according to our familys own tradition of puttin up the christmas tree just as the ber month strikes. arch and brendz did the tree yesterday before he went back to camp and i did the decoing tadday. wee. theme this year: blue white and yellow. we had no yellow so we used gold for sub. i wanted to have black as the theme but i know theyd go bonkers if they hear me say that. they so oppose to black so much. sheesh! wadda biggie! ouh well...lalala. no comment.
anyhoos, while i was doin the tree, so many flashbacks as well as good thoughts came to me mind.
like like like how i used to love hangin the balls when i was just 4 and those gift-ornaments that made me wish i was a small creature so i could open that small gift which was of course just a styrofoam -_-'... could still remember when kuya and i kept lookin out of the window to see if mom would come back with dad for christmas. and for the first time mom celebrated christmas in singapore without us and she was just sitting at the window, sobbing. sheesh. then good thoughts like like like eh i forgot. ahh nemai [nevermind]...
ya then like that. headache sia. bloody hell. i think im sleepy. maybe if not before, then by christmas id be able to be friends with my unfriends again. lol. nola. but rest assured i will be okaye with people again. "tis the season/love and understanding/merry christmas evryone" teehee. just say hi and maybe ill hug back! what am i talking about. ouh well. joanne joanne. im such a sucker for food. i think ill go food hunting now. bye. oh shit. no food. oh bahhh!!! killer headache, ill jush sh-leep on it.
Saturday 22 September 2007
its not a tosh, heed it.
hmm, i guess im used to it. tis been more than a decade already. i guess thats why i feel easier this way.
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3years, and youre still behaving that way. please dont because youre only hurting yourself. after that talk a couple of years ago, i am still standing by my words. i am showing my gratitude for still standing by me but dont overestimate my actions.
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its pretty tough this second time actually. i thought itd be easier, just like before. but i guess because it was more intense, then maybe that explains it. there is only one way. but somehow its more complex. if only i can get it then i may have already been pass that by now. help me help you help me. but how to, when youre being so obstinate. then i guess ill just let time do the job. but bear in your conscience that you are what youve always said you are, all this while and what youd do if this or that happens. now im just looking at it all and thinkin that what youre doin now is none of what youve mentioned. youre proving yourself wrong and youre just being a fraidy-cat. you may be a whole to another, but in whole, youre just showing that lil piece to that another cuz you know you left something behind.
advice: go get it.
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3years, and youre still behaving that way. please dont because youre only hurting yourself. after that talk a couple of years ago, i am still standing by my words. i am showing my gratitude for still standing by me but dont overestimate my actions.
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its pretty tough this second time actually. i thought itd be easier, just like before. but i guess because it was more intense, then maybe that explains it. there is only one way. but somehow its more complex. if only i can get it then i may have already been pass that by now. help me help you help me. but how to, when youre being so obstinate. then i guess ill just let time do the job. but bear in your conscience that you are what youve always said you are, all this while and what youd do if this or that happens. now im just looking at it all and thinkin that what youre doin now is none of what youve mentioned. youre proving yourself wrong and youre just being a fraidy-cat. you may be a whole to another, but in whole, youre just showing that lil piece to that another cuz you know you left something behind.
advice: go get it.
Friday 21 September 2007
timeout, kitkat
okaye okaye, the album leaf plays real good music. and indie lovers will love it. in fact ive noticed from the past past years, other indie rockers and other musicians now have been mixing their music with electronica and experimental genres. if youre loving it then i think here at home youll find it in lush99.5
bar lovers and cafe lovers will dig me. blah blah sheyt. tristeza, the six parts seven, lanterna, eric wollo, jon jenkins are also effing good.
i miss you dad. dont work too hard. those fuckers are just fucking you. lol. i love you mom. dont worry too much. youll just get sicker when you worry more. bro youre enjoying too much you should come home and glue yourself here so you know, you fucking spendthrift and i hate you for that but i still love you. i just want us to have a break. to stop worrying about shits and just enjoy a day or two. sigh. its like shit growin up. everythings just sooo disconnected. i hate the works thats keeping yall occupied while i sit my tush here mostly at home without anyone to connect with. i miss the four of us. ughhh. why do we have to grow up! sigh. i miss home. miss you gramms! okaye, goonye...
bar lovers and cafe lovers will dig me. blah blah sheyt. tristeza, the six parts seven, lanterna, eric wollo, jon jenkins are also effing good.
i miss you dad. dont work too hard. those fuckers are just fucking you. lol. i love you mom. dont worry too much. youll just get sicker when you worry more. bro youre enjoying too much you should come home and glue yourself here so you know, you fucking spendthrift and i hate you for that but i still love you. i just want us to have a break. to stop worrying about shits and just enjoy a day or two. sigh. its like shit growin up. everythings just sooo disconnected. i hate the works thats keeping yall occupied while i sit my tush here mostly at home without anyone to connect with. i miss the four of us. ughhh. why do we have to grow up! sigh. i miss home. miss you gramms! okaye, goonye...
Thursday 20 September 2007
proud and loud
alright. just seen the et-bt-tt-comit flick. so yall flat chested girls like me need not feel at all fucked up cuz those galz goin for the silicon sheyt to pump up their boobies for the world to see are the effed up ones. haha. the only part is that the galz in the C(I)A which stands for "clits in action" are lesbos. but that dont mean you gotta be one. anyhoos, great job jamie babbit, tina mabry and abigail shafran. nobodys fuckingly fucking perfect so the next time you insult other people, look atchaself ferst. ouh, but if youre too inlove with yourself then you may wanna ask the people who doesnt like you to tell you what you should look at atchasself. :)
and like i said i WAS not in the effing mood to respond to anybodys messages and calls. so pardon me for not turnin up for the movie, the chalet and the lunch. i do hope ill get back my 15bones though. blahh sheyt. okaye whatever. you know, clearly, i dont know whos readin me bloggo. and clearly, i dont give a
damn damn if you think i am so melodramatic at times you dumdum, cuz clearly, i dont care care. haha. and prolly right now youll go "yeah, like i even care...." and ill just go rollen me eyes...tahha. *chuckles*
and and you may not have to like me to read my blog but im sure you wanna know what i think and what i have to write thats why you read my blog right? right! lol. whatthefuck. okaye, im not trashin anybody at all here. im speakn in general and friends know this is how i am; since my old blog days. lol. and and if ever i am trashin anyone here, i would either mention the name or will just say that i am trashin someone. teehee. im sorry, i just feel high. wakakaka. can you beleive where im at right now? bahh! fuck you.
