samson!

hello philippines and hello world!
*whoops* wrong! wrong!
hello singapore, hello world!
ahihihihi! the ever famous greeting by toni gonzaga in pinoy big brother reality tv show! hmmm, wonder when singapore will have the big brother and the dream academy shows. probably soon lar. cuz the two, together with deal or no deal are all created by endemol. so yeah! lol.

i am sooo long winded.

anywayyyyyy! thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you *pants* thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you *phew* to my favvy! for the coookiees!!! omg! seven different types, so the many varieties of cookies! ahihihihi! so the artistic! hahaha! so the colorful. so the hardworking! so the generous. so the woah!!! hahaha! im speechless liao. *exagg* lol! thank you again! im so the grateful lar! u see, small thing can make me happy already! what more if i get something a lil bigger than that? gee. my thank yous will prolly overflow the whole universe. hahaha!

nah, really, i am grateful for so the many many things. the past few weeks have just been heavenly for me. although there are sad happenings; that doesnt involve me but the people around me, the blessings and joy that im getting still topped the sad uns. shouldnt it always be like that? this is what ive been waiting for, few weeks ago when i was just filled with angst. and now that its arrived, im just relieved and gratified and im lovin each second that passes. no regrets about the unhappy moments because its what strengthens us all. being optimistic is whats keepin
me up and alive and kickin. im still hyped up like fuck like that! harharhar!

surprises

BOOYAH!!!!
first of all, id like to thank abang fir for last mondays raya-cookies and fridays treat too! and tufha for the cookies too! wee!!! alright. and my neighbor for the cookies too and im still waiting for another - for the cookies too! haha! cmon bebeh! give em to meh! ahakz! kiddin. i love treats! theyre so fun! like fun-fun!
first week of second sem, fun! like fun-fun! lol. whatevah!

ya know, i was pretty ecstatic on friday that when i got home to nap, i didnt know that at that moment when i was feeling ouh-so-fine, people were screeching and squealing, running for their lives; glorietta2 had an explosion. it was a heart-wrenching moment the moment i received a message from dadda. i suddenly remembered aunt tere and her boutique. and then i got relieved when i remembered that she was located at glorietta4. but, sigh! its still pretty astonishingly unbelievable to really hear of such. like, i could still recall how i would always take a stroll in that beautiful mall. and suddenly, *poof* a part of it, ka-boomed! like dayyyym! i spent like a month in that mall everyday, cuz i was always with aunt, tending her shop, but mostly walkin around, gettn to know the damn bloody big mall. sigh. and just two days after the explosion, sunday, a fire broke out in a resto at glorietta4! aww-mahh-gahh! luckily it was at second floor. hmmm, why glorietta mall? geez. that wasnt the first time. years ago there was an explosion there too. sheesh. what is wrong with you people? really bored eh? nothing to do? wanna rebel? haiz. if you wanna rebel, please dont involve the innocents mann! like really, thats just lame! lol.

what a waste because i think the phils is never gonna rise over poverty. because of corruption. because of greed. sad. there are millions and trillions of filos who have great dedications of rising up because there are truckloads that are talented and really hardworking but all these hopes of soaring are wrecked because of the greedy users. there are politics whereever you turn to. because of all these, people are forced to do stupid things they never wanted to do; crimes. sheesh. dont the govt ever wonder how imprudent they are? how selfish? avaricious? they always talk about how filos should get together and be ONE and all when they never really keep their promises in the first place, in the end, they only think about gettin rich themselves. sheesh! dont they pity those filas abroad working as dh? many filas turn to dh bacuz they have no choice but to leave home just to feed their fam. many do not know that these filas are almost done with college! if not for the lack of money to pay for their last few semesters, they wouldnt need to do such things. but bacuz of the need to survive, they suck up their pride and are forced to enter such jobs, which many people take advantage of; being mistreated. sad.
and gawsh, i actually couldnt believe when i got to know that glorias dads time of presidency, phils was actually doin well, like really well and was even known as "The Incorruptible". but geez, dunno what happened to the daughter. like awww. sad. itd be a miracle if one day there will be another incorruptible president.