yes yes the all crazy, weird, i-wanna-kill-this-girl, joannes kindda back. well duh! the blog addey and title describes it all. been drinkin sheytts and eatin slugs. teehee. not telln...shhh...youd so love to kick me ass right now. come come. haha, i think summa yall say "phew, glad were not close no more..." ahakz. and ill say "yyyyyep! im the gladdest..." aight, fuck, im out fer now.
and like i said i WAS not in the effing mood to respond to anybodys messages and calls. so pardon me for not turnin up for the movie, the chalet and the lunch. i do hope ill get back my 15bones though. blahh sheyt. okaye whatever. you know, clearly, i dont know whos readin me bloggo. and clearly, i dont give a
damn damn if you think i am so melodramatic at times you dumdum, cuz clearly, i dont care care. haha. and prolly right now youll go "yeah, like i even care...." and ill just go rollen me eyes...tahha. *chuckles*
and and you may not have to like me to read my blog but im sure you wanna know what i think and what i have to write thats why you read my blog right? right! lol. whatthefuck. okaye, im not trashin anybody at all here. im speakn in general and friends know this is how i am; since my old blog days. lol. and and if ever i am trashin anyone here, i would either mention the name or will just say that i am trashin someone. teehee. im sorry, i just feel high. wakakaka. can you beleive where im at right now? bahh! fuck you.
yes yes the all crazy, weird, i-wanna-kill-this-girl, joannes kindda back. well duh! the blog addey and title describes it all. been drinkin sheytts and eatin slugs. teehee. not telln...shhh...youd so love to kick me ass right now. come come. haha, i think summa yall say "phew, glad were not close no more..." ahakz. and ill say "yyyyyep! im the gladdest..." aight, fuck, im out fer now.
Monday 17 September 2007
just gotta love it
pardon me for not responding to any of your messages or calls because i am just in no-close-to-even-an-okaye condition to speak with any of you, most especially chillin with you as i actually promised, for ditching you once again as i always do. i just had to be angered again. blah blah shit. 'nuff said.
Sunday 16 September 2007
not today
i dont know if you're just being protective or selfish! youre so one-sided you can never even try to look at the other side of the situation. cant you be more open minded?! youre so hard to have. just because youre used to seeing me like this doesnt mean ill stay like this forfuckingever. i thought at this stage, youd be able to understand already. youre never happy with the things i do. so what the fuck do you want me to do? you expect too much from me when you dont even give me enough. the least you can do is give me the things i ask for and i will be what you want me to be. but you cant do your part while you expect me to do mine. you think youre always right that youve never realised the many mistakes youve made in your decisions! no wonder. cmon man, this is reality; you can never prevent sheyts from happening. wake the fuck up and see that the more you protect me, the more im drifting. you think i wanted this? never. i didnt know that the more i made you see me like this, the more youd only want to. the only reason why i do things like that is because i know thats what youd want me to do because you can never have anyone else do things your way. thats why the smallest mistake i make, you get uptight. youre too perfect even when you see the things around you arent. you know you make mistakes and you just get a lil sorry bout em but when i make mistakes, you go haywire like one fucked up creature waiting to be shut up. and now, you talk to me like ive forgotten about it; like ive finally given in. what if i bring it up again tomorrow?! youll get madder?! cant you see youre making my life miserable? and you think im all right. dont blame me if things happen to me and i cant do anything because youre the only one who made me like this. i ask for little things and you get mad but you expect me to have them when i dont know how to even get them. i can never live up to your expectations. no wonder youre like that. and now youre making me like you too. and youre happy about it. you have no fucking idea what i would have become if i did things my way. but i know youre not threatened at all because you know i won't do that. shit whatever. enjoy yourself now doin this to me. this is the only thing i can do for now. it's okaye. im still enduring arent i? and youre still enjoying arent you? yeayea fuck you.
fall on me
cleanin the house, *phew* arduous...
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
guests have left, finally over...
feeling: sad
reason: got lobang but mami don't let me work -_-'
*whinges*
~~2130~~
sian lor! at least people offer job then can earn my own money from my own sweat. that oso duwann! waleooo...you know i don't ask for any but at least you won't feel bad or troubled thinkin if i need money right? haizzz...now have to wait for money to drop from heaven all the way down to my the ceiling to my floor and hands. sob sob...siann lar! but anyway i was also erratic about working; teehee. to get my heavy tush up, it takes alot of humongous strength and will - for me. so yeap! but i think uh, if still got lobang and related to food then maybe i take ba!
~~oo15~~
just finished hangin kuya's army uniform...the only reason why i hung them is cuz mama told me to. but i decided to wait for him to come back to do it himself. soo...
> he came back, i told him, he went to the laundry then back to his room. on the way to the bathroom, thinkin he had already hung em...*waleoooooo*...still wait for me wan! @#$%^&*
sian lor! last night slept at 4 then woke up at 930, cleaned my room til 230, had brunch til 4, then vacuum and mop the whole house til 6, bathed til 7, while bathing guests arrived 'redi, cleaned toilet *ugh* til 730, dressed up til 830 then finally dinner! wahhh! @#$%^&* tired sia! this is what happens when people procrastinate. *sigh* took me approx. 5hours to clean my room which i should have done since tuesday =.='...
*sigh* i soo miss having a helper who's pro in this kind of work...but maybe it's a good thing because if by now we still have one, i think i'll be the laziest person you'll ever know. ouh well.
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everyone starting from mrs chui onwards til today [ate Vec] said i've thinned. *ugh*
and my eyes are darker. *panda eyes!* teehee. my only asset...haha. okaye more people to meet, more comments to hear! bring it on bebeh!
Friday 14 September 2007
drinkin milk
hi.
after yesterday's kvetching, i'm not mad no more; 'cept for the greedy people's taking away of the only thing that a woman in that situation can hold on to. how sad.
aaanyways, i'm cheery today! mom's at home! weee! and she bought me my favvy! i love her to death! heee!
after yesterday's kvetching, i'm not mad no more; 'cept for the greedy people's taking away of the only thing that a woman in that situation can hold on to. how sad.
aaanyways, i'm cheery today! mom's at home! weee! and she bought me my favvy! i love her to death! heee!
i don't love mom and dad and kuya because i need them.
i need them cuz i love them!
oooookaye. aaaanyways...
i got to chat with a long time friend of mine and she told me she actually tracked me down to tell me she witnessed my dumping my
i got to chat with a long time friend of mine and she told me she actually tracked me down to tell me she witnessed my dumping my
then-boyfriend at Gombak station. gee. funny she actually
"tracked me down" just to tell me that. she was gonna approach me but i already walked off to meet sabz and nunu. the way she "narrated" it was hilarious. lol. and she said that after all these years, i was still that bad ass lass she knew.
but i opposed, "eh! to think of it uh, it wasn't that bad what; i have been carrying that thing the week before, hoping to finally dump it but didn't get the chance to and on that day i was finally releived i got to return it. heavy you know! carry that shit everywhere for very long. too heavy til i accidentally dropped it..."
tahha. okaye, whatever. well, i just never thought there would be familiar people at that time to see me do that. besides, it has been years since we last met, yet i was still recognised - amazingly. waaah. kaye lah. don't say liao. very the that one.
eh, SABotitotot, thanks for the bloody long ass overdued pics uh!
but i opposed, "eh! to think of it uh, it wasn't that bad what; i have been carrying that thing the week before, hoping to finally dump it but didn't get the chance to and on that day i was finally releived i got to return it. heavy you know! carry that shit everywhere for very long. too heavy til i accidentally dropped it..."
tahha. okaye, whatever. well, i just never thought there would be familiar people at that time to see me do that. besides, it has been years since we last met, yet i was still recognised - amazingly. waaah. kaye lah. don't say liao. very the that one.
eh, SABotitotot, thanks for the bloody long ass overdued pics uh!
Thursday 13 September 2007
wicked people...
dear blog,
as of now, i don't know how to look at things anymore; whether to still look on the brighter side or just be on the adverse...
i am very anxious about what's gonna happen. i'm thinkin it's all just another trial. but to think again; when he broke the news to me about it, my heart just sank. tita's situation's already bad, and the last thing she needed was to get that. isn't what she's experiencing enough of the hardship she's goin through? still, 't all got worse. and one of her many bad situations is sadly what we're also goin through. gonna have to wait for that til then. but i think it's just depressingly hurting that out of the many fucked up
as of now, i don't know how to look at things anymore; whether to still look on the brighter side or just be on the adverse...
i am very anxious about what's gonna happen. i'm thinkin it's all just another trial. but to think again; when he broke the news to me about it, my heart just sank. tita's situation's already bad, and the last thing she needed was to get that. isn't what she's experiencing enough of the hardship she's goin through? still, 't all got worse. and one of her many bad situations is sadly what we're also goin through. gonna have to wait for that til then. but i think it's just depressingly hurting that out of the many fucked up
green-eyed evil people in there, they chose to eye on and target the good people to chuck out. worse still, is that those supposedly intelligent big shots, stupidly beleive on the things they never SEE. why don't you SEE for yourself first before you fucking act on it?! why'd you have to beleive those assholes so easily?! i thought y'all're supposed to be the
L-E-A-D-E-R-S? in the end, you're all just the bunchha brainless ones. i don't know what's gonna happen really. but i just hope that there'll be a BETTER offer for them that those fuckers will fuckingly fucking regret. *sigh* and what i just said,
"one sheyt after another"...
and all my brightside perso will say,
and all my brightside perso will say,
"things happen for a reason...", "...He's got better plans for us", "just beleive"
*sigh*
yours truly,
joanne
*sigh*
yours truly,
joanne
sighness
~~1922~~
okaye, i know i cuss all the time. not at all really nice for a female to be doin that. butbutbut, if for anything, i'd rather show my ugly-self than the beautiful[inner] side. why? cuz then you'd know who's tough enough to hold on to you rather than you showing your nice-self at first and then the ugly; finding out that they talk sheyt behind your back. truth be known, i'd prefer to be identified as the ugly one both in and out right in the first place than in the last; where people will start to fall out on you. bottomline, showin my true colors. lalala. okaye, that's all.
~~1845~~
okaye, a lil bett'r now. still swillin on coffee; it keeps me goin. well, i know i've mentioned before that i will never expect anymore. but isn't it hard to do what you tell yourself what to do than what you really feel? so then i say i won't expect anymore but the way i feel is that i have to...*sheesh* well, never mind. for now i feel better, i'm not so watered[sad] as i was just now. *grins*
~~1700~~
i am craving for spaghetti. but there's no spag sauce! how the fuck can i make it! *sheesh* i'm just feeding myself with chicken cocktail; it's the only food my tongue likes in the fridge -__-...i should live in a mall next time, therefore i need not go out. *sigh* i feel there are more sheyts to come. one bad sheyt after another; it just keeeeeps comin...
~~1400-1700~~
as of this time, i'm swillin on coffee.
feeling so f.b.t.d.
dunno why but i've been musing over sheyt.
sheyt like what things i'd be doin in these kind of times. i wouldn't be doin or feelin this sheyt if i hadn't chosen that. *shtewpedd*
yesyes, i am feeling down. i haven't been in a few weeks now, have i? i've been so busy being all cheerful, that i've overlooked on being all gloomy.
now don't go sayin sheyt, cuz i am - just a human being after all. i feel like i'm falling off again. FUCK!
and as of this time, words of encouragements d-o-n-'t w-o-r-k.
i just feel like eradicating you. yes, you. you two-faced, hypocritical, false, insincere, deceitful, double dealing, disingenuous, duplicitous, treacherous, you!