ahh, well. im grateful im far away from the messy place though my love for my own people will still stay intact. and i do sympathize them for havin to live with bad people! sheesh! like! really! hahaha! from cookies to explosion to politics! ahihihihi. how randomly linked. teehee! ive always hated politicians. the bad ones!

boys...

currently: CRAVING
craving for: fried mee siam!

ahahha! you know huwaat!? i just remembered the times i was at fida's crib. and the part that i was eating mee siam made me crave. heres the thing: i didnt know the name so i had to ask kawans and as if i wasnt satisfied enough, i went to google it! and then i saw it! OMG!!! lol. so the that one lor. but yea. whenever i crave for something thats pretty impossible for me to get at that point of time, id google it c(= teehee!

that aside, been back to school! 2nd day, cuz yesterday was holiday cuz of hari raya i think. werent suppose to have classes on monday too but they couldnt inform us earlier. lol.
so yeah, new sem, new lecturers, new modules, new timetable. pretty fun! gotta admit, the 5-week break did really nothing good to me; rusted my brain only! wahleooo. well, i know i will get sick of school anytime soon, even if im all excited now and how much i am looking forward to learn more, teehee. i will only get sick of school when i finally am lost in my studies or i just cant catch up oooor yarrr. like that. lol.
in school, there are two filo lecturers, and this sem, mr gremar is takin us! kool. he speaks funny singlish; i mean his pronunciation, teehee! like like like! when he speaks, he speaks like a thai or vietnamese or burmese or cambodian?! lol! he doesnt speak filo-english! like, really. haha! like his accents got the whole mix of those thai, etc, with fillish and adding some singlish; lah, lei, lor, mah, meh, etc. ahihihi! besides him being a joker, youd already laugh at his accent before he even cracks a joke. lol. okaye, i dont know how that sounded to ya but yea, i fooind it ha-la-ri-yes! ok lar! lol! funny me! am i funny? lol, whatever.
im just happy to be back in school and asking people favors, most especially abang firdaus! ahihihi!

the timetables not as beautiful as the first sems but im kool widdit, kinda miss leaving late from school. i just hate peak hours, really. emm, second day of second sem and ive been a good girl, doin some practices unlike before where i just totally put everything aside, ahahahaha. i am not that of a geek as i was in pri school. haha. everything fell apart when i came to CDSS. lol. lalala. never mind, im catchin up!!! yeah baby! aight! im just STOKED! really! hahaha.

sighness

~~1922~~
okaye, i know i cuss all the time. not at all really nice for a female to be doin that. butbutbut, if for anything, i'd rather show my ugly-self than the beautiful[inner] side. why? cuz then you'd know who's tough enough to hold on to you rather than you showing your nice-self at first and then the ugly; finding out that they talk sheyt behind your back. truth be known, i'd prefer to be identified as the ugly one both in and out right in the first place than in the last; where people will start to fall out on you. bottomline, showin my true colors. lalala. okaye, that's all.

~~1845~~
okaye, a lil bett'r now. still swillin on coffee; it keeps me goin. well, i know i've mentioned before that i will never expect anymore. but isn't it hard to do what you tell yourself what to do than what you really feel? so then i say i won't expect anymore but the way i feel is that i have to...*sheesh* well, never mind. for now i feel better, i'm not so watered[sad] as i was just now. *grins*

~~1700~~
i am craving for spaghetti. but there's no spag sauce! how the fuck can i make it! *sheesh* i'm just feeding myself with chicken cocktail; it's the only food my tongue likes in the fridge -__-...i should live in a mall next time, therefore i need not go out. *sigh* i feel there are more sheyts to come. one bad sheyt after another; it just keeeeeps comin...