*sigh* i just needta release this; i can't suppress no more.
i deserve what i need because i got duped. when will i get it? i'm gett'n impatient already. whatthehell! but at the same time i know i have to wait. i can't impose on things just like that just to make me feel better, i know it has to be right, at the right time.
i'm sorry i just can't help it. the last thing i need is making the wrong turn - again. temptation strongly dominates me and sometimes i can't control it. butbutbut i have to be strong, that, i know.
if there's any place i can be right now, it'd be gramm's. i'd rather be in her arms; embracing me with her wrinkly soft arms. i just need her comfort. the comfort no fucking one can give me. *sigh*
and after all that outburst, my positivity tells me, "ouh well, it'll pass..."
feeling so f.b.t.d.
dunno why but i've been musing over sheyt.
sheyt like what things i'd be doin in these kind of times. i wouldn't be doin or feelin this sheyt if i hadn't chosen that. *shtewpedd*
yesyes, i am feeling down. i haven't been in a few weeks now, have i? i've been so busy being all cheerful, that i've overlooked on being all gloomy.
now don't go sayin sheyt, cuz i am - just a human being after all. i feel like i'm falling off again. FUCK!
and as of this time, words of encouragements d-o-n-'t w-o-r-k.
i just feel like eradicating you. yes, you. you two-faced, hypocritical, false, insincere, deceitful, double dealing, disingenuous, duplicitous, treacherous, you!
*sigh* i just needta release this; i can't suppress no more.
i deserve what i need because i got duped. when will i get it? i'm gett'n impatient already. whatthehell! but at the same time i know i have to wait. i can't impose on things just like that just to make me feel better, i know it has to be right, at the right time.
i'm sorry i just can't help it. the last thing i need is making the wrong turn - again. temptation strongly dominates me and sometimes i can't control it. butbutbut i have to be strong, that, i know.
if there's any place i can be right now, it'd be gramm's. i'd rather be in her arms; embracing me with her wrinkly soft arms. i just need her comfort. the comfort no fucking one can give me. *sigh*
and after all that outburst, my positivity tells me, "ouh well, it'll pass..."
-_~...
Wednesday 12 September 2007
wake up!!! do ur thanggg...
*stoning*...
~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.
~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already.sorry but i hope the next time, i'll be able to make it. haha, only deedee met up with faie and mirul, attendance: 3/10. ouh well, still got next time :) hope it'll be 10/10!
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.
~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.
~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already.
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.
~{girlishness}~
aww, i'm pretty happy to hear the voice of the previous CDSS soccer team captain! and most especially, who once haddd something fo...uhh
N-NNE-NEVER MIND! i'm just too overwhelmed; got carried away, teehee.
~{back to normal}~
i feel like goin back to those days where you guys were still wearing "low-shorts", mirul burn'n his leg hair [busok giler siol!] and kelly's too [she got kinda mad] one time and hasbullah rebelling on the teachers; most especially mrs viswa [aka penguin] and and and making mr siow [aka einstein] cry after all the bullies and the throwing of papers at him and just giving him a hellavafuckinhardtime teaching! *pants*
~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.
~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)
fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.
~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*
~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.
plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!
~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.
~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)
fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.
~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*
~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.
plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!
*sheesh* this week's been a disaster already! well, maybe except for a few events. but really, the worst disaster i guess is famine [lol, what a bad word to use]. okaye! owwwtta herre.
Tuesday 11 September 2007
knock on my door and say "hello" and we'll dance crazy
here here dawdling on the second day...but not til a slack-jaw fortunately, i'm not the worst y'know!
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ninang genie and i're plannin for kuzzie giannina's 18th birthday come next early april...kuzz jen wants to celebrate her Debut here. so i guess it's a project for joanne.
"ProJiDy" is what i should call it; as in ProjJD, just like the planner's a prodigy!
"ProJiDy" is what i should call it; as in ProjJD, just like the planner's a prodigy!
kool ey? [cuz i'm DANK like that!]
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ouh, i got 86 for MME test 2weeks ago. lol, im swanking...was too lazy to brag about it last week. lol. wf?!
but but i think for CMO's exam yesterday...is gonna be a fluff. :( hope not though. imagine, all my tests i did well, but this exam...*sigh* only because i procrastinated on my revision. ouh well, sheyt sheyt.
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but but i think for CMO's exam yesterday...is gonna be a fluff. :( hope not though. imagine, all my tests i did well, but this exam...*sigh* only because i procrastinated on my revision. ouh well, sheyt sheyt.
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chalet next week. stoked bout'it! but but i dunno howzit gonna turn out. hope it doesn't bore me. please don't? anyone can come meet me. gonna tell you the addy and you can come peep if you're too shy to meet me. just don't stalk me aight? not til i'm stark-naked in the bath...wakakaka! dancing my ass in'erre.
catcha later!
catcha later!
Monday 10 September 2007
you're too nice doode
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glad to be break-ing now *phew*
finally, quality time for hobbies and interests...
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unexpectedly finished :(
Halo3 to lend me? anyone?
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kindapratajoyed pratasfied. thanks kid.
finally, quality time for hobbies and interests...
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unexpectedly finished :(
Halo3 to lend me? anyone?
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kinda
Sunday 9 September 2007
all i ever needed is a sincere sorry...
Haven’t you ever felt incomplete even after you’ve gotten what you wanted? Like as if something else was missing…
So then someone asks,
“okaye, so what do you want? What more do you want?”
A long pause; thinking scrupulously…
And then I say,
“It’s what I need…”
Cuz didn’t you just get what you wanted? Yet you still feel you lack of something? So you think hard whether it’s what you really want or what you really need…
You never really get what you always want right? It’s that, most of the times, you get what you need. People prioritize needs more than wants. And call me demanding and sheyt. But it’s just what I really need…but I need to receive it only when someone is ready and genuine enough to really give it.
So then someone asks,
“okaye, so what do you want? What more do you want?”
A long pause; thinking scrupulously…
And then I say,
“It’s what I need…”
Cuz didn’t you just get what you wanted? Yet you still feel you lack of something? So you think hard whether it’s what you really want or what you really need…
You never really get what you always want right? It’s that, most of the times, you get what you need. People prioritize needs more than wants. And call me demanding and sheyt. But it’s just what I really need…but I need to receive it only when someone is ready and genuine enough to really give it.
Saturday 8 September 2007
just one of the many things
timed: 1316h
few years down the road,
"are you happy to have met me?"
"i'm thankful to have met you"
each time we make a decision, whether it turned out good or bad, haven't you thought about "what if" you chose the other path? i'm sure you have. and it's not necessarily called "regret"...well, maybe if it turned out bad for you and you'd be full of angst, then that'd be "regret". but when you've regained equanimity, you'd start to reflect...many things may not've worked out well in our lives, but i don't think i'd regret any of it. i'd be thankful it happened even if i'm not happy it happened.
and right now i'm wondering, is this my optimist side talking? perhaps? because i think again if i were full of ire, would i actually write this way? see all the "if"s?
a nice thing to ponder about eh?
i've got a minutiae for you. most of the things i ponder about appears while i wash the dishes...pretty weird we both may think. but i guess, it's the best time or the best doin for my mind to be contemplating...
few years down the road,
"are you happy to have met me?"
"i'm thankful to have met you"
each time we make a decision, whether it turned out good or bad, haven't you thought about "what if" you chose the other path? i'm sure you have. and it's not necessarily called "regret"...well, maybe if it turned out bad for you and you'd be full of angst, then that'd be "regret". but when you've regained equanimity, you'd start to reflect...many things may not've worked out well in our lives, but i don't think i'd regret any of it. i'd be thankful it happened even if i'm not happy it happened.
and right now i'm wondering, is this my optimist side talking? perhaps? because i think again if i were full of ire, would i actually write this way? see all the "if"s?
a nice thing to ponder about eh?
i've got a minutiae for you. most of the things i ponder about appears while i wash the dishes...pretty weird we both may think. but i guess, it's the best time or the best doin for my mind to be contemplating...
no brat after all
dad hasn't been walkin that well; gout.
~and last night, 9plus, when mom came home, i told her i was craving for something. she nicely responded, "why didn't you call me?". [i didn't cuz i know she was tired]
dad then came home, 12, and i told him the same thing, and he said "why didn't you tell me earlier?" and of course i didn't cuzza his gout and it was already late he must be whacked. but what touched me was when he added, "do you wanna accompany me to buy it for you?"
~this morning, dad asked if i could do te groceries cuz mom's at work, and he had to leave for work too, and all i could say was "ouh, but i'm havin exam on mon..." with that stupid face...then dad said "spoiled brat ka talaga noh..."
~now dad just called, and i requested for something again and he said okaye and even asked what else i wanted...
~and last night, 9plus, when mom came home, i told her i was craving for something. she nicely responded, "why didn't you call me?". [i didn't cuz i know she was tired]
dad then came home, 12, and i told him the same thing, and he said "why didn't you tell me earlier?" and of course i didn't cuzza his gout and it was already late he must be whacked. but what touched me was when he added, "do you wanna accompany me to buy it for you?"
~this morning, dad asked if i could do te groceries cuz mom's at work, and he had to leave for work too, and all i could say was "ouh, but i'm havin exam on mon..." with that stupid face...then dad said "spoiled brat ka talaga noh..."
~now dad just called, and i requested for something again and he said okaye and even asked what else i wanted...
*sigh* how blessed am i to have such parents! even if they're all fagged and havin pains around...plus plus they arrive in a bad environment [didn't clean] and there isn't any food for them to eat, they'd still do anything for you.
which made me think; am i a brat?! what makes up a brat?!
i'm indolent, i whine, i let them get me what i want, i can get away with things easily and they never mind, they do things i'm supposed to do and maybe much more. some friends think i am spoiled which seldom shows when i'm around 'em.
hmmm...but i guess one thing i'm never a brat with is when comes to money. i never got the habit of askin for cash just to splurge on useless things unlike kuya :) so can i say i'm not a brat after all?
i've been at home all by myself this week, again. folks often reach home between 9-12 and kuya in camp of course. *sigh* i hope tomorrow we'll be together. i miss them.
i've been at home all by myself this week, again. folks often reach home between 9-12 and kuya in camp of course. *sigh* i hope tomorrow we'll be together. i miss them.
Friday 7 September 2007
living it well baby
a question i asked myself few days ago...
"are you happy?"
"emmm, i'm contented..."
great :) being satisfied i guess, is enough to make God and the people around me feel that they are important to me. yes yes...well, at least i'm not a hypocrite anymore; to say things that aren't meant and supposed to be said. i do mean what i say now; not that i didn't back then but i haven't been really real for four months. i won't say shit just to make people smile and make 'em feel at ease...ain't that bettur? i won't be such a nice gurl who says nice things just cuz she's afraid of hurt'n people's feelings anymore.
"are you happy?"
"emmm, i'm contented..."
great :) being satisfied i guess, is enough to make God and the people around me feel that they are important to me. yes yes...well, at least i'm not a hypocrite anymore; to say things that aren't meant and supposed to be said. i do mean what i say now; not that i didn't back then but i haven't been really real for four months. i won't say shit just to make people smile and make 'em feel at ease...ain't that bettur? i won't be such a nice gurl who says nice things just cuz she's afraid of hurt'n people's feelings anymore.
eg1 "do you think i'm fat/cute/handsome/pretty?"
me: [sarcastically]"don't you have eyes to see for yourself?!" or [seriously] if i think you really are then i'd say yes, if not then i'll say no.
but well, i'm sure it heavily depends on the situation, don't you think?!
eg2. "do you like/love me?"
me: [depends on the percentage]
but if you're talking to someone who's about to die, emm, you either let em die knowin the truth [that can hurt and eventually kill em...] or be all nice with em...
so yeap. just one of the few things i've learned; being really true and straight-out honest, but still being sensible! ;)
i did some back-read'n and my very first post in THIS blog,
"...I feel I’ve grown more as a person. [yeye not as matured as we all think we all are; but matured enough for me in this stage of my life..nope..not my age..but the stage in my life..]"
hmmm, then i guess i've matured at least a weebit! in this stage! my 19th year in this world, started out okay-ey, but exactly a month later, screwed things up, but learned from it, got up, aaaaand living again! great ;) it's sooo...okaye wait, i'm fagged, lemme get some rest yah?! i'll continue...
i did some back-read'n and my very first post in THIS blog,
"...I feel I’ve grown more as a person. [yeye not as matured as we all think we all are; but matured enough for me in this stage of my life..nope..not my age..but the stage in my life..]"
hmmm, then i guess i've matured at least a weebit! in this stage! my 19th year in this world, started out okay-ey, but exactly a month later, screwed things up, but learned from it, got up, aaaaand living again! great ;) it's sooo...okaye wait, i'm fagged, lemme get some rest yah?! i'll continue...