~~1400-1700~~

as of this time, i'm swillin on coffee.
feeling so f.b.t.d.
dunno why but i've been musing over sheyt.
sheyt like what things i'd be doin in these kind of times. i wouldn't be doin or feelin this sheyt if i hadn't chosen that. *shtewpedd*
yesyes, i am feeling down. i haven't been in a few weeks now, have i? i've been so busy being all cheerful, that i've overlooked on being all gloomy.
now don't go sayin sheyt, cuz i am - just a human being after all. i feel like i'm falling off again. FUCK!
and as of this time, words of encouragements d-o-n-'t w-o-r-k.
i just feel like eradicating you. yes, you. you two-faced, hypocritical, false, insincere, deceitful, double dealing, disingenuous, duplicitous, treacherous, you!
*sigh* i just needta release this; i can't suppress no more.
i deserve what i need because i got duped. when will i get it? i'm gett'n impatient already. whatthehell! but at the same time i know i have to wait. i can't impose on things just like that just to make me feel better, i know it has to be right, at the right time.
i'm sorry i just can't help it. the last thing i need is making the wrong turn - again. temptation strongly dominates me and sometimes i can't control it. butbutbut i have to be strong, that, i know.
if there's any place i can be right now, it'd be gramm's. i'd rather be in her arms; embracing me with her wrinkly soft arms. i just need her comfort. the comfort no fucking one can give me. *sigh*

and after all that outburst, my positivity tells me, "ouh well, it'll pass..."

-_~...

wake up!!! do ur thanggg...

*stoning*...

~{girlishness}~
psssssst!!! my hs crush called last night. haha.

~{back to normal}~
what an ass...i miss the days already. sorry but i hope the next time, i'll be able to make it. haha, only deedee met up with faie and mirul, attendance: 3/10. ouh well, still got next time :) hope it'll be 10/10!
glad to have heard from you again though. it's been like, gazillion years already you mofo sheyt! i miss the guys too! wonder how louhan's hair's like now, wakakaka.

~{girlishness}~

aww, i'm pretty happy to hear the voice of the previous CDSS soccer team captain! and most especially, who once haddd something fo...uhh

N-NNE-NEVER MIND! i'm just too overwhelmed; got carried away, teehee.

~{back to normal}~

i feel like goin back to those days where you guys were still wearing "low-shorts", mirul burn'n his leg hair [busok giler siol!] and kelly's too [she got kinda mad] one time and hasbullah rebelling on the teachers; most especially mrs viswa [aka penguin] and and and making mr siow [aka einstein] cry after all the bullies and the throwing of papers at him and just giving him a hellavafuckinhardtime teaching! *pants*

~{girlyly}~
we were so young back then! so cute and all [well, except for mie at least *humble* =p]
*sigh* memories...how i wish i can relive them, and maybe ditch vans for him.

~{back to normal}~
haha. kiddin'...
PS FIDADOTDOTDOT...FYI, HE'S NOT MY "ALL-TIME CRUSH", JUST "THE HS CRUSH" :)

fuck sheyt. i racked out last night at 2am and mom woke me up at 6 to see her off and then jumped back in to dream more dreams but but couldn't get back to lala land...lerrrr...so i got up and've been on the screen since then. 'i want candy' is a great flick. dunno why i actually have to go out and squander my bread when i can just sit my tush and watch 'erre. ouh yea, it's "the friends". i forgot, hehe. quality time with friends is important. lalala. whatevurr. just kidd'n. okaye lah.

~{girlylyly}~
movie postponed to monday cuz of my fucking zits. *sigh* hope it's gone by then.
aww, i know my skin is never that flawless anyway. but still, zits just makes it all even worse! it's already bad, enya still wanna make it worse! *sheesh* pick someone pretty will ya?! we ugly gals dun deserve extra sheyt to just give us more hard time on looking neutrally well! *ughhh*

~{back to normal}~
fuck! i feel i've been experiencing famine this week. e'rrbody's busy, no food to scoff, lazy to walk all the fucking way to greenridge to buy food, no sheyt, no dosh, no FUN larr!!! *ugggghh* i've literally no one to depend on! folks come home late, so i can't bug em to buy me sheyt, arch camp [duh], friends...well, i live too damn far for them to even drop by, say hi, [and if so happens, fortunately] with some food on their hands! *sigh* but too bad.

plus plus, dad called at 730+ to inform that there was a quake. city area felt the tremors and north side too i guess? well, it's either bukit panjang actually also felt it or was i just "feelingless"...aww shux! wasted! i missed it. i haven't experienced such sheyt!

*sheesh* this week's been a disaster already! well, maybe except for a few events. but really, the worst disaster i guess is famine [lol, what a bad word to use]. okaye! owwwtta herre.