**ouh and btw, 5/1 suck!!! none has sent any of the fffucking photos from bbq. sad...
surely, somma y'all will be going "eeeyerr, never get photo oni say suck oredi..."
and i'll just go "yeah yeah, whatevurr...[with an eye-roll]"
lol. just playin' around...ouh but then again, there is a LITTLE TRUTH behind every "JUZ KIDDIN"...so yeap! hehhe ;}
g'bye!
Thursday 6 September 2007
dipsy
*ampuchangamang yan oh*
haha! i learned that word! so funny! u gosta hear me say it! it's tagalog...i don't know how to spell it though, i just spelled it the way i pronounce it. *teehee!* it's an expression like "oh shit!", "what the fuck", "dammit"...
well, those really ain't the direct translation but yeah.
e-x-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n! geddit?!
anyways, isn't God good? [all the time] and all the time, [God is good]...awww, i miss YFC already. "God is good...all the time...and all the time...God is good" we used to always say that.
okaye, anywayyyy, 2posts ago, i was reminiscing about the phils. and and how i wanna go back and all. well, God has his way of makin everyth'n happen. He doesn't give it right away but He has a way of giving it. and yeap! i'm gett'n it! awww...i know! how sweet!
i wanted to blog about this days ago, i just wasn't in the mood to. so here it is...
i know how you guys feel when you read some of our posts and you go "omg! that's how i feel too!" or "omg! that's what i was/am thinkin of..."
anyways, isn't God good? [all the time] and all the time, [God is good]...awww, i miss YFC already. "God is good...all the time...and all the time...God is good" we used to always say that.
okaye, anywayyyy, 2posts ago, i was reminiscing about the phils. and and how i wanna go back and all. well, God has his way of makin everyth'n happen. He doesn't give it right away but He has a way of giving it. and yeap! i'm gett'n it! awww...i know! how sweet!
i wanted to blog about this days ago, i just wasn't in the mood to. so here it is...
i know how you guys feel when you read some of our posts and you go "omg! that's how i feel too!" or "omg! that's what i was/am thinkin of..."
i realised that our lives are all really connected. well, i mean things happ'nin in our lives or how we think...there are unpublished posts i've written and reading your blog posts caught me eyes when i saw things that i've written are there too. how cool dat? lol. our lives are intertwined. so yeah. i'm too lazy to elabo. but maybe some of you dig me. *nods* uhhuh-uhhuh. i'll publish the posts when i'm in the mood of publishing 'em aight?! kool. great. lol?!
i am so bored. i hafta start my revision but but i'm lazy. haha. that is so not surprising to hear right?! lol. i've yet to clean my crib, [which as a procrastinator always does] will leave it til mom or dad comes home. i hate rushing but i always do it.
i am so bored. i hafta start my revision but but i'm lazy. haha. that is so not surprising to hear right?! lol. i've yet to clean my crib, [which as a procrastinator always does] will leave it til mom or dad comes home. i hate rushing but i always do it.
shtewped-ped-ped-ped...ahakz. okaye, GODAI....
sheyt! i need to dook!
sheyt! i need to dook!
"...don't be a wimp..."
Wednesday 5 September 2007
return
why is it! that when i'm all inspired to post i'm never infront of the comp?! then when i finally get the chance to, i don't feel like posting anymore...gee...
it all comes just like that, but i never get to pen it down :[
awww...actually i've many things to say. but in no apt frame of mind. like the aura's different y'know?! y'don't? ouh whatever then.
i'll just come back when i feel like it..
it all comes just like that, but i never get to pen it down :[
awww...actually i've many things to say. but in no apt frame of mind. like the aura's different y'know?! y'don't? ouh whatever then.
i'll just come back when i feel like it..
Tuesday 4 September 2007
take me out!
sup y'all?!
Fuck y'all!
*whoops*?! i am so habitually using that fucking word!! ouh fuck!
i have been eating my Fav foods so far. great!
started on Fri with Sting Ray then Sun with Pizza then yesterday with Donut then today with KFC'S crispy chicken and Donuts again; [which made me think of why it's become an "in" thing now in S'pore ~.~] i think tomorrow iiiis emmm, not sure lah. but maybe Thurs i'll have Sushi or Bagel...then Fri maybe Hokkien Mee or Prata or McFries or BK'S Turkey Bacon Burger or Shawarma or Taco Bell or Ceasar Salad or Mud Cake or i better stop this food-sheyt now?!
ouh! got something to tell you! i didn't get to take a crunch yesterday nor Sunday, and not even today. so yeah, pretty nasty farts today. it's never usually like that! lol. i better stop this now. it's probably grossing you out...hahaha! all the better actually! wakakaka. *adds* i hope i get to punch a dook later :P [okaye, enough!]
i haven't been drinkin coffee as much as i used to last year cuz the effect is really wild! lol. i forget so many things i have even forgotten my name sometimes. *nods* yup, really.
Fuck y'all!
*whoops*?! i am so habitually using that fucking word!! ouh fuck!
i have been eating my Fav foods so far. great!
started on Fri with Sting Ray then Sun with Pizza then yesterday with Donut then today with KFC'S crispy chicken and Donuts again; [which made me think of why it's become an "in" thing now in S'pore ~.~] i think tomorrow iiiis emmm, not sure lah. but maybe Thurs i'll have Sushi or Bagel...then Fri maybe Hokkien Mee or Prata or McFries or BK'S Turkey Bacon Burger or Shawarma or Taco Bell or Ceasar Salad or Mud Cake or i better stop this food-sheyt now?!
ouh! got something to tell you! i didn't get to take a crunch yesterday nor Sunday, and not even today. so yeah, pretty nasty farts today. it's never usually like that! lol. i better stop this now. it's probably grossing you out...hahaha! all the better actually! wakakaka. *adds* i hope i get to punch a dook later :P [okaye, enough!]
i haven't been drinkin coffee as much as i used to last year cuz the effect is really wild! lol. i forget so many things i have even forgotten my name sometimes. *nods* yup, really.
anyhoo, i miss Arch already...*random*
i kinda miss the phils. Mega Mall and Mall of Asia are my Favs. i miss roaming around Glorietta Mall; in and out of Aunt Tere's shop. i miss the tagalog convos i hear whereever i went. i miss commuting, sucking in all the smoke.
ouh! i miss the street foods; bbq and all. i miss Yellow Cab Pizza, Max's Resto, Aunt's place in Greenhills.
OUH i soooo miss Enchanted Kingdom and Star City! rides baby!!! *sigh* wonder when i can go back there again. :[ will you take me there? okaye?! set! *haiz* homesick siol!
five-week school break, nowhere to go. so boring. duwanna work, cannot go back to phils, no allowance [cuz i never like to ask for any] which means no gimmicks [unless at your expense] where you'll totally rather forget about hanging with me after reading those three words ;p
so what do i fucking do after all my scheduled plans have passed? *melancholy*
gee, and to think i was so looking forward to this break sheyt! now that i've actually thought about what i'm gonna do, i'd rather just go to school :[ fuck sial! lannnn-tern lah! eh yah, Lantern Festival coming right?! or is it Mooncake Festival? or both?! siala!
one more exam and freaking-boring-cuz-i-no-money [i always no money! haha] hols is here. hopeless daughter-of-a-not-bitch! i duwanna work...but eh!!! any of you all got any slots for work text me uh! i need dosh mann!
i kinda miss the phils. Mega Mall and Mall of Asia are my Favs. i miss roaming around Glorietta Mall; in and out of Aunt Tere's shop. i miss the tagalog convos i hear whereever i went. i miss commuting, sucking in all the smoke.
ouh! i miss the street foods; bbq and all. i miss Yellow Cab Pizza, Max's Resto, Aunt's place in Greenhills.
OUH i soooo miss Enchanted Kingdom and Star City! rides baby!!! *sigh* wonder when i can go back there again. :[ will you take me there? okaye?! set! *haiz* homesick siol!
five-week school break, nowhere to go. so boring. duwanna work, cannot go back to phils, no allowance [cuz i never like to ask for any] which means no gimmicks [unless at your expense] where you'll totally rather forget about hanging with me after reading those three words ;p
so what do i fucking do after all my scheduled plans have passed? *melancholy*
gee, and to think i was so looking forward to this break sheyt! now that i've actually thought about what i'm gonna do, i'd rather just go to school :[ fuck sial! lannnn-tern lah! eh yah, Lantern Festival coming right?! or is it Mooncake Festival? or both?! siala!
one more exam and freaking-boring-cuz-i-no-money [i always no money! haha] hols is here. hopeless daughter-of-a-not-bitch! i duwanna work...but eh!!! any of you all got any slots for work text me uh! i need dosh mann!
i've always wanted to try "food tasting" job but dunno whether got anot?! easy right?! eat eat eat oni. skali they let you taste shit you oso eat. what sia! *haiz...* if i really got nothing, then i guess i'm going back to being a couch potato ~__~ omg...what a life. some more i dunno many people who're celebrating birthdays this month. fuck sia. no parties :[
cannot hang with or even depend on Arch cuz he's laying out all his fucking pay on his fucking yet another $500 phone bill. OMG. i'm soooo pooor. *this is a total misery*
H-E-L-P leiiii....
boring uh!
cannot hang with or even depend on Arch cuz he's laying out all his fucking pay on his fucking yet another $500 phone bill. OMG. i'm soooo pooor. *this is a total misery*
H-E-L-P leiiii....
boring uh!
"you can't always "not do" something just cuz you think it's wrong even if you wanna do it...
no one can stop you from how and what you feel...don't hold back...don't be afraid...say it..."
shit! i thirst for margarita right now...
Sunday 2 September 2007
randomness
sam: "hey,if u have a wish...wat would it be?"
me: "i wish to fulfill my parents' dream before i die BEFORE them"
me: "i wish to fulfill my parents' dream before i die BEFORE them"
it's so hard to keep up because so many things happen, even in a second!
i miss the good times...coming late for school, gett'n caught by papa Raj; sending me for detention then gett'n lectured by papa Hoe next for comin late ~_-, hiding from Helmet principal Ms Chan for my fucked up attire. i wanna be in that classroom, seated with bugger; drinkin nescafe and eating burger, lazing around, head always glued on the table [sleeping], fucking around with the teachers who still love us even if we were that notorious nut-case bunch, copying answers from those guai-guai friends, strolling around the corridor looking for trouble or just laughing at those freaks below who are just making a fool outta themselves, locking the teachers out so we can't have tests! being sent out by mrs beh for not doing her homework, annoying Malathi with my fucked up hair and tucked out shirt and short skirt and ankle socks, gettin caught by my ever favvy Papa Raj for never wearing school badge, sitting at those tables outside class doing our revision; which would later be channeled to chattin, listenin to ah chui's bad day with her other classes and how relieved she is to be finally in our class,
ouh shit i can go on and on and on on and on and on!
anyways, pardon my obscene lang for all my posts. i know you should be thinkin, "this girl uh, her blogskin all about God, so Holy and all, but see her language...all got 'fuck' 'fuck' one!" hahaha! weel, i grew up saying it! just never at home :)!
anyways, pardon my obscene lang for all my posts. i know you should be thinkin, "this girl uh, her blogskin all about God, so Holy and all, but see her language...all got 'fuck' 'fuck' one!" hahaha! weel, i grew up saying it! just never at home :)!
"don't be afraid to say you miss me just cuz you think it's wrong!"
i love you, my Lord, my God
what can be better than spending your day with your loved ones. in His Home. with your clan!
just wanna thank God for celebrating this delightful day with my dear folks and my beloved brother, Arch! there's no occasion but we are all thankful we have spent this entire day as a whole fam, because we hardly get a hold of Arch who's never home even when he gets the chance to and has never stayed home for even 24hours in a whole week [if you count the whole 7days]
it's a "miracle" we attended mass as a fam [it's been months ~_= ] and the feeling was terrific!
just wanna thank God for celebrating this delightful day with my dear folks and my beloved brother, Arch! there's no occasion but we are all thankful we have spent this entire day as a whole fam, because we hardly get a hold of Arch who's never home even when he gets the chance to and has never stayed home for even 24hours in a whole week [if you count the whole 7days]
it's a "miracle" we attended mass as a fam [it's been months ~_= ] and the feeling was terrific!
Holding Mom and Dad's hands in the cab; listening to their natterings about our future plans was something i missed!
Arch and i shared some zany stuffs that we wanna do. thing is, we both wanted to do the same things! lol! nifty!
after mass, Mom and Dad wanted to go home but i insisted on eating out since it's been ages since our last fam day out. since i was craving for something cheesy, i decided we just go for PizzaHut's Cheesy Bites Fondue since it's the only cheesiest food i could think of at that point...
after mass, Mom and Dad wanted to go home but i insisted on eating out since it's been ages since our last fam day out. since i was craving for something cheesy, i decided we just go for PizzaHut's Cheesy Bites Fondue since it's the only cheesiest food i could think of at that point...
[any place with cheesy food y'all can reco? and no pasta sheyt nor cheese cakes cuz they never satisfy me! i want a place! not just cheesy food!]
anyway, they agreed cuz they couldn't make up their minds...tsktsktsk...
Arch shared his yet another action-packed experience at Peninsula the other day when he fought with five mat-baju-fucking-ketat-siol guys. only two actually; the other three backed out after the other two got slammed. a security guard witnessed and called the police and let my brother and Brendz go since he saw that the mat-ketat-budaks-like-kental-only wanna look for trouble. wakakaka. whaddahell. my folks thinks that Arch has never been jailed for his fights. *sigh* if they only knew...how sad. you should really lie low lah brudder! as much as i enjoy seeing live actions, i'd rather see you chilling your ass off outside with B
Arch shared his yet another action-packed experience at Peninsula the other day when he fought with five mat-baju-fucking-ketat-siol guys. only two actually; the other three backed out after the other two got slammed. a security guard witnessed and called the police and let my brother and Brendz go since he saw that the mat-ketat-budaks-like-kental-only wanna look for trouble. wakakaka. whaddahell. my folks thinks that Arch has never been jailed for his fights. *sigh* if they only knew...how sad. you should really lie low lah brudder! as much as i enjoy seeing live actions, i'd rather see you chilling your ass off outside with B
than chillin your arse off in a cell with big gay boys, lol. you mofo you.
after dinner, Dad and Arch went to do some groceries for his outfield while Mom and i were shopping for her clothes. i took one basket of chocolates for myself since my fucking friends say i've thinned! even Arch said that! Mom and Dad as well; even teasing me about
after dinner, Dad and Arch went to do some groceries for his outfield while Mom and i were shopping for her clothes. i took one basket of chocolates for myself since my fucking friends say i've thinned! even Arch said that! Mom and Dad as well; even teasing me about
the ex not lookin after me ~_=.
so FINE! i'm gonna FATTEN myself up and show you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you and you! *hmpppffftttzzzz* lalala [rolls eyes]... dah lah kau...salakau...
okaye, i'd like to take this opportunity to sincerely apologize [and i so fucking mean it!] for criticizing many many, numerous, loads of, countless people and maybe even non-living things! i know it's wrong but couldn't help it then. but but i've learned to control myself from lashing because i don't wanna get karma lah sia! no, but really. from now on, i will not do that. :)
okaye, i'd like to take this opportunity to sincerely apologize [and i so fucking mean it!] for criticizing many many, numerous, loads of, countless people and maybe even non-living things! i know it's wrong but couldn't help it then. but but i've learned to control myself from lashing because i don't wanna get karma lah sia! no, but really. from now on, i will not do that. :)
and so, for God has forgiven us all, so shall thee forgive me!
goodnight and much love TO me FROM y'all.
feel free to text me and say you miss me cuz i know you do. lol!
we should really chill asap!
i'm oddly in high spirits and even the people i hate won't ruin my mood.
goodnight and much love TO me FROM y'all.
feel free to text me and say you miss me cuz i know you do. lol!
we should really chill asap!
i'm oddly in high spirits and even the people i hate won't ruin my mood.
that's how weird i fuckin am. tahha.
"criticism is the cheapest form of boasting"
- Father Edmund Chong
talala
emmm, okaye, i don't know what's worse?
being open or being surreptious about that?
ever since i came clean about my ex-boyfriend to my folks, they've been inquisitively questionin me about it. *ugh* that is why i have never told em about my past relationships; not that any of em were serious; PUPPY LOVE! i initially even hesitated opening up about this latest failure [which i consider not serious too?!] from the start cuz i didn't want em to "interrogate" me with every single day that passed by; "what's the scoop? what's the scoop?!" ~_=
then i start to think, maybe they're just excited because they think that this is my "FIRST" ever to have a courtship and me being their baby girl, it is their "duty" and of course they being my folks, have the authority to do so. i so totally dig what they're doing but of course on my side, even if i dig em, i still hate it!
see, even if we live in a modern world now, and courtship-sheyt is sooo yesterday, i would be more thrilled than ever to go through it than to have it the modern way.
being open or being surreptious about that?
ever since i came clean about my ex-boyfriend to my folks, they've been inquisitively questionin me about it. *ugh* that is why i have never told em about my past relationships; not that any of em were serious; PUPPY LOVE! i initially even hesitated opening up about this latest failure [which i consider not serious too?!] from the start cuz i didn't want em to "interrogate" me with every single day that passed by; "what's the scoop? what's the scoop?!" ~_=
then i start to think, maybe they're just excited because they think that this is my "FIRST" ever to have a courtship and me being their baby girl, it is their "duty" and of course they being my folks, have the authority to do so. i so totally dig what they're doing but of course on my side, even if i dig em, i still hate it!
see, even if we live in a modern world now, and courtship-sheyt is sooo yesterday, i would be more thrilled than ever to go through it than to have it the modern way.
call me a conformist but old-school style is still the "artistic way" of winnin a girl's heart and what makes the girl's heart go
thump, clang, wham, chink, bang, ding-dong, rat-a-tat-a-tat! lol!
yep, for the past few years i've learnt and grown so much from all these sheyt that in the end, all those went down the drain when i got b-linded. tahha!
yep, for the past few years i've learnt and grown so much from all these sheyt that in the end, all those went down the drain when i got b-linded. tahha!
at least i learned my lesson...
well, not the end of the world, many more fishes to catch!
i want a clownfish; Nemo or a dolphin!
anyway, Hi!
anyway, Hi!
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